Episode 10-2: Relinquishing Old Feelings (Part 2)
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Trunks: I tilted my head lower hoping I could see her face. What's bugging her so much? Why won't she just tell me? My eyes began to crunch up even more. The want of this information that she was holding inside of her increased, the want now became a NEED. She obviously is hurt by whatever is in that book, but what is exactly in there.
Marron got up, took a deep breath in, and as she released the air she opened her eyes. She walked up, picked up the book, and sat back down next to me. She began to open it up when I put my hand on the cover and shut it like Marron did to me. She looked at me kind of annoyed. But I wasn't doing that as a mockery.
"I don't want you to show me if it's going to hurt you."
She looked like she was beginning to relax a bit "I need to show you. I've kept this away from you for too long now."
She began lifting the cover up with my hand still on hers, I gripped it.
"Are you sure? I mean if you've kept this secret from me for this long there has to be a reason, and I don't want to force it out of you."
She nodded and opened it up. "Here." I looked down at the book, noticing pictures of her and some guy. A bit taller than her, dark hair, dark eyes, casually dressed, and holding her as if she was his girlfriend. She pointed at the man holding her.
"This is Geeno, my ex-boyfriend."
I looked at her, her face spoke nothing but pain, almost as if she was about to cry. I could tell she was trying to swallow her pain as she began flipping through the book, it was beautifully decorated: Pictures of no one else but Marron and Geeno, notes, little memoirs anything and everything that seemed to have a connection with both of them was in it. The pictures of the two together, the faces spoke nothing but happiness, as if it were…love.
"When I moved there for college I met him. We were in the same class together. He would come over everyday and we'd just study together. We were with each other everyday. He was sweet, gentle, caring…"
Marron: I began to shut my eyes again forcing myself not to cry, I took a deep breath in and let out a sigh slowly opening my eyes as I continued flipping the pages and talking
"We knew each other as friends for about 3 months. Then I began to fall for him, as did he. We started dating, we were so happy and in love. I couldn't see myself without him, so I let him move in with me. Everything I felt, he felt the exact same, if not more, or so I thought. After about 2 years of dating, one beautiful day, he proposed to me. He got down on one knee, pulled out a ring, and proposed."
Trunks: A smile began to show on her face then faded.
"I don't even know why I'm still wearing it. Or even why I put it on a different finger" She began looking at the ring which was placed on her right ring finger rather than her left
"So I said yes. A couple months later, I was coming home in a month and was ready to tell everyone the good news. Then he broke off the engagement. He said he realized his mistake and wasn't ready for marriage just yet. He said he needed time to himself and felt that I was just crowding it up. He said we moved too fast, and the feeling he thought he once had had faded, while I on the other hand was still in love with him. He moved his stuff out that night, he suggested it'd be best if we didn't see each other again so it wouldn't remind us of the love we once had."
The next page was elegantly decorated, pictures of the two celebrating their engagement. Marron's hand was being held out by Geeno showing off the ring on her left ring finger. She looked so happy in it. she shut her eyes again, as her eyes welled up with tears, I could tell it was too much for her eyes to hold, tears began to fall little by little as she began to grip the book trying as hard as she could to keep from more tears shedding. I kneeled in front of her looking up at her saddened face placing my hands on her face and wiping the tears with my thumbs. I continued to watch her as she began to open her eyes as she felt the tears being swept away.
"I'm sorry Marron."
Marron: I tried focusing my eyes to see him, but the tears kept coming. Finally I let go of the book putting it to the side and everything else inside of me not being afraid to cry anymore. For these damned feelings had found its way to the surface again, I let myself fall into Trunks' arms as I began hugging him tightly making him fall back laying on the ground with me in his arms and my head lying on his chest, he began stroking my back for comfort as I continued to let my tears run.
"It's ok, it's over now."
Trunks: I had the urge to find this Geeno guy and knock some sense into him, but I knew it was the past now and I couldn't change it. "I'm sorry you had to tell me like this."
It was quiet for 2 minutes.we laid in the same position as Marron began to calm down "I'm sorry I didn't tell you this sooner."
I stroked her hair back behind her ear and her shoulder "That doesn't matter to me right now. I'm just glad you told me."
"I would've told you when it happened, but I didn't think you'd understand I was afraid you might go looking for him and I didn't want that. So I talked to Goten about it and told him to promise not to tell you because I wanted to be the one to tell you when I felt ready."
"I'm sorry about what happened, even though my experience with girlfriends aren't as high as Goten's, you shouldn't be crying anymore about this guy. He obviously doesn't know what he's missing."
"Thanks."
"I mean it." She turned her face to look up at me as I continued, "You're everything any guy would want in a girlfriend, especially a wife." A smile began to appear on her face "You're sweet, loving," I wiped a tear falling from her face with my thumb as I continued with a smile on my face as I looked at her, "beautiful, caring, a good cook, everything. He just couldn't see that, he doesn't know you like I know you... The real you."
Marron: I smiled at him with my eyes glowing, I was happy, I knew now that I could move on. It's funny how such simple words from Trunks seemed to take any pain I had left from Geeno was gone. Sure I had found comfort through Goten, but before Trunks knew, I was always missing that something that was now completed. At that moment I wanted to kiss him to thank him for everything he's given me, but I didn't want to move. I wanted the moment to last, I felt loved again, and the way his arms held me in such an emotional situation was very special to me. During my high school years when Trunks was already in college, he wouldn't ever have showed this much sympathy toward me when I was sad.
"Marron?" I didn't respond just enjoyed the moment, "Are you still in love with him, I mean do you still have feelings for him?"
It took about a minute before I answered "I'm trying to get by as each day passes. It's been about 6 months now, I still have some feelings for him, but Goten helped me see what I didn't need…and just telling you helped me through even more."
He smiled and rubbed my arm and back "This is why I try to protect you from dating sometimes, because I was afraid you might get too attached and I didn't ever want to see you in any kind of pain. Especially like this."
I smiled and hugged him tighter; I knew all he ever tried to do was protect me and I was thankful. We laid there silently for a couple minutes thinking to ourselves. Listening to him breath as I kept my head on his chest and began falling asleep. I felt safe in his arms, like no one could touch me. I softly spoke "I want to stay like this forever." My eyes began to shut and I was asleep
Trunks: I touched her cheek softly "So do I." I placed my hand behind my head; keeping my other hand wrapped around her, not wanting to move I just laid there thinking. Before I knew it about an hour and 45 minutes passed. I thought hard and deep, as I looked down at the tired Marron still asleep. I picked her up in my arms and carefully placed her on the bed putting the blanket over her. I bent down helping to support myself I placed my hands on both sides of her and placed a kiss on her forehead I shut his eyes crunching my eyebrows, leaving my lips pressed on her forehead lightly, what I decided I had to do wasn't going to be easy for me but I had to do it. When I finally stood back up I noticed Marron's eyes slowly opened, still half asleep she slowly let out a small smile.
I slowly smiled back and softly spoke, "I have to go now."
She grabbed my wrist and pulled me down a bit as she used her elbow to help support her. I sat next to her
"Do you have to I want you to stay." She said softly still half asleep and in a teasing voice
"Yes. There's something I have to take care of, but I'll be back Friday morning."
"Ok." She laid back down with her eyes half way open as she watched me lay a soft kiss on her cheek
"Sleep well. Take care of yourself while I'm gone. When I get back, you'll be the first person I visit. I promise. Just wait for me."
"Mm-hmm" she smiled just as I was about to shut the door "Trunks"
I turned around, "Yeah?"
"I love you, couldn't have asked for a better friend."
I smiled and nodded my head as I shut the door and left.