i dont own inuyasha.
a/n: thank you to those who reviewed. you're all swell. i didnt think anyone would like this story. so i'm glad there are some who do.
Part 3-
Kagome sniffed, "You chose Kikyo Inuyasha. Why does that surprise you?" She sounded angry and very very hurt. Her eyes had gone cold; the warm glow they usually possessed had completely faded.
Inuyasha's mouth was still hanging open; his eyes were still bugging out of his head.
'I chose Kikyo? NANI?'
"But...uh...I..." He sputtered for words. Finally closing his mouth, he tried to form a complete thought in his head before even attempting to speak.
It was quite obvious that Kagome was pissed at him for choosing Kikyo, or maybe it was because he abandoned her in this time? Whatever the reason, it didn't matter; it was never a good idea to have an angry Kagome anywhere near him.
"Kagome...I..."
She watched him closely for a few moments, her gaze softened slightly. "It's okay Inuyasha. You don't have to explain, I mean, I know she was your first love. You felt like you owed her a debt, that's what you told me then. Besides, Naraku and the jewel had stolen her life from her. She never really had a chance to live...but..." Kagome trailed off as she stared out into the night.
The moon was illuminating the God tree, giving it an almost eerie glow. Everything always came back to that tree. It was what connected everything together, past, present, and future. It had brought her to Inuyasha, and it had been there when they were torn apart. Why had she been pulled back in time at all? What was the point of it all? Was she destined to align two soul mates five hundred years in the past? Just so that her own life could go down the tubes because of it? And if Kikyo and Inuyasha were soul mates, doesn't that mean that she and Inuyasha are soul mates as well? Her heart felt as though it was being squeezed within a vice, so many questions, no answers.
She felt her bottom lip begin to tremble, 'Oh Inuyasha.' She thought, trying to hold back her tears as she watched the tree. 'If I look at him, I know I'll cry. I cant, I just cant. Not yet.'
Why was she the one who had to tell him about all the suffering? All the pain?
"I just wanted you to be happy, that's all. I would have done anything...But then..."
"Kagome," his voice was soft and gentle yet it held a note of warning. He was afraid of what she was about to say, but he wasn't exactly sure what it was. Frankly, he never really knew what was going to come out of that girl's mouth. It was always what he least expected. She was forever shocking, or embarrassing him.
She looked at him over her shoulder, a single tear traveled down her cheek. Before he could stop himself he had already reached over and removed the tear, smoothing his knuckles over her face as he did so. She closed her eyes for a moment; his touch was so gentle.
'Her skin is still so soft,' he thought
'Please don't let this be a dream. I'll die if it is.'
"Inuyasha," she murmured, opening her eyes slightly.
He blinked, her voice snapping him out of the spell they had been weaving. "Kagome?" He asked, pulling his hand away. A slight blush stained his cheeks.
She smiled slightly, her eyes taking on a dreamy quality as she looked down at her hands. "That's all I ever wanted for you Inuyasha...Don't you remember? All I wanted, was your happiness..."
Kagome stopped, her smile fading as she looked once more to the night. She stared at the
God-Tree, hoping that it would offer the answers she lacked. But it offered her nothing, not anymore anyway.
Her gaze returned to Inuyasha, again. "Here, I'll show you." She stood, grabbing the hanyou's hand, before he could protest she dragged him outside. They stood before the tree, their gazes traveling upward as they marveled at its beauty.
"It was easy to bury my grief knowing that at least the two of you were together, and happy... Finally. Even though I was alone I took comfort in knowing that at least my friends were alright...But then one day, after grandpa had died, I was out here sweeping, and fixing up a few things. Keeping myself busy, when I noticed something different about the tree..."
She dragged him around to the back of the tree, pointing down at the base of the trunk. A small weather worn carving was barely visible, and below it was a small wooden marker. To an onlooker it wouldn't be anything of importance; but to someone who had looked at the tree every day for practically their entire life, it would be very significant. The letters were very worn, but as Inuyasha gazed down at them with his excellent eyesight, he knew instantly what it said:
/I will join you soon my beloved wife, Kikyo. /
Inuyasha gasped, he turned to Kagome. Her tears traveled down her face in small silver rivers, reflected by the moon. He felt his own tears prickling the backs of his eyes.
"She...she...died?" He gasped in disbelief.
Kagome nodded slowly. "Yes, the two of you must have only had a couple of years together before...I'm so sorry Inuyasha..."
He gaped at her, how could this be?
"I wondered how she died… but...."
Things weren't supposed to happen this way, once he chose Kikyo things would be good, they would live into their old age together, have children, grandchildren...
Kagome would have gone off and ... and...
He had never even thought about that. All along he had planned on choosing Kikyo, and either going to hell with her when their journey was over, or wishing on the jewel for her life. But he had never thought of Kagome.
Had he just assumed that she would wait around for him? Wishing for Kikyo's life on the jewel could have killed her, yet Kagome wished for it anyway. She didn't even stop for a moment to think of herself. She always did the right thing, no matter what. Even if it meant sacrificing herself. But instead it had stolen everything from her. Everyone she had ever loved had either died, or abandoned her; she didn't get to live out any of her dreams. So in a way, it had done just that.
This was all his fault wasn't it? But he just didn't know how…
"And you thought that I would come back for you then, didn't you?" He asked quietly, his voice barely above a whisper.
She looked down at their hands, still interlocked, more tears escaped as she sighed. "I don't know what I thought Inuyasha. But I missed you, and I ached for you. I wanted to comfort you.... But you never...and I…I couldn't..."
His face turned cold as he stared at the carving. 'I chose wrong, didn't I?'
Why was Kagome all-alone? She was the type of person who needed to be surrounded by loved ones at all times. She needed friends and family in order to thrive.
"Were you ever married Kagome?" His voice was still quiet, still barely there. But she heard him, her heart ached again as she fought her jumbled thoughts for the answer.
Should she lie to ease his pain? Or tell the truth to ease her own?
She couldn't lie to him, not to Inuyasha, besides she hated liars.
"No," I never wanted anyone else. "Not even a boyfriend. I didn't really have time."
Liar.
"Boy-friend?" He asked looking slightly confused.
"Um...it's a boy who's your friend, but he's sort of more like a betrothed. But you don't have to marry him if you don't want to."
"Oh, uh, hmm..." He grunted and turned back to the tree. "What about that Hobo guy? The one you were always talking about?"
She opened her mouth to correct him, but laughed instead. "His name is Hojo, Inuyasha."
"Keh, whatever."
She laughed again, and covered her mouth, chuckling slightly into her palm. He was starting to sound like his old self again!
"Well, what about him?" Inuyasha asked, even though it pained him to do so. He didn't want that Hojo guy anywhere near Kagome. He was almost as bad as Kouga...oh yeah...Kouga...whatever happened to him?
"I started to get home schooled after I came back. I couldn't concentrate there. I kept thinking you came back for me and I missed it or something. Besides I just couldn't relate to all the other kids, or the stuff that was happening to them. I just didn't fit in anymore..." She frowned. "Hojo came around for awhile, but then he just stopped, and so did all my friends. I went out shopping one day and saw him eating ice cream with Yuka. So I guess they got together instead..." She sighed as the wind picked up slightly. Tossing the loose tendrils of hair about her face.
Inuyasha resisted the urge to reach up and undo the bun at the base of her neck. He was dying to see all that beautiful ebony hair whipping about in the wind like it used to.
"There was no one else Kagome? I mean how old are you again? You didn't go out and get one those boy-friends after that?"
'If she says yes, I'm going to have to hunt that jerk down, whoever he is, and kill him.'
"Nah, I was busy. I had to take care of the shrine, pass high school, and look for my little
brother," 'and I did it all alone. By myself, with no one's help.' She smiled slightly, but it
didn't reach her eyes.
'I chose the wrong one,' he thought again as he listened to her talk about how crappy her life had been. He chose Kikyo, for what? She died not even a year after they gave her life! Kagome had her life, but she wasn't really living it. She was still stuck back in feudal Japan; she was still that fifteen-year-old schoolgirl even if she refused to admit it.
"You were alone this whole time, weren't you?" He had gone quiet again.
Kagome stared at him for a moment. "No, not this whole time. Sota came back about four years ago...they had already had two children by then...I-"
They both flinched at the sound of car doors closing. "They're back..." She said quietly.
Inuyasha looked down at Kagome, "Yeah, so...what do we do now? You think the kid remembers me?"
She smiled up at him slightly, "Yeah, maybe..."
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a/n: sorry if it's boring, took me awhile to write this even if it doesnt show it. i couldnt
resist the Hojo joke. hehe, i know it's over done. but it still makes me laugh anyway.
a/n: thank you to those who reviewed. you're all swell. i didnt think anyone would like this story. so i'm glad there are some who do.
Part 3-
Kagome sniffed, "You chose Kikyo Inuyasha. Why does that surprise you?" She sounded angry and very very hurt. Her eyes had gone cold; the warm glow they usually possessed had completely faded.
Inuyasha's mouth was still hanging open; his eyes were still bugging out of his head.
'I chose Kikyo? NANI?'
"But...uh...I..." He sputtered for words. Finally closing his mouth, he tried to form a complete thought in his head before even attempting to speak.
It was quite obvious that Kagome was pissed at him for choosing Kikyo, or maybe it was because he abandoned her in this time? Whatever the reason, it didn't matter; it was never a good idea to have an angry Kagome anywhere near him.
"Kagome...I..."
She watched him closely for a few moments, her gaze softened slightly. "It's okay Inuyasha. You don't have to explain, I mean, I know she was your first love. You felt like you owed her a debt, that's what you told me then. Besides, Naraku and the jewel had stolen her life from her. She never really had a chance to live...but..." Kagome trailed off as she stared out into the night.
The moon was illuminating the God tree, giving it an almost eerie glow. Everything always came back to that tree. It was what connected everything together, past, present, and future. It had brought her to Inuyasha, and it had been there when they were torn apart. Why had she been pulled back in time at all? What was the point of it all? Was she destined to align two soul mates five hundred years in the past? Just so that her own life could go down the tubes because of it? And if Kikyo and Inuyasha were soul mates, doesn't that mean that she and Inuyasha are soul mates as well? Her heart felt as though it was being squeezed within a vice, so many questions, no answers.
She felt her bottom lip begin to tremble, 'Oh Inuyasha.' She thought, trying to hold back her tears as she watched the tree. 'If I look at him, I know I'll cry. I cant, I just cant. Not yet.'
Why was she the one who had to tell him about all the suffering? All the pain?
"I just wanted you to be happy, that's all. I would have done anything...But then..."
"Kagome," his voice was soft and gentle yet it held a note of warning. He was afraid of what she was about to say, but he wasn't exactly sure what it was. Frankly, he never really knew what was going to come out of that girl's mouth. It was always what he least expected. She was forever shocking, or embarrassing him.
She looked at him over her shoulder, a single tear traveled down her cheek. Before he could stop himself he had already reached over and removed the tear, smoothing his knuckles over her face as he did so. She closed her eyes for a moment; his touch was so gentle.
'Her skin is still so soft,' he thought
'Please don't let this be a dream. I'll die if it is.'
"Inuyasha," she murmured, opening her eyes slightly.
He blinked, her voice snapping him out of the spell they had been weaving. "Kagome?" He asked, pulling his hand away. A slight blush stained his cheeks.
She smiled slightly, her eyes taking on a dreamy quality as she looked down at her hands. "That's all I ever wanted for you Inuyasha...Don't you remember? All I wanted, was your happiness..."
Kagome stopped, her smile fading as she looked once more to the night. She stared at the
God-Tree, hoping that it would offer the answers she lacked. But it offered her nothing, not anymore anyway.
Her gaze returned to Inuyasha, again. "Here, I'll show you." She stood, grabbing the hanyou's hand, before he could protest she dragged him outside. They stood before the tree, their gazes traveling upward as they marveled at its beauty.
"It was easy to bury my grief knowing that at least the two of you were together, and happy... Finally. Even though I was alone I took comfort in knowing that at least my friends were alright...But then one day, after grandpa had died, I was out here sweeping, and fixing up a few things. Keeping myself busy, when I noticed something different about the tree..."
She dragged him around to the back of the tree, pointing down at the base of the trunk. A small weather worn carving was barely visible, and below it was a small wooden marker. To an onlooker it wouldn't be anything of importance; but to someone who had looked at the tree every day for practically their entire life, it would be very significant. The letters were very worn, but as Inuyasha gazed down at them with his excellent eyesight, he knew instantly what it said:
/I will join you soon my beloved wife, Kikyo. /
Inuyasha gasped, he turned to Kagome. Her tears traveled down her face in small silver rivers, reflected by the moon. He felt his own tears prickling the backs of his eyes.
"She...she...died?" He gasped in disbelief.
Kagome nodded slowly. "Yes, the two of you must have only had a couple of years together before...I'm so sorry Inuyasha..."
He gaped at her, how could this be?
"I wondered how she died… but...."
Things weren't supposed to happen this way, once he chose Kikyo things would be good, they would live into their old age together, have children, grandchildren...
Kagome would have gone off and ... and...
He had never even thought about that. All along he had planned on choosing Kikyo, and either going to hell with her when their journey was over, or wishing on the jewel for her life. But he had never thought of Kagome.
Had he just assumed that she would wait around for him? Wishing for Kikyo's life on the jewel could have killed her, yet Kagome wished for it anyway. She didn't even stop for a moment to think of herself. She always did the right thing, no matter what. Even if it meant sacrificing herself. But instead it had stolen everything from her. Everyone she had ever loved had either died, or abandoned her; she didn't get to live out any of her dreams. So in a way, it had done just that.
This was all his fault wasn't it? But he just didn't know how…
"And you thought that I would come back for you then, didn't you?" He asked quietly, his voice barely above a whisper.
She looked down at their hands, still interlocked, more tears escaped as she sighed. "I don't know what I thought Inuyasha. But I missed you, and I ached for you. I wanted to comfort you.... But you never...and I…I couldn't..."
His face turned cold as he stared at the carving. 'I chose wrong, didn't I?'
Why was Kagome all-alone? She was the type of person who needed to be surrounded by loved ones at all times. She needed friends and family in order to thrive.
"Were you ever married Kagome?" His voice was still quiet, still barely there. But she heard him, her heart ached again as she fought her jumbled thoughts for the answer.
Should she lie to ease his pain? Or tell the truth to ease her own?
She couldn't lie to him, not to Inuyasha, besides she hated liars.
"No," I never wanted anyone else. "Not even a boyfriend. I didn't really have time."
Liar.
"Boy-friend?" He asked looking slightly confused.
"Um...it's a boy who's your friend, but he's sort of more like a betrothed. But you don't have to marry him if you don't want to."
"Oh, uh, hmm..." He grunted and turned back to the tree. "What about that Hobo guy? The one you were always talking about?"
She opened her mouth to correct him, but laughed instead. "His name is Hojo, Inuyasha."
"Keh, whatever."
She laughed again, and covered her mouth, chuckling slightly into her palm. He was starting to sound like his old self again!
"Well, what about him?" Inuyasha asked, even though it pained him to do so. He didn't want that Hojo guy anywhere near Kagome. He was almost as bad as Kouga...oh yeah...Kouga...whatever happened to him?
"I started to get home schooled after I came back. I couldn't concentrate there. I kept thinking you came back for me and I missed it or something. Besides I just couldn't relate to all the other kids, or the stuff that was happening to them. I just didn't fit in anymore..." She frowned. "Hojo came around for awhile, but then he just stopped, and so did all my friends. I went out shopping one day and saw him eating ice cream with Yuka. So I guess they got together instead..." She sighed as the wind picked up slightly. Tossing the loose tendrils of hair about her face.
Inuyasha resisted the urge to reach up and undo the bun at the base of her neck. He was dying to see all that beautiful ebony hair whipping about in the wind like it used to.
"There was no one else Kagome? I mean how old are you again? You didn't go out and get one those boy-friends after that?"
'If she says yes, I'm going to have to hunt that jerk down, whoever he is, and kill him.'
"Nah, I was busy. I had to take care of the shrine, pass high school, and look for my little
brother," 'and I did it all alone. By myself, with no one's help.' She smiled slightly, but it
didn't reach her eyes.
'I chose the wrong one,' he thought again as he listened to her talk about how crappy her life had been. He chose Kikyo, for what? She died not even a year after they gave her life! Kagome had her life, but she wasn't really living it. She was still stuck back in feudal Japan; she was still that fifteen-year-old schoolgirl even if she refused to admit it.
"You were alone this whole time, weren't you?" He had gone quiet again.
Kagome stared at him for a moment. "No, not this whole time. Sota came back about four years ago...they had already had two children by then...I-"
They both flinched at the sound of car doors closing. "They're back..." She said quietly.
Inuyasha looked down at Kagome, "Yeah, so...what do we do now? You think the kid remembers me?"
She smiled up at him slightly, "Yeah, maybe..."
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a/n: sorry if it's boring, took me awhile to write this even if it doesnt show it. i couldnt
resist the Hojo joke. hehe, i know it's over done. but it still makes me laugh anyway.