Title: Back to Reality
Series: Lies in Redemption 11/?
Author: Althea
Feedback: althea@alexandria.cc or FF.net
Rating: R
Pairing: Harry/Lucius
Summary: Can two enemies find redemption in each other? Or will they be forever alone with the burden of others expectations.
Warnings: AR, Slash(Yaoi), possible OOC including dark!Dumbledore
Spoilers: All five books
Author's Note: Will be multi-parter will try to get at least one chapter out a week. Sorry will work as fast as I can but I have RL concerns as well. A two year old son, husband who works full time and goes to school and school myself. Will definitely finish this though I don't know how many parts it will be.
Archiving: Beloved Enemies, FF.net, and my own site all others just let me know so I can brag to my friends.
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Harry arrived down in the Dungeons to find a very anxious Draco. The Slytherin was pacing and when Harry came in, he met frantic eyes. Harry gently led his friend over to a chair and tried to calm him down some. "Drake, are you ok?" he asked. Not certain what could have happened to make the usually calm boy behave this way.
Draco let out a tense breath. "What happened, Harry? With Remus I mean?"
Harry smiled, "Everything is fine. He doesn't hate you as far as I can tell. I asked him if we could meet in his room if we needed to talk in private. He said it would be fine and that we could come by anytime. He believed me when I told him about everything. He was acting kind of odd though. Is it near a full moon?"
Draco looked at Harry with fear in his eyes. "You asked him WHAT? We can't meet in his rooms. What if he figures out how I feel about him? Odd? Well, yes I think the full moon is tomorrow."
Harry laughed, "Drake, if we meet in his room, we can get his attention. We stand a better chance of making him see you as a potential mate instead of just another student."
Draco thought about what Harry had said. It was true if they were around the man more, they could get closer to him. Maybe if he had time on his side, he could show the werewolf how he felt about him. "Yeah, but Harry, werewolves mate for life and if you aren't meant to be their mate, they can't love you. They won't feel anything for you in fact, even if they were to sleep with you. Do you know how unlikely it is that I'm his mate?" Harry stood up. "Come on. We're going to go and see a certain werewolf and work on getting you together with him."
Draco turned pale, "No, Harry. I can't. Please let's just stay here."
Harry grabbed Draco and led him out of the Dungeons to Lupin's rooms. Draco resisted the whole way. When they arrived at the door, Harry knocked and waited for an answer from within. Sooner then Draco would have liked, the door opened on a rumpled looking professor. After Harry had left he had gotten lost in his thoughts and was worrying himself over something he had no control over. He smiled at the two boys, although Harry thought his smile seemed a bit strained.
Holding the door open wider he asked, "To what do I owe this unexpected visit?"
Harry smiled, "Well Draco and I need to talk and since you said we could talk here, I thought we might come by. You are welcome to stay. There are a few things I haven't told you yet that I really should mention."
Remus noticed that Harry looked rather sly and Draco was looking scared as though he was going to be eaten alive. 'He thinks I'm going to hurt him! Well there's my answer. There is no way he will ever want me! I'm an idiot! He's afraid of me.' What he said aloud held an entirely different feeling. "Well, come in. Draco, I'm not going to hurt you. Yes, I am a werewolf; but I would never hurt any of my students. Can I get either of you anything? Make yourselves comfortable and we can talk then."
Draco looked at the man who haunted his every thought. 'He thinks I'm afraid of him? I thought his wolf senses would give me away. I could never fear him. I love him! Oh, gods how am I going to do this?' "Professor Lupin, I'm not afraid of you sir. Harry trusts you and so do I."
Remus looked up startled, "I'm glad to hear you say that. Also call me Remus, at least when there aren't others around. Harry does so you should as well. Now what could you have possibly left out?"
Harry drug Draco over to sit down, placing the blonde closer to Remus then himself. "Well, I didn't tell you about Lucius. You see, he and I are.Well that is we um."
Draco rolled his eyes, "They're in love. They are currently lovers, providing they don't keep acting like idiots around one another!"
Remus blinked several times trying to figure out if he heard what he thought he did. "Well, that is a shock. I'm not upset though. You deserve happiness, and from what you've told me I can find no fault with it being Lucius who provides it." 'I just wish I could find it for myself with Draco. He smells so lovely. What? He smells, aroused! Does he like Harry? Oh, I don't know if I can take this.' Remus thought as he unknowingly growled low in his throat.
Draco started, 'Did Remus just growl? What would make him growl? Maybe he's in love with Harry. Oh no please don't be in love with Harry!'
Harry had heard the growl, but didn't know why Remus had growled. "Remus, did you just growl at me?"
Remus looked at both boys and flushed red. "No, I didn't growl at you Harry. I wasn't even aware that I growled." 'Shit! Have to stop thinking about Draco! Oh, he's looking at me oddly. Wait, what is that look?' "Sorry. The wolf must want to say something. I um, get like this sometimes around the full moon."
Draco leaned closer, hoping to brush against Remus without being caught. "That's ok, Remus. We understand. What do you think it's about?" 'If only he would say me! Do you know I love you? Stop thinking about him!'
Remus sighed, 'He's getting closer! Don't touch, don't touch! What am I supposed to say to that?' "I'm not sure what it's about. Maybe it's just the moon."
Harry grinned, 'I know something is going on. Remus looks like Draco is trying to kill him and Draco looks like he wants to die! Hmmmm..I wonder.' "So it wasn't anything to do with Lucius? You aren't upset that he and I are together are you? Maybe the wolf wants him for a mate?"
Remus looked shocked, "No! He is definitely not the Malfoy that the wolf wants!" 'Did I just say Malfoy? Think fast!' "That is, the wolf doesn't want a Malfoy." 'No, that's not right now I make it sound like I don't like them!' "What I mean to say is.oh hell! I'm making a mess of this, aren't I?"
Draco just stared at him. 'Not the Malfoy he wants? Does that mean he wants a Malfoy? Does he know any besides me and father?' Draco leaned in again and Remus drew in a startled breath. "Which Malfoy does the wolf want?" 'Please let me be right!'
Remus shuddered at the heady scent of lust and waves lf love coming off the boy. 'Is he flirting with me? Keep cool old man. He is just playing! But those scents.. I want him!' "Ummmm.."
Harry stood quietly. "I'm just going to leave you two for now. Goodnight." He left quickly, pleased with a job well done.
Remus leaned in and whispered, "I don't know if I can tell you, Draco. I want, that is the wolf chose, well I can't tell you yet!"
Draco pulled back, stung though trying not to show it. "I see. Well I should be going now." 'He doesn't want me! I was wrong! Oh, I have to get out of here! I can't let him see me like this.'
Remus looked worriedly at the young man before him. 'He is trying not to break down. Why? He can't be that upset that I wouldn't tell him. He is radiating waves of pain and loss. But he hasn't lost anything.' "Wait! Draco, what's wrong?"
"Nothing! Leave me alone." He replied as the first tears of heartbreak and rejection broke free. He tried to get away, but Remus saw and enveloped him in a tight embrace.
"Please, Draco. Tell me what's wrong! Please, I want to help." 'I can't stand to see you this way!' Draco sobbed brokenly into Remus shoulder. He didn't say a word though as Remus tightened his arms and led him to the sofa. He whispered soothing words and rocked Draco gently. 'What can I do for you? Please be ok. He feels so good in my arms, so perfect.'
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Meanwhile, back in Severus' rooms, our beloved Potions Master was thinking over the new developments of the holidays. He couldn't believe he had let the mutt kiss him and had actually kissed back! If they had not been interrupted he would have done more. He was now regretting this. He knew that Sirius, no Black, could not possibly feel anything for him deeper then base lust. He was wondering how he could've been so stupid! Those Gryffindors always try to make fools of everyone.
Well at least he wouldn't have to see Sirius for a few weeks. The start of the new term would keep him busy and give him a reason not visit at the mansion. Perhaps with enough time he would feel more able to face Sirius, no Black. He had to think of him as Black. His life had been a torment because of that man. He needed to stay away so that he could protect himself. Black had too much power over him; he needed to get some perspective. He just had to stay away from him long enough to forget. That would have to be enough.
As soon as he finished that thought, there was a tapping on his door. When he opened the door he found an unfamiliar owl waiting for him. It held out it's leg for him to untie the letter and quickly left. He held the letter wondering what it could be. He had no family to speak of and he had just left his friends. Any of the staff or Dumbledore would have fire called him. Who would send him something? He opened the letter and read it slowly.
Dear Severus,
I know you probably don't want to be receiving this right now. You probably never want to hear from me again. I couldn't just ignore what happened though. I meant what I said. I have felt something for some time for you. I wish that everything that has happened between us over the years had never occurred. There was so much that I couldn't say to you. I wish I could have told you this years ago, but I never thought that you might feel the same.
I thought that you were in love with Remus. That's why I set you up. I wanted you to hate him, especially since you didn't love me. I wanted to have you tutor me but you ended up tutoring Remus. I thought he could get me closer to you, but that didn't work. I really thought you wanted him and I was jealous. I am sorry for doing that to you. I would have been devastated if something had happened to you. I didn't think about what would have happened if Remus had hurt you or even killed you. I know, stupid Gryffindor. I just wanted to scare you and to show you that Remus wasn't perfect.
Confession time. I love you. I am not saying this to get you to reciprocate. I do love you, but I also know that you don't feel the same. I am not asking you to love me or even like me. I think, no I hope, that you are attracted to me. You seemed to want me as much as I wanted you. I would like to propose that if you are attracted to me, we could have a truce. We could maybe develop a friendship with benefits if you will.
I know this letter is coming out all wrong. I am willing to live with this arrangement. If this is the only way I can be close to you then I will take it. Please let me know your decision. I promise my feelings will not affect you in any way. I will await your response.
Yours, Sirius
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Harry went up to the Gryffindor tower after he left Remus' rooms. He needed time to think about when he would get to see Lucius again. He had hardly been away from his lover and already he missed him greatly. He would of course have to be careful even when he did use the portkey. They couldn't afford to make anyone too suspicious with unexplained absences. He really did miss his lover though.
When he entered the common room, he was waved over by Ron and Hermione. They looked very excited to see him and were talking happily when he walked over to them. He really didn't want to socialize with them, but he felt it would be too odd if he didn't on their first day back. He sat down and hoped that he would be able to escape soon. He loved them both but there was just too much he couldn't tell them that, they wouldn't understand.
Hermione spoke first, "Hello, Harry. How was your Christmas? Was it too boring here at school by yourself?"
Ron spoke up, "Yeah mate. We really missed you. Too bad Dumbledore wouldn't let you go with us."
Hermione interrupted before Harry could get a word in. "Ron! Now really. You know it isn't safe for Harry to be away from the grounds. You Know Who is after him and some of the Death Eaters are free. Don't be so foolish."
Harry finally managed to get a word in. "Calm down Mione. It's fine. Dumbledore is doing what he thinks is right," which isn't a lie, "and it was safer for me not to go to the Burrow. I didn't stay here though. I went home. The Dursleys were going on vacation and wanted me to do some things for them. So I wasn't alone and I wasn't here."
Ron looked shocked, "You went with them? Why? I never thought they would take you anywhere."
Hermione gave Ron a look that said 'shut up you idiot!' "Perhaps they wanted to spend some time to get to know him better. Maybe they see how wrong they've been. Did you have a nice time, Harry?"
Harry just looked amused at how the two reacted to the news. "I wanted to get away and the only way I could was to stay with them. They just wanted me so there was someone to do all the hard work. I did have a good time though. They couldn't watch me all the time, we were on vacation."
Ron started talking then. "Well that is great, Harry. We had a wonderful holiday. Bill and Charlie were both there as well as Fred and George. We played Quidditch and had so many sweets. The food was fabulous."
Hermione spoke up, "It was really wonderful. Molly let me look at some of her magic books. She has so many books of spells for use around the house. I learned so much! I can't wait till next year when I can do magic away from school."
Ron grinned, "I'll be able to do magic this spring."
Hermione frowned, "Yes, Ron. We all know that. You have no reason to gloat though. It is only an accident of birth that allows you to turn seventeen first."
Through all this they both ignored Harry completely. He knew that it would be like this, he just didn't realize how much it would still hurt. Even his friendship with Draco, who he now felt closer to then anyone else his age, wasn't enough to dull the hurt of his friends' dismissal. He knew he was being petty. They had had a nice holiday and wanted to talk about it, but they really didn't seem very worried over how his holiday had been. They knew how his relatives were and yet after a token questioning of what had happened, forgot entirely about him. He couldn't tell them of course, but it would be nice if they showed an interest. He decided to go up to the dorm.
"Hey guys, I'm going to go upstairs. It's been a long day and I want to get some rest. Goodnight."
"Goodnight, Harry." They both chorused.
Harry trudged upstairs and got ready for bed. His thoughts were once again on Lucius. He could feel that Luc loved him and would miss him, perhaps as much as he missed Luc, but he just wanted so badly to be near him. The past couple of weeks had been so perfect. He got to spend time with Sirius again, get to know his grandfather, and be with Lucius. He was hopelessly in love with the blonde and couldn't wait to find a reason to sneak away.
As he settled into his bed and closed the curtains around himself, he wondered how he had managed to get so lucky. He had family and friends and someone to love him. They all loved him for him and not who he was. He never thought he'd find that; he thought he'd be alone forever. His eyes closed slowly and peacefully, tuning out the world around him for a few hours. As he drifted in slumber he started dreaming of those he loved and a smile stole across features made innocent in sleep. No one was there to see, but had they been they might have seen the happiness of that expression or heard the sigh of contentment he uttered. He dreamed of his Lucius.
{Harry hurried to the Study hoping that he would find Lucius there. As he entered the warm room he saw his love sitting there and ran to him. He sat gently on Lucius' lap, straddling the taller man and claiming his mouth in a brutal kiss. Harry had missed his lover and he was going to show him just how much. As they broke for air, Harry slithered down Lucius' firm body and slowly undid his trousers. He had missed Lucius a lot, but he was going to do this right. He gently took hold of the now panting man's member and slowly drew it out and into his warm, wet mouth. He licked gently at the head and then used his tongue to apply pressure as he sucked at the hard flesh. Lucius moaned and Harry hummed in pleasure at the sound causing Lucius to buck into his mouth.}
Harry awoke with a start as the other Sixth year boys came into the dorm. Harry cursed softly under his breath, hoping not to be heard. 'Damn them for making so much noise and for coming in now! Why couldn't they have waited five more minutes? It was just getting good.' Harry fell back asleep, but he had no more dreams that night. He awoke bleary eyed and cold in the early morning to Neville and Ron trying to wake him up so he wouldn't be late for class. Potions.
TBC
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Series: Lies in Redemption 11/?
Author: Althea
Feedback: althea@alexandria.cc or FF.net
Rating: R
Pairing: Harry/Lucius
Summary: Can two enemies find redemption in each other? Or will they be forever alone with the burden of others expectations.
Warnings: AR, Slash(Yaoi), possible OOC including dark!Dumbledore
Spoilers: All five books
Author's Note: Will be multi-parter will try to get at least one chapter out a week. Sorry will work as fast as I can but I have RL concerns as well. A two year old son, husband who works full time and goes to school and school myself. Will definitely finish this though I don't know how many parts it will be.
Archiving: Beloved Enemies, FF.net, and my own site all others just let me know so I can brag to my friends.
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Harry arrived down in the Dungeons to find a very anxious Draco. The Slytherin was pacing and when Harry came in, he met frantic eyes. Harry gently led his friend over to a chair and tried to calm him down some. "Drake, are you ok?" he asked. Not certain what could have happened to make the usually calm boy behave this way.
Draco let out a tense breath. "What happened, Harry? With Remus I mean?"
Harry smiled, "Everything is fine. He doesn't hate you as far as I can tell. I asked him if we could meet in his room if we needed to talk in private. He said it would be fine and that we could come by anytime. He believed me when I told him about everything. He was acting kind of odd though. Is it near a full moon?"
Draco looked at Harry with fear in his eyes. "You asked him WHAT? We can't meet in his rooms. What if he figures out how I feel about him? Odd? Well, yes I think the full moon is tomorrow."
Harry laughed, "Drake, if we meet in his room, we can get his attention. We stand a better chance of making him see you as a potential mate instead of just another student."
Draco thought about what Harry had said. It was true if they were around the man more, they could get closer to him. Maybe if he had time on his side, he could show the werewolf how he felt about him. "Yeah, but Harry, werewolves mate for life and if you aren't meant to be their mate, they can't love you. They won't feel anything for you in fact, even if they were to sleep with you. Do you know how unlikely it is that I'm his mate?" Harry stood up. "Come on. We're going to go and see a certain werewolf and work on getting you together with him."
Draco turned pale, "No, Harry. I can't. Please let's just stay here."
Harry grabbed Draco and led him out of the Dungeons to Lupin's rooms. Draco resisted the whole way. When they arrived at the door, Harry knocked and waited for an answer from within. Sooner then Draco would have liked, the door opened on a rumpled looking professor. After Harry had left he had gotten lost in his thoughts and was worrying himself over something he had no control over. He smiled at the two boys, although Harry thought his smile seemed a bit strained.
Holding the door open wider he asked, "To what do I owe this unexpected visit?"
Harry smiled, "Well Draco and I need to talk and since you said we could talk here, I thought we might come by. You are welcome to stay. There are a few things I haven't told you yet that I really should mention."
Remus noticed that Harry looked rather sly and Draco was looking scared as though he was going to be eaten alive. 'He thinks I'm going to hurt him! Well there's my answer. There is no way he will ever want me! I'm an idiot! He's afraid of me.' What he said aloud held an entirely different feeling. "Well, come in. Draco, I'm not going to hurt you. Yes, I am a werewolf; but I would never hurt any of my students. Can I get either of you anything? Make yourselves comfortable and we can talk then."
Draco looked at the man who haunted his every thought. 'He thinks I'm afraid of him? I thought his wolf senses would give me away. I could never fear him. I love him! Oh, gods how am I going to do this?' "Professor Lupin, I'm not afraid of you sir. Harry trusts you and so do I."
Remus looked up startled, "I'm glad to hear you say that. Also call me Remus, at least when there aren't others around. Harry does so you should as well. Now what could you have possibly left out?"
Harry drug Draco over to sit down, placing the blonde closer to Remus then himself. "Well, I didn't tell you about Lucius. You see, he and I are.Well that is we um."
Draco rolled his eyes, "They're in love. They are currently lovers, providing they don't keep acting like idiots around one another!"
Remus blinked several times trying to figure out if he heard what he thought he did. "Well, that is a shock. I'm not upset though. You deserve happiness, and from what you've told me I can find no fault with it being Lucius who provides it." 'I just wish I could find it for myself with Draco. He smells so lovely. What? He smells, aroused! Does he like Harry? Oh, I don't know if I can take this.' Remus thought as he unknowingly growled low in his throat.
Draco started, 'Did Remus just growl? What would make him growl? Maybe he's in love with Harry. Oh no please don't be in love with Harry!'
Harry had heard the growl, but didn't know why Remus had growled. "Remus, did you just growl at me?"
Remus looked at both boys and flushed red. "No, I didn't growl at you Harry. I wasn't even aware that I growled." 'Shit! Have to stop thinking about Draco! Oh, he's looking at me oddly. Wait, what is that look?' "Sorry. The wolf must want to say something. I um, get like this sometimes around the full moon."
Draco leaned closer, hoping to brush against Remus without being caught. "That's ok, Remus. We understand. What do you think it's about?" 'If only he would say me! Do you know I love you? Stop thinking about him!'
Remus sighed, 'He's getting closer! Don't touch, don't touch! What am I supposed to say to that?' "I'm not sure what it's about. Maybe it's just the moon."
Harry grinned, 'I know something is going on. Remus looks like Draco is trying to kill him and Draco looks like he wants to die! Hmmmm..I wonder.' "So it wasn't anything to do with Lucius? You aren't upset that he and I are together are you? Maybe the wolf wants him for a mate?"
Remus looked shocked, "No! He is definitely not the Malfoy that the wolf wants!" 'Did I just say Malfoy? Think fast!' "That is, the wolf doesn't want a Malfoy." 'No, that's not right now I make it sound like I don't like them!' "What I mean to say is.oh hell! I'm making a mess of this, aren't I?"
Draco just stared at him. 'Not the Malfoy he wants? Does that mean he wants a Malfoy? Does he know any besides me and father?' Draco leaned in again and Remus drew in a startled breath. "Which Malfoy does the wolf want?" 'Please let me be right!'
Remus shuddered at the heady scent of lust and waves lf love coming off the boy. 'Is he flirting with me? Keep cool old man. He is just playing! But those scents.. I want him!' "Ummmm.."
Harry stood quietly. "I'm just going to leave you two for now. Goodnight." He left quickly, pleased with a job well done.
Remus leaned in and whispered, "I don't know if I can tell you, Draco. I want, that is the wolf chose, well I can't tell you yet!"
Draco pulled back, stung though trying not to show it. "I see. Well I should be going now." 'He doesn't want me! I was wrong! Oh, I have to get out of here! I can't let him see me like this.'
Remus looked worriedly at the young man before him. 'He is trying not to break down. Why? He can't be that upset that I wouldn't tell him. He is radiating waves of pain and loss. But he hasn't lost anything.' "Wait! Draco, what's wrong?"
"Nothing! Leave me alone." He replied as the first tears of heartbreak and rejection broke free. He tried to get away, but Remus saw and enveloped him in a tight embrace.
"Please, Draco. Tell me what's wrong! Please, I want to help." 'I can't stand to see you this way!' Draco sobbed brokenly into Remus shoulder. He didn't say a word though as Remus tightened his arms and led him to the sofa. He whispered soothing words and rocked Draco gently. 'What can I do for you? Please be ok. He feels so good in my arms, so perfect.'
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Meanwhile, back in Severus' rooms, our beloved Potions Master was thinking over the new developments of the holidays. He couldn't believe he had let the mutt kiss him and had actually kissed back! If they had not been interrupted he would have done more. He was now regretting this. He knew that Sirius, no Black, could not possibly feel anything for him deeper then base lust. He was wondering how he could've been so stupid! Those Gryffindors always try to make fools of everyone.
Well at least he wouldn't have to see Sirius for a few weeks. The start of the new term would keep him busy and give him a reason not visit at the mansion. Perhaps with enough time he would feel more able to face Sirius, no Black. He had to think of him as Black. His life had been a torment because of that man. He needed to stay away so that he could protect himself. Black had too much power over him; he needed to get some perspective. He just had to stay away from him long enough to forget. That would have to be enough.
As soon as he finished that thought, there was a tapping on his door. When he opened the door he found an unfamiliar owl waiting for him. It held out it's leg for him to untie the letter and quickly left. He held the letter wondering what it could be. He had no family to speak of and he had just left his friends. Any of the staff or Dumbledore would have fire called him. Who would send him something? He opened the letter and read it slowly.
Dear Severus,
I know you probably don't want to be receiving this right now. You probably never want to hear from me again. I couldn't just ignore what happened though. I meant what I said. I have felt something for some time for you. I wish that everything that has happened between us over the years had never occurred. There was so much that I couldn't say to you. I wish I could have told you this years ago, but I never thought that you might feel the same.
I thought that you were in love with Remus. That's why I set you up. I wanted you to hate him, especially since you didn't love me. I wanted to have you tutor me but you ended up tutoring Remus. I thought he could get me closer to you, but that didn't work. I really thought you wanted him and I was jealous. I am sorry for doing that to you. I would have been devastated if something had happened to you. I didn't think about what would have happened if Remus had hurt you or even killed you. I know, stupid Gryffindor. I just wanted to scare you and to show you that Remus wasn't perfect.
Confession time. I love you. I am not saying this to get you to reciprocate. I do love you, but I also know that you don't feel the same. I am not asking you to love me or even like me. I think, no I hope, that you are attracted to me. You seemed to want me as much as I wanted you. I would like to propose that if you are attracted to me, we could have a truce. We could maybe develop a friendship with benefits if you will.
I know this letter is coming out all wrong. I am willing to live with this arrangement. If this is the only way I can be close to you then I will take it. Please let me know your decision. I promise my feelings will not affect you in any way. I will await your response.
Yours, Sirius
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Harry went up to the Gryffindor tower after he left Remus' rooms. He needed time to think about when he would get to see Lucius again. He had hardly been away from his lover and already he missed him greatly. He would of course have to be careful even when he did use the portkey. They couldn't afford to make anyone too suspicious with unexplained absences. He really did miss his lover though.
When he entered the common room, he was waved over by Ron and Hermione. They looked very excited to see him and were talking happily when he walked over to them. He really didn't want to socialize with them, but he felt it would be too odd if he didn't on their first day back. He sat down and hoped that he would be able to escape soon. He loved them both but there was just too much he couldn't tell them that, they wouldn't understand.
Hermione spoke first, "Hello, Harry. How was your Christmas? Was it too boring here at school by yourself?"
Ron spoke up, "Yeah mate. We really missed you. Too bad Dumbledore wouldn't let you go with us."
Hermione interrupted before Harry could get a word in. "Ron! Now really. You know it isn't safe for Harry to be away from the grounds. You Know Who is after him and some of the Death Eaters are free. Don't be so foolish."
Harry finally managed to get a word in. "Calm down Mione. It's fine. Dumbledore is doing what he thinks is right," which isn't a lie, "and it was safer for me not to go to the Burrow. I didn't stay here though. I went home. The Dursleys were going on vacation and wanted me to do some things for them. So I wasn't alone and I wasn't here."
Ron looked shocked, "You went with them? Why? I never thought they would take you anywhere."
Hermione gave Ron a look that said 'shut up you idiot!' "Perhaps they wanted to spend some time to get to know him better. Maybe they see how wrong they've been. Did you have a nice time, Harry?"
Harry just looked amused at how the two reacted to the news. "I wanted to get away and the only way I could was to stay with them. They just wanted me so there was someone to do all the hard work. I did have a good time though. They couldn't watch me all the time, we were on vacation."
Ron started talking then. "Well that is great, Harry. We had a wonderful holiday. Bill and Charlie were both there as well as Fred and George. We played Quidditch and had so many sweets. The food was fabulous."
Hermione spoke up, "It was really wonderful. Molly let me look at some of her magic books. She has so many books of spells for use around the house. I learned so much! I can't wait till next year when I can do magic away from school."
Ron grinned, "I'll be able to do magic this spring."
Hermione frowned, "Yes, Ron. We all know that. You have no reason to gloat though. It is only an accident of birth that allows you to turn seventeen first."
Through all this they both ignored Harry completely. He knew that it would be like this, he just didn't realize how much it would still hurt. Even his friendship with Draco, who he now felt closer to then anyone else his age, wasn't enough to dull the hurt of his friends' dismissal. He knew he was being petty. They had had a nice holiday and wanted to talk about it, but they really didn't seem very worried over how his holiday had been. They knew how his relatives were and yet after a token questioning of what had happened, forgot entirely about him. He couldn't tell them of course, but it would be nice if they showed an interest. He decided to go up to the dorm.
"Hey guys, I'm going to go upstairs. It's been a long day and I want to get some rest. Goodnight."
"Goodnight, Harry." They both chorused.
Harry trudged upstairs and got ready for bed. His thoughts were once again on Lucius. He could feel that Luc loved him and would miss him, perhaps as much as he missed Luc, but he just wanted so badly to be near him. The past couple of weeks had been so perfect. He got to spend time with Sirius again, get to know his grandfather, and be with Lucius. He was hopelessly in love with the blonde and couldn't wait to find a reason to sneak away.
As he settled into his bed and closed the curtains around himself, he wondered how he had managed to get so lucky. He had family and friends and someone to love him. They all loved him for him and not who he was. He never thought he'd find that; he thought he'd be alone forever. His eyes closed slowly and peacefully, tuning out the world around him for a few hours. As he drifted in slumber he started dreaming of those he loved and a smile stole across features made innocent in sleep. No one was there to see, but had they been they might have seen the happiness of that expression or heard the sigh of contentment he uttered. He dreamed of his Lucius.
{Harry hurried to the Study hoping that he would find Lucius there. As he entered the warm room he saw his love sitting there and ran to him. He sat gently on Lucius' lap, straddling the taller man and claiming his mouth in a brutal kiss. Harry had missed his lover and he was going to show him just how much. As they broke for air, Harry slithered down Lucius' firm body and slowly undid his trousers. He had missed Lucius a lot, but he was going to do this right. He gently took hold of the now panting man's member and slowly drew it out and into his warm, wet mouth. He licked gently at the head and then used his tongue to apply pressure as he sucked at the hard flesh. Lucius moaned and Harry hummed in pleasure at the sound causing Lucius to buck into his mouth.}
Harry awoke with a start as the other Sixth year boys came into the dorm. Harry cursed softly under his breath, hoping not to be heard. 'Damn them for making so much noise and for coming in now! Why couldn't they have waited five more minutes? It was just getting good.' Harry fell back asleep, but he had no more dreams that night. He awoke bleary eyed and cold in the early morning to Neville and Ron trying to wake him up so he wouldn't be late for class. Potions.
TBC
Sorry this took so long guys! Updates on earlier chapters are going, but slowly. I won't be posting them here I don't think, will probably just let you know when they are updated and then you can view them on my site if you wish. This chapter my muse deserted me and I had to beat it into submission! Go here to see my poor abused muse
. Just for you Jess! Awww isn't he cute?
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