Disclaimer: I do not own the Newsies. They are owned by Disney. *cries* I
wished I owned the Newsies, hehe. I also don't own any of the other
character's except Blue! Blue is the only thing in this story that I own,
hehe.
(A/N: If you would like to add dramatic affect to this chapter (even though it's already kind of sad) listen to a slow or sad song, hehe, just some thought.)
Shout Outs: THANKS EVERYONE. I LOVE YOU ALL!
Zippy: MUSH: Hey! I'm not bugging anyone! Actually you are Mush. I know, I didn't intend Mush to be annoying or anything; I just wanted him to be really, REALLY stupid, hehe. It's fun making him annoying.
Trigger: You don't read! You better read this chapter because there WILL be a quiz.
Fantasy: It's okay that you didn't review in a while. I forgive you, hehe. I still love ya. Thanks so much for reviewing! Everyone in my story seems so sweet, well just Snoddy, Blink and um, hmm, oh yeah, SKITTERY! Hehe.
Fait: I didn't know when your (real) birthday but I just thought I would put something sweet in about you too. You guys make the cutest couple, after Blink and I of course, hehe, j/k. I'll im you sometime, whenever I get online, hehe. I haven't been on in the past week, stupid school work!
Poker: My story is that funny? Wow! That makes me feel so good! Well hate to say this but there will be another, yes another sad chapter coming. Basically from now till the end, a lot of the chapters will be kind of sad, hehe, but there will be funny parts to them.
Taps: Thanks for reviewing! I'm glad you enjoyed it and found it cute, hehe!
Cards: Tumbler is a good kiddo. So cute. You just want to pinch his cheeks at times, hehe. Thanks for reviewing! It means a lot to me.
Onyx: *yells* you love my fic? COOL! Thanks! I'm glad to see love it, hehe. That boasts my confidence and makes me want to write and put my chapters out faster! The more reviews, the faster the chapters are out, hehe! Thanks again for reviewing.
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"Dat's where I use tah live." She said pointing to a building across the street. It had boarded up windows and doors. Signs saying Keep Out. "Dat's where we will be staying if you don't mind."
"No, not at all." She carefully crossed the street and stood outside the door.
"I use tah sit on these steps every morning and watch da sun rise. I would play with da stones and hop over da cracks in da pavement. This was home." She said looking up at the beat up old house. "This was my life, and it was gone so quickly." She stood for a little while and then headed towards the door. She pulled slightly on the wood, which opened just enough for us to get in. Once inside it was so dark, damp and dusty. You could barely see anything. The only source of light was coming through the cracks of wood. Blue pulled out a little light and lit it. Finally we should see a little better. On the floors were blankets and pieces of fabric.
"Our beds are still here." I was assuming that the sheets were her bed. "We use tah spend our nights talking tah one another. Over in dat corner there is where we ate most of our meals dat we found or were given. Our bathroom is located in da back of da house, outside, and right here is where we slept. Da blankets and everything are still here." She walked through the one room house. I just so happened to look at the window and underneath it I saw something I didn't expect to see. A Bible. I walked over to it and picked it up.
"Can you read this?" I asked.
"No, my mother use tah read it tah me all da time. Especially after my father died, I grew very angry wid God and hated everything about him. Well my mother was a Christian and started reading dat tah me tah get my life back on track. I pray tah God sometimes but I don't read it anymore. Mostly because it's here but even if it was wid me, it doesn't really have any meaning tah me." (A/N: I AM a Christian (LOVE RELIENT K.) Just because of this part don't think I'm against God or anything, lol)
"You mean tah tell me you don't believe in any of this?"
"I don't see da point."
"Why? God does such wonderful things. This book is so useful. It has such great meaning. Blue, God woiks in wonderful ways. Everyday dat is given tah you is a gift from God. These words in here are very meaningful and powerful. God doesn't woik against you, he woiks for you."
"Then why did he take my father away?"
"Blue you can't blame God for dat. God placed your father on this earth for good reason, and dat was tah bring you into this world. I know God had great plans for your father but I guess your father just felt it was time. You can't go against God just because he didn't save your father? Maybe there's a reason behind it."
"Yeah I'se sure there's a great reason behind my father dying."
"Blue, life is something very special. Everything happens in life for a reason. Your father dying, your mother leaving, and you going tah 'Hattan, it all happened for a reason. You may not know it now but you will later in life. Blue all da bad things in life open your eyes tah da good. Now your past was bad I understand but look at you now. You're stronger than ever, and it brought you into my life. If I die tomorrow, there's one thing dat I want you tah do, don't shut God out of your life. He forgives your father for what he did; now you have tah forgive him too."
"You know I didn't bring you here tah preach tah me. I'll accept God into my life when I'se ready and now's just not da time. So if you excuse me, I have tah go see my father." Blue walked out of the house and headed down the street. I followed close behind her. I wanted to give her the space that she needed. This was her time with her father and I didn't want to be an interference. We walked for what seemed like a mile. Blue stopped and grabbed some flowers out of the ground as she headed towards a church. As she reached the graveyard she stopped, took a deep breath and headed towards the corner. Her father didn't have a tombstone; just a rock was placed into the ground. I'm guessing it came from her mother. Blue stopped suddenly and slowly began to shake. She looked down at the ground. For a moment everything drew quiet, and nothing moved. I heard her begin to sniffle and I knew she was about to cry. I wanted to leave her alone until she needed me. She fell to her knees as she placed the flowers beside the rock.
"Hi Daddy, its Becca. I've really missed. I've been thinking about you everyday. Sometimes I talk tah you before I go tah bed. I wish you were here Daddy. Things have been so hard for me. I still have da necklace you and Mommy gave me. I wear it everyday and I never take it off. I do what you tell me. When I'se scared I grab a hold of it and pretend tah be a butterfly. Sometimes I wish I could just fly away and be wid you. But dat's silly because I know your right here wid me. So much has happened tah me since I've visited you last. I'se living in 'Hattan wid Trigger. Yes she still is wid Snitch. I met a great guy Daddy. You would have loved him. He's such a gentleman. He's here right now if you want tah talk tah him." She turned to me. "Come here Blink. Daddy this is James Little, but everyone calls him Kid Blink."
"Hi Mr. Carmady. You have a great daughter. She misses you so much. I wish I could have met you. You're daughter is so wonderful and beautiful, I just wish I could have seen da man dat she got it from." A few tears now were now rolling down both my cheeks and Blue's.
"Daddy why did you have tah go?" She was crying really hard now. "Daddy I try so hard tah be da person dat you want me tah be but it's so hard. I've made so many mistakes and I'se so sorry! I love you Daddy. Sometimes I just want die so I can be wid you and maybe Mommy. I don't even know where Mommy is. I try tah live life tah da fullest everyday but it's so hard Daddy. It's just so hard." She finally controlled her crying. "I promise you Daddy, dat I will grow up tah be da girl dat you want me tah be. I will be back tomorrow Daddy wid a poem dat I'se going tah write for you. I love you so much." She looked up in the clouds above. "God, please keep my Daddy safe. Take care of him. He means da world tah me. I know I haven't been da greatest but it's hard when you have no one tah guide you. To tell you what's wrong from right. I'se slowly learning but it's hard. So God, I just ask dat you please watch over Daddy. Thank you." She slowly stood up.
"Goodbye Daddy." She turned around and headed back to the house. I once again followed behind, giving her space. Once we reached the house it started to rain. We both ran in and she lit a candle. She sat down on the floor and stared into the flame.
"Blue?" She looked up at me. "I'm very proud of you. You did something dat I know was hard for you. You're a strong girl and I know dat your father would be proud of you."
"Sometimes I just want tah scream and start crying, just tah fall upon my knees. I wish I could find a way tah lie about a home I'll never see. It's so hard because I really miss him. Every Christmas he used tah just give me this little piece of wood wid drawings on. I know it doesn't sound like much but it meant so much tah me. I use tah sit on this lap while we were outside on da steps and he would rock me back and forth as we watched da sun set. He was great guy and now he's gone."
"Blue, its okay. You're handling this so well. This happens tah everyone. Even da best. Even those dat we call heroes have da right tah cry, scream, bleed and dream. You're just like everyone else, searching for dat dream. Because your father died, it has made you da person dat you are. It has made you so strong. Don't ever be afraid of fall on your knees and cry at times. Everyone has da right too."
"Blink will you teach me tah write?" She asked.
"Of course." I looked around but wasn't about to find anything. Then I remember that I kept a journal. I grabbed a piece of paper and a pencil. "Here hold this in your hand like this." I grabbed her hand and guided it on the paper. "What would you like to write?"
"Will you help me wid da words?" She said looking at me.
"Yes. Here let's start it off like this." I slowly helped her write the beginning of her poem. "See it's not dat hard." I said whispering into her ear. You could hear the rain outside and all we had was the little candlelight. She turned her head and looked at me. My head was only a few inches from hers, being as I was leaning over her.
"Blink? Thanks so much for being here wid me. You don't have any idea how much it means tah me." When she said that a crack of thunder could be heard a mile away. She dropped the pencil and put her hands on my face. She slowly began to kiss me. I was not expecting this at all. Her hands slowly moved down my back and she was pulling me towards the floor. Before I knew it I was laying on top of her, kind of like how it was when we first met accept switched. I felt myself becoming lost in her kiss. As the kiss ended, I looked at the twinkle in her piercing brown eyes. We both looked at each other breathing heavily. "Blink I don't want you tah do something you're not ready for."
"I'se ready if you're willing tah let me." She looked up at me with a huge smile. She shook her head yes. I leaned down and started kissing her softly. My stomach started to fill with more butterflies than I could possibly imagine. The moment that every guy wants in now here, the moment that I wanted since the day I laid eyes on Blue. I was about to see what life is like in Mush's world.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ That is the end of chapter 9!!!! Can you believe I actually got tears in my eyes, and I wrote the story! Well I'm listening to Canon in D (Pachebel's Canon) and reading parts of this just made me want to cry, hehe. I love that song. I'm a big classical/piano freak, but anyways. I bet you guys can guess what Chapter 10 is about. Chapter 10 is just going to be dedicated to Blink and Blue, and there own scene together. It's not going to be long, but it's going to be a song fic type chapter. So it's going to be short but powerful in a way, I guess. Chapter 11 is when Blue goes back to visit her dad with the poem. That is going to be a sad chapter as well. Sorry, but expect my chapters from now on to be kind of sad. Here's what is coming up in the next few chapters:
~~~ Blue and Blink share a special moment.
~~~ Blue share's her poem.
~~~ Another prank happens.
~~~ Poker returns with a shocking secret.
~~~ Kane returns with news that will change Blink's life.
~~~ What REALLY happens between Skittery and Blue?
~~~ How does Blink handle rage?
(A/N: If you would like to add dramatic affect to this chapter (even though it's already kind of sad) listen to a slow or sad song, hehe, just some thought.)
Shout Outs: THANKS EVERYONE. I LOVE YOU ALL!
Zippy: MUSH: Hey! I'm not bugging anyone! Actually you are Mush. I know, I didn't intend Mush to be annoying or anything; I just wanted him to be really, REALLY stupid, hehe. It's fun making him annoying.
Trigger: You don't read! You better read this chapter because there WILL be a quiz.
Fantasy: It's okay that you didn't review in a while. I forgive you, hehe. I still love ya. Thanks so much for reviewing! Everyone in my story seems so sweet, well just Snoddy, Blink and um, hmm, oh yeah, SKITTERY! Hehe.
Fait: I didn't know when your (real) birthday but I just thought I would put something sweet in about you too. You guys make the cutest couple, after Blink and I of course, hehe, j/k. I'll im you sometime, whenever I get online, hehe. I haven't been on in the past week, stupid school work!
Poker: My story is that funny? Wow! That makes me feel so good! Well hate to say this but there will be another, yes another sad chapter coming. Basically from now till the end, a lot of the chapters will be kind of sad, hehe, but there will be funny parts to them.
Taps: Thanks for reviewing! I'm glad you enjoyed it and found it cute, hehe!
Cards: Tumbler is a good kiddo. So cute. You just want to pinch his cheeks at times, hehe. Thanks for reviewing! It means a lot to me.
Onyx: *yells* you love my fic? COOL! Thanks! I'm glad to see love it, hehe. That boasts my confidence and makes me want to write and put my chapters out faster! The more reviews, the faster the chapters are out, hehe! Thanks again for reviewing.
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"Dat's where I use tah live." She said pointing to a building across the street. It had boarded up windows and doors. Signs saying Keep Out. "Dat's where we will be staying if you don't mind."
"No, not at all." She carefully crossed the street and stood outside the door.
"I use tah sit on these steps every morning and watch da sun rise. I would play with da stones and hop over da cracks in da pavement. This was home." She said looking up at the beat up old house. "This was my life, and it was gone so quickly." She stood for a little while and then headed towards the door. She pulled slightly on the wood, which opened just enough for us to get in. Once inside it was so dark, damp and dusty. You could barely see anything. The only source of light was coming through the cracks of wood. Blue pulled out a little light and lit it. Finally we should see a little better. On the floors were blankets and pieces of fabric.
"Our beds are still here." I was assuming that the sheets were her bed. "We use tah spend our nights talking tah one another. Over in dat corner there is where we ate most of our meals dat we found or were given. Our bathroom is located in da back of da house, outside, and right here is where we slept. Da blankets and everything are still here." She walked through the one room house. I just so happened to look at the window and underneath it I saw something I didn't expect to see. A Bible. I walked over to it and picked it up.
"Can you read this?" I asked.
"No, my mother use tah read it tah me all da time. Especially after my father died, I grew very angry wid God and hated everything about him. Well my mother was a Christian and started reading dat tah me tah get my life back on track. I pray tah God sometimes but I don't read it anymore. Mostly because it's here but even if it was wid me, it doesn't really have any meaning tah me." (A/N: I AM a Christian (LOVE RELIENT K.) Just because of this part don't think I'm against God or anything, lol)
"You mean tah tell me you don't believe in any of this?"
"I don't see da point."
"Why? God does such wonderful things. This book is so useful. It has such great meaning. Blue, God woiks in wonderful ways. Everyday dat is given tah you is a gift from God. These words in here are very meaningful and powerful. God doesn't woik against you, he woiks for you."
"Then why did he take my father away?"
"Blue you can't blame God for dat. God placed your father on this earth for good reason, and dat was tah bring you into this world. I know God had great plans for your father but I guess your father just felt it was time. You can't go against God just because he didn't save your father? Maybe there's a reason behind it."
"Yeah I'se sure there's a great reason behind my father dying."
"Blue, life is something very special. Everything happens in life for a reason. Your father dying, your mother leaving, and you going tah 'Hattan, it all happened for a reason. You may not know it now but you will later in life. Blue all da bad things in life open your eyes tah da good. Now your past was bad I understand but look at you now. You're stronger than ever, and it brought you into my life. If I die tomorrow, there's one thing dat I want you tah do, don't shut God out of your life. He forgives your father for what he did; now you have tah forgive him too."
"You know I didn't bring you here tah preach tah me. I'll accept God into my life when I'se ready and now's just not da time. So if you excuse me, I have tah go see my father." Blue walked out of the house and headed down the street. I followed close behind her. I wanted to give her the space that she needed. This was her time with her father and I didn't want to be an interference. We walked for what seemed like a mile. Blue stopped and grabbed some flowers out of the ground as she headed towards a church. As she reached the graveyard she stopped, took a deep breath and headed towards the corner. Her father didn't have a tombstone; just a rock was placed into the ground. I'm guessing it came from her mother. Blue stopped suddenly and slowly began to shake. She looked down at the ground. For a moment everything drew quiet, and nothing moved. I heard her begin to sniffle and I knew she was about to cry. I wanted to leave her alone until she needed me. She fell to her knees as she placed the flowers beside the rock.
"Hi Daddy, its Becca. I've really missed. I've been thinking about you everyday. Sometimes I talk tah you before I go tah bed. I wish you were here Daddy. Things have been so hard for me. I still have da necklace you and Mommy gave me. I wear it everyday and I never take it off. I do what you tell me. When I'se scared I grab a hold of it and pretend tah be a butterfly. Sometimes I wish I could just fly away and be wid you. But dat's silly because I know your right here wid me. So much has happened tah me since I've visited you last. I'se living in 'Hattan wid Trigger. Yes she still is wid Snitch. I met a great guy Daddy. You would have loved him. He's such a gentleman. He's here right now if you want tah talk tah him." She turned to me. "Come here Blink. Daddy this is James Little, but everyone calls him Kid Blink."
"Hi Mr. Carmady. You have a great daughter. She misses you so much. I wish I could have met you. You're daughter is so wonderful and beautiful, I just wish I could have seen da man dat she got it from." A few tears now were now rolling down both my cheeks and Blue's.
"Daddy why did you have tah go?" She was crying really hard now. "Daddy I try so hard tah be da person dat you want me tah be but it's so hard. I've made so many mistakes and I'se so sorry! I love you Daddy. Sometimes I just want die so I can be wid you and maybe Mommy. I don't even know where Mommy is. I try tah live life tah da fullest everyday but it's so hard Daddy. It's just so hard." She finally controlled her crying. "I promise you Daddy, dat I will grow up tah be da girl dat you want me tah be. I will be back tomorrow Daddy wid a poem dat I'se going tah write for you. I love you so much." She looked up in the clouds above. "God, please keep my Daddy safe. Take care of him. He means da world tah me. I know I haven't been da greatest but it's hard when you have no one tah guide you. To tell you what's wrong from right. I'se slowly learning but it's hard. So God, I just ask dat you please watch over Daddy. Thank you." She slowly stood up.
"Goodbye Daddy." She turned around and headed back to the house. I once again followed behind, giving her space. Once we reached the house it started to rain. We both ran in and she lit a candle. She sat down on the floor and stared into the flame.
"Blue?" She looked up at me. "I'm very proud of you. You did something dat I know was hard for you. You're a strong girl and I know dat your father would be proud of you."
"Sometimes I just want tah scream and start crying, just tah fall upon my knees. I wish I could find a way tah lie about a home I'll never see. It's so hard because I really miss him. Every Christmas he used tah just give me this little piece of wood wid drawings on. I know it doesn't sound like much but it meant so much tah me. I use tah sit on this lap while we were outside on da steps and he would rock me back and forth as we watched da sun set. He was great guy and now he's gone."
"Blue, its okay. You're handling this so well. This happens tah everyone. Even da best. Even those dat we call heroes have da right tah cry, scream, bleed and dream. You're just like everyone else, searching for dat dream. Because your father died, it has made you da person dat you are. It has made you so strong. Don't ever be afraid of fall on your knees and cry at times. Everyone has da right too."
"Blink will you teach me tah write?" She asked.
"Of course." I looked around but wasn't about to find anything. Then I remember that I kept a journal. I grabbed a piece of paper and a pencil. "Here hold this in your hand like this." I grabbed her hand and guided it on the paper. "What would you like to write?"
"Will you help me wid da words?" She said looking at me.
"Yes. Here let's start it off like this." I slowly helped her write the beginning of her poem. "See it's not dat hard." I said whispering into her ear. You could hear the rain outside and all we had was the little candlelight. She turned her head and looked at me. My head was only a few inches from hers, being as I was leaning over her.
"Blink? Thanks so much for being here wid me. You don't have any idea how much it means tah me." When she said that a crack of thunder could be heard a mile away. She dropped the pencil and put her hands on my face. She slowly began to kiss me. I was not expecting this at all. Her hands slowly moved down my back and she was pulling me towards the floor. Before I knew it I was laying on top of her, kind of like how it was when we first met accept switched. I felt myself becoming lost in her kiss. As the kiss ended, I looked at the twinkle in her piercing brown eyes. We both looked at each other breathing heavily. "Blink I don't want you tah do something you're not ready for."
"I'se ready if you're willing tah let me." She looked up at me with a huge smile. She shook her head yes. I leaned down and started kissing her softly. My stomach started to fill with more butterflies than I could possibly imagine. The moment that every guy wants in now here, the moment that I wanted since the day I laid eyes on Blue. I was about to see what life is like in Mush's world.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ That is the end of chapter 9!!!! Can you believe I actually got tears in my eyes, and I wrote the story! Well I'm listening to Canon in D (Pachebel's Canon) and reading parts of this just made me want to cry, hehe. I love that song. I'm a big classical/piano freak, but anyways. I bet you guys can guess what Chapter 10 is about. Chapter 10 is just going to be dedicated to Blink and Blue, and there own scene together. It's not going to be long, but it's going to be a song fic type chapter. So it's going to be short but powerful in a way, I guess. Chapter 11 is when Blue goes back to visit her dad with the poem. That is going to be a sad chapter as well. Sorry, but expect my chapters from now on to be kind of sad. Here's what is coming up in the next few chapters:
~~~ Blue and Blink share a special moment.
~~~ Blue share's her poem.
~~~ Another prank happens.
~~~ Poker returns with a shocking secret.
~~~ Kane returns with news that will change Blink's life.
~~~ What REALLY happens between Skittery and Blue?
~~~ How does Blink handle rage?