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Summary: Hermione is deeply in love with Draco, but she must do something for him. Something that will change her life forever. Will Hermione do what Draco tells her and have his love forever, or will she back down and risk loosing Draco and maybe her life? Hermione/Draco Harry/Ginny A bit of violence and scary stuff...ooo!
Done in Hermione's POV
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~*~*~*~*Chapter Six~*~*~*~*
Forgeting
Okay, I am trying to forget what I just did but I can't! It won't leave me alone! Why didn't I just push him away! I want to tell someone, but god... I can't. What would people say? I know what they would say... a whole lot of swear words!
And I'm trying to forget something else. Well more than one thing actually...
First, the never-ceasing battle between Gryffidnors and Slytherins. Between Dark and Light. Between me and Snape... How can I trust him now if I've never trusted him before? What if has Draco hurt me more? He seemed concerned yesterday... Maybe it was all a lie, just to get me hurt? I wouldn't doubt it for a second. But I have to make up my mind...
And I have to make up my mind about Draco too. Should I have Snape expell him from school for hurting me? Would Draco hate me forever and hunt me down for the rest of my life? Why couldn't have I just said no! But his smile... his eyes... his lips... his darkness... I can't help it. It's an addiction. I can't get off of it.
I can't make up my mind on my life...
*
I breathed in deeply. I closed my eyes and tried to stay calm.
'Harry... Ron, we need to talk,' I said quietly. 'Now.'
Harry and Ron looked up from their studies and to me. The both had a mix of puzzlement and concern on their faces. I tried to avoid their eyes, I hated looking people in the eye when I tell them something I have kept from them. Well, it only happens once in a blue moon... like the time-turner, but this is way different. Way, way different.
'Is something wrong?' asked Ron.
'Of course there is, Ron. She wouldn't have been so serious about it if something wasn't wrong.' Harry said matter-of-factly.
Ron glared at Harry and then looked back to me.
'If it's about homework, lay off it. You won't die because you didn't get full marks or higher... if possible.' Ron said grumpily.
'This is not about homework, Ron! You always think it's about homework! I do have feelings Ron! You don't even understand!' I yelled.
Ron looked taken back at my sudden burst of anger. Harry looked at me and so did other people in the common room. I felt me face turn red and I looked to me feet.
'Sorry Ron. It's... It's just really hard to tell you about this thing...' I said slowly. I sat down in the extra chair beside the still shocked Ron.
'It's OK Hermione. You shouldn't be afraid to tell us something.' said Harry, smiling at me.
'For this, I should be.' I let out a hollow laugh, a small hollow laugh. I felt tears in my eyes. 'I should tell you this in The Owlery... where we have some privacy and no one can hear us.'
'Why can't no one hear us?' Ron asked.
'You'll see. Just come with me.' I stood and walked to the portrait hole without looking to see if Ron and Harry were following.
*
'Can you tell us now what is wrong?' Ron demanded, his arms folded across his chest.
'OK... sit down. You'll need to for this.' Ron and Harry sat down on the floor. 'Okay, I have been lying to you for around five months now. I have kept secrets that you should know, since you are my best friends. I have wanted to tell you, but I couldn't. I was being taken over by money and my own self greed and what I thought was the love of my life. I wanted to leave, I wanted to say no to him, but then I would be left without my memory or even dead. I was scared to leave, but I thought I was so in love with him, I couldn't leave.
'I was blinded with money, jewels and my own pleasures. I thought he loved me, because I loved me. But now I know the truth. He only wants me to come with him to his side... to the Dark Side. He promised he would love me forever and give me everything I ever wanted in life... and I believed him for awhile. But then, my old self was coming through again. For some reason, I couldn't say no and I couldn't say yes. I thought I was coming back... I really did. But then I said yes.
'Now I have only a few days left until he takes me away to the Dark Side. But then Professor Snape found out and he is willing to help me. He is willing to set me free again and never have to talk to Draco again. I want to believe Snape, but the history of Gryffidnors and Slytherins is stopping me. Snape said the first step is to tell you two so I can have someone beside me to help me. I don't know what to do...' I stopped talking. Their silence scared me.
I looked at them. Harry was looking at the cracks in the wall, not saying a word and Ron had seemed to be hit upside the head. His mouth hung open to its full extent and it looked as though his eyes would pop out of his head at any moment.
'I can't believe you...' Ron said blankly.
'I am so sorry...' I mumbled.
'Sorry isn't going to cut it, Hermione.' Harry said to me sharply, but he kept looking into the fire.
'It's... It's hard for me too... I wasn't in the right mind. You have to believe me! Malfoy took me over with jewels and diamonds, new robes and books. He tricked me, Harry!' I cried desperatly. I wanted them to understand, I wanted them to know how I felt...
'He tricked you Hermione?' Harry yelled, making Ron jump from his spot. Harry was now staring at me with fury in his eyes. 'How? Did he cast a spell on you to make you bow down to him and do everything he wanted to you? You didn't say anything about that when you told us for a whole five months you lied to us! We were your friends, we could have helped you! Could have made you see he didn't trick you-'
'He tricked me Harry! Just like his father tricked Snape! Snape said that if I trust him and follow our plan-'
'Oh, you trust Snape now!' Ron joined in all of a sudden. His shocked face was replaced with a fresh look of fury. 'Trust our enemy more than your own friends! Well if it's like this, then you won't need to bother to kepp secrets from us any more.'
'What do you mean?' I asked, my voice low. I knew what was the coming... the worst that could have happened to me in a time like this...
'Our friendship is through, Hermione!' Harry yelled loudly, sending owls flying from their posts. 'It's over! You have gone over the edge this time! Not telling us about the Time-Turner in the third year-'
'I promised McGonagall I wouldn't-'
'-Not telling us about Krum in the fourth year-'
'You wouldn't have understood-'
'And now this... going behind our backs... supposedly being tricked by Malfoy and him dragging off to the Dark Side. I believe this story as much as I believe that Sirius murdered my parents.' Harry looked angry, but I could see something inside his eyes... past the anger... he was scared... but of what?
'You don't understand, Harry! You just don't know what it's like!' I screamed just as loud as him. My throat started to hurt from the yelling and choking on hot tears that now fell down my face.
'I do understand! Voldemort, Hermione, think about it! He used me! He used me in the fifth year! And what you said, Malfoy was not using you!' Harry yelled.
Everything went queit. Ron was still glaring at me with so much rage, his eyes could have burned a hole through a brick wall. Harry was breathing hard and fast. An owl fluttered past us and into the night. I stared at my feet, letting the tears fall. It was over... the worst had come to me... worse than Draco's beatings... worse than being locked inside myself... my friends are gone... they can't help me escape...
'Com'n Ron, lets go.' Harry said after awhile.
I looked up. 'Wait... without you, I can't leave him. I can't escape from him... please, don't go.'
Harry stared at me as though I was a horrible disease. He grabbed Ron by the arm. 'Lets go.'
I watched them walk away... walk away from me and my last chance of surviving... my last chance of being able to come back to the light...
My legs turned to jelly and I shook all over. I fell to the floor and watched everything turn to black.
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All right! Done!!!!!! Yay! I have the end all planned out.... muahahaha...you shall never know till the end! I don't know how long the story will be... maybe around 10 chapters... well review and tell me what you think? Would Harry, Ron and Hermione say those kind of things? Whats your opnion?
Summary: Hermione is deeply in love with Draco, but she must do something for him. Something that will change her life forever. Will Hermione do what Draco tells her and have his love forever, or will she back down and risk loosing Draco and maybe her life? Hermione/Draco Harry/Ginny A bit of violence and scary stuff...ooo!
Done in Hermione's POV
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~*~*~*~*Chapter Six~*~*~*~*
Forgeting
Okay, I am trying to forget what I just did but I can't! It won't leave me alone! Why didn't I just push him away! I want to tell someone, but god... I can't. What would people say? I know what they would say... a whole lot of swear words!
And I'm trying to forget something else. Well more than one thing actually...
First, the never-ceasing battle between Gryffidnors and Slytherins. Between Dark and Light. Between me and Snape... How can I trust him now if I've never trusted him before? What if has Draco hurt me more? He seemed concerned yesterday... Maybe it was all a lie, just to get me hurt? I wouldn't doubt it for a second. But I have to make up my mind...
And I have to make up my mind about Draco too. Should I have Snape expell him from school for hurting me? Would Draco hate me forever and hunt me down for the rest of my life? Why couldn't have I just said no! But his smile... his eyes... his lips... his darkness... I can't help it. It's an addiction. I can't get off of it.
I can't make up my mind on my life...
*
I breathed in deeply. I closed my eyes and tried to stay calm.
'Harry... Ron, we need to talk,' I said quietly. 'Now.'
Harry and Ron looked up from their studies and to me. The both had a mix of puzzlement and concern on their faces. I tried to avoid their eyes, I hated looking people in the eye when I tell them something I have kept from them. Well, it only happens once in a blue moon... like the time-turner, but this is way different. Way, way different.
'Is something wrong?' asked Ron.
'Of course there is, Ron. She wouldn't have been so serious about it if something wasn't wrong.' Harry said matter-of-factly.
Ron glared at Harry and then looked back to me.
'If it's about homework, lay off it. You won't die because you didn't get full marks or higher... if possible.' Ron said grumpily.
'This is not about homework, Ron! You always think it's about homework! I do have feelings Ron! You don't even understand!' I yelled.
Ron looked taken back at my sudden burst of anger. Harry looked at me and so did other people in the common room. I felt me face turn red and I looked to me feet.
'Sorry Ron. It's... It's just really hard to tell you about this thing...' I said slowly. I sat down in the extra chair beside the still shocked Ron.
'It's OK Hermione. You shouldn't be afraid to tell us something.' said Harry, smiling at me.
'For this, I should be.' I let out a hollow laugh, a small hollow laugh. I felt tears in my eyes. 'I should tell you this in The Owlery... where we have some privacy and no one can hear us.'
'Why can't no one hear us?' Ron asked.
'You'll see. Just come with me.' I stood and walked to the portrait hole without looking to see if Ron and Harry were following.
*
'Can you tell us now what is wrong?' Ron demanded, his arms folded across his chest.
'OK... sit down. You'll need to for this.' Ron and Harry sat down on the floor. 'Okay, I have been lying to you for around five months now. I have kept secrets that you should know, since you are my best friends. I have wanted to tell you, but I couldn't. I was being taken over by money and my own self greed and what I thought was the love of my life. I wanted to leave, I wanted to say no to him, but then I would be left without my memory or even dead. I was scared to leave, but I thought I was so in love with him, I couldn't leave.
'I was blinded with money, jewels and my own pleasures. I thought he loved me, because I loved me. But now I know the truth. He only wants me to come with him to his side... to the Dark Side. He promised he would love me forever and give me everything I ever wanted in life... and I believed him for awhile. But then, my old self was coming through again. For some reason, I couldn't say no and I couldn't say yes. I thought I was coming back... I really did. But then I said yes.
'Now I have only a few days left until he takes me away to the Dark Side. But then Professor Snape found out and he is willing to help me. He is willing to set me free again and never have to talk to Draco again. I want to believe Snape, but the history of Gryffidnors and Slytherins is stopping me. Snape said the first step is to tell you two so I can have someone beside me to help me. I don't know what to do...' I stopped talking. Their silence scared me.
I looked at them. Harry was looking at the cracks in the wall, not saying a word and Ron had seemed to be hit upside the head. His mouth hung open to its full extent and it looked as though his eyes would pop out of his head at any moment.
'I can't believe you...' Ron said blankly.
'I am so sorry...' I mumbled.
'Sorry isn't going to cut it, Hermione.' Harry said to me sharply, but he kept looking into the fire.
'It's... It's hard for me too... I wasn't in the right mind. You have to believe me! Malfoy took me over with jewels and diamonds, new robes and books. He tricked me, Harry!' I cried desperatly. I wanted them to understand, I wanted them to know how I felt...
'He tricked you Hermione?' Harry yelled, making Ron jump from his spot. Harry was now staring at me with fury in his eyes. 'How? Did he cast a spell on you to make you bow down to him and do everything he wanted to you? You didn't say anything about that when you told us for a whole five months you lied to us! We were your friends, we could have helped you! Could have made you see he didn't trick you-'
'He tricked me Harry! Just like his father tricked Snape! Snape said that if I trust him and follow our plan-'
'Oh, you trust Snape now!' Ron joined in all of a sudden. His shocked face was replaced with a fresh look of fury. 'Trust our enemy more than your own friends! Well if it's like this, then you won't need to bother to kepp secrets from us any more.'
'What do you mean?' I asked, my voice low. I knew what was the coming... the worst that could have happened to me in a time like this...
'Our friendship is through, Hermione!' Harry yelled loudly, sending owls flying from their posts. 'It's over! You have gone over the edge this time! Not telling us about the Time-Turner in the third year-'
'I promised McGonagall I wouldn't-'
'-Not telling us about Krum in the fourth year-'
'You wouldn't have understood-'
'And now this... going behind our backs... supposedly being tricked by Malfoy and him dragging off to the Dark Side. I believe this story as much as I believe that Sirius murdered my parents.' Harry looked angry, but I could see something inside his eyes... past the anger... he was scared... but of what?
'You don't understand, Harry! You just don't know what it's like!' I screamed just as loud as him. My throat started to hurt from the yelling and choking on hot tears that now fell down my face.
'I do understand! Voldemort, Hermione, think about it! He used me! He used me in the fifth year! And what you said, Malfoy was not using you!' Harry yelled.
Everything went queit. Ron was still glaring at me with so much rage, his eyes could have burned a hole through a brick wall. Harry was breathing hard and fast. An owl fluttered past us and into the night. I stared at my feet, letting the tears fall. It was over... the worst had come to me... worse than Draco's beatings... worse than being locked inside myself... my friends are gone... they can't help me escape...
'Com'n Ron, lets go.' Harry said after awhile.
I looked up. 'Wait... without you, I can't leave him. I can't escape from him... please, don't go.'
Harry stared at me as though I was a horrible disease. He grabbed Ron by the arm. 'Lets go.'
I watched them walk away... walk away from me and my last chance of surviving... my last chance of being able to come back to the light...
My legs turned to jelly and I shook all over. I fell to the floor and watched everything turn to black.
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All right! Done!!!!!! Yay! I have the end all planned out.... muahahaha...you shall never know till the end! I don't know how long the story will be... maybe around 10 chapters... well review and tell me what you think? Would Harry, Ron and Hermione say those kind of things? Whats your opnion?