Chapter 12
I didn't want to go back. I wanted to stay in the hotel where it was safe. Where I didn't have to see Sakyou's face. I couldn't do this anymore. I wanted to go home. But now I felt like a coward. I had come this far,and now I wanted to run away from it all. Kurama wanted me to fight. I knew I couldn't do that. What if something happened? I couldn't do this anymore.
I waited to see if Kurama had followed me. I got the feeling that he wasn't going to come back. I hope that he understood why I ran away,I thought.
"Nicole!"he yelled as he opened the door.
"Kurama? You actually followed me. But why?"
He hugged me. "Did you think I was going to just stand there without and explanation?"
I started to cry. "I'm so sorry."
He kissed my forhead. "Shhhh......It's ok."
"You should go. They're waiting for you."
"Are you going to be ok?"
I nodded. "I'll be fine."
He dried away the last of my tears. "All right. I'm going. I love you."
"I love you too." I watched as he walked out of the room. I didn't say anything. I couldn't. But then again,maybe I didn't want to.
I thought that he would open the door and come back and hug me again. But I was wrong. He didn't come back. I looked out the window. I could see him. I wondered if he would look up and see my face. But he didn't. He walked on,not looking back.
What the hell am I doing,I thought. No...I can't do this. I need to stay here. I need to stay where it's safe...away from Sakyou. But then again,maybe I should at go and be with him for support. Of what the hell am I doing?!
"Nicole?"ask Botan as she came into the room. "Shouldn't you be with Kurama?"
"No. He understands why I'm not with him."
"Then why aren't you?"
"It's a long story Botan."
I turned around and saw Shizuru,Yukina,and Kayko.
"How long have you guys been standing there?"
"Long enough,"said Kayko.
"You guys should go. I decided not to be with him on my own...because of someone from my past..." I knew they didn't understand. They hadn't been here long enough to understand.
"You girls go ahead and I'll talk to her,"said Botan.
"No Botan. It's all right. Really."
But I knew she wouldn't listen. This was Botan for pete's sake. The girls were already gone aways.
"What's wrong?"
"Botan...you know Sakyou right?"
"Yes...I saw him when we were rescuing Yukina."
"He was boyfriend."
"Oh dear..."
"That's what I can't go there Botan. He owns this tournament. And then I saw him in the woods the other day."
"What did he do?"
"He hugged me and told me that I shouldn't be here. That I'll just get myself killed. And then Kurama and I were about half-way from the stadium and then I ran away from him. I didn't think he would follow me back,but he did."
"What are you going to do?"
"I don't know Botan. But I need time to think,so please go."
"All right. If that's what you want." She got up and left the room.
I'm sorry Kurama,I thought. But I can't do this anymore. I really do want to go home. This is all just a dream right? Well please wake up. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want you to get hurt! I want to be with you Kurama because I love you.I don't want you to leave me! Please come back Kurama...please just come back to me.
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I didn't want to go back. I wanted to stay in the hotel where it was safe. Where I didn't have to see Sakyou's face. I couldn't do this anymore. I wanted to go home. But now I felt like a coward. I had come this far,and now I wanted to run away from it all. Kurama wanted me to fight. I knew I couldn't do that. What if something happened? I couldn't do this anymore.
I waited to see if Kurama had followed me. I got the feeling that he wasn't going to come back. I hope that he understood why I ran away,I thought.
"Nicole!"he yelled as he opened the door.
"Kurama? You actually followed me. But why?"
He hugged me. "Did you think I was going to just stand there without and explanation?"
I started to cry. "I'm so sorry."
He kissed my forhead. "Shhhh......It's ok."
"You should go. They're waiting for you."
"Are you going to be ok?"
I nodded. "I'll be fine."
He dried away the last of my tears. "All right. I'm going. I love you."
"I love you too." I watched as he walked out of the room. I didn't say anything. I couldn't. But then again,maybe I didn't want to.
I thought that he would open the door and come back and hug me again. But I was wrong. He didn't come back. I looked out the window. I could see him. I wondered if he would look up and see my face. But he didn't. He walked on,not looking back.
What the hell am I doing,I thought. No...I can't do this. I need to stay here. I need to stay where it's safe...away from Sakyou. But then again,maybe I should at go and be with him for support. Of what the hell am I doing?!
"Nicole?"ask Botan as she came into the room. "Shouldn't you be with Kurama?"
"No. He understands why I'm not with him."
"Then why aren't you?"
"It's a long story Botan."
I turned around and saw Shizuru,Yukina,and Kayko.
"How long have you guys been standing there?"
"Long enough,"said Kayko.
"You guys should go. I decided not to be with him on my own...because of someone from my past..." I knew they didn't understand. They hadn't been here long enough to understand.
"You girls go ahead and I'll talk to her,"said Botan.
"No Botan. It's all right. Really."
But I knew she wouldn't listen. This was Botan for pete's sake. The girls were already gone aways.
"What's wrong?"
"Botan...you know Sakyou right?"
"Yes...I saw him when we were rescuing Yukina."
"He was boyfriend."
"Oh dear..."
"That's what I can't go there Botan. He owns this tournament. And then I saw him in the woods the other day."
"What did he do?"
"He hugged me and told me that I shouldn't be here. That I'll just get myself killed. And then Kurama and I were about half-way from the stadium and then I ran away from him. I didn't think he would follow me back,but he did."
"What are you going to do?"
"I don't know Botan. But I need time to think,so please go."
"All right. If that's what you want." She got up and left the room.
I'm sorry Kurama,I thought. But I can't do this anymore. I really do want to go home. This is all just a dream right? Well please wake up. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want you to get hurt! I want to be with you Kurama because I love you.I don't want you to leave me! Please come back Kurama...please just come back to me.
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