4/20/04
Hey. All right, maybe this whole journal thing isn't too bad! I was actually kind of anxious to write in this thing today. Maybe it's just because of the day I had....but I'll get into the crazy stuff later. For now, I guess I'll say more about myself.
I'm short, compared to all my friends. They always tease me about that. I'm Italian...my Grandparents moved to America when they had my mom, and my mom moved to LA from New York a few years before I was born. I do okay in school. Not as good as some of my friends, but I get by. My favorite subject? You guessed it, lunch! I love going to the cafeteria and just relaxing and hanging out with Jack...he's the only one of my friends in my lunch. But that's okay. I like chorus, too, except for my teacher, Miss. Toner, is always buggin' me about my vowels. "Use tall vowels, Tony!" Oy! But that's all right. I love singing.
All right, I can't stop thinking about what happened today. I gotta let this out! Jack, Spot, Specs, Kid Blink, Skittery and I were all hanging out after school, and somehow we got on the subject of girlfriends, and Specs started talking about how he thought all girls were stuck-up and bitchy. So Jack said, "So you're just gonna get a girl for sex? Sounds all right to me!" Jack flashed his famous, wise-ass smirk, and all of us were laughing.
"Well, maybe I don't want a girl at all..." He paused for a minute, looking kind of nervous. After a minute, he took a deep breath and continued. "I have what I need, right here." He points to Kid Blink.
Kid Blink spoke up. "Guys, we should tell you something. We're, uh...gay."
"You're what?" Jack and I asked together. You should've seen the looks on our faces! We didn't believe them.
"We're gay. And we're going out....right Specs?" Specs nodded and took Blink's hand.
"You two don't have a problem with it do ya, Race? Jack?" Blink asked, threateningly.
"Uh..."
"Well...."
"I guess....uh..."
"If that's how..."
Jack and I couldn't really formulate a sentence, we were so shocked.
I was confused...."What about all those girlfriends you've had, Specs? I don't get it."
"Race, I just didn't know it. Notice how I haven't had a girlfriend since last year? I just thought I wasn't finding the right girl, but then I realized what I wanted was right in our little circle of friends all along." Specs smiled at Kid Blink. Skittery, who had been quiet for quite some time, finally spoke up. "Well, I don't see anything wrong with that, guys. I fully respect your decision, and my opinion of you hasn't changed."
"Thanks, Skitts", said Kid Blink.
"Yeah, same here, I guess." added Spot.
"All right, well Specs and I have got to hit the road. We gotta get back to Blink's house before his mom gets home! We've got some....studying to do!" Specs winked at Kid Blink and they took off.
I just stood there, kind of in shock, while Jack turned to Spot and Skittery.
"How can you guys be so cool about this? We just found out that two of our best friends are totally not who we thought they were!"
Skittery spoke up, sounding a little annoyed. "Jesus, Jack! They're still the same people you thought they were five minutes ago! The only difference is them not liking girls. Big freakin' deal!" Jack looked around, trying to think of a good comeback, and finally just looked at me.
"Race....you haven't said anything...don't you think they're being a little too calm about this?"
"Uh, well, I dunno...um...I guess?" I just didn't really know what to make of the whole situation.
"All right, fine. Whatever. I don't care. Let's go, Race." Oh yeah...Jack drives me to and home from school every day, since we live next door to each other, and he has a car. I'm so jealous. I want a car, but my parents won't buy me one until I get into college. Damn. We walked to the car in silence, and when we got in, Jack put on some music, and started driving.
"Jack, are you mad?" I asked.
"I guess not...it's just...why would they keep that from us for so long? I wonder how long they've been going behind our backs for." I thought for a minute, and then said, "Maybe they were scared of how we'd react." We pulled into my driveway, and I got out.
"See ya, Race."
"Later." When I told my mom that Specs and Blink were gay (I tell my mom a lot), she said "Uh, I know!"
"Huh? How do you know?!"
She rolled her eyes at me. "Come on, honey! Have you seen them together? They're inseparable! Not to mention they're all over each other! Now go on and do your homework before supper!" Then I went upstairs. How do mothers know everything? Seriously! Anyways, I guess this whole thing doesn't bother me that much...it's just weird. I mean, I've gone my whole life thinking the normal thing to do is just like girls. How can you...never mind! I don't know. It doesn't really concern me....
All right, better do my homework. I have another mountain of it! School sucks sometimes.
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Yay! That chapter's all done! I'll get the next one soon...... Thanks for reviewing, guys!
Hey. All right, maybe this whole journal thing isn't too bad! I was actually kind of anxious to write in this thing today. Maybe it's just because of the day I had....but I'll get into the crazy stuff later. For now, I guess I'll say more about myself.
I'm short, compared to all my friends. They always tease me about that. I'm Italian...my Grandparents moved to America when they had my mom, and my mom moved to LA from New York a few years before I was born. I do okay in school. Not as good as some of my friends, but I get by. My favorite subject? You guessed it, lunch! I love going to the cafeteria and just relaxing and hanging out with Jack...he's the only one of my friends in my lunch. But that's okay. I like chorus, too, except for my teacher, Miss. Toner, is always buggin' me about my vowels. "Use tall vowels, Tony!" Oy! But that's all right. I love singing.
All right, I can't stop thinking about what happened today. I gotta let this out! Jack, Spot, Specs, Kid Blink, Skittery and I were all hanging out after school, and somehow we got on the subject of girlfriends, and Specs started talking about how he thought all girls were stuck-up and bitchy. So Jack said, "So you're just gonna get a girl for sex? Sounds all right to me!" Jack flashed his famous, wise-ass smirk, and all of us were laughing.
"Well, maybe I don't want a girl at all..." He paused for a minute, looking kind of nervous. After a minute, he took a deep breath and continued. "I have what I need, right here." He points to Kid Blink.
Kid Blink spoke up. "Guys, we should tell you something. We're, uh...gay."
"You're what?" Jack and I asked together. You should've seen the looks on our faces! We didn't believe them.
"We're gay. And we're going out....right Specs?" Specs nodded and took Blink's hand.
"You two don't have a problem with it do ya, Race? Jack?" Blink asked, threateningly.
"Uh..."
"Well...."
"I guess....uh..."
"If that's how..."
Jack and I couldn't really formulate a sentence, we were so shocked.
I was confused...."What about all those girlfriends you've had, Specs? I don't get it."
"Race, I just didn't know it. Notice how I haven't had a girlfriend since last year? I just thought I wasn't finding the right girl, but then I realized what I wanted was right in our little circle of friends all along." Specs smiled at Kid Blink. Skittery, who had been quiet for quite some time, finally spoke up. "Well, I don't see anything wrong with that, guys. I fully respect your decision, and my opinion of you hasn't changed."
"Thanks, Skitts", said Kid Blink.
"Yeah, same here, I guess." added Spot.
"All right, well Specs and I have got to hit the road. We gotta get back to Blink's house before his mom gets home! We've got some....studying to do!" Specs winked at Kid Blink and they took off.
I just stood there, kind of in shock, while Jack turned to Spot and Skittery.
"How can you guys be so cool about this? We just found out that two of our best friends are totally not who we thought they were!"
Skittery spoke up, sounding a little annoyed. "Jesus, Jack! They're still the same people you thought they were five minutes ago! The only difference is them not liking girls. Big freakin' deal!" Jack looked around, trying to think of a good comeback, and finally just looked at me.
"Race....you haven't said anything...don't you think they're being a little too calm about this?"
"Uh, well, I dunno...um...I guess?" I just didn't really know what to make of the whole situation.
"All right, fine. Whatever. I don't care. Let's go, Race." Oh yeah...Jack drives me to and home from school every day, since we live next door to each other, and he has a car. I'm so jealous. I want a car, but my parents won't buy me one until I get into college. Damn. We walked to the car in silence, and when we got in, Jack put on some music, and started driving.
"Jack, are you mad?" I asked.
"I guess not...it's just...why would they keep that from us for so long? I wonder how long they've been going behind our backs for." I thought for a minute, and then said, "Maybe they were scared of how we'd react." We pulled into my driveway, and I got out.
"See ya, Race."
"Later." When I told my mom that Specs and Blink were gay (I tell my mom a lot), she said "Uh, I know!"
"Huh? How do you know?!"
She rolled her eyes at me. "Come on, honey! Have you seen them together? They're inseparable! Not to mention they're all over each other! Now go on and do your homework before supper!" Then I went upstairs. How do mothers know everything? Seriously! Anyways, I guess this whole thing doesn't bother me that much...it's just weird. I mean, I've gone my whole life thinking the normal thing to do is just like girls. How can you...never mind! I don't know. It doesn't really concern me....
All right, better do my homework. I have another mountain of it! School sucks sometimes.
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Yay! That chapter's all done! I'll get the next one soon...... Thanks for reviewing, guys!