Chapter 1: Before This

By: Princess Sango

Sure I remember before Naraku. Everything was peaceful. I was just starting to train; my first mission was also my last... I could see everything, the sluaghters, the guards, and my sister's cry...

I'm trying to heal really I am. Sango cries everytime she sees me. Her friends look over me as if I'm a prisoner, and also distrustful. Pity is all over their faces; I can't stay out of Naraku's grasps for long. All I know is that I hope to be freed soon.

Once I remember Kagome, when we were together... She had hugged me and told me I'd be freed one day. I'm still waiting for that day. I sometimes lose hope, other times I pray that they'll come get me.

They know that I can't control it. I'm sure Naraku has manipulated Sango's dreams also, he uses my memory. The one in the flower field, when we talked before the mission, also when we sparred. Every single one of the dreams Naraku turns into a bloddy end.

I remain quiet as I let my memories overcome me. There're too many that tears flow down my cheeks. I wipe them away hastily, knowing Naraku would laugh at me. I'm his puppet...his tool against Sango.

As Kagura comes to get me, she looks concerned. "Master Naraku wishes to see you. Come with me." I follow her like a puppet, they must never know about the new memories.

When Kagura stopped and Naraku ordered me to enter; I pushed my feelings aside. "Yes Master Naraku?" Naraku said nothing. Instead Naraku came up towards me, and put his hand over my head. I shivered as he withdrew his large hand.

Then I felt that freedom, like he lifted the spell. "Go now, find Sango, and kill her."

I shivered as I walked out. Finding her was easy. Also for once I was able to talk to her. I warned her of Naraku's plans. She only nodded her head and embraced me. "Kohaku, I love you We'll come get you as soon as possible. Until then I'm just happy I'm able to talk to you." I felt the throb on my back and pushed her away.

Sango looked fearful and ran. Naraku egged me on to follow her. I wouldn't dare. I knew I'd get a beating later from Kagura, but she was careful. Naraku never knew the difference anyway.

I suffered more than he thought. Then Kagura came and picked me up. She yelled at me, called me names. Though I know she cares, more than Naraku anyway. Before she stopped , she turned and tole me to forget everything. I just nodded solemnly as we walked inside the castle. I turned back into a puppet and went into my room.

My memories disappeared as I went to sleep. If only my dreams would come true...

TBC...