Episode 14: Can't Deal With You Yet, Goten
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"Bra it's 1 in the morning, you've been at it for over 2 hours. Aren't you done yet?" Marron:I just woke up from a small nap, laying on my bed holding the same bear Trunks had given me
"I just can't find the right words to say. It keeps turning out all mumble jumble."
I looked at the pink bear remembering of a time I felt just like her, I sat up
"Why don't you take a break for a couple minutes, you know get some fresh air or a drink maybe, to clear your head."
"Ok."
Bra:I stood up and headed toward the door, then I turned around and asked Marron a question "Marron, you've done this before haven't you?"
"What, the writing stuff?"
"Yes."
"Yes, why?"
"If you still have it do you think you can take it out and help me say what I need to say, the right way?"
"Sure, just go clear your head while I get it out ok."
"Thanks." I left the room and headed to the kitchen for a drink
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"What's my reasons for liking her now?"
Trunks: I continued thinking as I laid on the branch of a tree miles away from West City, with my hands behind my head and my ankle resting on my knee...I stared up at the stars that peaked through the leaves. What were my reasons though? Then I began counting with my fingers
"1. She was always beautiful, but something about her seems more appealing to me now. 2. She's obviously gotten more mature and open with her feelings since Geeno. Man I'd like to get my hands on that jerk!"
I stuck my hand up and blew up a branch a couple feet away from me then continued
"How can he say he loves her, ask her to marry him, then say he doesn't feel that way anymore?"
I began to think about the advice my mother gave me about the way marriage works. 'Never tell someone you love them if you don't mean it. If you can love someone so much that you can't see yourself without her, then you know that's who you should marry. Trust me son, when you find her you'll know. It's a feeling you get in your heart about someone. Although your father never admits he loves me, I know he does because it's a feeling in my heart that I'm certain about. It'll be something you've never felt before, if you're like your father, you'll probably deny that feeling and convince yourself you don't love her, and you'll think about her constantly, then you'll realize that feeling you've never felt before and that my son is love.'
I flew up high above the tree and looked down in confusion "Love huh? Is that what this feeling is supposed to be? What am I supposed to do next MARRY her?" I stretched my right arm out with the palm open and blew off another branch below me
"Right…" I said to myself sarcastically, folding my arms to my chest
"…She WOULD make the perfect wife, she knows how to cook, she's compassionate, she- NO I came up here to try to forget about how she makes me feel." I unfolded my arms stretching them out and opening the palms once again and blew the tree up, just like I did to 3 other trees around me. Letting out a big sigh and sitting with my arms and legs folded as I sat in the air looking straight out in the darkness and continued thinking. Then something flashed in my mind
'Don't pass up the chance to tell someone how you feel. You'll be hurt when she rejects. But silence is more heartbreaking'
"Heartbreaking is right. If I tell Marron how I felt…it WILL be for both of us."
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It was Thursday, the next night; Marron, Pan, and Bra spent the day at an amusement park mainly to help them get their mind off of things. All were back at their own houses and apartment, while Goten spent the day thinking about Paris, the good times they actually had together. Staying in his room, not wanting to come out and talk, only to come out to eat.
Goten continued thinking about Paris and looking at a picture of the 2 that he hung proudly on the wall, then his cell phone rang
"Hello?"
"Hi, Goten."
"Who's this?"
"Bra."
"Oh, Hey! Hi, what's up?"
"Nothing, um, what're you doing?"
"Nothing, just thinking."
"Oh yeah, Paris probably left today didn't she?"
"I don't know I guess, I wasn't with her today."
"You weren't? But it's her last day why not?"
"Um, something came up that's all."
Bra:I started thinking about the note "Is it ok if I come over? I need to talk to you about something."
"About what?"
"Um, well I'll just come over and tell you in person it's better ok? It's important trust me."
"Um, if it's important then sure."
"Ok, I'll be over in a couple minutes."
"Wait Bra."
"Yes?"
"Instead of meeting here, can I just pick you up and we can talk somewhere outside of my room."
"Um, why?"
"I've been in my room all day and I really really need to get out."
"Sure."
"Ok, I'll be over in say 30 minutes?"
"Ok, bye."
"Bye."
I hung up the phone and quickly called Marron
"Hello?"
"MARRON I NEED YOU TO COME OVER NOW!"
"WHY? BRA WHAT'S WRONG?"
"It's about Goten he's coming over and I NEED YOU NOW!"
"BRA! Don't scare me like that, I thought something was wrong."
"No time for talk he'll be here in 30 minutes MARRON! PLEASE COME OVER NOW!"
"Ok ok, Bra calm down I'll be over in 5 minutes."
"NO NOW! MARRON I NEED YOU HERE NOW! I DON'T WANT TO WASTE ANY TIME."
"I'm going to leave when I hang up, but it'll take me about 5 minutes to get there. I'm hanging up now k, bye."
I continued trying to find something to wear as my heart began to beat faster, becoming nervous and anxious. Finally Marron arrived
"Ok, so what's the big deal."
"I'm going to give him the note tonight!"
"Good for you! and I wish you the best of luck, but why do you need me?"
"I need you to help me figure out what to wear and how I should go about this."
"Bra, we've talked about this last night. Ask how he feels about Paris, after he tells you, decide if you really want to tell him how you feel. That's all there is to it."
I placed a shirt and pants in front of me, looking at myself in the mirror to see if the outfit matched, then turned around to show Marron "I know I know, but how's this?"
"Bra, it's great, but you really don't need to get all dressed up to impress him. If you do, he'll know something's up."
"But something IS up. I'm about to tell him how I feel. This is BIG for me. I need to at least look good when I tell him."
"Bra, what you have on right now looks good. But if you really really need to change then go ahead."
"I'm so nervous Marron, you don't even know how nervous I am. Should I touch-up my make-up? Ah, I need shoes that go with this outfit…"
I continued blabbering then Marron grabbed my shoulders "BRA! Calm down! Stop. Sit."
She forced me to sit on the bed
"Look, I know this is nerve racking, but you need to calm down. Make this seem as natural as possible, if you get all tensed up you're just going to talk gibberish to him and it won't make any sense. Just…breathe for a moment."
"Marron, I don't want to mess this up. I mean what if he tells me he loves Paris or he can't date me because I'm his best friend's little sister and my best friend is her uncle. I mean what if everything just goes wrong?"
"Bra, don't think like that. If you expect the worst, you'll only get the worst. But don't expect for the best either, because then you'll be disappointed if you get let down. Just think of the best and the worst ok. That way you'll know how to react if he lets you down, and how to react if he does want to be more than friends."
I looked at my white gold watch I got at the mall a couple days back "10:45, he'll be here in less than 10 minutes." I wrapped my arms around my stomach, "Marron, I don't feel so good."
"It's just butterflies, you're too nervous. Just try to calm down as much as possible."
"I don't think I can do this anymore. What was I thinking? I don't want to do this anymore." I picked up the phone in attempt to call Goten and cancel until Marron took it away
"No, Bra it's too late he's almost here. You're going to have to do this sooner or later. If you wait longer it's just going to suck even more."
I let out a big sigh "Oh, I know, but now? Why'd I say now? Aw man."
"Don't worry about it, if you need to look at your note and remember what you were going to say and give it to him."
Suddenly the door opened
"Bra, um Goten's here to pick you up he says."
My eyes widened from the news my mother had just announced "He is?"
"Yes, now exactly where do you think you're going at this time? It's late already."
"I know, but Goten's taking me out somewhere for a while. I won't be out long anyway."
"Where are you 2 going?"
"I don't know yet, he just felt like going out somewhere. Can I go I won't be up too late?"
"Ok, just don't be out till 5 in the morning ok."
"Thanks."
My mother left the room
"Come on I'll walk you down there."
"Ok." I took a deep breath in and exhaled "I think I can do this."
"Good, have the note?"
"Yes, it's in my bag."
"Ok, then let's go."