This is a diary entry that Buttercup wrote about her beloved Butch told in her POV (duh) kind of on the sad side for all the people that wanted another BC/B fic, here's a more angsty one and I'm not quite sure if it's going to be a continued story but I do know for sure that it's not a sequel to 'Jaded' NOT A SEQUEL!!! R&R please!

Disclaimer: I do not own the powerpuff girls do you think I'd be writing fanfics for them if I did? Uh-huh that's what I thought. So you better not sue

Some Things Change

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Dear Diary,

You know, everything has to change. I learned that when I was little... Something can never stay the way it is, no matter how good it is, but God damn that pisses me off like you cannot believe. Even the good has to change. I've known this all my life, but why did I try to trick myself into thinking that my relationship with my lil angel boy would be any different? For a long time my lie was convincing me pretty damn good, but up until a few days ago, it felt different...

Butch and I have been going out for 1 year 4 months and 17 days Long time, huh? For the past week or so I've been getting these really bad feelings, like I was in a dream... no... a nightmare that wouldn't go away. Maybe I'm just being paranoid, but I feel it. You know when you feel something and you can't explain it. Like when you don't like someone that you just met 5 seconds ago and you can't explain it. Or why you don't want to go for a car ride cause you have a bad feeling that your going to get into an accident and you might not be able to say one last 'Goodbye' or 'I love you' to the one that matters most and you do every fucking thing to keep out of that damn car cause you feel it, but you can't explain why... Well, it's like that.

I feel his love growing colder and colder, but I can't explain it. All I know is that it hurts. I see it in his eyes. Like he's keeping something from me. I hear it when he says he loves me. As if he has no choice. All I know is that I feel it But if only I could explain why...

Maybe he's just afraid of us going any further because he's afraid of his brothers thinking he'll go soft on them so he's trying to end it with me now Or maybe he just wants to end it

Today we actually got into a fight We were supposed to be fighting the monster and instead we were fighting with each other That the first real fight we've gotten into for about 6 months I brought up his ex girlfriend, Myra, and the first words to come out of his mouth were "Well since your bringing up the past, maybe we should just end it now."

"What?! What does that have to do with anything?" I screamed.

"All you've been talking about for the past week or so, is the bad stuff that's ever happened between us. If you think it's so bad, then we should just end it." Butch yelled back.

"I can't believe you actually said that. How could you possibly think that?" I asked, more hurt then angry. I wanted to grab him and hold him close and tell him that he's the only one I'll ever love and I don't ever want anything bad to happen to our relationship. He was the only thing that's made me happy for a very long time. But I didn't move and neither did he. He just looked at me as if I did something wrong and flew away, leaving the monster for the rest of us. After we killed the monster, I came back to the house, so confused, so hurt, that for the first time in years I actually felt like crying. Just goes to prove that even the toughest fighter, can get hurt Especially if they're in love

A/N: Ok people. R&R!!! tell me how I did please!!!