Author's Note: I can't believe it, it's now my 5th chapter… So, just want to tell yah that it's like the past chapters that I have written, too much repeating of words and everything… I really don't know how to avoid them, coz if I do I may end up deleting all the things I have written… so long, I have nothing more to say, again enjoy and review… thanx! …ice-cube08…
~DREAMS OF REALITY~
…Ice-cube08…
Until now I could still remember the past…
Even if I'm here at the present
but maybe no future to hold…
I know I've done too much damage,
I've done her wrong,
treat her like a rug,
treat her like mud.
The only mud which changed me…
Changed me to the person I never thought was me…
Changed me to what I should be,
What I never would be
but had used to be, and just hid it in myself…
Because of you…
Because of the love you showed…
It made a great difference in me,
Opened a new world,
A new world I never thought would open
Especially for me…
I can still recall her saying…
"You're forgiven,
You're long been forgiven."
I thanked her with all my heart…
"No, saying sorry is enough, Draco…
I never expected that you would have the guts to say sorry…"
I can still remember her exact words…
It may be plain and short
but it put some color in the dark side of my life,
It broke the wall of hatred that my stupid pride had built,
It softened my heart made of stone,
It gave warmth to my cold and icy life,
And most of all
It gave love,
Love that is ever so forgiving,
Ever so loyal,
But ever so wounding…
Why should all of us feel love?
Why do we need such kind of thing,
when all it can bring is pain, heartache and tears?
Why can't we love without sacrificing?
Why do we need to live, just live with love?
Why can't we live without love although we know
love is the reason we die afterall…
the reason we die inside…
but the reason we live again, and still try to continue…
Why can't we stop loving and caring
even if we know that we will just end up dejected?
Why do we become blind when we fall in love
and never saw the bad side of it?
Why do I need to feel all of this while loving her?
Why do I need to suffer,
When all that I really needed was her…
Her love…
But I just end up getting hurt…
…ice-cube08… Phew! That was it, the 5th chapter of my story. Hope you liked it! Well I'm trying my best to keep it simple and not too fluffy but it's no good… I'm really sorry… I just wanna hear from you so try to review… ~XIV~