REALLY SORRY!! I had to do like a million projects for school and my laptop broke for a while
BIG MESS thanks you guys here it is :)
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Chapter 3
"You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
I never meant to fade...
Away"
-Staind Fade
It felt like she had popped a pimple. Not one of those little ones that make your face bumpy,
the kind that hurt and felt like a mini volcano. Not that she knew about pimples, Lily had the most beautiful and
blemish free faces ever. The kind that should be on Phisoderm comercials and make you feel bad about yourself...but where was I
Oh yes!!!! James had just discovered Lily's secret.
"Oh Es!!! Now I have to spend a whole month with Potter. He isn't going anywhere for break so we'll be stuck together"
"Maybe it's for the best, I mean... you can work through the problem" Es' eyes were full of understanding and love for her friend.
"NO!! WHAT DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND!! IT'S GONNA BE A FUCKING MISERABLE BREAK IF HE'S HERE!!!"
She had NO idea how wrong she was.
It's been said that silence is the loudest and most painful sound of all. For Lily it was
true. James had left for the break after all.Leaving Lily alone to think about her family,
her friends and what they would be after James as a catalyst. Not fun thoughts
She needed to move. She needed to get out and do something. Stop thinking before her mind exploded
She got up off her bed and headed for the door, wearing a Starsky and Hutch tee with her sexy jean cutoffs (A/N:70's right?)
She wasn't afraid to dress like that, but she felt like she needed a wholesome image if she was to be percieved as a wholesome
*cough*prude*cough girl. She didn't want to be approached by guys and booze, both had let her down. She put on her robe and made her way
down to the kitchen. The elves always gave her a bite to eat and she enjoyed talking to them. When she went down and ate, she noticed
a large shadow in front of her (the person was behind her) much to big to be an elf. But who...?
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Lily sat in her room stunned. She had been in the middle of eating her autumn salad, mixed greens with pork, walnuts and raisins
when who had she seen, but Dumbledore!!! ( A/N You thought it was he who shall not be named huh?) It had been great to have someone to
talk to. Put thoughts other than her own in her head again. When she talked to him, she always found comfort and stability, like he
was her grandpa or something, but today he looked tired and forlorn. He had confided in Lily that Lord Voldermort's men were growing and
becoming more and more rash. There had been car bombings and threats sent to the Ministry over licences given to those with muggle blood
Images of Hitler flew into Lil's head and his "purging" If Voldermort was a Hitler with magic there was no end to the evil he could do
Now as Lily thought about it tears streamed down her face. She felt like she had a giant birthmark on her face, a brand that no spell could
undo, that made people want her blood
"I won't let them take me!" she cried to the friend who wasn't there. "They may break my body, or my home. But never my soul, never my courage"
That was before Lily knew anything about who she was to become. Who she was destined to create.
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"I love Christmas" Lily whispered as she tiptoed out of bed down to the tree in the common room. When she reached it she was completely taken aback
there was not one present from her family under the tree. There were 4. She opened the first, it was a Pensive from Dumbledore
"To get some things off your mind" his warm card had said. The second was a beautiful green dress from her mom and "sister" even though it was quite obvious
that her sister had nothing to do with it. The dress was a dark green that was a stretchy material, with long sleeves and a large dipping neck that came into a V.
This came with a pair of dainty glass heels that were a saphire tint with tiny jewels inside the shoes. The third was a ring from her dad, probably stolen, she thought
bitterly, considering the fact that she was wearing an old womans ring that was stolen late at night. She shuddered and opened the third. The fourth was gorgeous. It was
a necklace that had a giant saphire, around which magically danced tiny diamonds. But who was it from? She opened the card.
To hurt someone as fair and pure as you is a
sin above all sins that cannot simply be solved
by this gift, but I hope that this will brighten
your day in some way. You are a light Lily, in the
darkness. You deserve more than I can ever give.
Please accept this. No strings.
Love more than you know,
James
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"Where were you? study group?" Lily asked, sarcasm dripping from every syllable, trying to forget the gift.
James, who had just walked in, sighed. Lily hated it. She hated him. He was everything she couldn't have, Was afraid to take the chance on. And,
she thought, was just like her father.
"I do believe, Evans, that I have the right to go to my room right now and gather my thoughts, fair?"
She hated it when he made sense.
"Fine but take a shower. I don't want the couch to get beer and God knows what stains in this room"
James laughed, but Lily thought she saw something glisten in James' eye. Maybe he deserved the chance. Maybe she would finally
stop looking over the edge and jump. She shook her head. The vacation sure had made her nutty.
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" So, d'ya screw 'em" Sirius asked Lily during potions
"Do I look like I'm falling apart from all the STD's I'd get?" was her reply. She smiled. If Sirius wanted to be frank, she would too.
"So, where'd y'all go over the break. What poor pubs and clubs were graced with your presense of the holly?" asked Lily, changing the subject
"Are you nuts Evans? I was with the 'rents, Moody was at...well a meeting, Peter is damn annoying, and Potter was here" he replied "where would we have gone?"
"Well, I hope you know, I will find out where y'all were, and how y'all escaped those allibies. Good day" she said primly as the bell rang.
"Well you chose an essentric one, I'll give you that" Sirius yelled across the room at James
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Please DONT hate me. Computer crashed and I lost this chapter, so I had to write a short version. But chapter 4 will be worth it. Thank you to all 15 people that reviewed. I will
rewrite your thank you and stick it at the begining of 4 so I can post this
Chow. Hey, send me the name of your worst teacher. I'm gonna put one in the story. Oh yeah and a little about yourself if you want to appear in the story :)
BIG MESS thanks you guys here it is :)
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Chapter 3
"You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
I never meant to fade...
Away"
-Staind Fade
It felt like she had popped a pimple. Not one of those little ones that make your face bumpy,
the kind that hurt and felt like a mini volcano. Not that she knew about pimples, Lily had the most beautiful and
blemish free faces ever. The kind that should be on Phisoderm comercials and make you feel bad about yourself...but where was I
Oh yes!!!! James had just discovered Lily's secret.
"Oh Es!!! Now I have to spend a whole month with Potter. He isn't going anywhere for break so we'll be stuck together"
"Maybe it's for the best, I mean... you can work through the problem" Es' eyes were full of understanding and love for her friend.
"NO!! WHAT DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND!! IT'S GONNA BE A FUCKING MISERABLE BREAK IF HE'S HERE!!!"
She had NO idea how wrong she was.
It's been said that silence is the loudest and most painful sound of all. For Lily it was
true. James had left for the break after all.Leaving Lily alone to think about her family,
her friends and what they would be after James as a catalyst. Not fun thoughts
She needed to move. She needed to get out and do something. Stop thinking before her mind exploded
She got up off her bed and headed for the door, wearing a Starsky and Hutch tee with her sexy jean cutoffs (A/N:70's right?)
She wasn't afraid to dress like that, but she felt like she needed a wholesome image if she was to be percieved as a wholesome
*cough*prude*cough girl. She didn't want to be approached by guys and booze, both had let her down. She put on her robe and made her way
down to the kitchen. The elves always gave her a bite to eat and she enjoyed talking to them. When she went down and ate, she noticed
a large shadow in front of her (the person was behind her) much to big to be an elf. But who...?
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^%%%%%%%%%^^^^^^^^
Lily sat in her room stunned. She had been in the middle of eating her autumn salad, mixed greens with pork, walnuts and raisins
when who had she seen, but Dumbledore!!! ( A/N You thought it was he who shall not be named huh?) It had been great to have someone to
talk to. Put thoughts other than her own in her head again. When she talked to him, she always found comfort and stability, like he
was her grandpa or something, but today he looked tired and forlorn. He had confided in Lily that Lord Voldermort's men were growing and
becoming more and more rash. There had been car bombings and threats sent to the Ministry over licences given to those with muggle blood
Images of Hitler flew into Lil's head and his "purging" If Voldermort was a Hitler with magic there was no end to the evil he could do
Now as Lily thought about it tears streamed down her face. She felt like she had a giant birthmark on her face, a brand that no spell could
undo, that made people want her blood
"I won't let them take me!" she cried to the friend who wasn't there. "They may break my body, or my home. But never my soul, never my courage"
That was before Lily knew anything about who she was to become. Who she was destined to create.
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%^^^^^^^^^^^^
"I love Christmas" Lily whispered as she tiptoed out of bed down to the tree in the common room. When she reached it she was completely taken aback
there was not one present from her family under the tree. There were 4. She opened the first, it was a Pensive from Dumbledore
"To get some things off your mind" his warm card had said. The second was a beautiful green dress from her mom and "sister" even though it was quite obvious
that her sister had nothing to do with it. The dress was a dark green that was a stretchy material, with long sleeves and a large dipping neck that came into a V.
This came with a pair of dainty glass heels that were a saphire tint with tiny jewels inside the shoes. The third was a ring from her dad, probably stolen, she thought
bitterly, considering the fact that she was wearing an old womans ring that was stolen late at night. She shuddered and opened the third. The fourth was gorgeous. It was
a necklace that had a giant saphire, around which magically danced tiny diamonds. But who was it from? She opened the card.
To hurt someone as fair and pure as you is a
sin above all sins that cannot simply be solved
by this gift, but I hope that this will brighten
your day in some way. You are a light Lily, in the
darkness. You deserve more than I can ever give.
Please accept this. No strings.
Love more than you know,
James
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"Where were you? study group?" Lily asked, sarcasm dripping from every syllable, trying to forget the gift.
James, who had just walked in, sighed. Lily hated it. She hated him. He was everything she couldn't have, Was afraid to take the chance on. And,
she thought, was just like her father.
"I do believe, Evans, that I have the right to go to my room right now and gather my thoughts, fair?"
She hated it when he made sense.
"Fine but take a shower. I don't want the couch to get beer and God knows what stains in this room"
James laughed, but Lily thought she saw something glisten in James' eye. Maybe he deserved the chance. Maybe she would finally
stop looking over the edge and jump. She shook her head. The vacation sure had made her nutty.
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" So, d'ya screw 'em" Sirius asked Lily during potions
"Do I look like I'm falling apart from all the STD's I'd get?" was her reply. She smiled. If Sirius wanted to be frank, she would too.
"So, where'd y'all go over the break. What poor pubs and clubs were graced with your presense of the holly?" asked Lily, changing the subject
"Are you nuts Evans? I was with the 'rents, Moody was at...well a meeting, Peter is damn annoying, and Potter was here" he replied "where would we have gone?"
"Well, I hope you know, I will find out where y'all were, and how y'all escaped those allibies. Good day" she said primly as the bell rang.
"Well you chose an essentric one, I'll give you that" Sirius yelled across the room at James
((((((((((((((((((((())))))))))))))))))))))))))(((((((((((((((((())))))))))))))))))))))(((((((((((((((((((())))))))))))))))((((((((((())))))))))
Please DONT hate me. Computer crashed and I lost this chapter, so I had to write a short version. But chapter 4 will be worth it. Thank you to all 15 people that reviewed. I will
rewrite your thank you and stick it at the begining of 4 so I can post this
Chow. Hey, send me the name of your worst teacher. I'm gonna put one in the story. Oh yeah and a little about yourself if you want to appear in the story :)