Episode 19: Secrets of a Betrayl
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He looked up with his glistening eyes, like an ocean reflecting the sunlight. He stood up keeping his eyes in contact with mine. "What're you doing here?"
"Keeping my promise. Can I talk to you for a bit?"
"Oh, sure. Come on in."
I went ahead and unlocked the door. We went inside and sat on my living room couch facing each other. The environment was weird, there I was worrying about him for over a week and there he was in front of me. Like nothing had changed. "You must've been waiting out there for some time."
"About an hour actually."
"Oh, so what'd you want to talk to me about."
"There's something you need to know."
"If it's about you telling everyone you were leaving for out of town business and really you didn't have any. I already know."
"Oh. Well I--"
"It's been quite lonely without you here, for me actually. Bra and Goten have been hanging out every day, and Pan is either with them or at home. I began worrying about you, seeing you everyday then to not seeing you at all plus you telling everyone when you'd be back then not show up for about a week. I think I was the only one who worried the most. In fact Goten, Pan, and Bra noticed, they told me I had a crush on you... I didn't believe it at first, then about an hour before I came home, I realized my feelings for you had grown. Now that you're here, I don't have to worry anymore. But the feelings are still there."
"Sorry to make you worry like that, I knew I should've called but I've been really busy this passed couple of days." He looked down as if he was ashamed of being gone for so long without a word
"Doing what?"
"Tonight Pan was supposed to tell you where I've been and what I've been doing when she got a chance to talk to you, but I figured she'd forget and seems like she did."
"Tell me what?"
He looked back up at me keeping eye contact "Marron... I'm getting married tomorrow."
My heart felt like it was ripped from my chest and stepped and ran over millions of times. I couldn't believe what I was hearing! Here I was, his best friend, worrying where he was then JUST realizing these feelings for him and when he comes back he tells me JUST NOW he's getting married TOMORROW! I was speechless, I didn't know what to say. What was I supposed to say? I just looked at him with hurt because he didn't even notify me he was getting married. Too many emotions running through me right now I couldn't stand it. I just continued looking at him like I was frozen.
"...to...to Pan."
Wait no no no this can't be right. "What're you talking about to Pan, she's going to a wedding for her parent's friends tommorrow morning."
He shook his head. "No, that wedding is for Pan and I. She told you that because she was afraid you might have had feelings for me. For the passed couple of days Pan's known where I've been and she's been visiting me, staying with me, and just being there for me. One night while we were talking... then she leaned over and kissed me and well one thing lead to another."
"Oh and what you're marrying her because the sex was good?"
"No, Marron I'm marrying her because that night I realized how much in love I was with her. I've known her all my life, but just these passed couple of days made me realize what I could be missing if I ever lost her. The next night, I proposed."
I stood up and was in complete confusion. PAN? WHY? I can't believe I helped her pack for her OWN WEDDING WITHOUT her saying a word to me at all! I poured my deepest feelings and thoughts about him to YOU! I was so angry, the frustration built up inside me, my vision became blurry as I was letting my eyes swell up in tears that constantly wouldn't stop running. "Marron, I'm sorry I know both of us should've told you sooner, but we didn't know how. I'm sorry."
Trunks stood up and I gave him one good slap across his cheek as he attempted to comfort me with a hug while continuing to apologize. Everytime he laid his hands on me I'd shake them off. "Stop touching me! Don't even try apologizing! Just leave now."
I began pushing him toward the door as tears continued to blurr my vision. I didn't care as long as he wasn't in my sight. "Marron please."
"Please what? FORGIVE YOU AND PAN? You betrayed me BOTH OF YOU! The wedding's tomorrow and you tell me NOW that you're getting married and you expect me to forgive you! I won't even forgive Pan for what she's done! I poured my heart out about YOU and yet she lied to me! IN FRONT OF MY FACE! Dammit Trunks, YOU lied to me with your fucking promise again! You've both betrayed me! It took you until you fucked that little hussy to realized you loved her? What kind of a man does that make you? Don't you dare to expect to ever see me at a wedding of that lying heartless bitch and the piece of promise breaking bullshit I see right in front of my face."
Trunks cupped his hands under my elbows trying to hold me still "Marron, listen to me."
I shrugged him off and pointed my index finger to him "NO! You listen to me,"
I pushed him as hard as I could knowing well I couldn't push that hard with all this emotional drainage I was receiving from this bastard. "NEVER do I want to see or hear from either of you ever again! If you had come back when you promised you would and had this thing going on with Pan, I could've accepted it. HELL I wouldn't even have these STUPID feelings for you! But for me to sit here on hours at a time worrying about you, hanging out with Pan asking her where you've been then finding out this whole time SHE KNEW where you've been."
The volume of my voice grew louder and with more frustration, "THEN I TELL HER HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU, HOW I can't stop thinking about you, how my heart raced everytime you showed up, how I'd feel this weird vibe just being in your arms, how I stay up on nights looking out my window WAITING for you to come! THEN I HELP Pan pack up for what I thought was a wedding for her parent's friend. AND TO ADD TO ALL THAT for both of you to get married after one good night of FUCKING! Damn saiya-jins you have the guts to put your life on the line but you don't even have the balls to tell someone when something like this is going on. GET THE HELL OUT!" I finally said opening the front door and pushing him out slamming it shut behind him
"Marron, please. Open up. Marron...Marron" he continued knocking and calling me as I leaned against the door sitting down in an emotional wreck. My shirt soaking up every bit of tear that fell off my face.
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"Marron, Marron. Open up please."
I awoke in a panic, my heart beating at a furious speed, my breathing had become uneasy and I felt hot and sweaty. Then the door busted open. There stood Pan.
"Oh good you woke up. The door must've been locked when I shut it. I was getting worried for a second."
As soon as she was standing by my bedside I pulled on her shirt forcing her to lock eyes with me "AH! Marron what're you doing?"
"The truth Pan, I want the truth."
"Truth about what?"
"You and Trunks! Tell me now or so Dende help me I--"
"I don't know what you're talking about Marron. Let me go!" Pan struggled to free herself from my grip, but failed to do so.
"Stop it Pan, I can't believe you... after I had poured out my feeling about Trunks you don't even have the guts to tell me when you NOTICED I started liking him a lot more! Pan, tell me now. I know you've been hiding this from me. Just tell me." My vision started to blur as tears formed in my eyes
"OK OK FINE I'LL TELL YOU....I like him, I like him ok?"
"I know there's more to that Pan."
"I swear that's all Marron."
"You're lying to me! Where is he?"
"I don't know where he is. Ow, Marron please stop you're hurting me."
"Yes you do tell me PAN!" I said frustratingly tugging her closer to me as the tears began to fall down my cheek.
"What's your problem Marron, I don't know! Let GO!"
The strength of my mother and father ran through my vains, my voice became weaker as my frustration grew as well as my emotions. I gave her one shake and tried looking "Stop lying I know you know. Please Pan. Where is TRUNKS?!"
"OK OK FINE I KNOW I KNOW!"
"WHAT?! Where is he?"
"I can't tell you, Trunks made me promise not to tell you."
"Trunks made you promise? When was this?"
"Look, it was two days ago... over the phone ok, can we get passed this now?"
"No, Pan one way or another I'm going with you to that wedding."
"You can't it's invitation only Marron."
"Invitation only huh? Don't invite me to your wedding, I can't believe you'd say that!"
"MY WEDDING? What're you talking about?"
"Stop it Pan I know about your wedding with Trunks!"
"WHAT?"
"Don't lie to me that wedding tomorrow isn't for your parent's friends. It's for YOU AND TRUNKS!"
"NO IT'S NOT!"
"Why do you keep lying in front of my face I already know, just admit it!"
"I'm NOT lying Marron."
"Yes you are!"
"WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?"
"YOU ARE! You keep lying and lying."
"NO I'M NOT. MARRON STOP LET GO OF ME PLEASE!" She grabbed my wrists in attempt to pull away till I pulled her in again.
"THE WEDDING PAN, WHY DI--"
"MARRON THERE'S NO WEDDING!"
"STOP LY--"
"WHY WOULD HE MARRY ME IF HE'S IN LOVE WITH YOU!?" Immediately, almost numbingly, I let go of Pan. We both looked at each other surprisingly as she had placed both her hands over her mouth hoping she'd take it back... She shut her eyes and placed her hands back down knowing nothing could take it back. Walking back a couple steps and took the card from the table.
"Is-is that all tru--"
"Read it for yourself..." She handed the card to me and I read the title heading on the front:A Dream Wedding: Sharpner & Erasa She looked at me cold heartedly remembering what I had done, while fixing her shirt walking backwards toward the door, then placing a hand on the doorknob as she looked at me.
"I don't know what's wrong with you Marron, you've never acted this way. But I just came in here to say bye. It's 6 in the morning, you fell asleep here and I'm going to the airport with my parents. I wish I had the time to talk to you and see why you were accusing me of these relations with Trunks, but I have no time, I'm running late as it is. I'll see you when I come back. Good-bye."
"PAN, WAIT, I'm sorry!" I said as she was slowly shutting the door. What did I do? Why did I accuse one of my friends of doing such a thing? Why did I even have that dream in the first place? Maybe just the occurring events, with Trunks being gone as well as Pan, and Goten and Bra with eachother, I guess I'm just feeling lonely. But why did she say he's in love with me? Is that what he told her over the phone? I need to see Goten and see what happened last night and tell him about this morning. Pan I'm so sorry, I don't know what came over me....