Theresa was taken to Harmony Hospital as fast as the paramedics could get her there. Fox was not allowed to ride with her there, but that was fine because Fox was able to get a hold of Ryan. He told him that Theresa had fainted for some reason and when he asked Ryan why, Ryan said to wait and ask Theresa. He knew that it wasn't his business to tell Fox when he had promised Theresa long ago not to mention her illness to anyone.
Fox and Ryan paced the hallway by Theresa's cubical anxiously as they waited for word on her condition. After being in the cubical for quite some time, Dr. Russell walked out, not exactly looking hopeful. Fox and Ryan stared at each other and knew it wasn't good. Ryan ran up to Eve and pleaded with her to tell him that she was going to be fine.
"I'm so sorry, Mr. Walker," Eve began slowly as the tear began to fill her eyes. Theresa had always been a third daughter to her and for her to have to say this broke her heart. She didn't know how Theresa's family would deal with all the losses, first Pilar and now Theresa.
"No, she can't be dead!" he cried out.
"No, she's not gone yet. But I'm not going to lie to you. Things don't look good at all. I suggest you all come and say your goodbyes while she's still conscious."
Ryan turned to Fox, "I know we don't know each other well, but would you mind watching my children while I say goodbye to my wife?"
"Not at all," Fox said.
"Thank you."
"Hey there, precious," Ryan smiled as he sat beside his very fragile wife.
"Hey," she smiled as weakly as she talked.
To see his wife laying there helplessly made him feel guilty. He felt that he should be able to protect her, not just sit by and watch her die.
"Don't cry," Theresa said as she saw a tear drop escape his eyes.
"I can't lose you, Theresa."
"You won't be losing me, you'll be setting me free from all this pain," she smiled.
"I wish I could see it that way, I really wish I could."
"Listen, do you remember the day we first met?"
"How could I forget?" He laughed.
[i]Theresa sat in her car trying to call for help. She had just got a flat tire and it was pouring cats and dogs outside. Little Ethan sat in the back sleeping peacefully. She never expected her luck to go this bad since leaving Harmony. She had only been gone for a week and things had gone from bad to worse.
She sat in her car dialing information trying to get a hold of a garage that could come and help her out for a cheap price. She didn't realize that her luck was going to take another blow. As she was talking to a mechanic her phone died out.
"Damn!" She exclaimed as she looked at her phone and saw low battery. "Why me!?" She cried.
Theresa remembered that there was a spare tire in the trunk and even though she didn't know a thing about changing a tire, she thought that there was no better time to learn. Grabbing a magazine that she had bought at a gas station not to far behind, she ran to her trunk and grabbed the spare tire.
"Okay, now think, Theresa. If you were a mechanic how would you change a tire?" After standing in the pouring rain for a few minutes without making any progress, Theresa threw the magazine aside and started pulling at the flat tire.
Ryan was driving home from a hard day at work. He hated his job, he hated his life. Nothing seemed to be going right for him and he couldn't understand why. He had it all, money, good looks, a high paying job, but yet he wasn't satisfied. Something was missing.
As Ryan drove through the rain he noticed a car pulled over to the side of the road. He paid no real attention to it at first so he passed by. But after passing a few yards, he stopped his car and backed up. Something was pulling him back. He pulled his car to the side and got out. He didn't notice until he was standing in front of the car that there was a woman trying desperately to fix her flat tire. Ryan laughed a little at the sight before his eyes. Never had he in all of his life seen someone trying to fix a flat tire without any tools.
"Need some help?" He asked as he approached her.
"Ah! You nearly scared me to death!" She jumped a bit.
"I'm sorry. I see you're having a hard time. Need some help?"
"Yes, please! I have no clue what I'm doing."
"That's pretty obvious," he laughed.
Ryan hunched down and pulled his sleeves up to reveal his masculine arms. Theresa couldn't help but look. Ryan was an extremely attractive looking guy.
"Can you grab my bag of tools from the back of my trunk?" he asked.
Theresa nodded her head and popped open his trunk. Looking around his trunk, she didn't get any signs that he was taken or married. As she passed him the bag of tools she saw that he wasn't wearing a wedding ring either. Her heart fluttered inside as she watched him change her tire. This had been the first time in a long time that she felt this way.
"All done," he said standing up and wiping his dirt hands on his once clean dress shirt.
"Thank you. Let me give you some money for helping my son and me out."
"No need to."
"Please, I insist. I would've been stuck out her for God knows how long unless you stopped. Let me repay you somehow."
"I know how you can repay me."
"How?"
"Let me buy you and your son dinner."
"Oh no, I couldn't."
"Please, I insist. You said you wanted to repay me."
Theresa couldn't deny him so she let him take her out to dinner and that was the beginning of their lives together.
"I never expected that I would marry you," she said with a smile.
"Really? I did. I felt an attraction to you even before we met."
Theresa smiled, but her smile quickly faded as she had to vomit.
"I'm sorry," she apologized. "You deserve so much better than this."
"No, you do. Theresa, I'll love you no matter what. You'll always be in my heart. I love you."
Theresa said goodbye to Ethan, but not Christina. She didn't want her young, impressionable daughter to see her like that. After Ethan, Fox came to her side. Theresa wasn't expecting to see him there. She didn't want to see him there actually because she didn't want to tell him that she was dying, but it was too late. He had already guessed that.
"Fox," she said slowly.
"Theresa, why didn't you tell me?" He asked with tears in his eyes.
"Did I have any right to tell you? You meant nothing to me after the day I left. You lied to me about my son's father and to top it off you had someone drug me for revenge. Fox, you hurt me and I had every right to keep quiet."
"I'm sorry. I wish I could make you understand how sorry I was. I came back to Harmony not only for your mother, but for a chance to make things right between us. But I guess that won't happen now. I don't blame you for despising me, Theresa. I deserve for you to hate me."
"No, you don't, Fox. See I came back her because I needed to settle things between us as well, just not the way that you intended. I needed to see you and say goodbye. I couldn't stand leaving you without saying..."
"Saying what, Theresa?" He asked anxiously as her health seemed to fade.
"I'll tell you later, Fox. Right now, now I need to sleep," she said as she closed her eyes and took her final breath.
"Goodnight, my love," Fox said as he gently kissed her forehead.
After Theresa's funeral, Fox sat in his room staring at a letter he had received from Theresa's lawyer. He had no idea what was inside. Part of him was scared to open it, while the other part was anxious to do so. Anxious because it meant that Theresa wanted to tell him something important. Taking a deep breath, he slowly began to open it.
Fox,
By now you know that I have passed away. I left special instructions in my will to give you this letter after I had passed on. You are probably wondering why, after everything, I left this for you. The main reason is that while I was alive I had so much I needed to tell you, but sadly I never had the chance to say. Listen to me carefully, Fox, because what I have to say is very important. You should have heard it a long time ago, but childishly I kept away from you. Now it's too late and this is the last chance I'll ever have of telling you exactly how I feel.
It's not easy saying this to you. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I want you to know that I forgive you, Fox. I do forgive you for everything. Over the years I have had plenty of time to realize that what happened isn't your entire fault. I played a huge part in my destruction and I can finally own up to it. I often think back to that night in L.A., the one that made you hate me so much...the one that made me hate myself so much. What I said what uncalled for and even more my actions were humiliating. I'm terribly sorry about that night. If I could change one day in my whole life, any day at all, it would have been that day. I was a fool to say what I said. And you were right, I did, for a long time, compare you to Ethan. I was caught up in an unhealthy obsession over him. That obsession often caused me to hurt the people I loved the most. For a long time it controlled me like a drug. Ethan was my addiction and I thought I needed him in order to survive. Fox, I grew up depending on other people. Mama and Luis were always there for me, as was Whitney. The moment Ethan and I fell in love I became dependent on his love. I needed that love or else I thought I would just shrivel up and die. My life had no meaning without his love. Foolishly I thought our love was true and that we were meant to be forever, but I see now for the first time clearly that our future stood no chance in the real world. There was never complete trust between us, Fox, not like it had been for us. At least in the beginning, before L.A. we trusted each other completely. You were my confidante and best friend, Fox, and because of my stupid hopes and dreams I lost you. But whose to say I ever had you in the first place?
That night in L.A. I was feeling on top of the world because once more Ethan was leading me on. When I found you before me at the pool my heartbeat increased rapidly. At the time I had no clue why, but after being pushed into the water and falling into your arms I knew why. I'll admit it, I was afraid. I was afraid that you would break my heart just as Ethan had. Right then I was comparing you both. I should have known that you were unlike Ethan. We had spent so much time together before that. I knew for a fact that you were unlike the other Cranes...you had a heart. Everything that happened that night should have given me a clue that the wound that I had cut into you would not heal with a few days, weeks, months, or even years. I had truly hurt you and you will never know how many times over the years I have kicked myself for hurting you so.
The day of our wedding, I should have told you what happened the night before. Even if it wasn't apart of Rebecca and yours plan, I should have told you. I was betraying the trust I thought we had right there. We would have started a marriage based on lies, something I vowed never to get into after the whole situation with Ethan. Fox, I'm sorry I caused you to hate me so much. I hate myself for making you want to destroy me so much. You succeeded in destroying me if you want to know. All those years that I was gone your presence lingered with me, driving me crazy. The wounds you caused me have never completely healed. I'm hoping in death that will change. Your face haunts me in my sleep while your voice continues to play throughout my mind. That is what I have had to live with for the past 6 years, Fox. That is my punishment from God for hurting you so. I wish it would all go away, but it can't and never will. I once was held captive by your smile, now...now the look of pain I caused you throughout everything holds me captive from every leading that happy life I always wished for. There's been too much between us that not even time itself can erase. But even though I still love you.
Yes, you heard me right, Fox, I still love you. I have cried thousands of tears for you over the years and not one for myself. I have become numb over the years because of the cancer mostly, but I do know that you are in my heart and will be always. I have been in the dark ever since I met you, you always stood before me with your arms wide open, just waiting for me to love you like you loved me. I always jumped into the wrong arms though, into Ethan's. All I ever wanted was to spend my life with you. Noting complicated, right? Everything no matter what always turns out complicated for me. It must be a curse I was born with. Perhaps I was born under an unlucky star.
I have tried constantly to tell myself that you are no longer apart of my life, but when I look into our son's eyes I think differently. He's so much like you, Fox. He knows that you are his father, I told him not too long after we left. I didn't want to keep any secrets from him since he is all I had. He knows what happened between us, I told him everything. I needed to; I could not keep any secrets from anyone I loved anymore. You probably think he hates you, but he doesn't. He understands more than you think, Fox. Ryan never adopted Ethan; I wouldn't allow it even when I found out I was going to die. Ryan begged me to let him, but I couldn't. He belongs with you, Fox, with his father. Ryan knows about this plan of mine and he accepts it, even though he wishes Ethan would stay with Christina and him. Raise our son to be the perfect little gentleman that he is capable of becoming. It fills me with great sadness that I will not be able to be there for him on his graduation day or even his wedding day. Please, whatever you are doing, never let anything get in the way of those two major events in his life. But most of all, Fox, make sure I remain a presence in his life. Let him know how much I love him, how much I would have been proud to see him graduate. Don't let him forget me no matter who becomes his new mother.
Fox, I truly wish you nothing but the best. You are a great man and you deserve the best. I wish you strength when times are hard, I wish you joy and peace, I wish with all my heart you find just what you're looking for, but most of all I wish that we would've had a chance to be together as a family before I went. Time goes by so fast. Don't waste your life worrying about the little things. Cry hard, laugh loud, be humble, stand proud, and don't be afraid of your fears, let love break your heart, just be who you are, be still, but don't stay in any one place for too long, remember God's grace, give more than you take, all of this, all that there is, I wish for you.
I'm happy for the times that we spent together. And I'm extremely thankful that our memories are one gift that God cannot take away. Whenever I felt like giving up, which was more time than you will ever know, I always thought about the wonderful memories we made. Do you remember all our talks about true love and fate we had back when I thought I was married to your father? Those talks with you made me realize that you were so much different than your father and Ethan. I got to know the real you, something that you often hid from the world. I had the privilege of knowing the man behind the money, the wealth, and the fame...the real Fox Crane.
I want to take this time to thank you for the love you gave. When I lost faith, you believed in me. When I stumbled, you were right there. I went through so many hard times, Fox, and every time you were right beside me. I don't know how I can ever repay you for everything you have done for me. I can't hold you hand or look into your eyes, but whenever you are in trouble, know that you are not alone. I'm like the wind, you can't see me, but you can feel me. All I ever wanted was to be loved, Fox. With you I was loved. I know even though you tried to destroy me, you felt guilty about hurting the person you loved. You loved me throughout that whole time. I can pretend that you didn't, but I saw the way your eyes lit up around me. We were in love whether you want to admit it or not.
One day we'll meet again, Fox. For now go on with your life. Live each day as though you have been given a second chance. My arms will be waiting for you when your time comes. Hopefully you'll be smarter than I was and jump into my arms. Here in my heart, even when my arms are empty, I'm still holding on to you. Never forget that, Fox. You'll always have a place in my heart. We can say goodbye for now, but I know that it's not forever so see you later, adios, à bientôt. Death cannot destroy true love.
Feeling your fingers running through my hair,
The softness of a touch that's barley there,
The look of love deep within your soul,
All of these things and more make me want to lose control.
Feeling your heart beat in unison with mine,
The trembling of your hand as our fingers intertwine,
The soft baby smooth touch of your skin,
All driving me madly insane within.
Feeling your arms wrapped lovingly around me,
The way you would kiss my neck oh so softly,
The way you would say I love you to me,
All of these things I miss desperately.
Love with all my heart,
Theresa.
Fox folded up Theresa's letter and put it under his pillow for just then. The next day he planned on putting it in his safety deposit box. He was filled with so many emotions just than, sadness, happiness, guilt, grief. She still loved him and that's all that mattered. He didn't think he could go on not knowing that she forgave him, but now not only did he know she forgave him, but she still loved him.
"Tomorrow doesn't seem so impossible," he said as he closed his eyes and went to sleep.
Fox and Ryan paced the hallway by Theresa's cubical anxiously as they waited for word on her condition. After being in the cubical for quite some time, Dr. Russell walked out, not exactly looking hopeful. Fox and Ryan stared at each other and knew it wasn't good. Ryan ran up to Eve and pleaded with her to tell him that she was going to be fine.
"I'm so sorry, Mr. Walker," Eve began slowly as the tear began to fill her eyes. Theresa had always been a third daughter to her and for her to have to say this broke her heart. She didn't know how Theresa's family would deal with all the losses, first Pilar and now Theresa.
"No, she can't be dead!" he cried out.
"No, she's not gone yet. But I'm not going to lie to you. Things don't look good at all. I suggest you all come and say your goodbyes while she's still conscious."
Ryan turned to Fox, "I know we don't know each other well, but would you mind watching my children while I say goodbye to my wife?"
"Not at all," Fox said.
"Thank you."
"Hey there, precious," Ryan smiled as he sat beside his very fragile wife.
"Hey," she smiled as weakly as she talked.
To see his wife laying there helplessly made him feel guilty. He felt that he should be able to protect her, not just sit by and watch her die.
"Don't cry," Theresa said as she saw a tear drop escape his eyes.
"I can't lose you, Theresa."
"You won't be losing me, you'll be setting me free from all this pain," she smiled.
"I wish I could see it that way, I really wish I could."
"Listen, do you remember the day we first met?"
"How could I forget?" He laughed.
[i]Theresa sat in her car trying to call for help. She had just got a flat tire and it was pouring cats and dogs outside. Little Ethan sat in the back sleeping peacefully. She never expected her luck to go this bad since leaving Harmony. She had only been gone for a week and things had gone from bad to worse.
She sat in her car dialing information trying to get a hold of a garage that could come and help her out for a cheap price. She didn't realize that her luck was going to take another blow. As she was talking to a mechanic her phone died out.
"Damn!" She exclaimed as she looked at her phone and saw low battery. "Why me!?" She cried.
Theresa remembered that there was a spare tire in the trunk and even though she didn't know a thing about changing a tire, she thought that there was no better time to learn. Grabbing a magazine that she had bought at a gas station not to far behind, she ran to her trunk and grabbed the spare tire.
"Okay, now think, Theresa. If you were a mechanic how would you change a tire?" After standing in the pouring rain for a few minutes without making any progress, Theresa threw the magazine aside and started pulling at the flat tire.
Ryan was driving home from a hard day at work. He hated his job, he hated his life. Nothing seemed to be going right for him and he couldn't understand why. He had it all, money, good looks, a high paying job, but yet he wasn't satisfied. Something was missing.
As Ryan drove through the rain he noticed a car pulled over to the side of the road. He paid no real attention to it at first so he passed by. But after passing a few yards, he stopped his car and backed up. Something was pulling him back. He pulled his car to the side and got out. He didn't notice until he was standing in front of the car that there was a woman trying desperately to fix her flat tire. Ryan laughed a little at the sight before his eyes. Never had he in all of his life seen someone trying to fix a flat tire without any tools.
"Need some help?" He asked as he approached her.
"Ah! You nearly scared me to death!" She jumped a bit.
"I'm sorry. I see you're having a hard time. Need some help?"
"Yes, please! I have no clue what I'm doing."
"That's pretty obvious," he laughed.
Ryan hunched down and pulled his sleeves up to reveal his masculine arms. Theresa couldn't help but look. Ryan was an extremely attractive looking guy.
"Can you grab my bag of tools from the back of my trunk?" he asked.
Theresa nodded her head and popped open his trunk. Looking around his trunk, she didn't get any signs that he was taken or married. As she passed him the bag of tools she saw that he wasn't wearing a wedding ring either. Her heart fluttered inside as she watched him change her tire. This had been the first time in a long time that she felt this way.
"All done," he said standing up and wiping his dirt hands on his once clean dress shirt.
"Thank you. Let me give you some money for helping my son and me out."
"No need to."
"Please, I insist. I would've been stuck out her for God knows how long unless you stopped. Let me repay you somehow."
"I know how you can repay me."
"How?"
"Let me buy you and your son dinner."
"Oh no, I couldn't."
"Please, I insist. You said you wanted to repay me."
Theresa couldn't deny him so she let him take her out to dinner and that was the beginning of their lives together.
"I never expected that I would marry you," she said with a smile.
"Really? I did. I felt an attraction to you even before we met."
Theresa smiled, but her smile quickly faded as she had to vomit.
"I'm sorry," she apologized. "You deserve so much better than this."
"No, you do. Theresa, I'll love you no matter what. You'll always be in my heart. I love you."
Theresa said goodbye to Ethan, but not Christina. She didn't want her young, impressionable daughter to see her like that. After Ethan, Fox came to her side. Theresa wasn't expecting to see him there. She didn't want to see him there actually because she didn't want to tell him that she was dying, but it was too late. He had already guessed that.
"Fox," she said slowly.
"Theresa, why didn't you tell me?" He asked with tears in his eyes.
"Did I have any right to tell you? You meant nothing to me after the day I left. You lied to me about my son's father and to top it off you had someone drug me for revenge. Fox, you hurt me and I had every right to keep quiet."
"I'm sorry. I wish I could make you understand how sorry I was. I came back to Harmony not only for your mother, but for a chance to make things right between us. But I guess that won't happen now. I don't blame you for despising me, Theresa. I deserve for you to hate me."
"No, you don't, Fox. See I came back her because I needed to settle things between us as well, just not the way that you intended. I needed to see you and say goodbye. I couldn't stand leaving you without saying..."
"Saying what, Theresa?" He asked anxiously as her health seemed to fade.
"I'll tell you later, Fox. Right now, now I need to sleep," she said as she closed her eyes and took her final breath.
"Goodnight, my love," Fox said as he gently kissed her forehead.
After Theresa's funeral, Fox sat in his room staring at a letter he had received from Theresa's lawyer. He had no idea what was inside. Part of him was scared to open it, while the other part was anxious to do so. Anxious because it meant that Theresa wanted to tell him something important. Taking a deep breath, he slowly began to open it.
Fox,
By now you know that I have passed away. I left special instructions in my will to give you this letter after I had passed on. You are probably wondering why, after everything, I left this for you. The main reason is that while I was alive I had so much I needed to tell you, but sadly I never had the chance to say. Listen to me carefully, Fox, because what I have to say is very important. You should have heard it a long time ago, but childishly I kept away from you. Now it's too late and this is the last chance I'll ever have of telling you exactly how I feel.
It's not easy saying this to you. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I want you to know that I forgive you, Fox. I do forgive you for everything. Over the years I have had plenty of time to realize that what happened isn't your entire fault. I played a huge part in my destruction and I can finally own up to it. I often think back to that night in L.A., the one that made you hate me so much...the one that made me hate myself so much. What I said what uncalled for and even more my actions were humiliating. I'm terribly sorry about that night. If I could change one day in my whole life, any day at all, it would have been that day. I was a fool to say what I said. And you were right, I did, for a long time, compare you to Ethan. I was caught up in an unhealthy obsession over him. That obsession often caused me to hurt the people I loved the most. For a long time it controlled me like a drug. Ethan was my addiction and I thought I needed him in order to survive. Fox, I grew up depending on other people. Mama and Luis were always there for me, as was Whitney. The moment Ethan and I fell in love I became dependent on his love. I needed that love or else I thought I would just shrivel up and die. My life had no meaning without his love. Foolishly I thought our love was true and that we were meant to be forever, but I see now for the first time clearly that our future stood no chance in the real world. There was never complete trust between us, Fox, not like it had been for us. At least in the beginning, before L.A. we trusted each other completely. You were my confidante and best friend, Fox, and because of my stupid hopes and dreams I lost you. But whose to say I ever had you in the first place?
That night in L.A. I was feeling on top of the world because once more Ethan was leading me on. When I found you before me at the pool my heartbeat increased rapidly. At the time I had no clue why, but after being pushed into the water and falling into your arms I knew why. I'll admit it, I was afraid. I was afraid that you would break my heart just as Ethan had. Right then I was comparing you both. I should have known that you were unlike Ethan. We had spent so much time together before that. I knew for a fact that you were unlike the other Cranes...you had a heart. Everything that happened that night should have given me a clue that the wound that I had cut into you would not heal with a few days, weeks, months, or even years. I had truly hurt you and you will never know how many times over the years I have kicked myself for hurting you so.
The day of our wedding, I should have told you what happened the night before. Even if it wasn't apart of Rebecca and yours plan, I should have told you. I was betraying the trust I thought we had right there. We would have started a marriage based on lies, something I vowed never to get into after the whole situation with Ethan. Fox, I'm sorry I caused you to hate me so much. I hate myself for making you want to destroy me so much. You succeeded in destroying me if you want to know. All those years that I was gone your presence lingered with me, driving me crazy. The wounds you caused me have never completely healed. I'm hoping in death that will change. Your face haunts me in my sleep while your voice continues to play throughout my mind. That is what I have had to live with for the past 6 years, Fox. That is my punishment from God for hurting you so. I wish it would all go away, but it can't and never will. I once was held captive by your smile, now...now the look of pain I caused you throughout everything holds me captive from every leading that happy life I always wished for. There's been too much between us that not even time itself can erase. But even though I still love you.
Yes, you heard me right, Fox, I still love you. I have cried thousands of tears for you over the years and not one for myself. I have become numb over the years because of the cancer mostly, but I do know that you are in my heart and will be always. I have been in the dark ever since I met you, you always stood before me with your arms wide open, just waiting for me to love you like you loved me. I always jumped into the wrong arms though, into Ethan's. All I ever wanted was to spend my life with you. Noting complicated, right? Everything no matter what always turns out complicated for me. It must be a curse I was born with. Perhaps I was born under an unlucky star.
I have tried constantly to tell myself that you are no longer apart of my life, but when I look into our son's eyes I think differently. He's so much like you, Fox. He knows that you are his father, I told him not too long after we left. I didn't want to keep any secrets from him since he is all I had. He knows what happened between us, I told him everything. I needed to; I could not keep any secrets from anyone I loved anymore. You probably think he hates you, but he doesn't. He understands more than you think, Fox. Ryan never adopted Ethan; I wouldn't allow it even when I found out I was going to die. Ryan begged me to let him, but I couldn't. He belongs with you, Fox, with his father. Ryan knows about this plan of mine and he accepts it, even though he wishes Ethan would stay with Christina and him. Raise our son to be the perfect little gentleman that he is capable of becoming. It fills me with great sadness that I will not be able to be there for him on his graduation day or even his wedding day. Please, whatever you are doing, never let anything get in the way of those two major events in his life. But most of all, Fox, make sure I remain a presence in his life. Let him know how much I love him, how much I would have been proud to see him graduate. Don't let him forget me no matter who becomes his new mother.
Fox, I truly wish you nothing but the best. You are a great man and you deserve the best. I wish you strength when times are hard, I wish you joy and peace, I wish with all my heart you find just what you're looking for, but most of all I wish that we would've had a chance to be together as a family before I went. Time goes by so fast. Don't waste your life worrying about the little things. Cry hard, laugh loud, be humble, stand proud, and don't be afraid of your fears, let love break your heart, just be who you are, be still, but don't stay in any one place for too long, remember God's grace, give more than you take, all of this, all that there is, I wish for you.
I'm happy for the times that we spent together. And I'm extremely thankful that our memories are one gift that God cannot take away. Whenever I felt like giving up, which was more time than you will ever know, I always thought about the wonderful memories we made. Do you remember all our talks about true love and fate we had back when I thought I was married to your father? Those talks with you made me realize that you were so much different than your father and Ethan. I got to know the real you, something that you often hid from the world. I had the privilege of knowing the man behind the money, the wealth, and the fame...the real Fox Crane.
I want to take this time to thank you for the love you gave. When I lost faith, you believed in me. When I stumbled, you were right there. I went through so many hard times, Fox, and every time you were right beside me. I don't know how I can ever repay you for everything you have done for me. I can't hold you hand or look into your eyes, but whenever you are in trouble, know that you are not alone. I'm like the wind, you can't see me, but you can feel me. All I ever wanted was to be loved, Fox. With you I was loved. I know even though you tried to destroy me, you felt guilty about hurting the person you loved. You loved me throughout that whole time. I can pretend that you didn't, but I saw the way your eyes lit up around me. We were in love whether you want to admit it or not.
One day we'll meet again, Fox. For now go on with your life. Live each day as though you have been given a second chance. My arms will be waiting for you when your time comes. Hopefully you'll be smarter than I was and jump into my arms. Here in my heart, even when my arms are empty, I'm still holding on to you. Never forget that, Fox. You'll always have a place in my heart. We can say goodbye for now, but I know that it's not forever so see you later, adios, à bientôt. Death cannot destroy true love.
Feeling your fingers running through my hair,
The softness of a touch that's barley there,
The look of love deep within your soul,
All of these things and more make me want to lose control.
Feeling your heart beat in unison with mine,
The trembling of your hand as our fingers intertwine,
The soft baby smooth touch of your skin,
All driving me madly insane within.
Feeling your arms wrapped lovingly around me,
The way you would kiss my neck oh so softly,
The way you would say I love you to me,
All of these things I miss desperately.
Love with all my heart,
Theresa.
Fox folded up Theresa's letter and put it under his pillow for just then. The next day he planned on putting it in his safety deposit box. He was filled with so many emotions just than, sadness, happiness, guilt, grief. She still loved him and that's all that mattered. He didn't think he could go on not knowing that she forgave him, but now not only did he know she forgave him, but she still loved him.
"Tomorrow doesn't seem so impossible," he said as he closed his eyes and went to sleep.