Aug 16, 1988
It is just barely pass midnight, and I had already awoken for the day. It is sad that I cannot sleep for more than three or four hours at a time. As I am staying in Albus' guestroom until tomorrow, I dared not leave my room. I imagine he would hear me if I did. Him or the gray striped tabby cat asleep on the couch in the sitting room.
I ended up spending almost two weeks in the jail cell at the Ministry of Magic. It seemed that there were complications and problems with people's time schedules in getting me a hearing. It upset Albus and Minerva greatly. I figured that if it meant I could live the rest of my life as I wanted, then I could spend a week or two relaxing there. I had been given my books to study. Both Albus and Minerva visited daily. It was enough to keep me occupied.
Albus knows about the nightmares now. Seems that I scared the guards with my yelling after a particularly bad one. He found out, of course. I doubt there is much he doesn't know that occurs. After that incident, one or the other of them seemed to show up around midnight to visit me. They seemed to know that was when I generally woke up from them.
My door has just quietly opened. Albus is standing there, Minerva in her cat form at his feet.
"My dear boy, if you don't sleep, you will succeed in doing what all the years of helping me did not - destroy yourself. You barely sleep three hours a night. Go back to bed, Severus."
"You know it will do no good. Writing down my thoughts soothes me, Albus, and at least my body rests. I will be alright," I replied.
He looks at me, smiles sadly, and then closes the door, leaving Minerva in the room with me. She transfigures back into her human form.
"I am going to play dirty, Severus. He is exhausted. He worries about you. You do not realize it, but he spends half the night sitting in a chair hoping you don't dream. When he hears you wake, it hurts him. He feels guilty, knowing that you are dreaming of the things that happened when you where a spy."
Albus is worried about me. He has too many things to worry about. I leave my writings and go to the bed. I silently slide under the covers. She comes and sits in the chair next to me for a bit, watching me. As I drift off to sleep again, I hear a rustling of clothing, and feel a warm wait curl up against me. I open my eyes and smile at the cat now on my bed. Reaching out, I pet her for a moment, and then fall asleep.
I didn't dream again. The next morning when I woke, I was alone. When I went into the sitting room to see about breakfast, I saw why. It was almost lunchtime. I feel so much better having slept that much. Hopefully, Albus slept a decent amount too.
I have to go down to the dungeons now. Albus wants me to look at a set of rooms down there and discuss what I will be doing as I will be living at the school.
It is just barely pass midnight, and I had already awoken for the day. It is sad that I cannot sleep for more than three or four hours at a time. As I am staying in Albus' guestroom until tomorrow, I dared not leave my room. I imagine he would hear me if I did. Him or the gray striped tabby cat asleep on the couch in the sitting room.
I ended up spending almost two weeks in the jail cell at the Ministry of Magic. It seemed that there were complications and problems with people's time schedules in getting me a hearing. It upset Albus and Minerva greatly. I figured that if it meant I could live the rest of my life as I wanted, then I could spend a week or two relaxing there. I had been given my books to study. Both Albus and Minerva visited daily. It was enough to keep me occupied.
Albus knows about the nightmares now. Seems that I scared the guards with my yelling after a particularly bad one. He found out, of course. I doubt there is much he doesn't know that occurs. After that incident, one or the other of them seemed to show up around midnight to visit me. They seemed to know that was when I generally woke up from them.
My door has just quietly opened. Albus is standing there, Minerva in her cat form at his feet.
"My dear boy, if you don't sleep, you will succeed in doing what all the years of helping me did not - destroy yourself. You barely sleep three hours a night. Go back to bed, Severus."
"You know it will do no good. Writing down my thoughts soothes me, Albus, and at least my body rests. I will be alright," I replied.
He looks at me, smiles sadly, and then closes the door, leaving Minerva in the room with me. She transfigures back into her human form.
"I am going to play dirty, Severus. He is exhausted. He worries about you. You do not realize it, but he spends half the night sitting in a chair hoping you don't dream. When he hears you wake, it hurts him. He feels guilty, knowing that you are dreaming of the things that happened when you where a spy."
Albus is worried about me. He has too many things to worry about. I leave my writings and go to the bed. I silently slide under the covers. She comes and sits in the chair next to me for a bit, watching me. As I drift off to sleep again, I hear a rustling of clothing, and feel a warm wait curl up against me. I open my eyes and smile at the cat now on my bed. Reaching out, I pet her for a moment, and then fall asleep.
I didn't dream again. The next morning when I woke, I was alone. When I went into the sitting room to see about breakfast, I saw why. It was almost lunchtime. I feel so much better having slept that much. Hopefully, Albus slept a decent amount too.
I have to go down to the dungeons now. Albus wants me to look at a set of rooms down there and discuss what I will be doing as I will be living at the school.