Title: Misunderstanding
Series: Lies in Redemption 8/?
Author: Althea
Feedback: althea@alexandria.cc or FF.net
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Harry/Lucius
Summary: Can two enemies find redemption in each other? Or will they be forever alone with the burden of others expectations.
Warnings: AR, Slash(Yaoi), possible OOC including dark!Dumbledore
Spoilers: All five books
Author's Note: Will be multi-parter will try to get at least one chapter out a week. Sorry will work as fast as I can but I have RL concerns as well. A two year old son, husband who works full time and goes to school and school myself. Will definitely finish this though I don't know how many parts it will be.
Archiving: Beloved Enemies, FF.net, all others just let me know so I can brag to my friends.
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The holiday passed quickly for everyone. Harry spent his days with Tom and Sirius. They got to know one another and became quite close. He spent his nights with Lucius. They explored one another some nights and talked into the early morning others. Harry had never felt so loved as he did on those wintry days and nights. Sirius was slowly getting accustomed to the idea of Harry being with Lucius. Harry was confused about something he remembered hearing though and one night he asked Lucius about it.
"Lucius, why did you say that Sirius was denying himself happiness? What did you mean?"
Lucius laughed, "Are you sure you want to hear it? You see back when Sirius and Severus were both back in school, Narcissa heard something one summer. She went over to visit and Sirius was still living at home. He apparently was talking to your father and Lupin. It seems he had a crush on Severus and was having very, explicit, dreams about him. I don't know the whole story, but I get the feeling that is the reason they don't get along."
Harry grinned, "You're kidding! Wow never would have seen that coming! I might have to ask him about that." Harry, however, quickly became distracted when Lucius started nibbling and sucking on his neck. It was a long time before he thought about anything else. Lucius had the most amazingly talented mouth.
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They all exchanged gifts on the night of the Solstice and Harry was overwhelmed at all the gifts he received. Severus, surprising everyone, gave him potions. Okay, so no one was surprised that he would gift someone with a potion, but they were surprised he gave something to Harry. He explained that they could be used to block a Legilimens, in a gruff tone of voice. Sirius just gaped at him, wondering what happened to Snape to make him act human. Draco gave him an amulet that had been his mother's. It was charmed to alert the wearer to harmful magic being performed near them. It even worked on potions hidden in food or drink. Sirius gave him a book on animagus transformation and a snitch charmed so he could practice with it at different levels, and it had a spell word so that if he needed to stop playing it would come to him.
Tom gave him a beautiful black and turquoise snake. It was a magical breed that was highly intelligent. "I thought you might like to have someone to talk to that would keep all your secrets. I was hoping maybe since you didn't think that I was evil anymore you might not think parseltongue was either."
Harry hugged his grandfather, "I don't! I love her! She is absolutely beautiful."
//Hello, what is your name?// Harry asked the snake.
//My name is Sela. Am I to be yours?//
//If you want to be. My name is Harry. That is my Grandfather. His name is Tom. He can talk to you as well.//
Tom spoke then, //Yes we spoke when I chose her for you. She wanted to find a good home and I thought you and she would be perfect together.//
Harry smiled, //That is great. I really do love her.//
Harry then addressed every one else in the room. "Her name is Sela. She seems very nice."
The last present that Harry received was from Lucius. It was a portkey that would bring him to the Manor any time he wanted. It would work from anywhere and was spelled to take him back to wherever he left from when he was ready. Lucius explained his choice, "Since everyone can get here easily or lives here anyway, I thought that if you ever needed to get away, this would be the ideal choice. You can come whenever you want. The wards are already set to recognize you."
Harry jumped up and ran to Lucius. He threw his arms around his love and kissed him. "Thank you. You have no idea what this means to me. No one has ever done anything like this for me before."
Harry of course got everyone gifts as well. He got Severus potions ingredients. Draco received an invisibility cloak of his own, he had Tom help him get a hold of one. Sirius was given the other mirror back so that they could communicate. He gave Tom some of the pictures of his mother from his album. He thought his grandfather might like to have something of her, and they had always made him feel a little better. The last gift he gave was for Lucius. He had an extremely hard time trying to come up with something to give the man. What do you get a wizard who has everything? He decided on something unique. He had again needed his grandfather's help. He got Lucius a phoenix. Even in the wizarding world they were rare and he thought that Lucius would be the kind to appreciate such a gift. Lucius loved it, both for the rarity and that his angel had given it to him.
They all sat down together for a feast fit for kings. The Malfoy House Elves truly outdid themselves. As they were all enjoying the meal, Harry decided to ask something he had wanted to know. He hoped he wouldn't start any arguments, but he really needed to know. "So, I know that you aren't killing and torturing muggles, but well Draco is always calling Hermione a mudblood. Do you really hate muggleborn witches and wizards?"
Tom smiled at him, "I have no great love for muggles as I've said. That doesn't mean I hate the muggleborn. I do feel that they can be exasperating at times though. I do recognize the need for muggleborn and even muggle intermarriage with purebloods. We have to have outside blood or we will breed ourselves to extinction. That doesn't mean I want our existence to be made known to the entire world. It would be dangerous for us."
Lucius decided to elaborate, "You see, while we don't hate muggleborn or even deny the need for them, we do feel that they can be dangerous. Many of them are the strongest supporters of greater interaction between the wizarding and muggle worlds. They often haven't had bad experiences with muggles the way some of us have. They don't recognize the dangers so they get angry when we disagree that the muggle world should be more greatly involved in our world. You and Tom are rare in that you have seen how muggles can react to our existence in their world. They fear us and fear breeds contempt."
Draco spoke up then, "Besides, the only reason I ever called Hermione a mudblood, is because it was expected. When you denied my friendship at first, I had to seem to be your enemy. She was your friend so I had to be her enemy as well. Dumbledore would have been suspicious if I didn't act in character, even if he knew that it was all a lie. We all have roles to play. He thinks that I would really be your enemy after you denied me even if I wasn't who everyone thought I was. He doesn't understand people as well as he thinks."
Harry smiled then, "So you don't hate Hermione? That's good, because no matter what happens she is my friend."
The conversation turned to other matters then. Harry's mind was more at ease. He was afraid that Lucius really didn't like anyone who wasn't a pureblood. He had been told that for so long. He could understand their fears about muggles. If most people knew about them they would be afraid and would hate them just because they were different. He also understood about muggleborns not always understanding this. They usually thought that since their own family understood, that everyone would.
On Christmas day, his presents from everyone else arrived. He got the usual, a sweater and goodies from Mrs. Weasley, candy from Ron, new pranks from the twins, and a book about teaching defensive magic. It seems she wanted to make sure he was prepared for the DA. He missed his friends and was sorry he had to lie to them, but he couldn't take the chance that they would find out. If they knew then Dumbledore might find out. He had asked Snape about that in fact. He wondered how Dumbledore managed to know what he did. Snape said that Dumbledore used Legilimency to know what he couldn't learn from his spies. Although, Snape cautioned that some of his spies were either unwilling or brainwashed, so that it couldn't be assumed that they were on his side. Since Ron and Hermione couldn't block a Legilimens, then they couldn't know anything incriminating.
Harry then asked why Dumbledore would want him to learn Occlumency if he used Legilimency to control him. Snape said that he thought that might be because he knew that Harry would never be able to work with Snape or vice versa for any length of time. Harry was in no danger of truly learning Occlumency. However, now they could work on it and Dumbledore would never know. Ron and Hermione also couldn't know, at least for now. He hated keeping this many secrets from them, but he couldn't risk either their reaction or Dumbledore finding out.
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On the night before Harry was to return to Hogwarts with Draco, he was sitting quietly in the Solarium looking out at the stars. He wanted to spend the last night with Lucius, but he couldn't bring himself to join his love. He feared what would happen once he went back. Lucius was far more experienced and he didn't want to show his naivety, but he was worried that the older man would move on. He knew he would never get over Lucius, but would the older man feel the same? Harry thought it likely that he had been a holiday distraction for Lucius. Sure, Lucius was always saying he loved him; but people said that all the time in relationships without meaning it. He wasn't even sure they were in a relationship.
So he is sitting in the dark when Lucius comes looking for him. Lucius had been to his room and was a bit worried when he didn't find him there. Now that he had found him, he wondered what was going through his angels head. He walked over to Harry and gently put his arms around the boy. Harry leans into the embrace. Seeking the warmth and comfort it brings him, Harry snuggles closer.
"Harry, what's wrong? Why didn't you come to bed? You don't have to spend the night with me, I was just worried about you."
Harry sighed, "No, I want to spend the night with you more than anything! I just needed some time to think. This has been a really chaotic holiday, and I'm not even used to holidays. I just wanted to sort through my thoughts and feelings. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you." He turned around and stood on tiptoes to bestow a kiss.
Lucius knew his angel wasn't being completely honest. Something was bothering him, but he didn't want to talk. That was usually bad news. He only hoped if it was something serious, Harry would confide in Draco if he couldn't talk to him. He decided to make this last night as memorable as possible and coaxed Harry upstairs with gentle lips.
Harry moaned at the first contact of those lips with his body. He would follow Lucius to the ends of the earth. They lay on Lucius' bed and worshipped one another's bodies; both praying this wouldn't be the last time. Harry hid the tears that wanted to fall, his body crying out for Lucius along with his mind as they both found their bittersweet release with each other.
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Meanwhile, down in the kitchen there was a very hungry animagus that was searching for something to eat. Nothing he could find sounded appealing. At least not if he was eating alone. Gods, he needed to find a lover! An almost impossible task if you aren't even supposed to be alive. He sometimes wondered why he even took lovers. He would never have the one person he wanted, so why bother? Ah, but he did so enjoy sharing time with someone who cared about him. He hated being alone, and when he was with someone, that empty feeling left him for at least a little while.
Severus was heading to the kitchen for his own midnight snack. Unbeknownst to him, he was craving the same thing as his worst enemy. Well maybe not worst, he did hate Dumbledore more. And then there was Weasley, that boy really got on his last nerve. But, he was definitely up there with the people he really couldn't stand. As he entered the room, he saw Sirius first before the other man realized he was not alone. Severus cleared his throat loudly.
Sirius jumped and spun around, "What do you want, Snape? Not enough to torture us with your presence during the day but you have to resort to haunting us at night too?" He sneered upon realizing who it was.
Severus just smirked in reply. He wasn't about to deign to respond to the mutt's taunts. Wasn't it bad enough that he had to put up with him now? The mutt was always around. It was worse then when he was just a convict on the run; now that he was supposed to be dead, Sirius had no where else to go. There was a reason he avoided the man like the plague, he couldn't stand being in the same room. Of course, tormenting him was still fun. "What's wrong? Doesn't Lucius keep dog food in the house?"
"You're really not all that funny, Snape. What do you want?"
Severus sneered, "Well this is a kitchen, perhaps I was hungry. That is what people generally go to the kitchen for. Although, I guess you wouldn't know that. Only civilized people use kitchens I suppose."
"What? The Great Severus Snape does something as human as eats? I am amazed!"
"It's not that hard to amaze you. Shiny objects probably have you occupied for hours."
"Snape, you have no idea what would keep me occupied. You don't know what I find interesting at all."
Severus laughed coldly, "Of course I do! My death is probably pretty high on your list. After all, you did try to have me killed by your own pet werewolf."
Sirius winced, although Severus didn't see. It was true, he was responsible for almost getting Snape killed. He didn't mean for it to happen that way, but it was his fault. It also had happened twenty years ago. When would Snape let it go. He was sorry after all. He didn't really want Snape to get killed. "He isn't my pet werewolf, and if you weren't so nosy then it never would have happened."
Severus just looked at him, "You've got to be kidding! I never asked to be almost mauled by a werewolf!"
"No, but you always wanted to know where Remus was going, and you were always spying on us. You probably thought you could get us into trouble. Besides, you didn't get mauled did you?"
"No thanks to you! Potter, was responsible for that. At least Lupin seems to feel bad about it, your to arrogant to even realize you had done anything wrong."
"That's not true! I said I was sorry! What more do you want? My blood? I never meant for you to get hurt! I was angry. Yes, I made a mistake. I know that! I was an ass in school! I was young and stupid and.well never mind."
"No, please. By all means go on. You were young and stupid and what?"
Sirius gritted his teeth and spoke very softly, "I was confused and hurting. I know you could never understand anything like that, but I was. My world made no sense. I wanted others to hurt like I hurt. I never should have taken it out on you."
Severus was shocked to hear the sincere note in the other man's voice. "Why were you hurting? Do you really mean that you regret taking it out on me?"
"Yes, I never really meant to take it out on anyone. Not even those responsible. It just happened. You were always asking and I couldn't take it anymore! I figured it would teach you not to be so nosy. I didn't want to hurt you, well maybe a little, but I didn't want you dead."
"Was it your parents? They really were dark wizards. Evil wizards. Did they do something?"
"Of course they did! Don't tell me you don't remember! I met your father! I know you know what they were like. Your father was the same way!"
Severus sighed, "Yes, he was. I never imagined that you felt bad about what happened though. I thought you didn't care. Dumbledore just let you off, you know that was the first time I started to mistrust him?"
"Yeah, I never really thought that was fair myself. I kept thinking, that if you Slytherins had pulled that, I would have been furious it that was all that happened to you."
"Well, we never would have gotten caught!"
Sirius looked at Severus and smiled, a true smile. "I am sorry."
Severus stared back, unconsciously moving closer to Sirius. They were both only centimeters from each other now. Severus spoke, barely a whisper against Sirius' mouth. "I know that now. I wish I had known it then."
"Why?" a returned whisper.
Severus spoke no words in response. He just leaned in closing the distance until their mouths touched. Lips brushed gently, then almost angrily they locked onto one another. Both fighting for dominance in the kiss as it deepened. Sirius ran his tongue gently over Severus lips begging for entrance. Severus shuddered and gave him access but not control as tongues dueled. Then as suddenly as it had started, the kiss was over. Sirius opened his eyes just in time to see Severus stalk out in a flurry of robes.
He raised curious fingers to kiss swollen lips. What had just happened? Surely he was imagining things, because Severus Snape did not just kiss people. Especially not Gryffindors who tried to have him killed. Sirius wouldn't trade the kiss for anything though! He had finally felt those lips for real. Reality was so much better than fantasy. Now he just needed to figure out what he had done to make Snape kiss him. Then he could do it again.
TBC
So very, very sorry about this taking so long! This is my fourth draft! I don't know it I am happy with it yet, but I don't know if I can get it to work out better! Please review! Next chapter is much better! It will be a Flashback mostly about Sirius and Severus. Yes the main pairing will still be Harry/Lucius. I just want to have some background in here about how things came to be. They are a secondary pairing but important to the story. If you don't want to read that chapter, if Siri/Sev isn't your thing then you can skip it. It won't be vital in and of itself. Mostly just to clarify my AR version of events.
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Series: Lies in Redemption 8/?
Author: Althea
Feedback: althea@alexandria.cc or FF.net
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Harry/Lucius
Summary: Can two enemies find redemption in each other? Or will they be forever alone with the burden of others expectations.
Warnings: AR, Slash(Yaoi), possible OOC including dark!Dumbledore
Spoilers: All five books
Author's Note: Will be multi-parter will try to get at least one chapter out a week. Sorry will work as fast as I can but I have RL concerns as well. A two year old son, husband who works full time and goes to school and school myself. Will definitely finish this though I don't know how many parts it will be.
Archiving: Beloved Enemies, FF.net, all others just let me know so I can brag to my friends.
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The holiday passed quickly for everyone. Harry spent his days with Tom and Sirius. They got to know one another and became quite close. He spent his nights with Lucius. They explored one another some nights and talked into the early morning others. Harry had never felt so loved as he did on those wintry days and nights. Sirius was slowly getting accustomed to the idea of Harry being with Lucius. Harry was confused about something he remembered hearing though and one night he asked Lucius about it.
"Lucius, why did you say that Sirius was denying himself happiness? What did you mean?"
Lucius laughed, "Are you sure you want to hear it? You see back when Sirius and Severus were both back in school, Narcissa heard something one summer. She went over to visit and Sirius was still living at home. He apparently was talking to your father and Lupin. It seems he had a crush on Severus and was having very, explicit, dreams about him. I don't know the whole story, but I get the feeling that is the reason they don't get along."
Harry grinned, "You're kidding! Wow never would have seen that coming! I might have to ask him about that." Harry, however, quickly became distracted when Lucius started nibbling and sucking on his neck. It was a long time before he thought about anything else. Lucius had the most amazingly talented mouth.
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They all exchanged gifts on the night of the Solstice and Harry was overwhelmed at all the gifts he received. Severus, surprising everyone, gave him potions. Okay, so no one was surprised that he would gift someone with a potion, but they were surprised he gave something to Harry. He explained that they could be used to block a Legilimens, in a gruff tone of voice. Sirius just gaped at him, wondering what happened to Snape to make him act human. Draco gave him an amulet that had been his mother's. It was charmed to alert the wearer to harmful magic being performed near them. It even worked on potions hidden in food or drink. Sirius gave him a book on animagus transformation and a snitch charmed so he could practice with it at different levels, and it had a spell word so that if he needed to stop playing it would come to him.
Tom gave him a beautiful black and turquoise snake. It was a magical breed that was highly intelligent. "I thought you might like to have someone to talk to that would keep all your secrets. I was hoping maybe since you didn't think that I was evil anymore you might not think parseltongue was either."
Harry hugged his grandfather, "I don't! I love her! She is absolutely beautiful."
//Hello, what is your name?// Harry asked the snake.
//My name is Sela. Am I to be yours?//
//If you want to be. My name is Harry. That is my Grandfather. His name is Tom. He can talk to you as well.//
Tom spoke then, //Yes we spoke when I chose her for you. She wanted to find a good home and I thought you and she would be perfect together.//
Harry smiled, //That is great. I really do love her.//
Harry then addressed every one else in the room. "Her name is Sela. She seems very nice."
The last present that Harry received was from Lucius. It was a portkey that would bring him to the Manor any time he wanted. It would work from anywhere and was spelled to take him back to wherever he left from when he was ready. Lucius explained his choice, "Since everyone can get here easily or lives here anyway, I thought that if you ever needed to get away, this would be the ideal choice. You can come whenever you want. The wards are already set to recognize you."
Harry jumped up and ran to Lucius. He threw his arms around his love and kissed him. "Thank you. You have no idea what this means to me. No one has ever done anything like this for me before."
Harry of course got everyone gifts as well. He got Severus potions ingredients. Draco received an invisibility cloak of his own, he had Tom help him get a hold of one. Sirius was given the other mirror back so that they could communicate. He gave Tom some of the pictures of his mother from his album. He thought his grandfather might like to have something of her, and they had always made him feel a little better. The last gift he gave was for Lucius. He had an extremely hard time trying to come up with something to give the man. What do you get a wizard who has everything? He decided on something unique. He had again needed his grandfather's help. He got Lucius a phoenix. Even in the wizarding world they were rare and he thought that Lucius would be the kind to appreciate such a gift. Lucius loved it, both for the rarity and that his angel had given it to him.
They all sat down together for a feast fit for kings. The Malfoy House Elves truly outdid themselves. As they were all enjoying the meal, Harry decided to ask something he had wanted to know. He hoped he wouldn't start any arguments, but he really needed to know. "So, I know that you aren't killing and torturing muggles, but well Draco is always calling Hermione a mudblood. Do you really hate muggleborn witches and wizards?"
Tom smiled at him, "I have no great love for muggles as I've said. That doesn't mean I hate the muggleborn. I do feel that they can be exasperating at times though. I do recognize the need for muggleborn and even muggle intermarriage with purebloods. We have to have outside blood or we will breed ourselves to extinction. That doesn't mean I want our existence to be made known to the entire world. It would be dangerous for us."
Lucius decided to elaborate, "You see, while we don't hate muggleborn or even deny the need for them, we do feel that they can be dangerous. Many of them are the strongest supporters of greater interaction between the wizarding and muggle worlds. They often haven't had bad experiences with muggles the way some of us have. They don't recognize the dangers so they get angry when we disagree that the muggle world should be more greatly involved in our world. You and Tom are rare in that you have seen how muggles can react to our existence in their world. They fear us and fear breeds contempt."
Draco spoke up then, "Besides, the only reason I ever called Hermione a mudblood, is because it was expected. When you denied my friendship at first, I had to seem to be your enemy. She was your friend so I had to be her enemy as well. Dumbledore would have been suspicious if I didn't act in character, even if he knew that it was all a lie. We all have roles to play. He thinks that I would really be your enemy after you denied me even if I wasn't who everyone thought I was. He doesn't understand people as well as he thinks."
Harry smiled then, "So you don't hate Hermione? That's good, because no matter what happens she is my friend."
The conversation turned to other matters then. Harry's mind was more at ease. He was afraid that Lucius really didn't like anyone who wasn't a pureblood. He had been told that for so long. He could understand their fears about muggles. If most people knew about them they would be afraid and would hate them just because they were different. He also understood about muggleborns not always understanding this. They usually thought that since their own family understood, that everyone would.
On Christmas day, his presents from everyone else arrived. He got the usual, a sweater and goodies from Mrs. Weasley, candy from Ron, new pranks from the twins, and a book about teaching defensive magic. It seems she wanted to make sure he was prepared for the DA. He missed his friends and was sorry he had to lie to them, but he couldn't take the chance that they would find out. If they knew then Dumbledore might find out. He had asked Snape about that in fact. He wondered how Dumbledore managed to know what he did. Snape said that Dumbledore used Legilimency to know what he couldn't learn from his spies. Although, Snape cautioned that some of his spies were either unwilling or brainwashed, so that it couldn't be assumed that they were on his side. Since Ron and Hermione couldn't block a Legilimens, then they couldn't know anything incriminating.
Harry then asked why Dumbledore would want him to learn Occlumency if he used Legilimency to control him. Snape said that he thought that might be because he knew that Harry would never be able to work with Snape or vice versa for any length of time. Harry was in no danger of truly learning Occlumency. However, now they could work on it and Dumbledore would never know. Ron and Hermione also couldn't know, at least for now. He hated keeping this many secrets from them, but he couldn't risk either their reaction or Dumbledore finding out.
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On the night before Harry was to return to Hogwarts with Draco, he was sitting quietly in the Solarium looking out at the stars. He wanted to spend the last night with Lucius, but he couldn't bring himself to join his love. He feared what would happen once he went back. Lucius was far more experienced and he didn't want to show his naivety, but he was worried that the older man would move on. He knew he would never get over Lucius, but would the older man feel the same? Harry thought it likely that he had been a holiday distraction for Lucius. Sure, Lucius was always saying he loved him; but people said that all the time in relationships without meaning it. He wasn't even sure they were in a relationship.
So he is sitting in the dark when Lucius comes looking for him. Lucius had been to his room and was a bit worried when he didn't find him there. Now that he had found him, he wondered what was going through his angels head. He walked over to Harry and gently put his arms around the boy. Harry leans into the embrace. Seeking the warmth and comfort it brings him, Harry snuggles closer.
"Harry, what's wrong? Why didn't you come to bed? You don't have to spend the night with me, I was just worried about you."
Harry sighed, "No, I want to spend the night with you more than anything! I just needed some time to think. This has been a really chaotic holiday, and I'm not even used to holidays. I just wanted to sort through my thoughts and feelings. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you." He turned around and stood on tiptoes to bestow a kiss.
Lucius knew his angel wasn't being completely honest. Something was bothering him, but he didn't want to talk. That was usually bad news. He only hoped if it was something serious, Harry would confide in Draco if he couldn't talk to him. He decided to make this last night as memorable as possible and coaxed Harry upstairs with gentle lips.
Harry moaned at the first contact of those lips with his body. He would follow Lucius to the ends of the earth. They lay on Lucius' bed and worshipped one another's bodies; both praying this wouldn't be the last time. Harry hid the tears that wanted to fall, his body crying out for Lucius along with his mind as they both found their bittersweet release with each other.
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Meanwhile, down in the kitchen there was a very hungry animagus that was searching for something to eat. Nothing he could find sounded appealing. At least not if he was eating alone. Gods, he needed to find a lover! An almost impossible task if you aren't even supposed to be alive. He sometimes wondered why he even took lovers. He would never have the one person he wanted, so why bother? Ah, but he did so enjoy sharing time with someone who cared about him. He hated being alone, and when he was with someone, that empty feeling left him for at least a little while.
Severus was heading to the kitchen for his own midnight snack. Unbeknownst to him, he was craving the same thing as his worst enemy. Well maybe not worst, he did hate Dumbledore more. And then there was Weasley, that boy really got on his last nerve. But, he was definitely up there with the people he really couldn't stand. As he entered the room, he saw Sirius first before the other man realized he was not alone. Severus cleared his throat loudly.
Sirius jumped and spun around, "What do you want, Snape? Not enough to torture us with your presence during the day but you have to resort to haunting us at night too?" He sneered upon realizing who it was.
Severus just smirked in reply. He wasn't about to deign to respond to the mutt's taunts. Wasn't it bad enough that he had to put up with him now? The mutt was always around. It was worse then when he was just a convict on the run; now that he was supposed to be dead, Sirius had no where else to go. There was a reason he avoided the man like the plague, he couldn't stand being in the same room. Of course, tormenting him was still fun. "What's wrong? Doesn't Lucius keep dog food in the house?"
"You're really not all that funny, Snape. What do you want?"
Severus sneered, "Well this is a kitchen, perhaps I was hungry. That is what people generally go to the kitchen for. Although, I guess you wouldn't know that. Only civilized people use kitchens I suppose."
"What? The Great Severus Snape does something as human as eats? I am amazed!"
"It's not that hard to amaze you. Shiny objects probably have you occupied for hours."
"Snape, you have no idea what would keep me occupied. You don't know what I find interesting at all."
Severus laughed coldly, "Of course I do! My death is probably pretty high on your list. After all, you did try to have me killed by your own pet werewolf."
Sirius winced, although Severus didn't see. It was true, he was responsible for almost getting Snape killed. He didn't mean for it to happen that way, but it was his fault. It also had happened twenty years ago. When would Snape let it go. He was sorry after all. He didn't really want Snape to get killed. "He isn't my pet werewolf, and if you weren't so nosy then it never would have happened."
Severus just looked at him, "You've got to be kidding! I never asked to be almost mauled by a werewolf!"
"No, but you always wanted to know where Remus was going, and you were always spying on us. You probably thought you could get us into trouble. Besides, you didn't get mauled did you?"
"No thanks to you! Potter, was responsible for that. At least Lupin seems to feel bad about it, your to arrogant to even realize you had done anything wrong."
"That's not true! I said I was sorry! What more do you want? My blood? I never meant for you to get hurt! I was angry. Yes, I made a mistake. I know that! I was an ass in school! I was young and stupid and.well never mind."
"No, please. By all means go on. You were young and stupid and what?"
Sirius gritted his teeth and spoke very softly, "I was confused and hurting. I know you could never understand anything like that, but I was. My world made no sense. I wanted others to hurt like I hurt. I never should have taken it out on you."
Severus was shocked to hear the sincere note in the other man's voice. "Why were you hurting? Do you really mean that you regret taking it out on me?"
"Yes, I never really meant to take it out on anyone. Not even those responsible. It just happened. You were always asking and I couldn't take it anymore! I figured it would teach you not to be so nosy. I didn't want to hurt you, well maybe a little, but I didn't want you dead."
"Was it your parents? They really were dark wizards. Evil wizards. Did they do something?"
"Of course they did! Don't tell me you don't remember! I met your father! I know you know what they were like. Your father was the same way!"
Severus sighed, "Yes, he was. I never imagined that you felt bad about what happened though. I thought you didn't care. Dumbledore just let you off, you know that was the first time I started to mistrust him?"
"Yeah, I never really thought that was fair myself. I kept thinking, that if you Slytherins had pulled that, I would have been furious it that was all that happened to you."
"Well, we never would have gotten caught!"
Sirius looked at Severus and smiled, a true smile. "I am sorry."
Severus stared back, unconsciously moving closer to Sirius. They were both only centimeters from each other now. Severus spoke, barely a whisper against Sirius' mouth. "I know that now. I wish I had known it then."
"Why?" a returned whisper.
Severus spoke no words in response. He just leaned in closing the distance until their mouths touched. Lips brushed gently, then almost angrily they locked onto one another. Both fighting for dominance in the kiss as it deepened. Sirius ran his tongue gently over Severus lips begging for entrance. Severus shuddered and gave him access but not control as tongues dueled. Then as suddenly as it had started, the kiss was over. Sirius opened his eyes just in time to see Severus stalk out in a flurry of robes.
He raised curious fingers to kiss swollen lips. What had just happened? Surely he was imagining things, because Severus Snape did not just kiss people. Especially not Gryffindors who tried to have him killed. Sirius wouldn't trade the kiss for anything though! He had finally felt those lips for real. Reality was so much better than fantasy. Now he just needed to figure out what he had done to make Snape kiss him. Then he could do it again.
TBC
So very, very sorry about this taking so long! This is my fourth draft! I don't know it I am happy with it yet, but I don't know if I can get it to work out better! Please review! Next chapter is much better! It will be a Flashback mostly about Sirius and Severus. Yes the main pairing will still be Harry/Lucius. I just want to have some background in here about how things came to be. They are a secondary pairing but important to the story. If you don't want to read that chapter, if Siri/Sev isn't your thing then you can skip it. It won't be vital in and of itself. Mostly just to clarify my AR version of events.
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Thanks to my reviewers: Theoriginalflame, raven of the night1, Angelica, Undomiel1 and Eowyn6
And to KittenBabyGirl: Yes I was a Boy Scout. I was what is known as an Explorer Scout (a special branch of Boy Scouts of America which usually have specialties, we were high adventure) One of my best friend's step father was our leader and us and some other females and males (gender didn't matter only age) were members. We had official Boy Scout cards with all rights and privileges thereof. So I really was a Boy Scout and have the card to prove it. That is the short version. The reason I was a Boy Scout was because it was a lot of fun! We went away and did all kinds of really great things. Plus most of my friends were involved, again male and female so it was something we could so together. I never really like Girl Scouts, I tried it once. It wasn't much fun, at least not where I live! I am a law unto myself!
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