Chapter 9
I layed in bed that night thinking about the days to come. But I had a hard time sleeping. I just couldn't believe that I had actually seen Sakyou. Of all the people I never wanted to see again,I thought. Why the hell did it have to be him? But my thoughts were interrupted as the door slowly opened. It was Kurama.
"You aren't asleep?"he asked.
"I can't sleep Kurama."
"You still have feelings for him don't you?"
I didn't know what to say. Did I really have feelings left for Sakyou? I thought I had thrown away all my thoughts for him. What the hell was going on here? How did he know it was me in the forest? How did he recognize my face? Me...of all people. I thought that he had forgotten me.
"I don't know Kurama. I really just don't know..." I really didn't want to say anything to hurt him.
"It's ok. I understand."
"Kurama please.... I thought I would never see him again after all these years. Maybe it was a good thing that I never went into the stronghold. I probably would have went ballistic and probably would have killed him."
"But you didn't."
"I know."
He came over and sat on the bed and hugged me.
"I never wanted things to come to this. But I don't love him Kurama. I love you."
"I know. And I love you too. And nothing is going to change that."
I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry so badly! I wanted to run back into those woods and just cry and not come back. I never want to see Sakyou again,I thought. But then again,I'm going to have to. I'm just going to have to get over it,whether I like it or not. So help me!
"Are you ok?"he asked with that smile on his face that I wished would just never go away.
"As long as you're here I am."
"Good. Now you really should get some sleep."
He started to walk out the door,but I stopped him. "Kurama?"
"Yes?"
"Don't die on me all right?"
"Ok. Now can I ask you something?"
"Yes?"
"Don't die on me either. I care about you and I don't want you to get hurt."
"I won't."
"Good. Now get some rest ok?"
He shut the door before I could say anything. I knew there was nothing else to say. Kurama was right. I still had feelings for Sakyou. But why all of a sudden? Why in the hell would I have feelings for him? Maybe because I could get the fact out of my head that a part of me still loved him even though I ran out on him.
But then again, maybe it wasn't because I ran out on him. Maybe it was just the fact that that something inside me that still loved was telling me I did the wrong thing. But then again,why? I ran out on him because I thought he was just using me. And then to see him in the woods...oh god. I just wish that I knew what to say.
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I layed in bed that night thinking about the days to come. But I had a hard time sleeping. I just couldn't believe that I had actually seen Sakyou. Of all the people I never wanted to see again,I thought. Why the hell did it have to be him? But my thoughts were interrupted as the door slowly opened. It was Kurama.
"You aren't asleep?"he asked.
"I can't sleep Kurama."
"You still have feelings for him don't you?"
I didn't know what to say. Did I really have feelings left for Sakyou? I thought I had thrown away all my thoughts for him. What the hell was going on here? How did he know it was me in the forest? How did he recognize my face? Me...of all people. I thought that he had forgotten me.
"I don't know Kurama. I really just don't know..." I really didn't want to say anything to hurt him.
"It's ok. I understand."
"Kurama please.... I thought I would never see him again after all these years. Maybe it was a good thing that I never went into the stronghold. I probably would have went ballistic and probably would have killed him."
"But you didn't."
"I know."
He came over and sat on the bed and hugged me.
"I never wanted things to come to this. But I don't love him Kurama. I love you."
"I know. And I love you too. And nothing is going to change that."
I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry so badly! I wanted to run back into those woods and just cry and not come back. I never want to see Sakyou again,I thought. But then again,I'm going to have to. I'm just going to have to get over it,whether I like it or not. So help me!
"Are you ok?"he asked with that smile on his face that I wished would just never go away.
"As long as you're here I am."
"Good. Now you really should get some sleep."
He started to walk out the door,but I stopped him. "Kurama?"
"Yes?"
"Don't die on me all right?"
"Ok. Now can I ask you something?"
"Yes?"
"Don't die on me either. I care about you and I don't want you to get hurt."
"I won't."
"Good. Now get some rest ok?"
He shut the door before I could say anything. I knew there was nothing else to say. Kurama was right. I still had feelings for Sakyou. But why all of a sudden? Why in the hell would I have feelings for him? Maybe because I could get the fact out of my head that a part of me still loved him even though I ran out on him.
But then again, maybe it wasn't because I ran out on him. Maybe it was just the fact that that something inside me that still loved was telling me I did the wrong thing. But then again,why? I ran out on him because I thought he was just using me. And then to see him in the woods...oh god. I just wish that I knew what to say.
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