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Murmuring softly in her sleep, her body stiffened as her dreams changed…

She sat out by the lake, knees bent and arms wrapped about herself. Two years, it had been two years since her mother had passed away and it still hurt like hell. She'd wanted to return home for the day, but her father and sister had sent a reply back, telling her to stay in school… that she wasn't needed or wanted at home. After all, it was her fault her mother died. Her fault her mother had been so sick all these years. Her fault there wasn't anything more the doctors could do for her. Her fault… her fault… everything was her fault.


"Evans?" a voice asked uncertainly. "Are you okay?"


"I'm fine," she said, her voice wavering. She wasn't at all surprised he was here.

"You don't sound fine," he said, sitting down beside her. "If you don't mind, I'll just sit here with you. Keep you company."


Lily turned her head the other way, wiping at a stray tear. "I 'm not very good company right now James."


"That's okay. A little quiet never hurt anyone."


They sat there for the next thirty minutes or more, not saying a word to one another. Just sitting there, staring out across the moonlit lake. Watching as the giant squid would lazily raise a tentacle from the water, bringing it down heavily , sending waves crashing towards the lakes edge.

"They were right you know. It was all my fault," she breathed, her eyes still upon the lake.

James turned his head to look at Lily in confusion. "What was?"


"That she died…" she replied, shuddering as the words left her mouth. "I should have been there, but I wasn't. She never wanted me to go away to school. She wanted me to go to school back home, but I wouldn't listen. I had to have things my way. She said it was okay, that it didn't really matter, but I knew she was hurting. I knew… but I still went anyway. And then she died…" Lily's voice trailed off into a soft murmur, he had to strain to hear.


"I don't-- who Lily?"


Looking at him this time, her eyes glittering in the moonlight from the tears that were threatening to fall again, she whispered, "My mother."


Before she knew it James had stood. Grasping her lightly by the arms, he pulled her trembling form upwards to stand before him. Lifting her chin in his hand he wiped at the tears that were now falling unimpeded. "Lily… it wasn't your fault. You can't blame yourself for something you had no control over."


"Don't!" she muttered. Pushing his hand away she frowned up at him. "How do you know that James? " she questioned. "You don't know how she died. You don't know her. You don't even know me."


"I know you a lot better then you think Lily. We may not exactly get along with each other, but I do know enough to know that whatever it was that caused your mothers death, it was nothing to do with you!" he insisted.


Lily stared up at him, her eyes filled with frustration and pain. Sighing deeply she looked down at the ground, her voice coming out in a breathy whisper. "I just… I never got to tell her I loved her. That I was sorry I went away. I'm sorry I wasn't there for her… I'm sorry."

Not knowing what he could say to make the pain go away but just hoping that his presence would be enough, he took a step forward, pulled her into his arms and held her. "I'm here Lily. I'm here," he murmured.


Laying her head upon his shoulder, she wrapped her arms about his waist and sobbed, letting out all the pain and hurt she'd held in since the death of her mother. "I miss her James… I miss her so much."

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A/N Hi LuvAsInfinity, thanks for reading! =D In answer to your questions, you'll find out very soon.

I know that was short, I'm not much of a lengthy chapter writer, but I wanted this dream to be on its own.