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Chapter 6: Wonderings
Happiness is something that can be greatly taken advantage of. Most people don't realize how great it is when they have it, only seeing it's importance once they've lost it. So it's the people that have lost it, that treasure it so much. Those people protect it, fight for it, and yearn for it.
Hermione Granger spent most of her 7th year happy. Yet she had also spent most of her other years just the same. So she never thought she would lose the happiness of Draco, she never wondered what it would be like without him. She did however, notice his happiness, and she took great pride in knowing she had caused it. To this day she still does.
Draco Malfoy spent most of his 7th year happy. Though most of the years before it had been spent in just an opposite fashion. He wondered daily if he would lose her, wondered if she was just as happy as he was. He tried as hard as he could to make things right, for he had lost it before, and now he would never let it go. To this day he hasn't.
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we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
say what your thinking out loud
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Hermione strolled down the hallway oblivious to the goings-on around her. One thing and one thing only was on her mind, Draco. She wasn't sure how it had happened, how he had become so important to her, yet he had, and at an alarmingly fast pace. She made her way to the Potions classroom, not even dreading a class with the Slytherins and Snape.
She took her seat next to Ron and glanced around the room until she saw him.
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Draco let his eyes roam the room until they found her. She was right there, next to Weasley, and she was looking at him. He needed this, needed her, he could feel it. The last two days had been filled with little pieces of agony. Neither of them being able to get away long enough to see the other, but Draco would change that today. He would find a way. He just wanted to talk to her, hang out with her, and be with her, he just wanted to be happy.
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In Hogwarts, most years had a few choice 'smart' people. They were the ones that always tried hard and always did well. They usually ended up in the Head Boy and Girl positions. Hermione and Draco had followed that pattern to some extent. Yet that day in class, and in the days before, neither of them paid any attention to what was going on.
It is an example of the classic case of infatuation. They thought only of the other and things that had happened with them. They were in their own little world. But, like most people in this state, they were happy.
Hermione walked down the long corridor as fast as she could without seeming suspicious. He had sent her a note! She had to meet him outside by the pine trees. She could feel her heart pounding in her chest, butterflies in her stomach, and the slight gnawing fear that this was all some crazy joke.
She made her way outside, down to the pine trees, and she saw him. And she flinched. She almost turned around, almost made a run for it. For never in a million years would she have guessed that she would be doing this. Secret meetings with Draco Malfoy were not something she had been counting down for. Yet here it was, right before her, and she wanted it.
"Hey, Draco."
He turned his face to her, a small smile resting on his lips. "'Mione. You actually came."
"What, you thought I wouldn't? Well Draco, I guess you're just to irresistible for me."
"Right, right," He said, with laughter in his eyes, "Well, I already knew that."
"So," She said, trying to fill some of the empty air, "What are we going to do?"
"Uh, well, talk. I mean, if you want to, it's just that I kind of wanted to, but if you don't…" He looked at her with a helpless look on his face. "Look 'Mione, I've never really done anything like this before. I guess I just wanted to see you, and talk to you, without everyone watching me. You know?"
"Yeah, same here. And talking sounds fine. But do you think we could sit down? This all feels way to formal."
"Oh, yeah, sure. Go ahead."
So she carefully sat herself down on the ground, with her back against the trunk of the tree, and she grabbed his hand and pulled him down with her. And she didn't let go.
"So," She started, "Can I ask you a question that might be sort of personal?"
"Well, you can ask it, who knows if I'll answer it."
"Okay, I was just wondering, what animal do you become? When you transfigure, when you train to be an Animagi. I just wanted to know."
"A hawk," He said, with pride in his voice.
"Really?" She asked. "Not a dragon, or a lion, or some incredibly vicious animal?"
He gave a short laugh at her astonishment. "Nope, nothing like that."
"Why?"
"Because I wanted to be free. When I can do that, when I change, I'm free up there. It's like nothing can get to me. There is no Voldermort, no Dumbledore, no parents, no Harry Potter or Pansy Parkinson, no pretty brown haired girls that hold my hand and ask me questions no one else ever has. And I just like that. I need that."
She glanced up at him and she fell a little more. She took her fingers and slowly traced the lines on his hands, trying to memorize them and him in that moment. "You know Draco, one day you'll have to show me."
"Yeah," He said, bringing their hands to his mouth and putting one kiss on the palm of her hand, "I will."
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we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
and next time I'm in town…
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Time spent talking can fly by faster then we wish it to. So soon, Draco and Hermione found themselves again on a withdrawal from the other. Things became slightly desperate, and yet no one seemed to notice any real differences in the Head Boy and Girl.
"Hermione? What are you guys working on that takes so much time? Come on, you can tell me." Ron whined as he followed Hermione through the Common Room.
"Ron, as I have repeatedly told you, I cannot say what we are working on. It's official business. Come on, you know that. I can't help that I'm spending so much time with Malfoy."
"Yeah I know, but just do something with me, anything. It's like we never hang out anymore."
"Ron, I'm sorry. But maybe, if you would stop following me and complaining, I could go to the meeting and finish the project! Then we could hang out! Okay?!"
"Fine. Oh and I'm SORRY!" He yelled to her retreating figure, slowly shaking his head as he turned and went up to his dorm.
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we will kiss girl
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"Draco! Where are you?!" She yelled as she went into the old Charms room.
"Over here. Hermione, I'm right over here."
"Sorry," She said as she crumbled into the seat next to him, "I'm just so frustrated."
"Why?" He asked with concern in his voice.
"Because Draco, because I keep lying to my friends. Because I don't want to lie, but I have to, because I want to see you all the time, that's why."
"Oh 'Mione, it's okay. I'm so sorry, I don't know why I keep doing this; I shouldn't ask you here to see me. Maybe I should just leave you alone, I always cause pain, I'm so sorry."
"No!" She yelled at him. "Don't do that. Please don't do that. Gods! I'm so confused."
Draco Malfoy looked over at the girl next to him and felt his heart fall a little deeper and break a tiny bit. "Come here" He said as he took her hand, pulled her up and over to him and put her in his lap. Wrapping his arms around her, he felt the sobs shake her body. "'Mione," he whispered into her ear, "I'm here. I'll stay with you. Everything will be okay."
Slowly she found her crying dying down and things returned to normal. And that's when she realized it, that she was sitting in his lap. And she felt comfortable. That's when she started laughing. Tiny little giggles that escaped from her mouth and slowly filled the room.
"'Mione? Uh, what's so funny?" Asked Draco, somewhat skeptically.
"It's just, look at us! How can this actually be happening? I, Hermione Granger, am sitting, quite cozily I might add, in your, Draco Malfoy's lap. Just look at us! It's crazy. This is crazy."
"Yeah, I guess. But, 'Mione, is it crazy good or crazy bad?" He hopefully asked.
"Oh don't you worry. It's crazy good, crazy weird, but good, really good."
"Good" He said, and they both laughed a little. The tension floated out of the room, leaving one boy and one girl and all their crazy emotions.
"Yeah," She said as she looked into his eyes, "Good."
"So, I was just wondering, you know. Would it be funny if I, Draco Malfoy, just happened to kiss you, Hermione Granger?"
"You know, I don't think it would be. But maybe we should try."
"Well," He said, "I was just wondering, but if you really wanted to…"
And that's when he kissed her. With one hand on her face and one in her hair, and they both fell a little deeper.
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we will kiss girl
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Hermione Granger sat in her bed that night and touched her lips. She had kissed Draco Malfoy. So many girls right now must hate her. She smiled to herself. She had no idea what she was going to do, her friends wanted answers, her grades had slipped a fraction of an inch, and she might be falling for the worst thing that could ever happen to her. Some might wonder why she was smiling, but she would tell you, it was because she was wondering if maybe she might be wrong. If instead of him being the worst thing, he just might be the best.
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Draco Malfoy closed the door to his room and smiled. It was one of those actual, genuine, full mouth kinds of smiles. He had kissed her, Hermione Granger. He had held her and comforted her, something he was completely inexperienced with. He would never forget this night. There had been many kisses before for Draco, all different kinds, but this one was special. The taste of her lingered on his lips, he already missed her. And he thought of the people outside. Of his friends that could never know this, of his 'girlfriend' who had never caused any real emotion in him what so ever. And he wondered, if maybe he was falling for her, Hermione Granger, and how happy he would be if he actually were.
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