Episode 22: Another Heart... Broken

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"So are we getting back together?"

Not knowing what to say after that... i slowly took the ring she was still holding, placing it back in my wallet then to my pocket. "Paris... I love you, I do. But I've already started to move on without you."

"What?"

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Yeah I wish it ended like that.......after we kissed and looked at eachother

"Goten...can we go back to your place...I want to see your room again."

"Uh..."

"Even if you've already taken down pictures of me...do you still have the scrap book I gave you a couple months ago."

"That I still have...but I do--"

"Ok, let's go." Without hesitation she took my hand and ran to the car...requesting that she would be the one to drive since she barely does anymore, I went ahead and let her...

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There we were in my room, I laid on the bed staring at the ceiling with my hands behind my head while she sat next to me looking at the photo album of us. After turning the last page she put the book down on the floor and laid on her side facing me pulling one hand from my head placing it on her shoulder as she put her hand on my chest and one leg over mine. I looked down at her like she was crazy then she smiled, and the scent of her...just like before remembering everything i felt with her next to me... I looked back up at the ceiling again trying to think of someone else... Bra.

"I miss being around you like this...laying next to you, you holding me, i miss it, i miss you."

"Yeah well... I've missed it too"

"Tell me you haven't already moved on, say that you think about me every day, tell me you still love me and you want to be with me... I still feel all of it about you Goten..."

"Paris... the truth... I have thought about you every day, every night actually... I'd contemplate whether or not I should still be with you... the fact is, I do still love you...but..." She lifted her head and looked at me

"But what Goten?"

"Love... I love you in a caring way rather than being in love with you..."

"What're you saying?"

"I do still love you, but I've already begun to move on...it's a hard and slow process, but it's already started."

"No... how, how can you just forget about me and move on in this amount of time?"

"I haven't forgotten about you, it's ju--"

"I'll make you remember."

without hesitation she started kissing me and had somehow laid herself on top of me... just kissing me passionately... bringing me back to the days when I was in love with her... She grabbed the front of my shirt and along with her she pulled me up so i was sitting and she was straddled on me. Almost naturally I wrapped my arms from behind her and just continued kissing... I was running low on breath from this... my heart raced as it did many times during one of these moments...From behind me she started pulling on my shirt and in one swift move we parted lips for a second as she slipped it off and tossed it aside. In a second she did the same with her top. She took my hands from behind her and motioned it upward to the hooking of her bra. I took my lips off hers to catch my breath. Connecting our forheads looking down trying to breath

"Paris, baby we can't do this..."

"Yes we can..." She pressed her lips on me again. Again I stopped and just looked at her.

"No..."

She gave me a kiss again and after each word "Don't you... want ...me"

"No...not... you... Bra." In between each word she kissed me over and over.

"The bra it is." She of course had misunderstood my words quickly took it off revealing herself to me... this however was my weak spot... it was always something about her, everytime she took it off I couldn't help myself. She quickly grabbed my hand and placed it on her exposed self...never taking her lips off mine, she continued kissing practially pushing me down... and well... you can figure out what I shouldn't have done....

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"BRA!" I awoke, sitting up and tried catching my breathing from such a horrible nightmare... I looked to my side only to find this wasn't a nightmare... it was a reality. Paris laid asleep, naked under the sheets as was I. Our clothes, scattered all over the floor. I turned so my feet rested on the floor with my back turned from Paris. I rubbed my eyes maybe hoping once my vision cleared, I would've seen it was a dream... but it didn't go away... I picked up my cell phone that laid on the floor next to my pants...

"4 missed calls?" I pressed the button

"2 new numbers..." There it was...

"Bra's Cell... Capsule Corp (Home)" The only two numbers Bra would call me from... I then called the voice box as it told me I had 2 new messages...

"First new message. Message sent today at 1:32pm"

"Hey Goten it's me... I called you once about 10 minutes ago hoping maybe you'd answer this time. Um, just felt like calling you today...(giggle) No one's here to entertain me, Pan's gone, Marron's at work, my brother isn't home still... and well... aren't you home alone? (giggle) Don't get any ideas mister... Anyways just wanted to call but I guess you're busy... call me later ok... Bye."

"Next new message sent today at 3:17pm"

"Well it's 3:20 just about and you still haven't returned my call... I'm just bored. I hope you're not too busy. I called you before this again but no answer... What are you doing because I'm bored and I want to come over and see what you're up to...maybe if you need help with anything? Um... (sigh) I want to talk to you... it sucked how you had to leave this morning... (giggle) well... just... call me asap please...bye."

I hung up the phone wondering... what was I going to tell Bra? I missed her calls because I was having sex with my ex girlfriend? In one second she'd have me wiped off the face of the Earth. How could I have let this happen... Paris, it's over between you and I, this wasn't supposed to happen... but... I mean... it's not like Bra and I are really together anyways... and she'd understand because I've been with Paris for over a year and she'd know I'd still be in love with her right? Oh what am I saying? I had JUST told Paris I wasn't IN love with her... and regardless Bra would be hurt no matter what...

I got up and put my boxers on. I grabbed my pants and began putting them on when I noticed a note on the floor with my name sweetly written on it... I sat back on the bed and began unfolding it wondering what it would say...

Dear Goten,
I choke at the thought of you reading this, but I was told by a friend of mine, "Never pass up the chance to tell someone how you feel, you may be hurt if he rejects, but silence is more heartbreaking." The thing is, I'm not sure how to tell you how I feel because, well, it's quite confusing. The passed couple of days you seem to be acting different around me. Maybe it's just that I haven't seen you in so long and with you coming around so often now, I don't know what I'm feeling.

Lately I've been doing nothing but thinking about you. I really shouldn't be feeling or doing this either because let's face it, you're already taken and in love with Paris. I can tell by the way you talk about her... it's selfish of me to say this but, I think that's the way I've been feeling about you lately. I can't stop this either, I've tried but nothing's worked. The voices in my heart aren't holding me back, it speaks of you so much it's overflowing inside of me... it begins to hurt. My heart hurts because I've kept these pathetic feelings inside since I know I can't have you like she has you...

But no longer can these feeling be kept contained. I'm sorry for letting you know like this... espcially when I know you're already in love with Paris. But I'd rather let you know then continue to move on with my life and trying to act normal around you when I know deep down inside I'm feeling differently... I've fallen for you Goten... fallen so hard I cried myself to sleep trying to figure a way to stop feeling this way, but no matter what I can't... So lastly Goten... if you start acting distant and don't come around again... I'll know why... but Goten... I love you...

~Bra

Just then I felt Paris wrap her arms around my stomach and kissed my shoulder. I quickly folded the noted and placed it in my pocket. I didn't know what to do, had Bra fallen that hard for me?

"Goten..." She rested her cheek on my shoulder and held me tighter. I placed my hand on hers and looked down.

"Paris, I want you to leave..." She took her hands off my body as well as her head and looked at me.

"What?" She spoke sadly

"Please...go."

"Goten, wha- why? We just made lo--"

"Paris, please... thi-this wasn't supposed to happen."

She took a hold of the blanket and covered her chest as she scooted over to my side and faced me. My head still looking down at the floor in shame.

"How can you say THAT?"

"Par-"

"No! Look at me when I ask you!" She took a hold of my face and forced it to look at her. With fear in her eyes she let go and placed her hand over her mouth with a gasp.

"...Goten what's wrong? You'r- you're crying?"

My eyes retained the tears that were about to slip. I turned my head away looking back down.

"I'm sorry. Please Paris. I need you to go, leave me. We had already broken up, it was hard on me the first time. It's even harder on me now because I've already moved on to someone who really loves me and now I know I've probably hurt her. I'm sorry but... I can't be with you anymore Paris... so please, leave me alone."

I got up and left the room. Allowing her to change without me there... I sat in the living room alone, looking at Bra's note, thinking about everything.