I want to get this chapter up for you, because I think it answers a few
questions that you might be wondering right now, but also adds a few more
to the list you have already come up with, so I'm posting it. I hope you
enjoy it!
[2]
I stand to the back of the church with my daughter's hand safely tucked in mine, and watch as she weds another. In my dreams I had always thought it would be her and I, but this is where leaving will get you.
All of my friends sit here, and watch my one true love become Mrs. Sydney Addison as if none of them has a care in the world, as if it wasn't the love of my life up there marrying another man other than me.
And I don't know exactly what I'm still doing there, Briana tugging impatiently on my hand and mumbling about the ice cream I had promised to get her if she let me come here.
"Bri!" I whisper, "We'll leave in a few minutes." She quiets down, and looks anxiously around, trying to figure out where she is, what is happening, and why she is there.
Well, this town has closed down way too early
And there's nothing to do
So I'm driving around in circles
And I'm thinking about you
Today I heard you got a new last name
Sure didn't know it was gonna hit me this way
And the radio just keeps on playing all these songs about rain
Now there's all kind of songs about babies and love that goes right
But for some unknown reason nobody wants to play them tonight
Hey, I hope it's sunny wherever you are
But that's sure not the picture tonight in my car
And it sure ain't easing my pain all these songs like
It's raining outside, and that's omen enough for me to believe that Sydney should end this marriage, call it off, and come to her senses, but for some reason, I get the feeling she won't be calling it off anytime soon.
The way she looks at this man, this man who took my position, is the look that used to only be reserved for me, they were mine and mine alone, and something tells me this man is the only recipient of those looks now.
I pull Briana farther into the shadows forming in the back of the church, I don't need her or I seen, it may have been eight years, and I might have a few gray hairs, but everyone I used to know will still be able to recognize me, easily.
"Daddy, what's going on?" Briana asks quietly.
"Bri, can you be quiet for daddy, please?"
She nods and stands so she is hidden behind me, a wistful smile spreading across my face as I hear Sydney's voice, but my eyes turning cold when I hear what it is she's saying.
"Seth, you came into my life at a time where I was self-destructing: getting drunk every night, taking unneeded risks, blowing off work simply because I didn't feel like going in, but, like an angel you swooped in and saved me from myself, made me believe in true love again, made me believe in myself and someone else again, made me trust my instincts again. You made me forget that I have been burned by someone who supposedly loved me before, and you made me fall madly in love with you. You are the epitome of my guardian angel."
Rainy Night In Georgia and Kentucky Rain
Here Comes That Rainy Day Feeling Again
Blue Eyes Crying In the early morning Rain
They go on and on
And there's no two the same
Tears sting my eyes as her words take there full affect on me. 'You made me forget that I have been burned by someone who supposedly loved me before...' That had been bad enough, but to hear her call him her guardian angel took the cake. I am her guardian angel; she has always called me that, it was my nickname, not his.
Briana looks at me with puppy dog eyes, tears on the brim of falling out of her eyes too. "Daddy, please don't cry! If you cry, then I'll start crying."
I have to be strong for my daughter, she doesn't need to see me this way; so defeated and broken and lonely.
"I'm okay Bri," I sniff. It had been a long time since I cried, "I'm okay."
Oh, it would be easy to blame all these songs about rain
Well, I thought I was over you but I guess maybe I'm not
'Cause when I let you go looks like lonely is all that I got
Guess I'll never know what could have been
Sure ain't helping this mood that I'm in
If their gonna keep playing all these songs about rain
My tears just well up again when I hear that man, Seth, profess his undying love to my Sydney. "Syd, I can never tell you truly how much I love you...you changed my life in so many ways when I first met you, and I've been lucky to get to know you in every way a man can possibly know the woman he loves and is going to marry. And I can see only happiness in our future; I can't wait until I can call you Mrs. Addison; until I can call you my wife for the rest of our lives."
And I think I'm going to be sick...
Picking Briana up, I all but run us out of the door, tears streaming rapidly down my cheeks, and it's almost as if we weren't there, except for the vows I heard between the love of my life, and another man.
The invitation falls on the sidewalk somewhere along my escape route, looking at it makes me tremble with rage, and I need to get away from there quickly.
My car is just down the block, and I scramble to it, helping Briana get strapped in, before running around to the other side quickly, trying to evade the pouring rain.
Someway down the road, Briana's piercing eyes turn towards me. "Daddy?" she asks, "Where are we going?"
"I don't know sweetheart, I was just thinking about the same thing."
"Can we just go home? I don't like it here."
"Actually Bri...we're going to stop in at a friend of mine's house, and if that doesn't work out, then we'll go back home."
She nods slightly, "I miss mommy!"
"Me too sweetheart, but remember, we already talked about this, she's not coming home, she's..."
"...up in the sky with Grandpa and all the angels, and she's watching over us all the time, she's our very own guardian angel."
"Yes Bri, she'd be very proud of you for being such a big girl for the last few weeks, I'm proud of you...now go to sleep, and when we get to where I told you about, I'll wake you up."
Her blonde head nods as she squeezes her eyes shut tightly, and instantly drifts off to sleep, leaving me alone one again.
We invite you to come share
in the joy on May 4, 2003 at 7pm
when we wed Sydney Anne Bristow
and Seth Christopher Addison in
front of their family and friends at
St. Joseph's Church.
~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&
Please don't worry, more of your questions will be answered soon!
Lyrics from "Songs About Rain" by Gary Allan
[2]
I stand to the back of the church with my daughter's hand safely tucked in mine, and watch as she weds another. In my dreams I had always thought it would be her and I, but this is where leaving will get you.
All of my friends sit here, and watch my one true love become Mrs. Sydney Addison as if none of them has a care in the world, as if it wasn't the love of my life up there marrying another man other than me.
And I don't know exactly what I'm still doing there, Briana tugging impatiently on my hand and mumbling about the ice cream I had promised to get her if she let me come here.
"Bri!" I whisper, "We'll leave in a few minutes." She quiets down, and looks anxiously around, trying to figure out where she is, what is happening, and why she is there.
Well, this town has closed down way too early
And there's nothing to do
So I'm driving around in circles
And I'm thinking about you
Today I heard you got a new last name
Sure didn't know it was gonna hit me this way
And the radio just keeps on playing all these songs about rain
Now there's all kind of songs about babies and love that goes right
But for some unknown reason nobody wants to play them tonight
Hey, I hope it's sunny wherever you are
But that's sure not the picture tonight in my car
And it sure ain't easing my pain all these songs like
It's raining outside, and that's omen enough for me to believe that Sydney should end this marriage, call it off, and come to her senses, but for some reason, I get the feeling she won't be calling it off anytime soon.
The way she looks at this man, this man who took my position, is the look that used to only be reserved for me, they were mine and mine alone, and something tells me this man is the only recipient of those looks now.
I pull Briana farther into the shadows forming in the back of the church, I don't need her or I seen, it may have been eight years, and I might have a few gray hairs, but everyone I used to know will still be able to recognize me, easily.
"Daddy, what's going on?" Briana asks quietly.
"Bri, can you be quiet for daddy, please?"
She nods and stands so she is hidden behind me, a wistful smile spreading across my face as I hear Sydney's voice, but my eyes turning cold when I hear what it is she's saying.
"Seth, you came into my life at a time where I was self-destructing: getting drunk every night, taking unneeded risks, blowing off work simply because I didn't feel like going in, but, like an angel you swooped in and saved me from myself, made me believe in true love again, made me believe in myself and someone else again, made me trust my instincts again. You made me forget that I have been burned by someone who supposedly loved me before, and you made me fall madly in love with you. You are the epitome of my guardian angel."
Rainy Night In Georgia and Kentucky Rain
Here Comes That Rainy Day Feeling Again
Blue Eyes Crying In the early morning Rain
They go on and on
And there's no two the same
Tears sting my eyes as her words take there full affect on me. 'You made me forget that I have been burned by someone who supposedly loved me before...' That had been bad enough, but to hear her call him her guardian angel took the cake. I am her guardian angel; she has always called me that, it was my nickname, not his.
Briana looks at me with puppy dog eyes, tears on the brim of falling out of her eyes too. "Daddy, please don't cry! If you cry, then I'll start crying."
I have to be strong for my daughter, she doesn't need to see me this way; so defeated and broken and lonely.
"I'm okay Bri," I sniff. It had been a long time since I cried, "I'm okay."
Oh, it would be easy to blame all these songs about rain
Well, I thought I was over you but I guess maybe I'm not
'Cause when I let you go looks like lonely is all that I got
Guess I'll never know what could have been
Sure ain't helping this mood that I'm in
If their gonna keep playing all these songs about rain
My tears just well up again when I hear that man, Seth, profess his undying love to my Sydney. "Syd, I can never tell you truly how much I love you...you changed my life in so many ways when I first met you, and I've been lucky to get to know you in every way a man can possibly know the woman he loves and is going to marry. And I can see only happiness in our future; I can't wait until I can call you Mrs. Addison; until I can call you my wife for the rest of our lives."
And I think I'm going to be sick...
Picking Briana up, I all but run us out of the door, tears streaming rapidly down my cheeks, and it's almost as if we weren't there, except for the vows I heard between the love of my life, and another man.
The invitation falls on the sidewalk somewhere along my escape route, looking at it makes me tremble with rage, and I need to get away from there quickly.
My car is just down the block, and I scramble to it, helping Briana get strapped in, before running around to the other side quickly, trying to evade the pouring rain.
Someway down the road, Briana's piercing eyes turn towards me. "Daddy?" she asks, "Where are we going?"
"I don't know sweetheart, I was just thinking about the same thing."
"Can we just go home? I don't like it here."
"Actually Bri...we're going to stop in at a friend of mine's house, and if that doesn't work out, then we'll go back home."
She nods slightly, "I miss mommy!"
"Me too sweetheart, but remember, we already talked about this, she's not coming home, she's..."
"...up in the sky with Grandpa and all the angels, and she's watching over us all the time, she's our very own guardian angel."
"Yes Bri, she'd be very proud of you for being such a big girl for the last few weeks, I'm proud of you...now go to sleep, and when we get to where I told you about, I'll wake you up."
Her blonde head nods as she squeezes her eyes shut tightly, and instantly drifts off to sleep, leaving me alone one again.
We invite you to come share
in the joy on May 4, 2003 at 7pm
when we wed Sydney Anne Bristow
and Seth Christopher Addison in
front of their family and friends at
St. Joseph's Church.
~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&~&
Please don't worry, more of your questions will be answered soon!
Lyrics from "Songs About Rain" by Gary Allan