Episode 13: Undeniable Love
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"You were really quiet during dinner. What'd you want to talk to me about?"
Bra: We began washing the dishes
"Um, what I have to tell you isn't going to be easy for me to say, I haven't told anyone, not Trunks, not Goten, not even Pan! But I know I can trust you."
"Always, why?" She gasped deeply "OH MY GOSH BRA ARE YOU PREGNANT?!"
My face squinted as the plate slipped out of my hand hitting the sink making a loud bang
"NO!! MARRON! WHAT'RE YOU THINKING?"
"Oh, sorry. I just figured something kept quiet would be that."
"No, that's not it. Trust me I'm still a proud saiya-jin virgin. Plus my dad would kill not me but the guy I was with if I lost it to some half-twit weakling who was only around for game."
"Oh yeah, right forgot about that."
"Yup, after killing the guy he'll probably come and yell at me if I got pregnant, that would be the only time he'd know I was sleeping with someone."
"Yet, you remain a virgin. Where do you find the strength to remain a virgin?"
"I'll tell you one thing, it isn't simple. I just think of the point in it. I mean why sleep with someone you don't really love and then risk the chance of getting pregnant? Plus my relationships never last long enough to the point where I'd feel comfortable to do him. I mean the longest I've ever been with someone is about 2 months. So…how about you? Are you still?"
"Um…no."
"Who? Please don't tell me Trunks!"
"What? Bra, we only went out for 2 weeks of course not."
I let out a sigh of relief "Oh ok."
"Hey do you know if he slept with that Kirei girl?"
"Oh 'get away girl'?"
"Yea, that's her."
"Uh, no I hope not that's disgusting."
"I know…could he have slept with any other girls?"
"Um, I don't think so. I haven't heard of any girlfriends since you 2 broke up. He went on a couple dates that Goten set him up with. But it was only one date. I don't think he's a one night stand kind of guy."
"I don't think so either. So you're saying he's still a virgin?"
"I guess, I don't know. Don't ask me about his sex life it's just… blah. Let's talk about you if it wasn't Trunks, then it has to be Geeno right?"
"Yes."
"I thought so, 2 years. It's not surprising. You were gonna marry that guy. So when did you lose it to him?"
"About 5 months into our relationship, but shh, I haven't told anyone that. You're the first person I've told."
"That means you were my age when you lost it huh?"
"What 18? Yes. But I did love him. Too bad we didn't make it to the alter."
"So how was it?"
"The first time hurts, but after that- Um Bra can we just talk about something else, I don't exactly feel like talking about my sex life right now."
She let out a little giggle and I just joined her
"Sorry, I'll get there eventually. I doubt I can hold it till I'm married though."
"Don't worry about it you'll know when you want it. Why you have someone in mind or something."
"Um, no…"
"So then what kind of secret is this if you haven't told anyone? Especially Pan?"
"Um…"
"What is it?"
"I can't tell Pan because…because…"
"Because what Bra? Just say it you know I won't say anything."
"Because I've fallen in love with her uncle."
I saw Marron's eyes widened in surprise "GOTEN?"
"Yeah."
"Goten? What? Where? When? Why? How?"
"Eh…"
At that point I felt VERY Uncomfortable telling Marron anything else, But I already started telling her, I can't back out now. Plus who else can I talk to about this? She's the best possible person to tell! AH Let's just get this over with!
"Bra, just tell me don't worry. I won't say anything."
"Ok fine, just don't please."
"I won't, trust me."
"Ok, I've told you before that I liked him remember?"
"Yes, that was before he started dating Paris."
"After that I stopped liking him because he seemed to ignore me once she came into the picture."
"Ok, so how can the way you use to like him, then stop liking him, and that liking turning into love?"
"It started growing slowly when he came over that day you gave Trunks his jacket…"
I began explaining everything that happened between Goten and me all the way up to the goodbye kiss…
"… I told Pan about the first kiss, but that was about it. She said it wasn't a big deal because he was only sleeping. But that was all I could think about after he left."
We entered the balcony and laid on the 2 lawn chairs facing each other
"So you fell in love with him after the kiss?"
"The kiss and rose was sweet, but after that the 2 kisses all I've been doing is thinking about him… MARRON I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!"
I gripped Marron's shoulders and began shaking her
"Calm down Bra, calm down."
I let go relaxing my whole body making my arms and head fall
"Marron, I can't love him. I just can't. Not now. It'll never work between us. I don't want to love him like this. I can't believe my like turned to love. I stopped liking him, but when I finally do, he starts acting up like this. Marron I need help, please help me get over this."
"Are you sure it's love Bra, not just a deep liking?"
"Yes, I know it's love. I may be young but I know how love feels."
"But you've never BEEN in love before."
I looked up at her
"Exactly! That's what I mean I've never felt this way about anyone before that's why I NEED to get out! Help me please!"
"Why? What's so wrong about loving him?"
"PARIS! I can't love him because he's in love with Paris. I see it in his eyes whenever he talks about her, they light up and he has this smile. The same thing that happens when I think about him, that's why I need to get out." She looked down again
Marron: Although I knew the truth about Paris, was this a right time to tell her? I promised Goten, I wouldn't. But Bra needs help and she thinks Paris is only in the way. I can't tell her, not me at least.
"Bra, Bra…"
I hugged my friend to comfort her as she began to cry. I've never seen her act like this about a boy…nonetheless it was about Goten… "I'm asking you again, how do you know it's love you might just be having a really big crush on him, and since you don't have a boyfriend you're probably vulnerable enough to accept the first closest guy to you and that's Goten?"
I could feel Bra's tears begin to pass through my shirt "Marron you've been in love before you have to know what I'm going through."
"Then tell me how it's love Bra."
"I've always been thinking about him. Not just because this happened, but before this...I've thought about him. I always thought of what it would be like to be with him, to be his girlfriend. Thoughts I have of him send chills down my spine, inside these thoughts I'm happy, happier than I have ever imagined."
I felt more tears soaking through my shirt almost as if I had spilt a drink on myself...she continued
"I daydream about things I would do if I were with him, things I'd ONLY want to do with him. It's just lately it's gotten more furious. I haven't stopped thinking about him. He's the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I go to bed, and in between times too. I've never had thoughts about any guy like this Marron...it just hurts me so much because I'm letting my emotions get the best of me, more so because Paris is the only wall that stands between us."
"Bra, I don't know what to tell you, but you do need to talk to Goten about this."
"But I can't face him. If I tell him, I'll just get rejected because of his love for Paris and I can't handle that."
"Bra, let me give you some advice I got from Goten himself, don't pass up the chance to say you love someone. You'll be hurt when he rejects. But the silence is more heartbreaking, trust me."
She began to cry even more and I just held her tighter as we sat in silence. I felt sorry for her, I knew how she was feeling inside…being in love but not wanting it to take control over her emotions…it was like that with Trunks
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Pan: I opened the door to Goten's room and stuck my head through the opening and noticed Goten was awake
"Oh hey you're finally awake."
I turned my head and noticed Trunks was sitting there
"Oh hey Trunks! I didn't know you were here."
He smiled "Hi Pan."
I tilted my head down so he wouldn't notice I was blushing, I'm so stupid. Why do I blush everytime I see him AH! "So is this where you're staying for the next couple of days as your 'out of town business'?"
"Um, no I just came to stop by."
Goten looked confused "Out of town business?"
"I'll explain later, Pan weren't you at Marron's apartment just now?"
"Yes, but dad told me I had to go home for dinner so, you know…"
A voice began calling my name "PAN, PAN."
I pulled my head out of the door facing down the hall way
"YES?"
"COME HERE."
"WHY?"
"YOUR DAD NEEDS YOU FOR SOMETHING."
I stuck my head back in the doorway
"Trunks, when are you leaving?"
"In a couple minutes, after I'm done talking to Goten."
"Ok, well can you tell me when you leave."
"What I'm telling Goten?"
"No, I mean tell me when you're leaving so I can say bye."
"Oh ok."
"Ok, I'll just be with my dad till then."
Trunks: She left and shut the door behind her…then Goten looked back at me
"So you wanted to tell me something?"
"Since you've kept that secret about Geeno so well, can you keep another one?"
"Sure."
"Ok, I'm going to go away for a few days and I need you to make sure no one goes to look for me ok."
"Sure, but where are you going?"
"I need to get away for a while, to think without any distractions."
"Think? Think about what?"
"What I'm about to tell you can't be repeated ok"
"You have my word."
"I MEAN IT! If you say anything I'll come after you and kill you myself!"
"Ok Vegeta's son, I got it don't worry. You can trust me…so what's this big secret of yours that has you all worried?"
"I started having feelings for Marron." I said underneath my breath
"Huh?"
"I started having feelings for Marron." I said a bit louder
"I can't understand you unless you speak up you know?"
"Are you deaf? I said I'm starting to have feelings for Marron." I said in an annoyed toned voice
"WHAT?! YOU HAV-" I pressed my hand over Goten's mouth hard enough to make his head hit the headboard
"SHUT UP! I told you not to say anything, so keep your voice down or else someone might hear you."
Goten nodded his head and I slowly took my hand away
"Geez, sorry. But you didn't have to push so hard." He rubbed the back of his head…hey sometimes you never know who could be listening on the other side of that door. I didn't want it to get out plus Goten almost said it LOUD enough for Pan to hear if she was right there….
"Anyway, after she told me her story with Geeno, I thought a lot and decided I had to get away from her for a while so I can have time to think for myself."
"Why don't you just tell her how you feel?"
"Because I'm afraid of hurting her a second time. I need to get my mind off of her and try to move on."
"Why? What's so bad about liking her?"
"She told me how she felt about the time we were dating and although she said she's over it and moved on, it hurt me to see her tell me how she felt about that time and about Geeno. I just need to move on that's all."
"Don't pass up the chance to tell someone how you feel. You'll be hurt when she rejects. But silence is more heartbreaking"
I thought about it for about a minute…hmm? So he's saying if I don't tell Marron how I feel then in return I'll be in more pain? But if I do tell her and she doesn't feel the same way it's better than not telling her at all?
"No, I can't, I don't care if it's more heartbreaking for me, anything is better than the risk of me hurting her again."
"As long as you don't hurt her in the process you'll be fine."
"But that's a risk I DON'T want to take. It's just something, I need to do this on my own."
"Ok…well how long are you going to be gone?"
"2 days, I should be back by Friday."
"Do you think that's enough time?"
"Yeah, shouldn't it be?"
"Trunks, Trunks, Trunks…Sometimes 2 days can be enough, but you might need more, think about if you're able to keep that feeling away when you see her."
"But it has to be 2 days, I promised Marron I'd only be gone till Friday."
"Well then if 2 days is enough and you can come back clean of how you feel when you see her, then ok. If not…well…"
"Forget it" I started heading for the window and opened it, "I'll be back by Friday, regardless!" I flew out then turned around to see Goten looking from the window, "DON'T TELL ANYONE! AND MAKE SURE NO ONE GOES AFTER ME!"
"OK!"
Then without looking I bumped into someone
"HEY!"
I turned around and noticed it was Pan
"Oh sorry Pan."
"Nice way of saying bye Trunks"
"Sorry, but I have to go now. I'll see you in 2 days."
I started flying off waving bye to her I made my way home to tell my parents I be gone for a couple days
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Bra: "I can't tell him Marron it's just too hard."
"You're only scared of being rejected, he'll never know if you never tell him. Then you'll live life wondering what could've happened if you just had told him."
"But what about Paris?"
"When you talk to him don't tell him you love him until you find out how he feels about Paris. After that you can decide whether or not you want to tell him how you feel."
"How do I know what I'm supposed to say, I don't want to blurt it out, I want to slowly tell him without making a fool of myself."
"Come with me." She grabbed my wrist and I followed her to her room
"Sit." She pointed to the chair at the desk while she opened the drawer and took out a piece of paper and pen. I sat slowly with my eyes just in confusion
"Write a poem, or just start writing about how you feel about him. It'll help you blow off some steam and help you relax. I've done it a couple times before, trust me it helps."
"Ok."