Creep
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"You float like a feather in your beautiful world. I wish I was special. You're so very special. But I'm a creep."
Lance groaned at the song as changed the station on the jeep's radio. Why did he have the feeling someone was writing a soundtrack to his life?
The only other station that played music of this century was Brittany Spears so he settled with no music at all. The silence drove him crazy.
"Damn it, Alvers, what's wrong with you?" he murmured to himself as he turned in to the shopping center. It was Friday again and time to buy groceries for the brotherhood, and with Peitro's hefty allowance from his father there was plenty was to shop for. Although shopping wasn't Lance's thing, it was still nice to get out of the house and be alone to clear his head.
You can do a lot of thinking at a grocery store. And Lance had a lot to think about or at least himself over what he though about.
He couldn't believe himself that morning. After he did so much to make Kitty forgive him and see him as a decent guy he blew it by biting her head off. He didn't even know why he got so protective of himself when she wasn't even talking about him. Kitty was whining about HER future. Not his past.
After grabbing a cart he started down the cereal aisle, being sure to pick up some Honey Smacks since Todd liked the Dig 'em Frog on the box. He threw in a box of cocoa puffs for him and then a couple more for Fred. Lastly some Lucky Charms for the siblings. He looked down at the cart already half full of cereal and shook his head. "Budget, Lance. We're on a budget."
He took out a couple of cocoa puff boxes and decided he could live the frog cereal. No matter how hefty Peitro's allowance was, Lance didn't want to owe Magneto any favors. Even if the man was all changed for the better at the moment, Lance doubted he would stay that way. And once he goes back to his old self, it'll be "Kill everyone and kill yourself" all over again.
((People don't change)), Lance thought as he moved to the bread aisle. ((I didn't.)) He was still the reckless youth that can't be tamed. As long as people labeled him that way that was who he was.
Truthfully he liked that image. He liked the look of fear on people's faces when they saw him walk toward him. He like the power. He really loved the way his recklessness made Kitty laugh. That was the only way he could her attention before. Sometimes it was like he only felt good when he was making other's feel like hell. But there was only one person that he wanted to be good to and good for.
The amazing Kitty Pryde. She didn't fear him when he walked toward her like a bad ass. Instead she'd roll her eyes and laugh of smile at him in way of saying "You're nuts but that's why I like you." She was the one person who didn't shiver or back down from him. With her he was powerless, and he liked it that way.
He grabbed a carton of milk and placed it in the nearly filled up cart.
Now that they were together again he made sure not to screw up again. He wasn't necessarily a good boy but he wasn't wrecking parking lots either. Even if people can't change, things around them do. That thought suddenly came to his head and he realized why he freaked out on Kitty that morning. He realized that things were changing, but only for Kitty.
Lance looked down at the carton he was still holding suddenly burning with shame.
There he was 20 years old, and still living with the brotherhood depending on Peitro's (A kid he wasn't to found of) money. He has no job, he's out of
school, and he's a bad ass. Just the way he was when he was 18.
But Kitty's life was changing right before his eyes. She was 17, a junior in high school, and preparing for college that may be a thousand miles away from him. She'll become something great and he'll be left in her dust. Lance was a little jealous, but mostly he was ashamed. How long could he continue being a reckless youth when he's becoming an adult? How long could Kitty put up with him till she realizes that he's nothing but a creep?
With that thought he went to check out.
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"Come in Miss Pryde."
Kitty walked cautiously into the guidance counselor's office not quite sure what she was doing there. The counselor felt the same way.
"I'm surprised to see you in here. You're not one to be having trouble in school."
"I know." Kitty replied taking a seat in front of Mr. Parker's desk. "I'm not here for me exactly. I just have a question or something."
The counselor sat down at his desk bracing his elbows on the desk and intertwining his fingers like the professor often did. "Or something, Kitty? Don't you have lunch this period?"
Right on cue Kitty's stomach began to growl. She placed a hand over her abdomen to calm it down ignoring her hunger. "This is the only time I can come and talk to you."
"Just for a question?"
"Or something." she added.
Mr. Parker leaned in to his desk to give her his full attention. "Shoot." He said smiling.
Kitty took a deep breath and began. "Ok. I have this friend, ok? And he is, like, not exactly Honor Roll material or anything. Actually he's not in high school anymore because of.. .. .. Stuff. Anyway now he's too old for high school but I think he should go to college or at least get his diploma but he did something too bogus to get it. So, like, is there anyway he can.. .. .. Get it?"
Mr. Parker gave her a blank look. "You're talking about Lance Alvers, aren't you?"
"I'm talking about a 'friend'." Kitty corrected.
The counselor sighed as he took off his glasses and began to clean them with his shirt. "Kitty, you are one of our brightest and most well- behaved students and I would love to help you but, I don't think Lance is someone you should put your time into. It's wonderful that you want to help him, but some people just can't be helped."
He put his glasses back on to see her reaction, that was just as he had expected. Kitty gawked at him like he was the Grim Reaper killing off people for fun. But once she spoke, her words were as rational as Jean Grey.
"I can't believe you! That is, like, so unfair! You say that I'm one of your brightest students but you don't think I'm smart enough to trust my own judgment? I know what I'm doing and being that it's outside of school it's none of your business. Your business however is to guide your students to have a fair future. Lance needs guidance. Without it he'll become more of a delinquent than he was before. All I need to know is if there is a way to give someone a second chance in education. Could Lance go to college or at least get a diploma? Or am I just wasting my time asking you?"
Mr. Parker felt his glasses slide down to his nose, too shocked to fix them. "Miss Pryde, you are way out of line." He managed.
Kitty crossed her arms and sneered. "Yeah well I'm hungry."
The man sighed after a pause to take in what she said. He opened his desk drawer and pulled out a bunch of papers. He faced her with a certain paper with web addresses on it. He circled one with a pen. "This is a test you can sign for that gives you the ability of receiving a diploma if you pass. Being that Mr. Alvers was a senior when he was expelled he doesn't have to deal with the whole program this site has to offer and he doesn't have to transfer into another high school which is another possibility. If he really wants this, go check out these sites and see what fits him best."
Kitty couldn't believe it. He was actually helping her. Human to mutant. She grinned at him as she took the papers. "This is awesome! Thanks!"
The Counselor gave her a serious face. "It's my job. But just to warn you, this will not be easy. He'll have to remember all that he learned all four years of high school and learn the subjects he missed. This will take a lot of effort and time on his part."
"He can handle it." Kitty said before she left the room. ((Of coarse first he'll have to know about it.))
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R&R and I'll be your best friend.
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"You float like a feather in your beautiful world. I wish I was special. You're so very special. But I'm a creep."
Lance groaned at the song as changed the station on the jeep's radio. Why did he have the feeling someone was writing a soundtrack to his life?
The only other station that played music of this century was Brittany Spears so he settled with no music at all. The silence drove him crazy.
"Damn it, Alvers, what's wrong with you?" he murmured to himself as he turned in to the shopping center. It was Friday again and time to buy groceries for the brotherhood, and with Peitro's hefty allowance from his father there was plenty was to shop for. Although shopping wasn't Lance's thing, it was still nice to get out of the house and be alone to clear his head.
You can do a lot of thinking at a grocery store. And Lance had a lot to think about or at least himself over what he though about.
He couldn't believe himself that morning. After he did so much to make Kitty forgive him and see him as a decent guy he blew it by biting her head off. He didn't even know why he got so protective of himself when she wasn't even talking about him. Kitty was whining about HER future. Not his past.
After grabbing a cart he started down the cereal aisle, being sure to pick up some Honey Smacks since Todd liked the Dig 'em Frog on the box. He threw in a box of cocoa puffs for him and then a couple more for Fred. Lastly some Lucky Charms for the siblings. He looked down at the cart already half full of cereal and shook his head. "Budget, Lance. We're on a budget."
He took out a couple of cocoa puff boxes and decided he could live the frog cereal. No matter how hefty Peitro's allowance was, Lance didn't want to owe Magneto any favors. Even if the man was all changed for the better at the moment, Lance doubted he would stay that way. And once he goes back to his old self, it'll be "Kill everyone and kill yourself" all over again.
((People don't change)), Lance thought as he moved to the bread aisle. ((I didn't.)) He was still the reckless youth that can't be tamed. As long as people labeled him that way that was who he was.
Truthfully he liked that image. He liked the look of fear on people's faces when they saw him walk toward him. He like the power. He really loved the way his recklessness made Kitty laugh. That was the only way he could her attention before. Sometimes it was like he only felt good when he was making other's feel like hell. But there was only one person that he wanted to be good to and good for.
The amazing Kitty Pryde. She didn't fear him when he walked toward her like a bad ass. Instead she'd roll her eyes and laugh of smile at him in way of saying "You're nuts but that's why I like you." She was the one person who didn't shiver or back down from him. With her he was powerless, and he liked it that way.
He grabbed a carton of milk and placed it in the nearly filled up cart.
Now that they were together again he made sure not to screw up again. He wasn't necessarily a good boy but he wasn't wrecking parking lots either. Even if people can't change, things around them do. That thought suddenly came to his head and he realized why he freaked out on Kitty that morning. He realized that things were changing, but only for Kitty.
Lance looked down at the carton he was still holding suddenly burning with shame.
There he was 20 years old, and still living with the brotherhood depending on Peitro's (A kid he wasn't to found of) money. He has no job, he's out of
school, and he's a bad ass. Just the way he was when he was 18.
But Kitty's life was changing right before his eyes. She was 17, a junior in high school, and preparing for college that may be a thousand miles away from him. She'll become something great and he'll be left in her dust. Lance was a little jealous, but mostly he was ashamed. How long could he continue being a reckless youth when he's becoming an adult? How long could Kitty put up with him till she realizes that he's nothing but a creep?
With that thought he went to check out.
* * * * * * * * * * *
"Come in Miss Pryde."
Kitty walked cautiously into the guidance counselor's office not quite sure what she was doing there. The counselor felt the same way.
"I'm surprised to see you in here. You're not one to be having trouble in school."
"I know." Kitty replied taking a seat in front of Mr. Parker's desk. "I'm not here for me exactly. I just have a question or something."
The counselor sat down at his desk bracing his elbows on the desk and intertwining his fingers like the professor often did. "Or something, Kitty? Don't you have lunch this period?"
Right on cue Kitty's stomach began to growl. She placed a hand over her abdomen to calm it down ignoring her hunger. "This is the only time I can come and talk to you."
"Just for a question?"
"Or something." she added.
Mr. Parker leaned in to his desk to give her his full attention. "Shoot." He said smiling.
Kitty took a deep breath and began. "Ok. I have this friend, ok? And he is, like, not exactly Honor Roll material or anything. Actually he's not in high school anymore because of.. .. .. Stuff. Anyway now he's too old for high school but I think he should go to college or at least get his diploma but he did something too bogus to get it. So, like, is there anyway he can.. .. .. Get it?"
Mr. Parker gave her a blank look. "You're talking about Lance Alvers, aren't you?"
"I'm talking about a 'friend'." Kitty corrected.
The counselor sighed as he took off his glasses and began to clean them with his shirt. "Kitty, you are one of our brightest and most well- behaved students and I would love to help you but, I don't think Lance is someone you should put your time into. It's wonderful that you want to help him, but some people just can't be helped."
He put his glasses back on to see her reaction, that was just as he had expected. Kitty gawked at him like he was the Grim Reaper killing off people for fun. But once she spoke, her words were as rational as Jean Grey.
"I can't believe you! That is, like, so unfair! You say that I'm one of your brightest students but you don't think I'm smart enough to trust my own judgment? I know what I'm doing and being that it's outside of school it's none of your business. Your business however is to guide your students to have a fair future. Lance needs guidance. Without it he'll become more of a delinquent than he was before. All I need to know is if there is a way to give someone a second chance in education. Could Lance go to college or at least get a diploma? Or am I just wasting my time asking you?"
Mr. Parker felt his glasses slide down to his nose, too shocked to fix them. "Miss Pryde, you are way out of line." He managed.
Kitty crossed her arms and sneered. "Yeah well I'm hungry."
The man sighed after a pause to take in what she said. He opened his desk drawer and pulled out a bunch of papers. He faced her with a certain paper with web addresses on it. He circled one with a pen. "This is a test you can sign for that gives you the ability of receiving a diploma if you pass. Being that Mr. Alvers was a senior when he was expelled he doesn't have to deal with the whole program this site has to offer and he doesn't have to transfer into another high school which is another possibility. If he really wants this, go check out these sites and see what fits him best."
Kitty couldn't believe it. He was actually helping her. Human to mutant. She grinned at him as she took the papers. "This is awesome! Thanks!"
The Counselor gave her a serious face. "It's my job. But just to warn you, this will not be easy. He'll have to remember all that he learned all four years of high school and learn the subjects he missed. This will take a lot of effort and time on his part."
"He can handle it." Kitty said before she left the room. ((Of coarse first he'll have to know about it.))
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R&R and I'll be your best friend.