Chapter five: Wounds Beneath The Skin
*****************~ In a dark common room at Hogwarts ~*****************
He rolled over on his side. Everything was in pain his hands glided over his bare chest to his abdomen where he felt a warm sticky substance out from under his skin. He clasped his hand tightly to his wound trying desperately to stop the bleeding. He rolled over on his stomach and pushed himself up. 'Why does this keep happening to me?' he knew he couldn't go to madam Pomfrey she'd think he was trying to commit suicide again. Which he wasn't... was he?
****************************~ Mean while ~*****************************
I tossed and turned head filling with pain. I could hear the seagulls caw over head. The distant sound of waves crashing into one another. Someone was baking cookies. You could smell the hot cookie dough baking to perfection in the oven. The room was warm air had escaped I must not be far from the kitchen. I could hear her walking back and forth in anticipation. The boards squeaked lightly under her feet as she walked. The room was warm and cool at the same time there was a faint smell of the ocean and an earthy wholeness smell not at all unfamiliar. I was comforted by a reassuring hand on mine. I opened my eyes to darkness that slowly faded into bright splotches that got brighter and bigger by the seconds that floated by like the breeze. I could now see blurry shapes filled with color it was making me dizzy so I closed my eyes again. And opened them slowly. Everything started to focus. My sight wasn't what it normally was seeing a distance would have to come with time, as all good things must. I however knew by the interior of my room that I was home. 'Poehadkaeh'. Nor was sitting by my side rubbing my hand.
"Hi sleeping beauty" his voice was soft and affectionate. My best friend and big brother.
"Hey" my voice was crackling under the stress
"Shu... sleep drink this it'll help you sleep"
I sat up just enough to be able to sip it. Then suddenly my responsibilities flooded my memory "Wait Chris and my da I mean Severus. They need to know where I'm at."
"Don't worry drink ... I already told your dad about everything. He said that you should be brought back when you're stable, and he's visiting tomorrow with my nephew"
"How long have I been here?"
He smiled wasn't that like me everything else before myself. "Days now drink" he laughed gaily at my interrogation. What a worried parent I've become over the years. It's amazing how war can change someone. I sipped it before passing out it didn't take much.
**************************~ Back at Hogwarts ~*************************
He had made it to the bathroom across the hall from the boys' dorm. Pictures were rustling about in their slumber. He fell upon a sink looking his elbows so he wouldn't fall. Everything was spinning. He retreated to a cold wall with his washcloth, bandage and ointment. I took the washcloth and wiped up the blood trying to find the source. The source was a gash as long as his hand is wide. There was no stopping the bleeding and he needed help this could kill him. He could bleed to death. Panic swept over him. He could die right here and they could find his body just lying here tomorrow dead. The bleeding had stopped for now. The rubbed the ointment in it hurt like hell but it was quick and wouldn't leave a scar visible to anybody but him. Oh how much he longed to figure to figure out why this kept happening and why must he suffer so. He was tense and grinding his teeth trying not to scream as he felt his insides burn and finally cool. A chill swept over him as he wrapped a bandage around himself and grabbed the bottle. 'Why?... What is the cause of such pain?'
'Are you sure you want to know.' Hissed a sly voice from behind him. He quickly turned around. Nothing was there. 'You might not like what you here.' It sounded as if it was right behind him so he turned around nothing. 'Or see' he turned yet again, nothing.
'Yes, yes please tell me, show me please!' he pleaded with he voice that came from nowhere.
'Then put these on and follow the fire' suddenly a pair of shades and leather jacket and blue button up shirt flung themselves at him. He caught them and put them on. A blasé suddenly appeared on a far wall. 'Go follow the fire and you will know all to well who you are and what you will become'
He felt as if he no longer controlled his own body. He tried to move away only to be met with pain. He followed the fire down a dark tunnel that suddenly opened. He found himself in a room far under Hogwarts. A room that does not exist but does, and in this room things that will not happen do. In this room he stayed for days watching all he had done and not known. He changed in that room for the better, and for the worst. He made a choice in that room many will never have to. He made a decision for himself and his child. The voice left him there in that room alone without any one or anything else. Finally he realized the voice was never coming back and he started searching for an escape route. He must survive not just for himself but his family.
**********************~ At Poehadkaeh days later ~*********************
I started moving around trying to get comfy everything hurt but I had to get up and move around even if it killed me. I rolled over ignoring the pain. Everything came into focus. I sat up blood rushing from my head everything got black. I started to feel light headed so I sat there a while till it all got clear again then I tried to stand. At first it felt like I was walking on sharp daggers pricing my feet. I looked down expecting to see blood surrounding me. I lost my balance and fell backwards. I tried to get back up. It hurt so bad and it was hard trying to keep my balance. I finally stood up after being defeated several times and headed out to get some food. Every step was meet with a stabbing pain. At first I would scream under my breath but now I wince every so often. I made it out of my room and into the kitchen before everything got black again I stopped dead in my tracks I wasn't close to anything to hold on to. I though about yelling to someone but no there already worried. Then a memory hit me when I was pregnant with Chris Juan told me no matter what I should always scream if I started to go through a black out someone would always be there. Even after I had him he'd tell me. It was getting bad now I felt really dizzy. "JUAN" I screamed I hope he's here "JUAN" please somebody help I don't want out pass out here. Then I heard somebody come in I motioned franticly for them to come closer. "Come here." They grabbed my arm and placed their hands around me.
"What's wrong sweetie" it was Margie
"Black out, don't worry I'll be fine I just don't want to fall here."
"Are you gonna fall?" she sounded worried I took her hand in mine and tried to steady myself
"No I don't think so" my eyes finally started to focus. I saw we were alone. "I'm okay" I dropped her hands she was pale. "you okay?"
"Yeah sure you just really scared me that's all"
"Oh I'm sorry didn't mean to its just Juan always said scream for help during a black out. You know so I don't faint or fall."
"It's okay. You should." She tried to smile but it was fake something was wrong I knew it.
I sat on the bar. "You okay"
"What"
"What's wrong"
"Nothing" she looked away
"Margie don't bullshit me I know something's wrong no tell me what it is" I jumped of the bar my legs buckled under me.
"I'm not suppose to tell you Nor will. He'll be back soon so why don't you sit down you hungry?"
"No. Not really"
"Okay I fix you something"
She started getting out food and before I knew it she had a sandwich ready for me to eat. I sat down at the table. And started eating. She sat down across from me and watched. "come on now what's wrong you can tell me"
"No I cant" she looked away that's when we heard Nor come in and some one else. They walked in it was my dad. Nor looked at me shocked to see me up.
"What are you doing up"
"Nothing I had to walk around a little an I got hungry"
"So what's up, or are yall not going to tell me." I glared at him and crossed my arms.
He looked down it was something bad. I stood up really fast and lost my balance but I grabbed on to the chair "what's wrong tell me now"
"Sit down." I did as told. "Juan was the one who beeped us he was on the sight when it all started I detected the cause of why everything was whipped out there was an explosion and he was caught up with it. However he was killed before the explosion but a gun or some other type of blast." He stopped that's it he's dead
"He's dead." I said calmly. Tears flooded my eyed. I couldn't hold them back, I just let them fall. I got up Nor grabbed me and tried to put his arms around me but I pushed away and walked into my bedroom, our bedroom and shut the door and flung myself on the bed and cried myself to sleep. A little while later he came in to check on me I was still crying only I had moved to the floor
"Jade"
"Go away please"
"Will you be okay"
"Yeah"
"Okay if you want to talk you know where to find me" I heard him shut the door. I only cried harder I will never be okay again a peace of my heart and soul has been ripped from me and I will never be the same ever.
*****************~ In a dark common room at Hogwarts ~*****************
He rolled over on his side. Everything was in pain his hands glided over his bare chest to his abdomen where he felt a warm sticky substance out from under his skin. He clasped his hand tightly to his wound trying desperately to stop the bleeding. He rolled over on his stomach and pushed himself up. 'Why does this keep happening to me?' he knew he couldn't go to madam Pomfrey she'd think he was trying to commit suicide again. Which he wasn't... was he?
****************************~ Mean while ~*****************************
I tossed and turned head filling with pain. I could hear the seagulls caw over head. The distant sound of waves crashing into one another. Someone was baking cookies. You could smell the hot cookie dough baking to perfection in the oven. The room was warm air had escaped I must not be far from the kitchen. I could hear her walking back and forth in anticipation. The boards squeaked lightly under her feet as she walked. The room was warm and cool at the same time there was a faint smell of the ocean and an earthy wholeness smell not at all unfamiliar. I was comforted by a reassuring hand on mine. I opened my eyes to darkness that slowly faded into bright splotches that got brighter and bigger by the seconds that floated by like the breeze. I could now see blurry shapes filled with color it was making me dizzy so I closed my eyes again. And opened them slowly. Everything started to focus. My sight wasn't what it normally was seeing a distance would have to come with time, as all good things must. I however knew by the interior of my room that I was home. 'Poehadkaeh'. Nor was sitting by my side rubbing my hand.
"Hi sleeping beauty" his voice was soft and affectionate. My best friend and big brother.
"Hey" my voice was crackling under the stress
"Shu... sleep drink this it'll help you sleep"
I sat up just enough to be able to sip it. Then suddenly my responsibilities flooded my memory "Wait Chris and my da I mean Severus. They need to know where I'm at."
"Don't worry drink ... I already told your dad about everything. He said that you should be brought back when you're stable, and he's visiting tomorrow with my nephew"
"How long have I been here?"
He smiled wasn't that like me everything else before myself. "Days now drink" he laughed gaily at my interrogation. What a worried parent I've become over the years. It's amazing how war can change someone. I sipped it before passing out it didn't take much.
**************************~ Back at Hogwarts ~*************************
He had made it to the bathroom across the hall from the boys' dorm. Pictures were rustling about in their slumber. He fell upon a sink looking his elbows so he wouldn't fall. Everything was spinning. He retreated to a cold wall with his washcloth, bandage and ointment. I took the washcloth and wiped up the blood trying to find the source. The source was a gash as long as his hand is wide. There was no stopping the bleeding and he needed help this could kill him. He could bleed to death. Panic swept over him. He could die right here and they could find his body just lying here tomorrow dead. The bleeding had stopped for now. The rubbed the ointment in it hurt like hell but it was quick and wouldn't leave a scar visible to anybody but him. Oh how much he longed to figure to figure out why this kept happening and why must he suffer so. He was tense and grinding his teeth trying not to scream as he felt his insides burn and finally cool. A chill swept over him as he wrapped a bandage around himself and grabbed the bottle. 'Why?... What is the cause of such pain?'
'Are you sure you want to know.' Hissed a sly voice from behind him. He quickly turned around. Nothing was there. 'You might not like what you here.' It sounded as if it was right behind him so he turned around nothing. 'Or see' he turned yet again, nothing.
'Yes, yes please tell me, show me please!' he pleaded with he voice that came from nowhere.
'Then put these on and follow the fire' suddenly a pair of shades and leather jacket and blue button up shirt flung themselves at him. He caught them and put them on. A blasé suddenly appeared on a far wall. 'Go follow the fire and you will know all to well who you are and what you will become'
He felt as if he no longer controlled his own body. He tried to move away only to be met with pain. He followed the fire down a dark tunnel that suddenly opened. He found himself in a room far under Hogwarts. A room that does not exist but does, and in this room things that will not happen do. In this room he stayed for days watching all he had done and not known. He changed in that room for the better, and for the worst. He made a choice in that room many will never have to. He made a decision for himself and his child. The voice left him there in that room alone without any one or anything else. Finally he realized the voice was never coming back and he started searching for an escape route. He must survive not just for himself but his family.
**********************~ At Poehadkaeh days later ~*********************
I started moving around trying to get comfy everything hurt but I had to get up and move around even if it killed me. I rolled over ignoring the pain. Everything came into focus. I sat up blood rushing from my head everything got black. I started to feel light headed so I sat there a while till it all got clear again then I tried to stand. At first it felt like I was walking on sharp daggers pricing my feet. I looked down expecting to see blood surrounding me. I lost my balance and fell backwards. I tried to get back up. It hurt so bad and it was hard trying to keep my balance. I finally stood up after being defeated several times and headed out to get some food. Every step was meet with a stabbing pain. At first I would scream under my breath but now I wince every so often. I made it out of my room and into the kitchen before everything got black again I stopped dead in my tracks I wasn't close to anything to hold on to. I though about yelling to someone but no there already worried. Then a memory hit me when I was pregnant with Chris Juan told me no matter what I should always scream if I started to go through a black out someone would always be there. Even after I had him he'd tell me. It was getting bad now I felt really dizzy. "JUAN" I screamed I hope he's here "JUAN" please somebody help I don't want out pass out here. Then I heard somebody come in I motioned franticly for them to come closer. "Come here." They grabbed my arm and placed their hands around me.
"What's wrong sweetie" it was Margie
"Black out, don't worry I'll be fine I just don't want to fall here."
"Are you gonna fall?" she sounded worried I took her hand in mine and tried to steady myself
"No I don't think so" my eyes finally started to focus. I saw we were alone. "I'm okay" I dropped her hands she was pale. "you okay?"
"Yeah sure you just really scared me that's all"
"Oh I'm sorry didn't mean to its just Juan always said scream for help during a black out. You know so I don't faint or fall."
"It's okay. You should." She tried to smile but it was fake something was wrong I knew it.
I sat on the bar. "You okay"
"What"
"What's wrong"
"Nothing" she looked away
"Margie don't bullshit me I know something's wrong no tell me what it is" I jumped of the bar my legs buckled under me.
"I'm not suppose to tell you Nor will. He'll be back soon so why don't you sit down you hungry?"
"No. Not really"
"Okay I fix you something"
She started getting out food and before I knew it she had a sandwich ready for me to eat. I sat down at the table. And started eating. She sat down across from me and watched. "come on now what's wrong you can tell me"
"No I cant" she looked away that's when we heard Nor come in and some one else. They walked in it was my dad. Nor looked at me shocked to see me up.
"What are you doing up"
"Nothing I had to walk around a little an I got hungry"
"So what's up, or are yall not going to tell me." I glared at him and crossed my arms.
He looked down it was something bad. I stood up really fast and lost my balance but I grabbed on to the chair "what's wrong tell me now"
"Sit down." I did as told. "Juan was the one who beeped us he was on the sight when it all started I detected the cause of why everything was whipped out there was an explosion and he was caught up with it. However he was killed before the explosion but a gun or some other type of blast." He stopped that's it he's dead
"He's dead." I said calmly. Tears flooded my eyed. I couldn't hold them back, I just let them fall. I got up Nor grabbed me and tried to put his arms around me but I pushed away and walked into my bedroom, our bedroom and shut the door and flung myself on the bed and cried myself to sleep. A little while later he came in to check on me I was still crying only I had moved to the floor
"Jade"
"Go away please"
"Will you be okay"
"Yeah"
"Okay if you want to talk you know where to find me" I heard him shut the door. I only cried harder I will never be okay again a peace of my heart and soul has been ripped from me and I will never be the same ever.