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She was crying and I realized I was too. I had to tell her. She crept nearer and put her ear near my lips. I whispered but I couldn't give it out clearly...
Dita:
Everyone was with me as we rushed Hibiki to the infirmary. I was crying too much, but I tried to keep up with Hibiki's stretcher. I was so confused... I just ran with them. I remember red... red... everything was red. I couldn't stop crying. Tears just seemed to flow down my cheeks, and I couldn't think. I just wanted to hold him. I wanted him to know it was safe and that he was going to be alright,
but I knew that it wasn't exactly my place to be at his side... it was Misty's.
Hibiki:
My eyesight was blurry. I couldn't tell who was who. I was so confused. Everything seemed to be whirling around me. Despite the numbness in my arm, I felt pain everywhere. I knew that I was being pushed on a stretcher, and everything was but a blur. But I kept my eyes open, I just had to see that face for the last time. I had to see those eyes... blue eyes. I strained to see them... but there was nothing. I could feel my own tears on my cheeks, and an indistinct blue crept closer towards me. That was when I saw her... Dita. Yes, she was there, but she was still crying. No, I didn't want her to cry! I reached for her, or at least I thought I did but no one grabbed my hand. I reached for her again but then she was getting smaller and smaller, farther and farther. Wait!
I still need to tell you… Dita!
Dita:
Hibiki?
He called out to me! I didn't know what to say. It was a mixture of torture and bliss, but why? I just knew that I had to be there with him. I ran to the emergency room but I wasn't allowed in. I kicked the door in anger, but I was only answered by Pai, who was looking at me angrily through the small glass windows. Seeking for help, I whirled around to meet the sympathetic eyes of my crewmembers. They were all telling me that it wasn't my fault and that I did all I could, but no! I knew it wasn't enough! Not enough! Everyone thought I was mad about the incident, but its not just that. I know that I should have realized that he was hurt. I know that I should have done more than just cry and sit there... but I – I – didn't – I just didn't know what to do!
I just want to be there with him.
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I could've easily blamed myself for everything at that moment, but I know better. It just happened. It was an accident, and I just couldn't stop it, or could I have? I sat down ruefully and looked around. Everyone looked pained. They all stared at the emergency room door or talked to each other, except for one. I noticed that Misty was staring at me...
"Why'd he call you?"
I didn't know. I tried to say so, but Misty just gave me a look of total despair before turning her back to me. Is she afraid that she might lose the one she loves whether he survives or not?
What? What am I saying? Even if Hibiki does survive this,
he will always be...
Misty's.
Hours passed and Hibiki was proclaimed: "stable." He had lost a lot of blood and he was still very very weak. Duero allowed us to visit him, but just two at a time at the most. I hadn't gone in yet... I didn't know if I was emotionally ready to see him. It was just too traumatizing to see him like that. I was too scared. I didn't want to have to remember what happened when I found him nearly unconscious.
I waited outside seated against the wall until practically everyone had left, and it was then that I noticed that I still had his blood on my sleeve. I cringed at the thought of Hibiki's blood wasted away on my sleeve. What should I do? I tried to fight back my tears only to be surprised by a hand beckoning me to stand up. I looked up to see Duero standing in front of me.
"Are you coming in or what? Everyone's gone. Misty just left."
Somehow I felt that he was trying to imply something in the last sentence. But surprisingly, I nodded and found myself slowly standing up. Duero helped me retain my balance, and he noted that I was still rather shaky from the accident. He would have to check if I hurt as well. I said I was fine, and I carefully walked into the emergency room and sat on the chair right beside the bed. I looked up warily.
Hibiki was pretty much the same. He looked as if nothing about him had changed except for his arm. It was bandaged heavily, and he was very pale. I heard a while ago that he needed blood. I would've given him mine but I am too young, I think. Duero told me that, but its possible that maybe I was too banged up myself to even think of giving blood. Whatever it was, I just stopped thinking about it. My head was just beginning to hurt too much.
It was so quiet and calm in the room that I couldn't keep my head up. I know I shouldn't have, but I decided that I'd just rest for a while, so I lay my head on my arms and down on the bed. I told myself I'd just rest but unfortunately, I fell asleep.
Days have past, weeks in fact. I heard Hibiki was doing better. He even woke up, but he's still hazy. He mutters a lot, but doesn't make any sense. I haven't seen him since the time I fell asleep by his side. Parfet tells me to go visit him, so does Pai, but I think its stupid. I'll just remember how much I wanted him because surprisingly, while I slept I realized that I missed him. I don't want to go back there where I'm not wanted or... loved. It hurts too much. In fact, I marvel at the existence of my past life. How did I survive?
I stood up to go to the mess hall. I was just leaving my room when I was stopped by Bart. He looked at me and I stared at him cautiously. He wore a sly grin as he handed me a piece of paper. Suddenly, he ran off laughing like crazy. I stood there stunned. It was only after a few seconds that I realized that I had something in my hands.
I opened up what looked like a note...
:) sorry I know its short
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