Chapter 15
I was glad that I had listened to Hiei. It was such a stupid idea for me to leave now at least. But then again,how long would we be on this island? A week? A month? A year? I just wish I knew.
I laid in bed thinking about the days to come. I wondered if I should stay here or go with Kurama. I was just too afraid of seeing Sakyou again. I knew that I had to get him out of my head,but it was just so hard. Didn't Kurama understand that I just wanted to go home?
It was hard enough going back to sleep. I knew Kurama wasn't going to get up until dawn,so I just laid there with my eyes open thinking. Wondering if he was thinking of me. Wondering if this was just all a dream. But no,it wasn't a dream any more. Kurama even told me that himself. I had to come back into reality now. And this was it.
As the sun started to rise,I watched as Kurama started to wake up. I smiled. Now I knew that I wasn't going to be alone. Even though I wasn't. Now I just had to understand that.
"Ok,how long have you been up?"he asked as he smiled down on me.
"Long enough."
"Very funny. You really need to get some sleep."
"I'm not the one fighting Kurama." Oh great,I thought. Me and my big fat mouth. I really just had to start an argument didn't I?
"I'm just glad you came back."
"I never left."
"You almost did."
"Were you watching me?"
"No. That's why I have Hiei here."
I smiled. "Listen Kurama,I just don't think this is the place for me."
"I know,but soon enough this tournament will be over and we can go home. Just give it some time ok?"
I sighed. "Ok. I'm sorry."
"It's ok." He smiled and kissed me. "I'm just glad you're ok."
"I feel a lot better thank you."
"Good. I'm glad."
"Kurama?"
"Yes?"
I thought hard... "Nevermind..."
"Ok. Now let's go do something."
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I didn't want to go back into the woods,but we did. But by now I got tired of thinking about Sakyou. I really had to get him out of my head now. And plus Kurama was with me. That was something to be thankful for. He would protect me because he loved me. At least that was something I could live with for the rest of my life.
We stopped by the beach and sat down. I was glad that it was just us. It was so quiet. No demons,no Yusuke,Hiei,Kuwabara,Botan,Kayko,Shizuru,and Yukina. Just us. I had wanted it to be like this for so long. And now we finally got the chance. But maybe this was our only chance. Maybe after this next fight I would never see him again. No,I thought. I musn't think this way. I have to think positive. Kurama will come back alive like he did the first time. I know he will.
As I looked out into the open sea I thought. Thought about what my life would be like after this tournament. Will I ever see home again? Will I ever see Kurama again? I just wish I knew. I was tired of not knowing this anymore.
"Are you ok?"he asked.
"Yes...I'm fine."
"You look so sad."
"I was just wondering what'll happen after this tournament is over."
He cuddled me and started to kiss me. "I'll come back. I promised you that I wouldn't die."
"Yes. I know." I swallowed hard. I wanted to cry. But I just couldn't. Not here. Not when we were by ourselves with no one else.
"Well,we should go back."
"Ok."
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I'm so tired of being here,suppressed by all my childish fears...
And if you have to leave,I wish that you just leave...
Because you presence still lingers here,and it won't leave me alone...
These wounds won't heal,this pain is just to real...
There's just too much that time can not erase...
You cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
You used to captivate me,by your resontating light...
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind...
Your face haunts my one pleasant dreams...
Your voice that chased away all the sanity in me...
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
I've tired so hard to tell myself that your gone...
And though you're still with me...
I've been alone all along...
You cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
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I was glad that I had listened to Hiei. It was such a stupid idea for me to leave now at least. But then again,how long would we be on this island? A week? A month? A year? I just wish I knew.
I laid in bed thinking about the days to come. I wondered if I should stay here or go with Kurama. I was just too afraid of seeing Sakyou again. I knew that I had to get him out of my head,but it was just so hard. Didn't Kurama understand that I just wanted to go home?
It was hard enough going back to sleep. I knew Kurama wasn't going to get up until dawn,so I just laid there with my eyes open thinking. Wondering if he was thinking of me. Wondering if this was just all a dream. But no,it wasn't a dream any more. Kurama even told me that himself. I had to come back into reality now. And this was it.
As the sun started to rise,I watched as Kurama started to wake up. I smiled. Now I knew that I wasn't going to be alone. Even though I wasn't. Now I just had to understand that.
"Ok,how long have you been up?"he asked as he smiled down on me.
"Long enough."
"Very funny. You really need to get some sleep."
"I'm not the one fighting Kurama." Oh great,I thought. Me and my big fat mouth. I really just had to start an argument didn't I?
"I'm just glad you came back."
"I never left."
"You almost did."
"Were you watching me?"
"No. That's why I have Hiei here."
I smiled. "Listen Kurama,I just don't think this is the place for me."
"I know,but soon enough this tournament will be over and we can go home. Just give it some time ok?"
I sighed. "Ok. I'm sorry."
"It's ok." He smiled and kissed me. "I'm just glad you're ok."
"I feel a lot better thank you."
"Good. I'm glad."
"Kurama?"
"Yes?"
I thought hard... "Nevermind..."
"Ok. Now let's go do something."
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I didn't want to go back into the woods,but we did. But by now I got tired of thinking about Sakyou. I really had to get him out of my head now. And plus Kurama was with me. That was something to be thankful for. He would protect me because he loved me. At least that was something I could live with for the rest of my life.
We stopped by the beach and sat down. I was glad that it was just us. It was so quiet. No demons,no Yusuke,Hiei,Kuwabara,Botan,Kayko,Shizuru,and Yukina. Just us. I had wanted it to be like this for so long. And now we finally got the chance. But maybe this was our only chance. Maybe after this next fight I would never see him again. No,I thought. I musn't think this way. I have to think positive. Kurama will come back alive like he did the first time. I know he will.
As I looked out into the open sea I thought. Thought about what my life would be like after this tournament. Will I ever see home again? Will I ever see Kurama again? I just wish I knew. I was tired of not knowing this anymore.
"Are you ok?"he asked.
"Yes...I'm fine."
"You look so sad."
"I was just wondering what'll happen after this tournament is over."
He cuddled me and started to kiss me. "I'll come back. I promised you that I wouldn't die."
"Yes. I know." I swallowed hard. I wanted to cry. But I just couldn't. Not here. Not when we were by ourselves with no one else.
"Well,we should go back."
"Ok."
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I'm so tired of being here,suppressed by all my childish fears...
And if you have to leave,I wish that you just leave...
Because you presence still lingers here,and it won't leave me alone...
These wounds won't heal,this pain is just to real...
There's just too much that time can not erase...
You cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
You used to captivate me,by your resontating light...
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind...
Your face haunts my one pleasant dreams...
Your voice that chased away all the sanity in me...
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
I've tired so hard to tell myself that your gone...
And though you're still with me...
I've been alone all along...
You cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
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