Well here's the next chapter. If I feel like it then I'll put chapter 6 up too. Thanks to everyone who reviewed. Especially for saying that you like the songs that I choose. Thank you! This chapter is more directed towards Ryan and Marissa. So read! Oh and by the way the song that I used in my last chapter was Ronan Keating's 'When you say nothing at all' Ok! I just forgot to mention that
Marissa woke up in a bed of tissues. She looked around blearily and jumped when the phone rang. Sighing she stood up but sat down quickly when her head started throbbing. Rubbing her head she reached for the phone and closed her eyes.
" Ugh. Hello?"
"Marissa it's dad"
"Oh"
"Yeah. I was working late last night and I fell asleep. I'm not coming home for breakfast and I thought you should know. In case you got worried"
Marissa nodded not even paying attention to what her dad was saying.
"Marissa?"
Marissa remembered that he couldn't see her.
"Yep"
"Honey are you ok?"
Marissa nodded again.
"Yep"
"Alright. It's Saturday. Maybe you and Summer are going shopping today?"
"I have to study"
"Oh. Well ok. I'll see you when I get back ok?"
"Yep"
The phone went dead and Marissa slumped down on her bed and groaned. She probably looked like hell right now. Rolling over she dialled Summer's number and winced when she heard the rings. Disappointed that she didn't answer, Marissa dialled Seth's number, thinking that if Summer wasn't at home then she would be at Seth's.
"Hello?"
Marissa swallowed. Of course Ryan would answer the phone. He lived there.
"Hello? Anyone there?"
"Um yeah. It's Marissa"
"Oh" Why was Marissa calling here? Did she want to talk to him? He looked at the phone nervously.
"Is everything ok?"
"Yeah. Uh How are you?"
Ryan was relieved. Nothing serious.
"Good. I'm good. You?"
"Yeah" She paused. Had he seen her run out of the library yesterday?
"So uh did you get all that homework done?"
"Well you know me and maths aren't friends so no not really"
"Yeah Mr Harmon kind of overdid the homework"
"He always does"
Ryan nodded and then there it was.
The awkward pause.
"So uh you sure everything's ok?"
Was this his way of finding out if she was crying over him?
Marissa nodded.
"Yeah. Totally" This wasn't a subject she wanted to talk about now. And not to him.
"Um I was just wondering if Summer was there? At your place?"
"No. Actually Seth stayed the night at her place because she wasn't feeling well.
"She's not feeling well?"
"Yeah I think there's something going around"
"So is that why you weren't at school?"
So she noticed?
"Yeah. It was a stomach bug. I think"
"Oh. Are you feeling better?"
"Yeah. Yeah. Everything's fine now"
"Ok good. Um so ok. I'll try Summer's cell"
"Ok um. If you need anything…"
"I'll be fine thanks"
"OK. Bye"
"Yeah"
Ryan hung up and let out the breath he didn't even know he'd been holding.
"Bye," Marissa whispered, tears once more filling her eyes. Catching her reflection in the mirror Marissa stared. What the hell had she become? Her eyes stood out like two blue pools amongst the paleness that was her skin. Her nose was red and her lips were pale.
"If only my mom could see me now," Marissa muttered sardonically as she slumped face down onto her bed trying to ease her nausea. Marissa ran to the bathroom as another wave of queasiness washed over her. Vomiting into the toilet, Marissa held her hair back and then reached over to flush. Resting her head against the cool porcelain she felt as if she didn't even have the strength to cry anymore.
"I want my mom"
The words were whispered but meant. She closed her eyes and listened to the soft swirling of the water and wished she could she could be fish and swim away from all the troubles in her life.
Blue
I'm getting kinda close to you
Like a shadow I can't lose
Hey
You've been hanging with me everyday
Now you're getting in my way
I know you understand me
But don't you think that maybe
It's time to move on
What's up lonely?
Seems you're my only friend
Who wants to share my pain
Tell me heartache
What's it gonna take
For you to leave me alone today
Just when I think that you're gone
You're in the mirror looking back at me
So what's up lonely?
Sometimes
I wish you weren't by my side
Can't you find another shoulder
Cause I
I wanna leave this broken heart behind
We're both wastin too much time
Find someone else to rain on
I'm really getting tired of singing this sad song
What's up lonely?
Seems you're my only friend
Who wants to share my pain
Tell me heartache
What's it gonna take
For you to leave me alone today
Just when I think that you're gone
You're in the mirror looking back at me
So what's up lonely?
Don't wanna give you a reason
To hang around anymore
You won't be hurting my feelings
If you find another broken heart
You can lean on
What's up lonely?
Seems you're my only friend
Who wants to share my pain
Tell me heartache
What's it gonna take
For you to leave me alone today
Just when I think that you're gone
You're in the mirror looking back at me
So what's up lonely?
Just leave me alone
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Ryan stared at the phone after he hung up. She sounded really sick. Should he go over there? Walking out of the pool house he walked into the kitchen and was surprised to hear voices in the living room. A quick glance showed him that Seth was in there with Summer and Kirsten. Ryan was confused. Why was Kirsten talking to both of them? He was still trying to work it out when Sandy walked into the kitchen.
"Morning"
"Morning," Ryan replied, his eyes still on the scene in the living room.
Sandy took some juice and put it on the counter and noticed that Ryan wasn't even watching him.
"Watcha looking at?"
Ryan shook his head.
"I don't know"
Sandy nodded and they both stood watching the scene in front of them.
"I'll find out," Sandy assured Ryan and then went on with preparing his breakfast.
Ryan nodded and then hesitantly asked, "Do you think I could borrow the car for a few hours?"
Sandy looked up then nodded.
"I don't see why not. We should talk about getting you your own car"
"Uh no. No it's ok. Really. I'll bring the car back soon ok?"
"Yeah sure. Where are you going?"
"Um just around. Gotta pick up some stuff"
"Ok"
"Great. Thanks," Ryan grabbed the keys and ran out the back door, careful not to disturb Kirsten, Seth and Summer.
Starting the car Ryan carefully reversed down the driveway and sped off in the direction of Marissa's house.
Got to make a little room for me to breathe
Got a feeling that you're about to pull me in too deep
The more I try to walk away
The harder it gets to believe that I don't need you
You got a hold on me
There's no escaping baby
Got to find the release
Why do I feel do weak
When you are near me
You got me in too deep
So help me baby
You're living in my dreams
You're always with me
You're the dark in my light
You're the black in my white
And I'll always know
You got me where you want me
And that's it! Review!