Disclaimer: I do not own the Newsies. They are owned by Disney. *cries* I
wished I owned the Newsies, hehe. I also don't own any of the other
character's except Blue! Blue is the only thing in this story that I own,
hehe.
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This is it guys, the last and final chapter. My first fic is completed!
Shout outs:
Fantasy: It's because of you and Zippy that I'm updating so soon. I didn't want to leave you guys hanging so I updated as soon as I could. Thanks so much for reading all this time. You are so awesome and your reviews meant the world to me.
Zippy: You have been the only person from this story (other than Trigger, but she's my sister) that has reviewed every chapter. That really means a lot to me. Thanks so much for letting me use your character. I couldn't have made the story without you. You have added so much to it and made it great. Thanks for all your wonderful reviews.
Trigger: Whelp, it's my last chapter. You had a lot to do with the story as well. You helped me out so much. You reviewed, you corrected and you inspired. You're just so wonderful and the greatest sister ever. Thanks for everything!
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The gun fell from my hands as I covered my mouth. I just shot Blue! Oh my God. Skittery ran to her side as I just stood there in shock.
"Oh my God Blue!" I ran to her side beside Skittery. Blue was holding the spot where the bullet had hit her. Skittery took off his jacket and gave it to Blue to hold on the spot where the wound was.
"Blink I'm goin' tah try and find help. Please take care of her!" Skittery got up and ran to look for help. I just looked down at Blue with tears in my eyes.
"Blue I'm so sorry!" I said forcing the words out of my mouth. "Don't worry, you're goin' tah be okay. Skittery is going tah get you help. Help! Someone!" I yelled.
"Bllink." She said shaking. "It's gonnaa be be okay. I'm alright."
"No Blue we are goin' tah get you help. Help someone!" I continued to scream.
"Blink." She reached up and pulled my face towards her. "Stop. I don't want anyone helpin' me. I'm gonna be fine." She said coughing.
"Blue I'm so sorry." I said crying. She started wiping my tears away.
"Blink, it's okay. I forgive you. I'm so sorry about what happened earlier." Tears were falling down her cheeks.
"Blue it wasn't your fault! I'm sorry for actin' da way dat I did. I believe you now, I really do."
"Dat was in da past Blink. I'm not worryin' about it anymore. If anythin' I'm sorry for messin' up your life."
"You never messed up my life Blue. If anythin' you made it better."
"Ouch." She said whimpering. I could see Skittery running in the distance.
"Blue I will be right back." I said getting up and running over to Skittery.
"Did you find anyone?"
"No Kid, I'm sorry. No one is willin' tah help unless we have da money tah pay for it."
"We have da money Skittery, we do. I'll go ask da guys and..."
"Blink, stop. There's nothin' we can do for her. Now I don't know how much time we have with her but if it's okay with you, I'm just gonna go over there and pay my respect tah her." Skittery said to me. I gave him a nod. I watched him as he sat down beside Blue. I wiped away a few tears. Why does love make you so crazy? Why does it drive you insane?
"Hey beautiful." Skittery said to Blue pushing her bangs out of her face.
"Skittery stop, you're makin' me blush."
"Look Blue I'm so sorry for what I did back there. Dat wasn't right of me and..."
"Skittery, its okay. I still love you." She just looked up at Skittery and smiled. "Take care of James for me okay."
"I don't need tah because you're goin' too."
"Please." She said holding back her tears.
"Of course I will." He kissed her forehead.
"And Trigger."
"I promise." He said grabbing her hand. "Blue I love you." He said crying on her shoulder.
"Skittery listen tah me. I've loved you since da day dat I met you. You're such a wonderful guy. Skittery you have been there for me through everythin', thick and thin. I couldn't have asked for a better friend than you. I'm sorry dat you never got da chance dat you wanted with me but trust me Skittery, you would have liked it better if we were just friends. You're goin' tah make some girl very happy someday. Don't ever lose touch of who you are. Don't change for anyone Skittery because some girl is goin' tah fall madly in love with you. I know dat I would. Thanks for everythin' Skittery. There's nothin' in dis world dat I can ever repay you with."
"Oh but Blue you already did repay me. You repaid me with your heart. Blue I would give up everythin' dat I own just tah be friends with you. I would much rather be your friend than your lover. Tah be lovers you have tah have a special bond, but tah be friends, now dat's somethin' you can always cherish and have. Lover break apart, but friends are forever." Skittery leaned down and kissed Blue on her forehead once more.
"Take care Becca Carmady. See dat boy over there? I'm goin' tah leave you alone with him. I've had my time with you Blue, it's time tah give it up tah someone else." Holding Blue's hand so tightly Skittery got up and just looked at her, tears falling down his cheeks.
"Goodbye Blue."
"Dis isn't goodbye Skittery, goodbye's are sad. It's more like I'll see you later." He tried to smile, holding back tears.
"Then I'll see you later." Her fingers slid out of his hand as he walked over to me.
"I'm goin' back tah da lodgin' house tah break da news tah Trigger."
"Please don't bring her down here. I don't want her tah see Blue like dis."
"I won't. She's all yours Kid. Take care of her." He slowly turned but Blue yelled for him.
"Skittery?" He turned around.
"Yeah Blue."
"Look after Zippy okay? Please give her a chance. Dat's my last wish tah you. She's a great girl. Give her your heart da way you gave it tah me." She said smiling.
"I will." Skittery turned and walked away. Dat was the last time Skittery ever saw Blue. I slowly walked over to Blue.
"Are you okay? Are you gonna get up?" I said mimicking Blue's voice the first time we met.
"Stop Blink. It hurts tah laugh." She said smiling.
"There's dat smile dat I fell in love with." I was rubbing her cheeks softly, wiping tears away at the same time.
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when sky's are gray. You never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away." I sang to her.
"I never heard you sing before. You have a wonderful voice."
"Well dat's a talent I like tah keep private. Can you believe dis weather? It was so beautiful earlier. With da risin' of da sun, not a cloud could be found within da sky. It seemed like da perfect day. Sun shinin' ever so brightly. Now it's starting tah rain. And look at those clouds. Dis is like da first day we met. Da sun was shinin' and da next thing you know it was rainin'."
"I can't believe we are talkin' about da weather." She said giggling a little. "So what do you have planned for yourself Mr. James."
"Well I'm goin' tah take care of you until you get better, then I'm gonna go back tah school for a while, visit you every weekend, and once school is done, buy us a house, and we can raise our kids."
"Dat's a great dream and all Blink but you know dat your future isn't goin' tah include me."
"Of course it will Blue! You're goin' tah be fine. You're goin' tah get through dis!"
"Blink, face da facts. I'm dyin' Blink. And I don't want tah spend my last minutes on dis earth in tears. I would rather die now knowin' dat I spent everyday dat I had lovin' you and bein' with you, than livin' forever and not knowin' you. Blink, da time dat you have spent with me means more tah me than you'll ever know. I love you with all my heart and soul. You're so handsome, amazin', wonderful, kind, sweet; da list can go on forever. Blink I'm sorry our lives together has tah end dis way, but I'm truly sorry for what I put you through. I've loved you since da day dat I met you and I will continue tah love you. I may not be here physically, but I will always be with you. I'll be in your heart and mind forever. I'll be lookin' out for you as long as you need me too. And you can always talk tah me, because you know where you can find me. I'm not goin' tah leave you Blink until I know dat you're goin' tah be happy. When I die Blink, please move on. Find dat special girl dat's waitin' for you. Give her your heart because you're too great tah spend life by yourself. I want you tah go tah school, get a good job, become a husband and da fatha dat you always wanted tah be. Do dat for me Blink, please. My last wishes tah you are dat when I die; please put me beside my fatha, so I can be with him once again."
"Aren't you scared Becca? Why are you talkin' like dis?"
"Because Blink, I'm not afraid tah die. Like I told you before, I try tah live each and everyday as if it was my last and my time as come. I'm not afraid because I know I lived life tah da fullest. I don't regret anythin'. God brought you into my life Blink for a reason and dat reason was tah know what love is and tah feel it, and I have felt it with you. Dat face of yours is what I'm goin' tah see for eternity. Now dat's kind of scary."
"Hey." I said sarcastically.
"I'm kiddin' ya!" She said rubbing the side of my face. She grabbed my hand and held it tightly. "Thanks for everythin' you have done for me James. Thanks for makin' my life worth livin'." I couldn't help myself now. I just started crying.
"I love you Becca Carmady!" I placed my head on her shoulders and cried. She ran her fingers through my hair crying with me. After a while I finally looked at her. I pulled a poem out of my back pocket.
"Dis was a poem dat I wrote about you da first time we met. I wrote it dat night dat you were sleepin' at my house. I would like for you tah read it." I gave it to her as she read it out loud.
"As da golden rays of sunlight, caress your beautiful face, I sometimes sit and wonder, or even stare off into space. I wonder if dis is really true, could I be blessed dis way? Some day I'd like tah know, why I was lucky dis day. It's true, I have been blessed, for within you, there is quite a sight, deep within your amazin' eyes, there is a heavenly light. Though da years may pass, and you'll grow through time, you'll always be with me, in my heart, and in my mind." She placed the poem down on the ground. She pulled me to her and kissed me softly. It was short but it was meaning full.
"I want you tah have dis." She took off her butterfly necklace and gave it to me. "Now you will always remember me."
"I can't take dis Becca." She closed my hand tightly around the necklace.
"Take it James." I held it tightly as I looked at her. She smiled briefly, closed her eyes and looked back up at me.
"You know how you always wanted tah be a butterfly? Well you're dream has come dream Becca. You'll finally get tah be dat butterfly, and fly away from here." She smiled once more and as she did, a blue butterfly landed on her hand. She looked at it, smiled and looked at me. I couldn't help but smile back. God must have sent the butterfly to signal that she will be alright; the butterfly had come to take her home.
"I love you James Thomas Little." She said smiling at me.
"I love you Becca Carmady." At that moment she closed her and everything stopped. The butterfly flew away signaling that she was finally free from this cruel world. The rain had stopped and the sun shone through the clouds. A beautiful rainbow had appeared, and the girl I loved was gone.
"Becca." I began to shake her. "Becca wake up. Please." I began to cry. "Becca please wake up. Please! No. Your gonna be okay." I continued to shake her calmly. "No!" I screamed. "Becca wake up, please. We are gonna get through dis. We are goin' tah marry in da church dat your fatha and muddah married in, and we are goin' tah have children together, just like Tumbler. Becca please don't leave me alone. Please! You're all dat I have. I need you. Becca I love you, please come back." I placed my head on her shoulder and cried for what seemed like forever. I continued to hold the necklace that she had given me. Evening had finally come and I headed back to the lodging house. I walked in to see Tag holding on to Trigger. I looked over at Skittery who had a helpless look on his face. I shook my head yes and Trigger started bawling. Snitch took over Tag's place and held Trigger tight while she wept. That was my last night in 'Hattan. I hadn't returned since, until now. That night I took Becca to Hayes Park and buried her beside her father.
It's April 24th, 1911, and for the first time in 22 years, the sun shown brightly all day, not a cloud in the sky, not even the slightest breeze was felt in the air. There was just something about this day that sent chills up anyone's spine and in some strange way, you felt a huge burden lifted off your shoulders. It was almost haunting. It was something that the people of Burlington, New Jersey never saw before, nor felt. With the rising of the sun, not a cloud could be found within the sky. It seemed like the perfect day, until noon. Without warning the sky would suddenly fill with dark gray clouds and begin to pour with rain. It would continue for many hours until dusk, when the sky would clear up, clouds disappear, and a rainbow would appear above. The reason behind this was it symbolizes the day Becca died. The weather, the smell, the feeling, it was all there. I can still remember everything about that day. My life has changed since then but my thoughts and feelings will always remain.
I went to school as promised, and found a great job. I moved out of New York and into New Jersey. I found myself a great house and every year on April 24th, a blue butterfly would place itself on the window that I looked out of. I knew it was Becca. She promised me that she would be with me until I found happiness. That's all she ever wanted was for me to be happy. Well on April 24th, 1911, I said my vows and proclaimed my love to another woman. Sure, I may be married but my love for Becca will always remain. She was my first love. When she died she took my heart and soul with her. She is the only one that will ever have it. Not even my wife now has my heart. I love my wife but Becca will always have my true love. We both finally found happiness and made our dreams come true. She would visit me every year until I found happiness, and now she won't return. I won't see her again until we both meet up in heaven, and live the life that we were meant to live together. I still love her, and always will. The day she died I placed the promise rings on her fingers and mine, and I haven't taken it off since.
Here I am, standing alone in Central Park, New York, breathing in the air that Becca and I both once breathed. Though things have changed, I never will. A part of me will always be here, while the other part is gone. This place will always remain as the place that I lived out my childhood, and found true love. Becca was more than a women, she was an inspiration. Young love is hard to find but I was lucky enough to find it. Don't ever shut anyone out of your life because you don't know how much that person really means to you until their gone. Everyone teaches you something, whether good or bad, and everyone that you meet, will forever be in your mind. Love is a very special and confusing thing, but without Becca I wouldn't know what love was. Becca made me the man that I am today, believing in me when no one else would.
I look towards the sky, knowing that Becca and I will reunite once again. Even though she is gone physically, she remains in my heart and soul. She's free now to fly away, just like the dream she had as a little girl, as a blue winged butterfly.
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This is it guys, the last and final chapter. My first fic is completed!
Shout outs:
Fantasy: It's because of you and Zippy that I'm updating so soon. I didn't want to leave you guys hanging so I updated as soon as I could. Thanks so much for reading all this time. You are so awesome and your reviews meant the world to me.
Zippy: You have been the only person from this story (other than Trigger, but she's my sister) that has reviewed every chapter. That really means a lot to me. Thanks so much for letting me use your character. I couldn't have made the story without you. You have added so much to it and made it great. Thanks for all your wonderful reviews.
Trigger: Whelp, it's my last chapter. You had a lot to do with the story as well. You helped me out so much. You reviewed, you corrected and you inspired. You're just so wonderful and the greatest sister ever. Thanks for everything!
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The gun fell from my hands as I covered my mouth. I just shot Blue! Oh my God. Skittery ran to her side as I just stood there in shock.
"Oh my God Blue!" I ran to her side beside Skittery. Blue was holding the spot where the bullet had hit her. Skittery took off his jacket and gave it to Blue to hold on the spot where the wound was.
"Blink I'm goin' tah try and find help. Please take care of her!" Skittery got up and ran to look for help. I just looked down at Blue with tears in my eyes.
"Blue I'm so sorry!" I said forcing the words out of my mouth. "Don't worry, you're goin' tah be okay. Skittery is going tah get you help. Help! Someone!" I yelled.
"Bllink." She said shaking. "It's gonnaa be be okay. I'm alright."
"No Blue we are goin' tah get you help. Help someone!" I continued to scream.
"Blink." She reached up and pulled my face towards her. "Stop. I don't want anyone helpin' me. I'm gonna be fine." She said coughing.
"Blue I'm so sorry." I said crying. She started wiping my tears away.
"Blink, it's okay. I forgive you. I'm so sorry about what happened earlier." Tears were falling down her cheeks.
"Blue it wasn't your fault! I'm sorry for actin' da way dat I did. I believe you now, I really do."
"Dat was in da past Blink. I'm not worryin' about it anymore. If anythin' I'm sorry for messin' up your life."
"You never messed up my life Blue. If anythin' you made it better."
"Ouch." She said whimpering. I could see Skittery running in the distance.
"Blue I will be right back." I said getting up and running over to Skittery.
"Did you find anyone?"
"No Kid, I'm sorry. No one is willin' tah help unless we have da money tah pay for it."
"We have da money Skittery, we do. I'll go ask da guys and..."
"Blink, stop. There's nothin' we can do for her. Now I don't know how much time we have with her but if it's okay with you, I'm just gonna go over there and pay my respect tah her." Skittery said to me. I gave him a nod. I watched him as he sat down beside Blue. I wiped away a few tears. Why does love make you so crazy? Why does it drive you insane?
"Hey beautiful." Skittery said to Blue pushing her bangs out of her face.
"Skittery stop, you're makin' me blush."
"Look Blue I'm so sorry for what I did back there. Dat wasn't right of me and..."
"Skittery, its okay. I still love you." She just looked up at Skittery and smiled. "Take care of James for me okay."
"I don't need tah because you're goin' too."
"Please." She said holding back her tears.
"Of course I will." He kissed her forehead.
"And Trigger."
"I promise." He said grabbing her hand. "Blue I love you." He said crying on her shoulder.
"Skittery listen tah me. I've loved you since da day dat I met you. You're such a wonderful guy. Skittery you have been there for me through everythin', thick and thin. I couldn't have asked for a better friend than you. I'm sorry dat you never got da chance dat you wanted with me but trust me Skittery, you would have liked it better if we were just friends. You're goin' tah make some girl very happy someday. Don't ever lose touch of who you are. Don't change for anyone Skittery because some girl is goin' tah fall madly in love with you. I know dat I would. Thanks for everythin' Skittery. There's nothin' in dis world dat I can ever repay you with."
"Oh but Blue you already did repay me. You repaid me with your heart. Blue I would give up everythin' dat I own just tah be friends with you. I would much rather be your friend than your lover. Tah be lovers you have tah have a special bond, but tah be friends, now dat's somethin' you can always cherish and have. Lover break apart, but friends are forever." Skittery leaned down and kissed Blue on her forehead once more.
"Take care Becca Carmady. See dat boy over there? I'm goin' tah leave you alone with him. I've had my time with you Blue, it's time tah give it up tah someone else." Holding Blue's hand so tightly Skittery got up and just looked at her, tears falling down his cheeks.
"Goodbye Blue."
"Dis isn't goodbye Skittery, goodbye's are sad. It's more like I'll see you later." He tried to smile, holding back tears.
"Then I'll see you later." Her fingers slid out of his hand as he walked over to me.
"I'm goin' back tah da lodgin' house tah break da news tah Trigger."
"Please don't bring her down here. I don't want her tah see Blue like dis."
"I won't. She's all yours Kid. Take care of her." He slowly turned but Blue yelled for him.
"Skittery?" He turned around.
"Yeah Blue."
"Look after Zippy okay? Please give her a chance. Dat's my last wish tah you. She's a great girl. Give her your heart da way you gave it tah me." She said smiling.
"I will." Skittery turned and walked away. Dat was the last time Skittery ever saw Blue. I slowly walked over to Blue.
"Are you okay? Are you gonna get up?" I said mimicking Blue's voice the first time we met.
"Stop Blink. It hurts tah laugh." She said smiling.
"There's dat smile dat I fell in love with." I was rubbing her cheeks softly, wiping tears away at the same time.
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when sky's are gray. You never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away." I sang to her.
"I never heard you sing before. You have a wonderful voice."
"Well dat's a talent I like tah keep private. Can you believe dis weather? It was so beautiful earlier. With da risin' of da sun, not a cloud could be found within da sky. It seemed like da perfect day. Sun shinin' ever so brightly. Now it's starting tah rain. And look at those clouds. Dis is like da first day we met. Da sun was shinin' and da next thing you know it was rainin'."
"I can't believe we are talkin' about da weather." She said giggling a little. "So what do you have planned for yourself Mr. James."
"Well I'm goin' tah take care of you until you get better, then I'm gonna go back tah school for a while, visit you every weekend, and once school is done, buy us a house, and we can raise our kids."
"Dat's a great dream and all Blink but you know dat your future isn't goin' tah include me."
"Of course it will Blue! You're goin' tah be fine. You're goin' tah get through dis!"
"Blink, face da facts. I'm dyin' Blink. And I don't want tah spend my last minutes on dis earth in tears. I would rather die now knowin' dat I spent everyday dat I had lovin' you and bein' with you, than livin' forever and not knowin' you. Blink, da time dat you have spent with me means more tah me than you'll ever know. I love you with all my heart and soul. You're so handsome, amazin', wonderful, kind, sweet; da list can go on forever. Blink I'm sorry our lives together has tah end dis way, but I'm truly sorry for what I put you through. I've loved you since da day dat I met you and I will continue tah love you. I may not be here physically, but I will always be with you. I'll be in your heart and mind forever. I'll be lookin' out for you as long as you need me too. And you can always talk tah me, because you know where you can find me. I'm not goin' tah leave you Blink until I know dat you're goin' tah be happy. When I die Blink, please move on. Find dat special girl dat's waitin' for you. Give her your heart because you're too great tah spend life by yourself. I want you tah go tah school, get a good job, become a husband and da fatha dat you always wanted tah be. Do dat for me Blink, please. My last wishes tah you are dat when I die; please put me beside my fatha, so I can be with him once again."
"Aren't you scared Becca? Why are you talkin' like dis?"
"Because Blink, I'm not afraid tah die. Like I told you before, I try tah live each and everyday as if it was my last and my time as come. I'm not afraid because I know I lived life tah da fullest. I don't regret anythin'. God brought you into my life Blink for a reason and dat reason was tah know what love is and tah feel it, and I have felt it with you. Dat face of yours is what I'm goin' tah see for eternity. Now dat's kind of scary."
"Hey." I said sarcastically.
"I'm kiddin' ya!" She said rubbing the side of my face. She grabbed my hand and held it tightly. "Thanks for everythin' you have done for me James. Thanks for makin' my life worth livin'." I couldn't help myself now. I just started crying.
"I love you Becca Carmady!" I placed my head on her shoulders and cried. She ran her fingers through my hair crying with me. After a while I finally looked at her. I pulled a poem out of my back pocket.
"Dis was a poem dat I wrote about you da first time we met. I wrote it dat night dat you were sleepin' at my house. I would like for you tah read it." I gave it to her as she read it out loud.
"As da golden rays of sunlight, caress your beautiful face, I sometimes sit and wonder, or even stare off into space. I wonder if dis is really true, could I be blessed dis way? Some day I'd like tah know, why I was lucky dis day. It's true, I have been blessed, for within you, there is quite a sight, deep within your amazin' eyes, there is a heavenly light. Though da years may pass, and you'll grow through time, you'll always be with me, in my heart, and in my mind." She placed the poem down on the ground. She pulled me to her and kissed me softly. It was short but it was meaning full.
"I want you tah have dis." She took off her butterfly necklace and gave it to me. "Now you will always remember me."
"I can't take dis Becca." She closed my hand tightly around the necklace.
"Take it James." I held it tightly as I looked at her. She smiled briefly, closed her eyes and looked back up at me.
"You know how you always wanted tah be a butterfly? Well you're dream has come dream Becca. You'll finally get tah be dat butterfly, and fly away from here." She smiled once more and as she did, a blue butterfly landed on her hand. She looked at it, smiled and looked at me. I couldn't help but smile back. God must have sent the butterfly to signal that she will be alright; the butterfly had come to take her home.
"I love you James Thomas Little." She said smiling at me.
"I love you Becca Carmady." At that moment she closed her and everything stopped. The butterfly flew away signaling that she was finally free from this cruel world. The rain had stopped and the sun shone through the clouds. A beautiful rainbow had appeared, and the girl I loved was gone.
"Becca." I began to shake her. "Becca wake up. Please." I began to cry. "Becca please wake up. Please! No. Your gonna be okay." I continued to shake her calmly. "No!" I screamed. "Becca wake up, please. We are gonna get through dis. We are goin' tah marry in da church dat your fatha and muddah married in, and we are goin' tah have children together, just like Tumbler. Becca please don't leave me alone. Please! You're all dat I have. I need you. Becca I love you, please come back." I placed my head on her shoulder and cried for what seemed like forever. I continued to hold the necklace that she had given me. Evening had finally come and I headed back to the lodging house. I walked in to see Tag holding on to Trigger. I looked over at Skittery who had a helpless look on his face. I shook my head yes and Trigger started bawling. Snitch took over Tag's place and held Trigger tight while she wept. That was my last night in 'Hattan. I hadn't returned since, until now. That night I took Becca to Hayes Park and buried her beside her father.
It's April 24th, 1911, and for the first time in 22 years, the sun shown brightly all day, not a cloud in the sky, not even the slightest breeze was felt in the air. There was just something about this day that sent chills up anyone's spine and in some strange way, you felt a huge burden lifted off your shoulders. It was almost haunting. It was something that the people of Burlington, New Jersey never saw before, nor felt. With the rising of the sun, not a cloud could be found within the sky. It seemed like the perfect day, until noon. Without warning the sky would suddenly fill with dark gray clouds and begin to pour with rain. It would continue for many hours until dusk, when the sky would clear up, clouds disappear, and a rainbow would appear above. The reason behind this was it symbolizes the day Becca died. The weather, the smell, the feeling, it was all there. I can still remember everything about that day. My life has changed since then but my thoughts and feelings will always remain.
I went to school as promised, and found a great job. I moved out of New York and into New Jersey. I found myself a great house and every year on April 24th, a blue butterfly would place itself on the window that I looked out of. I knew it was Becca. She promised me that she would be with me until I found happiness. That's all she ever wanted was for me to be happy. Well on April 24th, 1911, I said my vows and proclaimed my love to another woman. Sure, I may be married but my love for Becca will always remain. She was my first love. When she died she took my heart and soul with her. She is the only one that will ever have it. Not even my wife now has my heart. I love my wife but Becca will always have my true love. We both finally found happiness and made our dreams come true. She would visit me every year until I found happiness, and now she won't return. I won't see her again until we both meet up in heaven, and live the life that we were meant to live together. I still love her, and always will. The day she died I placed the promise rings on her fingers and mine, and I haven't taken it off since.
Here I am, standing alone in Central Park, New York, breathing in the air that Becca and I both once breathed. Though things have changed, I never will. A part of me will always be here, while the other part is gone. This place will always remain as the place that I lived out my childhood, and found true love. Becca was more than a women, she was an inspiration. Young love is hard to find but I was lucky enough to find it. Don't ever shut anyone out of your life because you don't know how much that person really means to you until their gone. Everyone teaches you something, whether good or bad, and everyone that you meet, will forever be in your mind. Love is a very special and confusing thing, but without Becca I wouldn't know what love was. Becca made me the man that I am today, believing in me when no one else would.
I look towards the sky, knowing that Becca and I will reunite once again. Even though she is gone physically, she remains in my heart and soul. She's free now to fly away, just like the dream she had as a little girl, as a blue winged butterfly.