Passing of the Forbidden
Hi! AH!! I'm so sorry! I actually had this chapter rewritten, but then my computer had a virus and everything was lost... including all my in-work chapters. I lost SO much! *sob*
And currently my internet is screwed up... I'm sorry I won't be able to read or review stories much... or read reveiws... I'm so sorry!! *stupid computer* ~Crying!!~
Thanks for everyone who still reads... and reviews... I'm sorry... my life is SO screwed up....
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"GINA!"
Gina shot up from her chair and opened the front door quickly, "Miss Kaoru!"
Kaoru stumbled, giggling as a red haired man helped her in.
Gina frowned deeply, "Where have you been Miss Kaoru?"
"Just out for the night Gina..."
"It's been a week!"
"So..." Kaoru slurred.
"Go to bed." Gina ordered, "The boys will be home soon. I don't want them to see THIS!
Kaoru kissed the red head and disappeared into her bedroom, "Don't be mad Gina!" She yelled as she walked by.
"Just who are you?" Gina asked folding her arms.
"Kenshin Himura, Miss Gina. Kaoru talks much of you." The red haired man smiled politly.
"I'm sure she does." Gina replied the reknown author coldly. Communist her mind hissed.
Kenshin looked embarrassed under the glare, "I'll... be going now." He placed a book on the table, "It's Kaoru's."
"It's already happened Mr. Himura." Gina said stiffly, glancing sharply at the book.
Kenshin turned around confused, "Excuse me?"
"The Passing of the Forbidden."
Kenshin was left staring at the wooden door; a resounding slam echoed Gina's words.
***
Kaoru slowly sipped the soup before her.
Gina wore a frown on her face, often glancing at 'her boys.'
"Um... Gina..." Kaoru began.
Gina glanced up. Kaoru was startled by the haunted cold look in the other woman's eyes.
"Miss Kaoru. How could you?" She asked in cold fury.
Kaoru shivered; it was as if the room at become an igloo, chilling to the bone.
"What's done is done Gina." She replied, trying to keep panic from her voice.
"Will it continue?" Gina implored.
"Fate will have that final say." Kaoru rubbed her forehead, which was slightly pounding in pain.
"So what now Miss Kaoru?" Gina gave a hard sigh.
"What do you mean?" Kaoru quickened her eyebrows.
Gina's voice raised, "How can you... stay in a house where your husband has provided, eat the food that your husband worked for, wear the clothes your husband's money brings, or even... look him honestly in the eyes again? Tell me Miss Kaoru. Explain to me why you have not run away with him yet, or why you aren't sitting in shame. Miss Kaoru---"
SLAP!
Should I stop?
I'll continue....
Gina stumbled back. Her face instantly flamed from the blow.
Kaoru looked stunned, staring at her hand as if it had a mind of its own.
The room was deathly silent. Even the boys who had been arguing were silent.
A split second later, then was the noisy pounding as the boys rushed over to their 'mother.' Tsutomu shot Kaoru a glare. Kaoru cowered back; in his eyes, she had been labeled a threat, to a woman who all the boys considered as thier mother.
Tatsuo rushed into his mother's arm. Gina held her son close as the boy weeped.
Tsuyoshi was sitting at Gina's feet, guarding her from the 'threat.' Tsutomu stood tall lean on the arm of the chair, golen eyes aimed at Kaoru.
Kaoru was jealous; Gina and her three lovely adoring sons as her feet; to aid thier mother. The perfect family, minus Okita of course... almost perfect.
Kaoru sprang to her feet, "You know, I was always jealous of you!" She pointed to the young woman cradling her son.
Gina glared up, "Why?"
"You had this fairy tale life, this perfect loving husband, the adoring kids... down to you siblings and parents I bet." Kaoru spat harshly.
Gina's face twisted into a cruel sad smile, "I'm sorry to disappoint you."
Kaoru was about to slam the foor to her room, "Huh?"
"You had the adventure... running away from home! You had a great life there!"
"But--"
"I watched my parents excecute by my neighbors... as traitors, loyalist to the Japanese! All this were false accusations... only greedy people angry at my father's good fortune."
"I'm sorr-" Kaoru was cut off.
"You ,on the other hand, ran away from your family. You went back to them and they welcomed you again. They arranged your marriage, it was a good one too, had you accepted your good luck. Instead, you hated being 'bound' as you would say to any man... and went to search for what you could find by yourself."
"Gina--" Kaoru never heard Gina's tale, only that she lived with her aunt and uncle met Okita... and the rest was history.
"You judge too quickly Miss Kaoru. My life isn't a pot of gold. I believe I deserve a little rest from all these troubles. I don't look for trouble; it simply finds me... But you... you go looking for trouble." Gina cast a dark look at Kaoru.
Kaoru growled angerily, "LOOK AT YOURSELF! Your life now is... bliss!! You even have oh-SO-adoring children at your feet, to comfort you when your husband is off. What do I have?"
Gina fell silent.
Kaoru looked at the woman sitting in a pool of shining sunlight, with a boy cradled in one arm, and two at her feet, "I have nothing." She blinked back her angry tears.
Kaoru closed the door harshly, but she still heard Gina's soft reply.
"You never cherished what you have."
In fury, Kaoru smashed the vase in her room.
***
Kenshin refolded the letter; Tomoe's letter. This week he had been on... heaven... with Kaoru. A passion he could not even fathom had exsisted until now...until Kaoru.
He felt a rush of shame pass over him. What now of his wife, his sons? What had become of his life?
"Kenshin?"
Kenshin glance up to see Kaoru standing there with tears coming down, "Kaoru..."
"What will become of us?" She wailed falling into his outstrectched arms.
Kenshin held her close, "I don't know..."
"Kenshin..."
"Yes?"
"I love you." Kaoru held her breath.
Kenshin sighed; he could not deny what his heart felt, "I love you too."
"But this is forbidden." Kaoru whispered.
"We'll find a way... in the end."
"Guess this is good-bye."
"I'll be here for another month or so."
"Good."
***
"Mama!" Kenji yelled for his mother from the front door. He wheezed slightly.
Tomoe instantly rushed him to bed. "Don't work our your lungs!"
"But Mama-"
"Kenji. Mama and Baba love you and want to take care of you. Go and rest."
(A/N: Baba- father in chinese)
"Yes Mama."
Tomoe sighed as her youngest son went to bed. She reached over for the last letter she had recieved from her husband.
He seemed distant; she worried about his health, or maybe it was his writing.
He was spending more and more time in cities...
What was he doing? Having an affair?
Tomoe shook such thoughts from her head; this is Kenshin Himura. He would never do a thing like that. She was just losing her head.
***
=Three Weeks Later=
Kaoru was sitting on Kenshin's bed, watching his hunch over the desk writing. She got up and walked over, sitting on Kenshin's lap and kissing him deeply.
"Kenshin..."
Kenshin brushed a lock of hair out of the woman's bright blue eyes.
"Kaoru... I'm sorry."
"Kenshin... what?"
Kenshin pointed to the letter, "It's from my wife... I can't keep this up."
Kaoru pouted like a spoiled child, "But Kenshin... I love you!"
"Love you too Koaru... but we can't keep this up!"
"So this is the end huh?" Kaoru was heartbroken. She had found her fairy tale prince, only now she had to give him up... as another broken dream... just becuase...
"Perhaps in another time... had it been another place, another life, another..." Kenshin whispered as he held Kaoru close.
Kaoru's tears wetted his shirt. She pulled away and looked at the red haired man.
"Kenshin." She began."
He kissed her, but not for closure... it was a passionate one...
"Just once more Kenshin... please...." Kaoru begged, "I want to be loved one more time... by a man who truly loves me... just once more."
One more night of the forbidden passion...
***
=Three Weeks Later=
Soujirou knew somethind was amiss the minute he walked into the apartment.
Gina was sewing on one side of the room; Kaoru was dusting in another.
It wasn't odd...it was just the way they moved, like they were avoiding each other.
Gina flew into Okita's arms, whispering something in his ear. Okita broke into a broad smile.
Kaoru gave Soujirou a half-hearted smile. Her face suddenly paled and she dashed to the bathroom.
Soujirou's eyebrows lifted.
"She's been feeling sick since two weeks ago... every morning..."
"Perhaps it is the changing of weather." Okita suggest.
"Perhaps." Soujirou agreed, but he knew it wasn't the answer. Something was just NOT right... but he couldn't place is finger on it.
"Okita. Will you go to the market and buy some fresh tofu?" Gina asked quietly.
Okita grinned, "Sure thing. Coming Sou'?"
Soujirou nodded, "Comin'."
Gina grabbed Soujirou's arm before he left, "I'm sure it's just a slight cold."
"'Hope its nothing serious." Okita chimmed in.
Soujirou nodded firmly; no need for them to become involved.
"Souj'?" Okita waved a hand in front of Soujirou.
"What?" Soujirou snapped.
Okita ignored Soujirou's rudeness with a beaming smile, "Gina's pregnant again!!"
"Congrats." Soujirou said drily. Why could he never be a father? His fists involuntary clenched in utter fustration. Sometimes, he just evnied his best friend.
***
Kaoru took the oppurtunity to see Kenshin. No one would notice... and she NEEDED to see him.
"Kenshin..." She walked into the room softly.
"Kaoru... we kinda agreed not to see each other again." Kenshin's voice was broken but firm.
"Kenshin... we have a problem."
Kenshin sighed, "No... you have a problem. It's done and OVER. I have a wife, you have a husband. I told you... we can't keep this up!" He turned around to face her.
"I'm pregnant."
That just makes it a WHOLE new ballgame, huh?
I'm sorry this chapter is so... fast moving. It's just that this chapter was already finished... until my computer wiped it out. So this chapter is like a short... faster... version of it. Tell me if your confused and I can probably fill in the details.
I know where this story is going... and how it will end.
Be aware... it's not always a happy ending.
I personally don't believe in fairy tale endings... and this story is going to express that.
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