Usual w &d

"Wow, I can't believe it. They taped my announcement and are playing it on all the channels." Shuichi sighed as his eyes drifted down to the pile in front of him. "Great that means I should have at least another four bags tomorrow. Why did I open my big mouth. Leave it to K to turn this into a circus. Circus not a bad idea. Maybe I can get them to let that be one of my dates. Sakuma-san would be so much fun at the circus."

Great now I'm talking to my self out loud. I guess it's a good thing I live alone. Otherwise someone would have locked me up by now. Shuichi slumped back into the cushions of the couch. Glaring at the TV he stuck his tongue out. I will have fun even if it kills me. It just might. Really a hundred cups of tea in two weeks. I might explode.

Knock. Knock.

I wonder who it could be no one's come to see me in two whole days? If it's K with more bags I'm going to kill myself. I still have a bag and a half left from the last load.

"Who is it?"

"Me." a familiar voice answered.

"I'm afraid the party you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please try back at a later time."

"Shuichi. You aren't on the phone. Open the door." Yuki sighed.

"What are you doing here?" Shuichi peeked out the door. "How did you find me anyway?"

"Ayaka called me a fool and then gave my sister the address. She also called you a fool. Just not as big a one as me."

"Would you like to come in?" Shuichi asked as he opened the door wider. "I just made a fresh pot of tea."

"I wouldn't have come over if I didn't want to come in and talk to you." Yuki placed his arm to block Shuichi's retreat. "I've missed you. Have you missed me. Tell me what's wrong. Why did you just leave without a word of warning?"

Shuichi ducked under the outstretched arm and headed for the kitchen. "Shut the door please. Nothing is wrong."

"Nothing? Then why can't you look me in the eye?"

Shuichi turned back to face the man who had been the center of his world for what seemed like forever. Looked him directly in the eye and as coldly as he could said, "Nothing is wrong. I just matured enough to realize I need more and deserve more than you will… can give me. I need more than good sex and the occasional meal. If all I am is a convenience I'll never be happy. I hope you find someone more suited to your position . Maybe this time you'll find someone who doesn't embarrass and annoy you."

Yuki flinched under the weight of the stare. It was like looking in a mirror. He didn't like seeing himself reflected in the usually carefree youth's eyes. Damn I hurt him this much. He's never looked at me like this before.

"Actually I don't really think we have anything to talk about. Maybe it would be better if you just left." Shuichi turned to usher the tall blonde back to the door.

"Wait. Shuichi. You have to tell me what I did. I never meant to hurt you."

I can't look back. I've never heard him sound so lost. I won't break down. I mustn't let him know how weak I am. I just want him to hold me a tell me everything will be all right. Damn I think I'm going to cry. Why did he have to come.

"Shuichi, please." Yuki grabbed him from behind and pulled him into his arms. "How can I make it right if you won't tell me where it went wrong? I want everything to be alright between us. Please."

Yuki said please to me he's never done that except to say please go away or please stop doing that. Damn. Damn why is he doing this to me.

Yuki slowly turned Shuichi around and lifted his chin so there eyes would meet. He sighed in relief when he saw the tears Shuichi was fighting to hold back. He lowered his head until there lips met. Sweet. So warm and sweet. I've been so cold without this. I need him. I think I might need him more than he needs me.

When the kiss ended Shuichi fell back against the wall. "Damn you. Why do you keep doing this to me? I can't take it anymore. Please just leave me alone."

"But.."

"It's time for you to leave." Shuichi said as he shoved Yuki out the door. "I don't want you to come back here again."

Shuichi slammed the door and locked it. He reached up to wipe away the stream of tears. That could have went better. Now he knows how much I still love him.

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"He hates me." Yuki said to his sister. "He told me to never come to his apartment again. When he looked into my eyes it was like he was a different person. He was so cold. I thought I had broken through when he started to cry, but he tossed me out of his place like I was a bothersome animal."

"He doesn't hate you. Shu-chan is incapable of hate." Mika sighed as she watched her brother toss down drink after drink. "Maybe you should slow down on that stuff. You are to big for me to have to carry you home."

"I just want to get as drunk as I possibly can so I can forget how sad he looked."

"If he looked sad he must still love you."

"I don't think so I killed his love. He said he hoped I'd find someone less embarrassing and less annoying. I don't want someone else. I want to be annoyed and embarrassed. I just want him to come home where he belongs."

"I never thought I'd see you in this state. You usually are the one telling me not to drink so much. I've never seen you so upset. I'm glad it makes you more human." Mika sighed and reached for her phone. "Drink as much as you want let me take care of everything. Honey. I'm at the bar with Eiri can you come and get us. He's so drunk I'll never get him in the car by myself. Besides we have to talk I need your help."

"Don't worry it's not illegal or immoral. It's just a little underhanded." Mika smiled as she hung up on her husband. "That should bring him running."

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I hope you are all still enjoying. I certainly am enjoying writing it. I'll try to write more soon.