5-3-04

Alias: *waves from keyboard* Yeah, I got another one shot while attempting to write more of JQ. No worries, it's being worked on. I also got a new job so that's one less worry. ^_^ 

Sanzo: Took you long enough to write it. *glowers at her* Are you done with introductions yet?

Alias: Ah yes..i had the random weird, what the HELL moment when Sanzo-sama here decided to talk to me. *shrugs and grins*  Needless to say, it was interesting to do. Since he's not talkative as a rule. Enjoy it and keep in mind, I'm still working, just got a few projects on the go—including gearing up for Anime Central in a matter of weeks.

Sanzo:  *brains her with the harisen.* Urusai! Get on with it already! -_-x  

Alias: OWCH! Okay okay! Here ya go everyone!

Warnings: PGish for minor talk of sex and adult themes.

Disclaimers: All Gensomaden Saiyuki characters are owned by Minekura-sensei and not me, or I'd not be in university, ne?

Description: Shounen-ai overtones, various pairings, and a lot of bitching from Sanzo-sama in 1st POV. Continuing  the Not Enough story arc. 

Selfish

By AliasOfWestgate

 Why the hell should I care what he does with his time? Or who he pants over? Not as if you can miss him moping over Hakkai, when he's not in public. Sometimes even then he does. You'd think a playboy like him would have gotten over stupid, selfish little things like this long ago. But no…he has to go on, as if he's pining away for something he'll never get.

He's so damned selfish! He bitches about a lack of vices.  Which is just about anything, that can be used for self destruction.  He out drinks me, smokes two packs a day and then tries to beg more cigarettes off of me. I don't want to bother thinking about the woman chasing, either.   I have my vices, but I'm not ruled by them. Gods what an idiot!

 He got attached to his best friend. That's his mistake. That's why he's moping around so. Hakkai has told me why he denies him this, and why it won't be resolved any time soon. Even the smiling driver's reasons are incredibly selfish too. They both are a great pair for that. Why can't they solve this on their own? Why do I have to be the one stuck in the middle of this lousy timing to realize that they are actually attached? Why should it matter! Why the hell should I bother thinking about it, or try to solve it.

They already are attached at the hip as it is, even without this stupid thing brought to a head. Yeah I ended up in bed with the kappa a few times, for my own reasons, which I never bothered to clarify. As if that sex maniac needed clarification. I wanted something; I took it. He was willing. Even then he was selfish, wanting more after we finished. I just wish he'd solve this thing with Hakkai and get it over with. As if I'd have any advice for those two morons anyway, I'm the wrong person to ask it from as it is. So why the hell are they asking me anyway?   They can do what they want for all I care, but don't let it interfere with the mission. Just leave me out of it.

If they have to be like this, they should get it over with and leave me the hell out of it all. It's a weakness to get like this over someone. I'll never do that again myself. Why should I care about them, when I have lost what was most precious to me? They'll lose each other some day and they both know it. None of us are immortal, except for maybe Goku. He selfishly worries about losing me, why does he have to latch onto me of all people?

Lovely bunch of idiots we are.  

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Owari ^_~

Thanks for reading, and don't hurt me! It's my first Sanzo POV! Harder than hell to write. ^_^;; Many thanks to Pervasive Threnody for being my patient beta reader as I agonized over this short work.

Ja ne,

Alias