Author's note: This is a rather melodramatic and foolish little Auror tie-
in I wrote as a songfic to go with 'Kissing You' by Des Ree, from Baz
Luhrmann's version of Romeo + Juliet. It's Remus' PoV; he's in the healing
room alone, believing Sephine to be dead and regretting not telling her
something.
Originally it was going to be post-OOTP with Remus remembering Sirius. However there was no way to do that with this song without it becoming uber- slash, something I do not believe Remus/Sirius share. ^^ I've wanted to do a songfic ever since reading Amazing Grace by Tuppence. Or whatever Trins calls herself now. It's a Pansy/Draco songfic and I thought it was so clever and so wonderful when I read it! Mine's just turned out a bit soppy and silly really though. Some rather elevated language as well – that's what comes of reading Jane Eyre just before bedtime...
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Pride can stand a thousand trials
But it cannot stand two deaths in a single night. Youthful pride...banished with a swath of green light. Never to return.
The strong will never fall Strong...she was so strong I thought – so much stronger than I. How I wished to be as strong as her. And yet now I see how weak, how weak we all are. She no less than the rest of us with our human frailties.
But watching stars without you When she pushed me away, left me to save James and Lily. And I lay there unable to move from the fear that she'd leave me, as I saw the night sky blur overhead with tears that I could not believe were my own.
My soul cries. Cries? Cries—nay it howls. Like the wolf that took her from me. If only I'd told her, if only she'd known, we would not have been singled out like this, she wouldn't have left me to sacrifice herself.
Heaving heart is full of pain And my heart beats so quickly as I lie here, my passionate thoughts stirring it with such emotion that it dives and swoops at its restraints, longing to be free, punishing me as I have punished it over the years.
Oh, oh, the aching. I can't bear the knowledge that she is gone. I can't bear the pain of my heart crashing against my ribs. I can't bear the silence of this room, the stark, clean smell. I can't bear being here.
Cause I'm kissing you, oh
I'm kissing you, oh.
Touch me dear, pure and true My cheeks tingle with remembrance of that last touch, and I raise a hand, wondering if the blood and tears that she stroked my face with remain...a last reminder? No, they have been thoughtfully removed with a sterile cloth.
Gift to me forever. Forever could have been her, with me, helping me. But forever is now lying here, chasing my pains and willing the past to change.
Cause I'm kissing you, oh
I'm kissing you, oh
But where are you now? Where indeed have you gone? You have left me answerless, unable to apologise, unable to tell you just how much you meant to me.
Where are you now? Do you wait for me somewhere? Beyond some hidden veil, where one day I may fall to my knees before you and beg forgiveness? Or have you turned your back on my mortal shames and I...?
Cause I'm kissing you
I'm kissing you, oh!
Originally it was going to be post-OOTP with Remus remembering Sirius. However there was no way to do that with this song without it becoming uber- slash, something I do not believe Remus/Sirius share. ^^ I've wanted to do a songfic ever since reading Amazing Grace by Tuppence. Or whatever Trins calls herself now. It's a Pansy/Draco songfic and I thought it was so clever and so wonderful when I read it! Mine's just turned out a bit soppy and silly really though. Some rather elevated language as well – that's what comes of reading Jane Eyre just before bedtime...
***
Pride can stand a thousand trials
But it cannot stand two deaths in a single night. Youthful pride...banished with a swath of green light. Never to return.
The strong will never fall Strong...she was so strong I thought – so much stronger than I. How I wished to be as strong as her. And yet now I see how weak, how weak we all are. She no less than the rest of us with our human frailties.
But watching stars without you When she pushed me away, left me to save James and Lily. And I lay there unable to move from the fear that she'd leave me, as I saw the night sky blur overhead with tears that I could not believe were my own.
My soul cries. Cries? Cries—nay it howls. Like the wolf that took her from me. If only I'd told her, if only she'd known, we would not have been singled out like this, she wouldn't have left me to sacrifice herself.
Heaving heart is full of pain And my heart beats so quickly as I lie here, my passionate thoughts stirring it with such emotion that it dives and swoops at its restraints, longing to be free, punishing me as I have punished it over the years.
Oh, oh, the aching. I can't bear the knowledge that she is gone. I can't bear the pain of my heart crashing against my ribs. I can't bear the silence of this room, the stark, clean smell. I can't bear being here.
Cause I'm kissing you, oh
I'm kissing you, oh.
Touch me dear, pure and true My cheeks tingle with remembrance of that last touch, and I raise a hand, wondering if the blood and tears that she stroked my face with remain...a last reminder? No, they have been thoughtfully removed with a sterile cloth.
Gift to me forever. Forever could have been her, with me, helping me. But forever is now lying here, chasing my pains and willing the past to change.
Cause I'm kissing you, oh
I'm kissing you, oh
But where are you now? Where indeed have you gone? You have left me answerless, unable to apologise, unable to tell you just how much you meant to me.
Where are you now? Do you wait for me somewhere? Beyond some hidden veil, where one day I may fall to my knees before you and beg forgiveness? Or have you turned your back on my mortal shames and I...?
Cause I'm kissing you
I'm kissing you, oh!