He could feel it.......
He was slowly sinking into darkness
He was tired, god so tired
He could let go and say goodbye to life, it would be so easy, too just never wake
Leave behind all the pain, every person who had ever laughed, pointed, or cowered in fear at the sight of him
How had this happened
How had he gotten into this state?
He couldn't remember anything but the black
Not when it was so cold
When had it gotten so cold.........?
Oh well, he thought, better than reality
That was before the pain
It took all of his strength not to scream and scream until his screams and the silence blended too one sound in his ears
But he couldn't.........
If He screamed he would never get out of this ................
Blackness
He had to fight it
Through the pain and the cold he though he remembered something
A hope for a better tomorrow...............
It seemed like only a distant memory
Cascading black Hair, a soft smell, the gentle caress of some ones gray eyes, the same color as a stormy sky.............
The pain increased
He couldn't take it anymore
He opened his mouth to scream............
He woke up, as he had every night that week, shivering
He wiped away the blood that dripped down his chin where he had bit through his lower lip yet again
In his attempts not to scream
He looked at his hands
Where blood dripped sluggishly from 5 deep crescent shaped gashes
His fingers were stiff from gripping the flesh of his hands in such tight fists
If he could have seen himself through another's eyes
He would not have recognized himself
Haunted violet eyes searched the ground
As he rubbed his lips
Tinged blue from a mix of the cold
And the fact that sometime during his dream he had stopped breathing
That was no dream, he though to himself, that was death itself
As his eyes locked onto the object of his search
He grabbed it and yanked up his sleeve
The one useful invention from kagome's time
The Exacto Knife
He searched his arm for any empty spot
He cursed
His skin, once pale and perfect, was covered almost completely with deep ragged cuts
And Black and Blue bruises
He'd Have to start on his other arm
He raggedly began cutting deep marks into his arm
As the blood dripped down he couldn't help but wonder
How much longer will I live kagome?
How long can I keep suffering before I cant take it anymore
He smiled wryly
How much longer until you relize that I am dieing
That you wont be able to save me a second time
My soul is fighting against my body in a battle I cannot win
I want to scream
For what................? I don't know
Mercy
Redemption
A savior
Nothing can save me now
Nothing but you...............
Hey everybody what did ya think???!?!?! ^________^ kinda depressing yeah? And it only gets worse but don't worry this is defiantly an IK fic, very dark, but I would never kill off inuyasha!!!!!! I love him wayyyyyy to much, but if you review you'll ginf out in the next chapter kagomes percspective on whats happening to inuyasha, and the the fisrt part in the vents that lead up to this......and don't worry my next chappie IF YOU REVIEW will be longer!!! Later ^_^
He was slowly sinking into darkness
He was tired, god so tired
He could let go and say goodbye to life, it would be so easy, too just never wake
Leave behind all the pain, every person who had ever laughed, pointed, or cowered in fear at the sight of him
How had this happened
How had he gotten into this state?
He couldn't remember anything but the black
Not when it was so cold
When had it gotten so cold.........?
Oh well, he thought, better than reality
That was before the pain
It took all of his strength not to scream and scream until his screams and the silence blended too one sound in his ears
But he couldn't.........
If He screamed he would never get out of this ................
Blackness
He had to fight it
Through the pain and the cold he though he remembered something
A hope for a better tomorrow...............
It seemed like only a distant memory
Cascading black Hair, a soft smell, the gentle caress of some ones gray eyes, the same color as a stormy sky.............
The pain increased
He couldn't take it anymore
He opened his mouth to scream............
He woke up, as he had every night that week, shivering
He wiped away the blood that dripped down his chin where he had bit through his lower lip yet again
In his attempts not to scream
He looked at his hands
Where blood dripped sluggishly from 5 deep crescent shaped gashes
His fingers were stiff from gripping the flesh of his hands in such tight fists
If he could have seen himself through another's eyes
He would not have recognized himself
Haunted violet eyes searched the ground
As he rubbed his lips
Tinged blue from a mix of the cold
And the fact that sometime during his dream he had stopped breathing
That was no dream, he though to himself, that was death itself
As his eyes locked onto the object of his search
He grabbed it and yanked up his sleeve
The one useful invention from kagome's time
The Exacto Knife
He searched his arm for any empty spot
He cursed
His skin, once pale and perfect, was covered almost completely with deep ragged cuts
And Black and Blue bruises
He'd Have to start on his other arm
He raggedly began cutting deep marks into his arm
As the blood dripped down he couldn't help but wonder
How much longer will I live kagome?
How long can I keep suffering before I cant take it anymore
He smiled wryly
How much longer until you relize that I am dieing
That you wont be able to save me a second time
My soul is fighting against my body in a battle I cannot win
I want to scream
For what................? I don't know
Mercy
Redemption
A savior
Nothing can save me now
Nothing but you...............
Hey everybody what did ya think???!?!?! ^________^ kinda depressing yeah? And it only gets worse but don't worry this is defiantly an IK fic, very dark, but I would never kill off inuyasha!!!!!! I love him wayyyyyy to much, but if you review you'll ginf out in the next chapter kagomes percspective on whats happening to inuyasha, and the the fisrt part in the vents that lead up to this......and don't worry my next chappie IF YOU REVIEW will be longer!!! Later ^_^