i'm sorry that it's taken so long to update again. there was a dance a bit ago that a friend and i had to basically plan for on our own and all drama that went along with doing that, homework that had been to long neglected because of the dance, solos that i need to work on and perfect in the next month for regionals, good times to be had with friends and a fellow writer/sister [elbe]. i promise i won't let it go that long again!
a thank you goes out to all friends who helped to come up with synonyms for a certain sentance in this chapter. i owe you guys majorly.
read as ye will, review as ye wish =)
-coyotesabre
again, i don't own inuyasha. though i wish i did, for the sake of my finances.
Chapter Six: This Truth Drives Me into Madness
"So Inuaysha, what are you going to do now?"
A hanyou that was still rather dazed turned to Miroku, the fox hanging from its tail by the hanyou's clawed fingers at an arm's length. The gears of his head could almost be heard cranking as he tried to formulate a response to his companion's query. Feeling Shippo attempting to swat at him, Inuyasha released him and let him fall to the ground. Miroku held him by the back of his vest when he went to charge at Inuyasha, clearly seeing how confused the half demon really was. After pointing Shippo toward the lake and telling him to go 'play or something,' Miroku walked over to Inuyasha, prepared to have one of those 'manly talks'.
"You love her, yes?"
Inuyasha blinked at him, taking in what was said before he slowly answered.
"..Yeah, I guess I do."
"And you just told her this?"
"Yeah... where are you going with this, monk?"
"Just taking in all of the information, seeing what I am capable of telling you at this point."
"Great, the hentai doesn't even know what to say."
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The older girl looked back at Kagome, trying to come up with an answer to her question. She thought of a time when Miroku took her aside in private and revealed his feelings for her. Upon remembering, she tried her hand at finding a way to counsel Kagome.
"Well, it's sort of up to both of you. You need to talk some more, or at least lay out your intentions to each other. It is the start to a horrible relationship if you can't communicate what each of you would like to come of it. I can see from the way you have been acting toward Inuyasha for quite some time that you'd like more than just to be able to make a claim of him being your boyfriend or something petty like that. You're likely looking for a more serious relationship with him, and from what I have seen from him, he's looking for the same from you."
"..::blink::"
"..And this is a lot for you to take in all at once, yes?"
Kagome turned away from her friend to try to set things straight in her mind. Yes, Sango was right, Kagome wanted an actual relationship with Inuyasha. The extent of this relationship, however, she wasn't quite sure of yet. She surely wasn't thinking of anything beyond her modern era's idea of marriage, but the other extreme of simply tagging each other as their own wasn't what she wanted either.
That's right, there was still the bridge of time to cross. She'd almost forgotten the time gap between the two of them. Traditions and customs were different in each of their times.
'What if the things he said are as good as marriage for this time and his kind? Oh Kami, I bet it is. Wait though, didn't Sango just say it's up to us? So it's probably not... but she doesn't know about hanyou and youkai traditions. What am I saying, she's a demon slayer! She would know all about it! And Inuyasha wasn't brought up by demons anyway, he probably doesn't even know the rites and rituals and everything that they have. Well he might know of them, but he probably doesn't practice them...'
Sango's look of concern cut off her thoughts when Kagome unconsciously had turned back to her mid-thought. She smiled at her friend with a look of forced confidence, and tried to think of what to say after all of that thinking, but was cut off yet again.
"What are you thinking about?"
"This. All of this. What it might mean, what might happen if this happens, what might happen if that happens... I don't want to slow down our journey if I can help it."
That, too, had made its way into Kagome's mind. If anything were to happen between Inuyasha and herself and they got any more emotionally involved, it could hinder their journey.
'But Sango and Miroku seem to keep it subtle. Why couldn't we do that too? ..Oh yeah, this IS Inuyasha we're dealing with. An inkling of Kouga being anywhere nearby and he'll be ready, likely resorting to calling me his woman the way that Kouga does. That's all we need is a fight between them. Then what if our enemies realize it? They could use that to their adva-.. they've used it to their advantage in the past. Right.'
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"You're going to have to talk with her, Inuyasha. It's the only way to really figure all of this out."
"I just talked with her! Isn't that enough?!"
"No, not if you want to really know what there is and what there might be between the two of you."
"Feh."
In one graceful movement Inuyasha dashed away, jumping into the nearest tree and racing from limb to limb until he was far away from Miroku and his ideas. He needed to think on his own for a while, to figure out exactly what he wanted and what he was going to do about this.
'Why do I have to be the one to do something? Why can't she make a move first? Oh, right, chivalry. Feh.'
He looked to the sky, seeing the sun settling itself to a spot where it seemed to be shining on him alone.
'Am I even sure that's what that dream meant? No, I'm not. And not even six hours after I wake up I'm sitting up here trying to figure out how I feel for Kagome. I love her. I would do anything for her. How many different times and ways do I have to prove this?!'
He slunk down a bit, leaning against the tree's trunk, and looked lazily into the opposite direction of the sun. Resting his hands behind his head, he closed his eyes and went back to thinking.
'But I still feel for Kikyo. I'm not sure WHAT I feel for Kikyo, but I know I feel for her. That could easily get into the way later on... even now. No, idiot, wake up. Kikyo doesn't even like you anymore, let alone love you. It's like you said in that dream, she wants nothing more than your blood spilled, her name the one attached to the cause. She's nothing but dirt and bone that's been filled with hatred. But Kagome is the keeper of her soul. Kagome has her soul. Do I love Kagome for who she is, or for Kikyo's soul? I don't know anymore... but I want to be with Kagome. I can see us together for - well, who knows how long?'
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Miroku had gathered Shippo from over by the lake and was heading back to camp. He saw Sango and Kagome coming back as well, a question present in the miko's eyes upon his return with a depressed looking fox, but without a hanyou.
"He ran off on his own while we were tal- well, while I was talking to him. I'm not sure what he's up to or when he'll be back, so we should just stay around here until he returns, I suppose."
Kagome, somewhat defeated, walked back over to her sleeping bag and began to roll it back up in preparation to leave again once he returned. Shippo appeared at her feet, pulling on her sock. His eyes were solemn, looking as though he could cry at any moment.
"Kagome, what's wrong?"
She looked down at him, straightening againa nd smiling a smile that most could identify as fake. If Shippo were a bit older, he would certainly have known that it was forced and not sincere. Though yet again, his innocence protected him.
"Nothing Shippo, whatever made you ask that?"
"You look unhappy, and Inuyasha went off on his own again. I heard he and Miroku talking, and he seemed really confused and unhappy too."
With that, Shippo looked down at his feet and kicked a small pebble. No one ever really payed him any mind, why should this time be any different?
"Why are you kicking that pebble?"
'This is Kagome. She listens to you all the time. Just talk to her, she loves you..' "Because... I'm unhappy too."
"Why's that, Shippo?"
"Because when I asked if you were 'going out', both of you got all sad."
"Aw, Shippo, it's not your fault. Really, we would have done this anyway."
The child's face lit up upon hearing these words, and he looked up at Kagome with a smile.
"Promise?"
"I promise, Shippo. It was going to happen anyway.. you just happened to be there when it did. That's all."
Kagome scooped him up and gave him a hug, soon after allowing him to perch himself on her shoulder while she gathered her things. She smiled, realizing how much he seemed to be like her little brother or even a son to her at times like these - or any time, for that matter.
When Shippo tensed and darted off of Kagome's shoulder, she jolted and looked at what had started him. She saw Inuyasha walking towards her, something hanging from his hand. It wasn't large, it was actually rather small. She cocked her head to one side in an attempt to see what it was when Sango walked behind her.
"Go to him."
She realized that he wasn't walking any longer, that he was standing there staring at her, his eyes fixed into hers. She had gotten lost again, staring into those beautiful amber wells that she seemed to forever be falling into, leading her deep into the depths of his soul. Once she snapped out of it, she walked over to him and met him where he was. When they spoke, neither noticed how quiet they kept their voices. They were subconsciously trying not to be heard by the others, trying to pull themselves into their own little world for a few minutes.
"I brought this back for you."
He handed her a small flower. What it didn't have it size, it made up for in color and beauty. Its colors seemed to have been arranged perfectly, and she held it up to her nose to smell the sweetest smell she'd ever come across. She smiled, and noticed his breathing become more normal as she did. Had he been holding his breath for that moment?
"Thank you, Inuyasha. It's perfect."
Unknowingly, they reached for each other's hand. After she said that, she noticed her eyes close, her lips coming together, her body moving slightly closer to his. Before she knew what she was doing, she was on her toes giving Inuyasha a quick kiss that seemed to last forever. As unknowingly as the kiss had happened, Inuyasha took her into his arms and whispered four words into her ear.
"We need to talk."
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really, i tried to not make it a cliff hanger this time... it just came out this way no matter what i did to it. couldn't really make it sound any better. promise to have an update a hell of a lot sooner than when i had this one though!
a thank you goes out to all friends who helped to come up with synonyms for a certain sentance in this chapter. i owe you guys majorly.
read as ye will, review as ye wish =)
-coyotesabre
again, i don't own inuyasha. though i wish i did, for the sake of my finances.
Chapter Six: This Truth Drives Me into Madness
"So Inuaysha, what are you going to do now?"
A hanyou that was still rather dazed turned to Miroku, the fox hanging from its tail by the hanyou's clawed fingers at an arm's length. The gears of his head could almost be heard cranking as he tried to formulate a response to his companion's query. Feeling Shippo attempting to swat at him, Inuyasha released him and let him fall to the ground. Miroku held him by the back of his vest when he went to charge at Inuyasha, clearly seeing how confused the half demon really was. After pointing Shippo toward the lake and telling him to go 'play or something,' Miroku walked over to Inuyasha, prepared to have one of those 'manly talks'.
"You love her, yes?"
Inuyasha blinked at him, taking in what was said before he slowly answered.
"..Yeah, I guess I do."
"And you just told her this?"
"Yeah... where are you going with this, monk?"
"Just taking in all of the information, seeing what I am capable of telling you at this point."
"Great, the hentai doesn't even know what to say."
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The older girl looked back at Kagome, trying to come up with an answer to her question. She thought of a time when Miroku took her aside in private and revealed his feelings for her. Upon remembering, she tried her hand at finding a way to counsel Kagome.
"Well, it's sort of up to both of you. You need to talk some more, or at least lay out your intentions to each other. It is the start to a horrible relationship if you can't communicate what each of you would like to come of it. I can see from the way you have been acting toward Inuyasha for quite some time that you'd like more than just to be able to make a claim of him being your boyfriend or something petty like that. You're likely looking for a more serious relationship with him, and from what I have seen from him, he's looking for the same from you."
"..::blink::"
"..And this is a lot for you to take in all at once, yes?"
Kagome turned away from her friend to try to set things straight in her mind. Yes, Sango was right, Kagome wanted an actual relationship with Inuyasha. The extent of this relationship, however, she wasn't quite sure of yet. She surely wasn't thinking of anything beyond her modern era's idea of marriage, but the other extreme of simply tagging each other as their own wasn't what she wanted either.
That's right, there was still the bridge of time to cross. She'd almost forgotten the time gap between the two of them. Traditions and customs were different in each of their times.
'What if the things he said are as good as marriage for this time and his kind? Oh Kami, I bet it is. Wait though, didn't Sango just say it's up to us? So it's probably not... but she doesn't know about hanyou and youkai traditions. What am I saying, she's a demon slayer! She would know all about it! And Inuyasha wasn't brought up by demons anyway, he probably doesn't even know the rites and rituals and everything that they have. Well he might know of them, but he probably doesn't practice them...'
Sango's look of concern cut off her thoughts when Kagome unconsciously had turned back to her mid-thought. She smiled at her friend with a look of forced confidence, and tried to think of what to say after all of that thinking, but was cut off yet again.
"What are you thinking about?"
"This. All of this. What it might mean, what might happen if this happens, what might happen if that happens... I don't want to slow down our journey if I can help it."
That, too, had made its way into Kagome's mind. If anything were to happen between Inuyasha and herself and they got any more emotionally involved, it could hinder their journey.
'But Sango and Miroku seem to keep it subtle. Why couldn't we do that too? ..Oh yeah, this IS Inuyasha we're dealing with. An inkling of Kouga being anywhere nearby and he'll be ready, likely resorting to calling me his woman the way that Kouga does. That's all we need is a fight between them. Then what if our enemies realize it? They could use that to their adva-.. they've used it to their advantage in the past. Right.'
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"You're going to have to talk with her, Inuyasha. It's the only way to really figure all of this out."
"I just talked with her! Isn't that enough?!"
"No, not if you want to really know what there is and what there might be between the two of you."
"Feh."
In one graceful movement Inuyasha dashed away, jumping into the nearest tree and racing from limb to limb until he was far away from Miroku and his ideas. He needed to think on his own for a while, to figure out exactly what he wanted and what he was going to do about this.
'Why do I have to be the one to do something? Why can't she make a move first? Oh, right, chivalry. Feh.'
He looked to the sky, seeing the sun settling itself to a spot where it seemed to be shining on him alone.
'Am I even sure that's what that dream meant? No, I'm not. And not even six hours after I wake up I'm sitting up here trying to figure out how I feel for Kagome. I love her. I would do anything for her. How many different times and ways do I have to prove this?!'
He slunk down a bit, leaning against the tree's trunk, and looked lazily into the opposite direction of the sun. Resting his hands behind his head, he closed his eyes and went back to thinking.
'But I still feel for Kikyo. I'm not sure WHAT I feel for Kikyo, but I know I feel for her. That could easily get into the way later on... even now. No, idiot, wake up. Kikyo doesn't even like you anymore, let alone love you. It's like you said in that dream, she wants nothing more than your blood spilled, her name the one attached to the cause. She's nothing but dirt and bone that's been filled with hatred. But Kagome is the keeper of her soul. Kagome has her soul. Do I love Kagome for who she is, or for Kikyo's soul? I don't know anymore... but I want to be with Kagome. I can see us together for - well, who knows how long?'
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Miroku had gathered Shippo from over by the lake and was heading back to camp. He saw Sango and Kagome coming back as well, a question present in the miko's eyes upon his return with a depressed looking fox, but without a hanyou.
"He ran off on his own while we were tal- well, while I was talking to him. I'm not sure what he's up to or when he'll be back, so we should just stay around here until he returns, I suppose."
Kagome, somewhat defeated, walked back over to her sleeping bag and began to roll it back up in preparation to leave again once he returned. Shippo appeared at her feet, pulling on her sock. His eyes were solemn, looking as though he could cry at any moment.
"Kagome, what's wrong?"
She looked down at him, straightening againa nd smiling a smile that most could identify as fake. If Shippo were a bit older, he would certainly have known that it was forced and not sincere. Though yet again, his innocence protected him.
"Nothing Shippo, whatever made you ask that?"
"You look unhappy, and Inuyasha went off on his own again. I heard he and Miroku talking, and he seemed really confused and unhappy too."
With that, Shippo looked down at his feet and kicked a small pebble. No one ever really payed him any mind, why should this time be any different?
"Why are you kicking that pebble?"
'This is Kagome. She listens to you all the time. Just talk to her, she loves you..' "Because... I'm unhappy too."
"Why's that, Shippo?"
"Because when I asked if you were 'going out', both of you got all sad."
"Aw, Shippo, it's not your fault. Really, we would have done this anyway."
The child's face lit up upon hearing these words, and he looked up at Kagome with a smile.
"Promise?"
"I promise, Shippo. It was going to happen anyway.. you just happened to be there when it did. That's all."
Kagome scooped him up and gave him a hug, soon after allowing him to perch himself on her shoulder while she gathered her things. She smiled, realizing how much he seemed to be like her little brother or even a son to her at times like these - or any time, for that matter.
When Shippo tensed and darted off of Kagome's shoulder, she jolted and looked at what had started him. She saw Inuyasha walking towards her, something hanging from his hand. It wasn't large, it was actually rather small. She cocked her head to one side in an attempt to see what it was when Sango walked behind her.
"Go to him."
She realized that he wasn't walking any longer, that he was standing there staring at her, his eyes fixed into hers. She had gotten lost again, staring into those beautiful amber wells that she seemed to forever be falling into, leading her deep into the depths of his soul. Once she snapped out of it, she walked over to him and met him where he was. When they spoke, neither noticed how quiet they kept their voices. They were subconsciously trying not to be heard by the others, trying to pull themselves into their own little world for a few minutes.
"I brought this back for you."
He handed her a small flower. What it didn't have it size, it made up for in color and beauty. Its colors seemed to have been arranged perfectly, and she held it up to her nose to smell the sweetest smell she'd ever come across. She smiled, and noticed his breathing become more normal as she did. Had he been holding his breath for that moment?
"Thank you, Inuyasha. It's perfect."
Unknowingly, they reached for each other's hand. After she said that, she noticed her eyes close, her lips coming together, her body moving slightly closer to his. Before she knew what she was doing, she was on her toes giving Inuyasha a quick kiss that seemed to last forever. As unknowingly as the kiss had happened, Inuyasha took her into his arms and whispered four words into her ear.
"We need to talk."
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really, i tried to not make it a cliff hanger this time... it just came out this way no matter what i did to it. couldn't really make it sound any better. promise to have an update a hell of a lot sooner than when i had this one though!