Becoming a Man
By Felicia aka curlycutie
For Maddie affectionately known as Maddz to me
~*~*~*~
"Get out of here!"
"You're no longer part of this family!"
"I only have one son!"
The medley of insults and hurtful words keep swirling around in, sixteen year old, Sirius Black's mind as he flew quickly through the air into the night.
'Hard to figure if it's the words pounding my head or just my eye throbbing,' Sirius thought as he grimaced and faced into the wind.
He was used to this treatment but it was the first time he could say he'd been beaten up and didn't fight back. His mother had cursed him and he'd slammed into a wall or two.
'God could this get any worse?' Sirius thought, just then a flash of lightning shone in the distance.
"I just had to say it!" Sirius cried out loud into the wind.
//Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain//
Then getting more worked up he kept yelling back at the storm.
"I'm sixteen years old I've been kicked out of my home for no reason. It's raining, I can't see out of one eye, and I'm attempting to make it to my best friend's home and even then I don't know if I can stay there, bloody hell I wouldn't wish this on anyone not even Snape! I can't handle this I'm just a kid!"
//Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time//
His throat hoarse from yelling Sirius decided he'd go on as far as he could towards Godric's Hollow, if he couldn't last longer then he'd just drop and look anywhere for shelter.
'This has got to be the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with, forget keeping girl's name's straight, homework, or even Remus' condition. This has to be the star winner out of all of them', Sirius mused as he hunched forward more pulling his cloak tighter around himself.
"Remember boy what ever doesn't kill you makes you stronger," the words of Sirius' father went though his head immediately after contemplating his hardships.
'Easy for him to say, he wasn't kick out of his house by his own family, that's got to be the lowest thing ever,' Sirius scowled.
//As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man//
Sirius was getting a lot of thinking done while soaring in the air, being pelted with rain.
But with his thinking came feelings of spite and bitterness towards his family.
He could imagine them for being the cause of the rain, it wasn't enough they couldn't have him in their home they wanted him to suffer outside of it as well.
Sirius thought of all the times something hadn't gone according to his parents' plan. Such as being sorted in to Gryffindor, a long letter and howler had arrived for him, the day that his parents were informed of their son's placement. They accused him of doing it on purpose, that he'd asked to be in Gryffindor and that he should go to Dumbledore right away and demand to be switched to Slytherin. Of course Sirius didn't want to do that, which was another mistake he made to upset his parents.
//Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame//
This sibling rivalry in the Black home was unimaginable. Sirius and his brother Regulus were always at odds. When Sirius was younger his father had taken his side more, but after the Gryffindor Problem, as it was known, his father pushed him aside too.
Sirius' mother had always favored Regulus over Sirius. She declared it at least twice a day that he looked so much like her late father, who'd died before either Sirius or Regulus were born. However Mrs. Black wasn't shy about telling stories of how her father spoiled her to bits and how she adored him. The sappy saga continued from Mrs. Black to her son Regulus.
Sirius was his father's favorite, but his father was usually busy with official business that he had no time to dote upon his other son to compensate for the lack of Mrs. Black's caring.
Sirius never thought of his home life as miserable not even around other pureblood family situations, which seemed less stable than his. It wasn't until Hogwarts that everything changed.
He made friends who, by caring, taught Sirius about real comradely, family and love. Among his new found friends was James Potter, who became the brother he felt he should have always had. James was there for a laugh or an ear to listen to a problem.
'And what a problem I have right now,' Sirius thought as he waited for his wand that he charmed to point out the direction.
//Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain//
"Thank God!" Sirius exclaimed as his wand pointed at a steep diagonal, indicating he was practically on top of the Potter's home.
Sirius threw all his weight forward as he sped like a bullet towards stately looking house.
By Felicia aka curlycutie
For Maddie affectionately known as Maddz to me
~*~*~*~
"Get out of here!"
"You're no longer part of this family!"
"I only have one son!"
The medley of insults and hurtful words keep swirling around in, sixteen year old, Sirius Black's mind as he flew quickly through the air into the night.
'Hard to figure if it's the words pounding my head or just my eye throbbing,' Sirius thought as he grimaced and faced into the wind.
He was used to this treatment but it was the first time he could say he'd been beaten up and didn't fight back. His mother had cursed him and he'd slammed into a wall or two.
'God could this get any worse?' Sirius thought, just then a flash of lightning shone in the distance.
"I just had to say it!" Sirius cried out loud into the wind.
//Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain//
Then getting more worked up he kept yelling back at the storm.
"I'm sixteen years old I've been kicked out of my home for no reason. It's raining, I can't see out of one eye, and I'm attempting to make it to my best friend's home and even then I don't know if I can stay there, bloody hell I wouldn't wish this on anyone not even Snape! I can't handle this I'm just a kid!"
//Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time//
His throat hoarse from yelling Sirius decided he'd go on as far as he could towards Godric's Hollow, if he couldn't last longer then he'd just drop and look anywhere for shelter.
'This has got to be the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with, forget keeping girl's name's straight, homework, or even Remus' condition. This has to be the star winner out of all of them', Sirius mused as he hunched forward more pulling his cloak tighter around himself.
"Remember boy what ever doesn't kill you makes you stronger," the words of Sirius' father went though his head immediately after contemplating his hardships.
'Easy for him to say, he wasn't kick out of his house by his own family, that's got to be the lowest thing ever,' Sirius scowled.
//As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man//
Sirius was getting a lot of thinking done while soaring in the air, being pelted with rain.
But with his thinking came feelings of spite and bitterness towards his family.
He could imagine them for being the cause of the rain, it wasn't enough they couldn't have him in their home they wanted him to suffer outside of it as well.
Sirius thought of all the times something hadn't gone according to his parents' plan. Such as being sorted in to Gryffindor, a long letter and howler had arrived for him, the day that his parents were informed of their son's placement. They accused him of doing it on purpose, that he'd asked to be in Gryffindor and that he should go to Dumbledore right away and demand to be switched to Slytherin. Of course Sirius didn't want to do that, which was another mistake he made to upset his parents.
//Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame//
This sibling rivalry in the Black home was unimaginable. Sirius and his brother Regulus were always at odds. When Sirius was younger his father had taken his side more, but after the Gryffindor Problem, as it was known, his father pushed him aside too.
Sirius' mother had always favored Regulus over Sirius. She declared it at least twice a day that he looked so much like her late father, who'd died before either Sirius or Regulus were born. However Mrs. Black wasn't shy about telling stories of how her father spoiled her to bits and how she adored him. The sappy saga continued from Mrs. Black to her son Regulus.
Sirius was his father's favorite, but his father was usually busy with official business that he had no time to dote upon his other son to compensate for the lack of Mrs. Black's caring.
Sirius never thought of his home life as miserable not even around other pureblood family situations, which seemed less stable than his. It wasn't until Hogwarts that everything changed.
He made friends who, by caring, taught Sirius about real comradely, family and love. Among his new found friends was James Potter, who became the brother he felt he should have always had. James was there for a laugh or an ear to listen to a problem.
'And what a problem I have right now,' Sirius thought as he waited for his wand that he charmed to point out the direction.
//Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain//
"Thank God!" Sirius exclaimed as his wand pointed at a steep diagonal, indicating he was practically on top of the Potter's home.
Sirius threw all his weight forward as he sped like a bullet towards stately looking house.