"RENEGADE"
A/N: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE REVIEWS. KEEP EM COMIN, YOU GUYS ARE GREAT! I THINK THIS MIGHT BE THE CHAPTER YOU GUYS ARE WAITING FOR.
Disclaimer: Sad to say, I don't own Sirius Black. If I did, I would not have killed off the closest thing Harry had to a father because he's been through enough bullshit already in his life!
Random Thoughts: These are just like my little bit of inspiration or humor that I put at the beginning of every chapter I write. I don't know why, I just like to do it. They aren't meant to fit with the chapter or anything.
This chapter's random thought: "Fear can hold you prisoner; hope can set you free." ~The Shawshank Redemption (Another movie a lot like PoA. Or as I always say, "The Azkaban Redemption!" Siriusly, if you guys love Sirius as much as I do, you gotta see or read The Count of Monte Cristo and Shawshank Redemption. They're both awesome movies and books! "The Count of Monte Cristo" is by Alexandre Dumas and "Rita Hayworth and the Shawshank Redemption" is a novella from "Different Seasons" by Stephen King. "Different Seasons" also has the novella "The Body" which is what my favorite movie in the whole world is based on, STAND BY ME!!!!)
Chapter 7 - You Can't Handle The Truth!
Raven woke up early the next morning and couldn't go back to sleep. She decided to go buy some catfood and take it over to Sirius'. She hadn't been in his house and she thought this would be a good way of getting herself invited! She bought the catfood and made her way up Sirius' porch. The door was shut and locked.
Raven knocked. "Sirius? I brought you a present!"
"One second!" he called.
"I don't have one second, this is heavy!" she teased, leaning the catfood against the wall of the house.
Raven heard him shuffling towards the door. She heard a click and the door opened to reveal Sirius Black standing at the door with a mouthful of toothpaste wearing only a pair of jeans. Raven tried not to blush. She bit her bottom lip and looked at the ground.
"C'mon in, I'll be right back," he said with his toothbrush halfway out of his mouth. He turned and went down the hall and into the bathroom.
With a shirtless Sirius out of sight, Raven's senses came back to her. "So, do you ever get completely dressed during the day, or do you just put on clothes to come over to my house?"
"So, wha'd you bring me?" he yelled from the bathroom.
Raven wasn't sure if he had purposefully ignored her comment or just couldn't hear her from the bathroom. She rose her voice slightly. "Um...cat food," she brought the bag inside the door. "For our little kitty. Where is she?" Raven's eyes darted around the room. 'A bit messy,' she thought, 'but then again, he did just move in a few weeks ago.'
"Uh, she's still sleeping on the couch, I think," he yelled back.
Raven made her way over to the couch and sat down next to the sleeping cat. "Wha'd you name her?"
"Well, I thought we should decide together," he said, moving now to his bedroom to put on a shirt. "What do you think of Lily?"
"Lily?..." Raven thought for a minute. "Yeah, that's cute. Lily, it is." She stroked the cat as she resorted to baby talk. "Hi, Lily! Are you hungry, baby?"
She fell silent as she noticed a long wooden stick sitting on the table next to the couch. She suddenly stood up as he came in the room and instinctively lunched for the wand, grabbing it and pointing it at him.
Sirius froze and stared at her, brows furrowed. He put up his hands and said, soothingly, "Raven, what are you doing? Give me that. You don't know what it can do."
"I don't?" she asked, raising her eyebrow at him and smirking dangerously. "Incarcerous!"
Sirius' eyes widened with shock as thick ropes erupted from his wand and wound themselves around his body tightly. "You're a witch?! I thought you were a muggle!"
"And you did a pretty good job of convincing me you were a muggle!" her eyes bore into him as she kept his wand pointed straight at his heart. "God, how could I have been so stupid? I trusted you!"
"Raven, It's not what you think! I can explain everything!"
"So what are you? A Death Eater sent to spy on me?" she took a few steps towards him, her mouth very thin.
"What? You honestly have no idea who I am, do you?"
"I think I'm about to find out if you want to keep your arms!" she gave the wand a little flick and the ropes around Sirius' abdomen tightened slightly.
Sirius flinched and gave her a pleading look. "Do you think you could lose the ropes? They're really digging into me."
Raven saw red marks forming around where the ropes were cutting into his arms. She gave the wand a wave and they dropped to the floor. She continued to point the wand at him. "Sit down and don't even think about moving or I'm going to hex you."
Sirius obeyed. He sat down and looked up at her.
"Well?" she said, waving her other hand in the air for him to start explaining.
"If you had read the Daily Prophet the past few months you'd know exactly who Sirius Black is. He's the only wizard to ever escape Azkaban prison--"
Raven gasped. "I knew it! You just admitted it! You're a Death Eater! You were in Azkaban!"
Sirius gritted his teeth. "I'm NOT a Death Eater! Everyone thought I was! If you want to hear the whole story, stop interrupting me!"
Raven fell silent.
"I was sent to Azkaban for blowing apart a street full of muggles and one wizard, Peter Pettigrew, my best friend...Have you even heard of Harry Potter?"
"Of course I have! I just haven't heard much in a long time because I told Josh only to tell me things about Voldemort, and there hasn't been much."
"And that's a good thing...right?" asked Sirius, suspiciously. 'I wonder if she's a Death Eater or something," he thought.
Raven spoke through clenched teeth. "I'm asking the questions! Keep going!" She pointed her wand at him.
"Alright! Harry's my godson."
"What?"
"I was best friends with Lily and James Potter. I was their secret keeper because Voldemort was after them and Harry."
Raven put up a hand to silence him. It was all coming back to her. She had heard about it all those years ago. Black betrayed the Potter's to Voldemort and then Voldemort went to kill them. A knot formed in her stomach as she remembered the cat still purring contentedly between them. "Oh my god! Lily? You name your cats after your victims? How sick and demented are you?"
Sirius decided he was going about this the wrong way. He'd better just tell her everything all at once. "I'm innocent! I never betrayed James and Lily! They were my best friends! I would have died for them, that's why I agreed to be their secret keeper at first! But then I thought that would be too obvious. I convinced them to switch secret keepers at the last minute. I thought no one would suspect Peter because he was...well, a wimp...compared to the rest of us, anyway. But it was the stupidest thing I've ever done in my life. Peter was in league with Voldemort and he betrayed them. James and I had agreed that it would be better not to tell anyone about my switch with Peter, so everyone thought it was me. After I found out James and Lily had been killed, I knew the truth, so I went to find Peter and turn him in. He saw me coming and blew apart the entire street, transforming into a rat and leaving behind his own finger as evidence that I had killed him. I was framed by my own best friend. They didn't even give me a fair trial. They put me straight in Azkaban, assuming I was a Death Eater."
Raven was staring at him intently with her mouth open. Her head was spinning. "This makes no sense. I-- How do you expect me to believe a story you had twelve years in Azkaban to come up with?"
Sirius' face fell. "I guess I don't." He put his head in his hands and closed his eyes. "You can call the Ministry if you like. I won't put up a fight. I only escaped so I could protect Harry from that *thing* and turn him in, but it's no use now. I have no idea where he is."
"What *thing?*"
"Peter. He's an animagus. He cut off his own finger when we were in the street and then transformed, disappearing into the gutter.
He'd been living with a wizard family as their pet rat while I was in Azkaban. When I got out, I headed straight for Hogwarts because I saw a picture of him with the Weasley family in an issue of the Daily Prophet that Fudge gave me. I found Peter, but the only people to see him alive were three thirteen year old kids and werewolf who just happens to be my best friend."
Raven opened her mouth to ask about the werewolf best friend, but decided against it. She shook her head. "There isn't any reason I should believe you."
"Have I tried to hurt you? You've only known me for a short time, but I know you don't think I'm a killer. I'm not a Death Eater and I'm not here for you. I don't even know what you're talking about, alright? And I'm not gonna ask. I don't know why, but I just need for you to believe me," pleaded Sirius.
Raven looked sadly at Sirius. "I..." Raven was struck with a sudden idea. "Legilimency, you ready?" She raised his wand.
Sirius jumped as she pointed the wand at him again. "You know how?"
"Yeah. Josh taught me," she said as though this was the most obvious thing in the world.
"O...kay...how do I do it? No one's ever..."
"Just let me into your mind. Don't fight me. Concentrate."
"...Alright..." He shifted uncomfortably on the couch as she sat next to him.
"Legilimens!" she yelled as she pointed the wand at him. She could suddenly see inside his mind. Random memories of his started to enter her mind. First she saw a boy about thirteen years old with a scar on his head waving out a window at Hogwarts. That was Harry. Next she saw Sirius and another man eating cereal at a kitchen table. She pushed further and saw the shadow of a man morphing into a werewolf. Then she saw a small, mousy looking man point his wand at Sirius and say a spell. Then he transformed into a rat. Three kids, one of them was Harry, the man from the kitchen and Sirius were pointing their wands at the mousy looking man. She watched as a group of wizards surrounded Sirius sitting in a chair. One of them pointed a wand at him and Sirius' body went rigid. His eyes rolled up into his head and his body writhed as he yelped in terrible pain. Raven jumped and pushed the memories away. The room came back into focus. She was breathing heavily.
Sirius grabbed her hands, as Raven reflexively jerked them upward, and looked into her eyes. "What did you see?"
He was sitting only an inch from her. She looked into his eyes, a tear running down her cheek, and let out a sob. "They...they were...torturing you?"
Comprehension dawned on Sirius' face. "For me to give them names of other Death Eaters. They thought I was one, remember?"
Raven looked at Sirius compassionately as another tear ran down her cheek. Sirius wiped it away with his thumb and searched her face for an answer.
"I believe you," she said finally.
A/N: WOW, THAT WAS A HARD CHAPTER TO WRITE. I'M NOT GOOD AT DESCRIBING THINGS, AS YOU CAN PROBABLY TELL, LOL. YOU'LL FIND OUT ABOUT RAVEN, SOON, I PROMISE. HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER. PLEASE REVIEW! BY THE WAY, CHECK OUT MY NEW FIC, TEMPTING FORTUNE. I WANTED TO TRY AN AU FIC (IT'S SET IN THE LATE 1800'S), BUT I THINK IT'S PRETTY GOOD SO FAR. ANYWAY, IT HAS ALL THE MARAUDERS IN IT AND MRS. BLACK AND RAVEN IF YOU LIKE THAT SORT OF THING.
A/N: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE REVIEWS. KEEP EM COMIN, YOU GUYS ARE GREAT! I THINK THIS MIGHT BE THE CHAPTER YOU GUYS ARE WAITING FOR.
Disclaimer: Sad to say, I don't own Sirius Black. If I did, I would not have killed off the closest thing Harry had to a father because he's been through enough bullshit already in his life!
Random Thoughts: These are just like my little bit of inspiration or humor that I put at the beginning of every chapter I write. I don't know why, I just like to do it. They aren't meant to fit with the chapter or anything.
This chapter's random thought: "Fear can hold you prisoner; hope can set you free." ~The Shawshank Redemption (Another movie a lot like PoA. Or as I always say, "The Azkaban Redemption!" Siriusly, if you guys love Sirius as much as I do, you gotta see or read The Count of Monte Cristo and Shawshank Redemption. They're both awesome movies and books! "The Count of Monte Cristo" is by Alexandre Dumas and "Rita Hayworth and the Shawshank Redemption" is a novella from "Different Seasons" by Stephen King. "Different Seasons" also has the novella "The Body" which is what my favorite movie in the whole world is based on, STAND BY ME!!!!)
Chapter 7 - You Can't Handle The Truth!
Raven woke up early the next morning and couldn't go back to sleep. She decided to go buy some catfood and take it over to Sirius'. She hadn't been in his house and she thought this would be a good way of getting herself invited! She bought the catfood and made her way up Sirius' porch. The door was shut and locked.
Raven knocked. "Sirius? I brought you a present!"
"One second!" he called.
"I don't have one second, this is heavy!" she teased, leaning the catfood against the wall of the house.
Raven heard him shuffling towards the door. She heard a click and the door opened to reveal Sirius Black standing at the door with a mouthful of toothpaste wearing only a pair of jeans. Raven tried not to blush. She bit her bottom lip and looked at the ground.
"C'mon in, I'll be right back," he said with his toothbrush halfway out of his mouth. He turned and went down the hall and into the bathroom.
With a shirtless Sirius out of sight, Raven's senses came back to her. "So, do you ever get completely dressed during the day, or do you just put on clothes to come over to my house?"
"So, wha'd you bring me?" he yelled from the bathroom.
Raven wasn't sure if he had purposefully ignored her comment or just couldn't hear her from the bathroom. She rose her voice slightly. "Um...cat food," she brought the bag inside the door. "For our little kitty. Where is she?" Raven's eyes darted around the room. 'A bit messy,' she thought, 'but then again, he did just move in a few weeks ago.'
"Uh, she's still sleeping on the couch, I think," he yelled back.
Raven made her way over to the couch and sat down next to the sleeping cat. "Wha'd you name her?"
"Well, I thought we should decide together," he said, moving now to his bedroom to put on a shirt. "What do you think of Lily?"
"Lily?..." Raven thought for a minute. "Yeah, that's cute. Lily, it is." She stroked the cat as she resorted to baby talk. "Hi, Lily! Are you hungry, baby?"
She fell silent as she noticed a long wooden stick sitting on the table next to the couch. She suddenly stood up as he came in the room and instinctively lunched for the wand, grabbing it and pointing it at him.
Sirius froze and stared at her, brows furrowed. He put up his hands and said, soothingly, "Raven, what are you doing? Give me that. You don't know what it can do."
"I don't?" she asked, raising her eyebrow at him and smirking dangerously. "Incarcerous!"
Sirius' eyes widened with shock as thick ropes erupted from his wand and wound themselves around his body tightly. "You're a witch?! I thought you were a muggle!"
"And you did a pretty good job of convincing me you were a muggle!" her eyes bore into him as she kept his wand pointed straight at his heart. "God, how could I have been so stupid? I trusted you!"
"Raven, It's not what you think! I can explain everything!"
"So what are you? A Death Eater sent to spy on me?" she took a few steps towards him, her mouth very thin.
"What? You honestly have no idea who I am, do you?"
"I think I'm about to find out if you want to keep your arms!" she gave the wand a little flick and the ropes around Sirius' abdomen tightened slightly.
Sirius flinched and gave her a pleading look. "Do you think you could lose the ropes? They're really digging into me."
Raven saw red marks forming around where the ropes were cutting into his arms. She gave the wand a wave and they dropped to the floor. She continued to point the wand at him. "Sit down and don't even think about moving or I'm going to hex you."
Sirius obeyed. He sat down and looked up at her.
"Well?" she said, waving her other hand in the air for him to start explaining.
"If you had read the Daily Prophet the past few months you'd know exactly who Sirius Black is. He's the only wizard to ever escape Azkaban prison--"
Raven gasped. "I knew it! You just admitted it! You're a Death Eater! You were in Azkaban!"
Sirius gritted his teeth. "I'm NOT a Death Eater! Everyone thought I was! If you want to hear the whole story, stop interrupting me!"
Raven fell silent.
"I was sent to Azkaban for blowing apart a street full of muggles and one wizard, Peter Pettigrew, my best friend...Have you even heard of Harry Potter?"
"Of course I have! I just haven't heard much in a long time because I told Josh only to tell me things about Voldemort, and there hasn't been much."
"And that's a good thing...right?" asked Sirius, suspiciously. 'I wonder if she's a Death Eater or something," he thought.
Raven spoke through clenched teeth. "I'm asking the questions! Keep going!" She pointed her wand at him.
"Alright! Harry's my godson."
"What?"
"I was best friends with Lily and James Potter. I was their secret keeper because Voldemort was after them and Harry."
Raven put up a hand to silence him. It was all coming back to her. She had heard about it all those years ago. Black betrayed the Potter's to Voldemort and then Voldemort went to kill them. A knot formed in her stomach as she remembered the cat still purring contentedly between them. "Oh my god! Lily? You name your cats after your victims? How sick and demented are you?"
Sirius decided he was going about this the wrong way. He'd better just tell her everything all at once. "I'm innocent! I never betrayed James and Lily! They were my best friends! I would have died for them, that's why I agreed to be their secret keeper at first! But then I thought that would be too obvious. I convinced them to switch secret keepers at the last minute. I thought no one would suspect Peter because he was...well, a wimp...compared to the rest of us, anyway. But it was the stupidest thing I've ever done in my life. Peter was in league with Voldemort and he betrayed them. James and I had agreed that it would be better not to tell anyone about my switch with Peter, so everyone thought it was me. After I found out James and Lily had been killed, I knew the truth, so I went to find Peter and turn him in. He saw me coming and blew apart the entire street, transforming into a rat and leaving behind his own finger as evidence that I had killed him. I was framed by my own best friend. They didn't even give me a fair trial. They put me straight in Azkaban, assuming I was a Death Eater."
Raven was staring at him intently with her mouth open. Her head was spinning. "This makes no sense. I-- How do you expect me to believe a story you had twelve years in Azkaban to come up with?"
Sirius' face fell. "I guess I don't." He put his head in his hands and closed his eyes. "You can call the Ministry if you like. I won't put up a fight. I only escaped so I could protect Harry from that *thing* and turn him in, but it's no use now. I have no idea where he is."
"What *thing?*"
"Peter. He's an animagus. He cut off his own finger when we were in the street and then transformed, disappearing into the gutter.
He'd been living with a wizard family as their pet rat while I was in Azkaban. When I got out, I headed straight for Hogwarts because I saw a picture of him with the Weasley family in an issue of the Daily Prophet that Fudge gave me. I found Peter, but the only people to see him alive were three thirteen year old kids and werewolf who just happens to be my best friend."
Raven opened her mouth to ask about the werewolf best friend, but decided against it. She shook her head. "There isn't any reason I should believe you."
"Have I tried to hurt you? You've only known me for a short time, but I know you don't think I'm a killer. I'm not a Death Eater and I'm not here for you. I don't even know what you're talking about, alright? And I'm not gonna ask. I don't know why, but I just need for you to believe me," pleaded Sirius.
Raven looked sadly at Sirius. "I..." Raven was struck with a sudden idea. "Legilimency, you ready?" She raised his wand.
Sirius jumped as she pointed the wand at him again. "You know how?"
"Yeah. Josh taught me," she said as though this was the most obvious thing in the world.
"O...kay...how do I do it? No one's ever..."
"Just let me into your mind. Don't fight me. Concentrate."
"...Alright..." He shifted uncomfortably on the couch as she sat next to him.
"Legilimens!" she yelled as she pointed the wand at him. She could suddenly see inside his mind. Random memories of his started to enter her mind. First she saw a boy about thirteen years old with a scar on his head waving out a window at Hogwarts. That was Harry. Next she saw Sirius and another man eating cereal at a kitchen table. She pushed further and saw the shadow of a man morphing into a werewolf. Then she saw a small, mousy looking man point his wand at Sirius and say a spell. Then he transformed into a rat. Three kids, one of them was Harry, the man from the kitchen and Sirius were pointing their wands at the mousy looking man. She watched as a group of wizards surrounded Sirius sitting in a chair. One of them pointed a wand at him and Sirius' body went rigid. His eyes rolled up into his head and his body writhed as he yelped in terrible pain. Raven jumped and pushed the memories away. The room came back into focus. She was breathing heavily.
Sirius grabbed her hands, as Raven reflexively jerked them upward, and looked into her eyes. "What did you see?"
He was sitting only an inch from her. She looked into his eyes, a tear running down her cheek, and let out a sob. "They...they were...torturing you?"
Comprehension dawned on Sirius' face. "For me to give them names of other Death Eaters. They thought I was one, remember?"
Raven looked at Sirius compassionately as another tear ran down her cheek. Sirius wiped it away with his thumb and searched her face for an answer.
"I believe you," she said finally.
A/N: WOW, THAT WAS A HARD CHAPTER TO WRITE. I'M NOT GOOD AT DESCRIBING THINGS, AS YOU CAN PROBABLY TELL, LOL. YOU'LL FIND OUT ABOUT RAVEN, SOON, I PROMISE. HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER. PLEASE REVIEW! BY THE WAY, CHECK OUT MY NEW FIC, TEMPTING FORTUNE. I WANTED TO TRY AN AU FIC (IT'S SET IN THE LATE 1800'S), BUT I THINK IT'S PRETTY GOOD SO FAR. ANYWAY, IT HAS ALL THE MARAUDERS IN IT AND MRS. BLACK AND RAVEN IF YOU LIKE THAT SORT OF THING.