Chapter 2 and a disclaimer (I don't own really own anything except the
computer this was written on!)
Thanks for all who reviewed! I was hoping to get a few more than I got, but I'm going to keep writing anyway...because it's fun lol!
Plaris: Thanks for the welcome back to writing :) It has been a while since I've written anything, and I suppose I missed it. Thanks for the compliments and here is the continuation.
Jemma Blackwell: I'm glad you like sensitive Sirius. Personally I like having all the characters really sensitive even though it's really unnatural. But it's good and fluffy in the end, right? I'm glad you don't care which side I take, slash or not. I'm afraid that no matter which side I pick half the people reading will stop. Good to know I have one who will be happy either way :)
Eizoku: I know what you mean about them just being right together, it's almost like JKR wrote them to be, both canines, moon and star, etc. Although I doubt she'd ever actually write anything of the sort, that probably wouldn't go over well. Thanks for the review!
Rainbow Dust: I know it sounds like it's heading towards slash, but it may not. The way I write it always seems like it's heading that way. If you read my first story you'll see that. I read over it now and then and think this is slash without anything physical. It's just the way my mind works, lol. Anyway, thanks for reviewing :)
Nolwe the Lady Dragon: Don't worry nothing will happen immediately, if it even happens at all, so worry not! Thanks for reviewing!
SexyBlack: Continuing for you :) As for the slash thing I'm thinking the same as you, I want to have a sweet story without slash, but sometimes when I write stuff that's really sweet, I think to myself "Straight guys wouldn't do that." Read my profile to understand my thoughts on slash. But don't worry my mind is not made up on the slash factor yet...I think I'd suck at writing real slash, so, ummm...we'll see. I remember you as an older reviewer and I don't want to disappoint!
Queen Vampyre Akasha: I'm glad you liked it so much! You'll see what Remus comes to think of Sirius, and I hope you'll like it. I think you will...at the end. And that doesn't necessarily mean there will be slash, I'm still up in the air about that. Thanks for reviewing!!!
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A Piece of Steak
After watching Remus sleep for quite a while, Sirius made his way down the stairs angrily. He stopped at the base of the stairs waiting to catch James and Peter's eyes. It didn't take long.
"How was it Sirius?"
With a glare Sirius made his way over to them and sat down with a huff. "You guys are asses."
Peter was taken a back and James punched him lightly. "What's that supposed to mean?"
"How can you just ignore your friend when he's in pain like that?"
"Is Remus okay?" James asked.
"He'll be alright, but I don't know what would have happened if I hadn't gone after him."
"What do you mean?" Peter asked nervously.
"Never mind that," Sirius said with a sigh, wanting so badly to reveal exactly what happened but he wouldn't break his promise to Remus. "Just...if you ever see him like that again, go after him. Remus always feels alone, we need to be there for him whenever we can."
"But Remus can be...scary," Peter mumbled.
"What's he going to do to you Pete?!" Sirius exclaimed.
"I—"
James interrupted, "What happened up there Padfoot, why are you being like this?"
"Maybe if you hadn't abandoned your friend you'd know...I'm not going to tell you."
"We didn't abandon him..." James defended meekly.
"Oh if you only knew," Sirius thought but remained silent.
Sirius was really furious with his two friends. If he hadn't been there Remus would be dead and wrinkled in the bathtub upstairs.
"Why are you so mad?" Peter asked.
"Don't worry about it! Just promise me that you guy's will keep an eye on him! Now I'm going to go back upstairs. We'll meet you at dinner." With that Sirius fled the common room and returned to the dorm.
When he arrived he saw Remus sitting up in bed with his knees drawn to his chest. He was staring longingly out the window.
"How you doing Rem?" Sirius asked softly, breaking Remus from his reverie.
Remus just shrugged. Sirius sat beside him on the bed and put an arm across his friends shoulder. Remus leant into it and they both sat in completely comfortable silence for nearly ten minutes.
With a soft sigh Remus broke the silence asking, "Do you think less of me now Sirius?" He looked worriedly at his friend.
Sirius tightened his arm around Remus's shoulder and leaned his forehead into Remus's hair. "I could never think less of you Rem. Never in a million years. You're one of the bravest people I know...you just need to learn when to ask for help."
"I'm sorry," he whispered sorrowfully. Sirius rubbed his arm for a moment and then said, "Lets go down to dinner now...some food will do you good."
"I don't think I should Sirius...what if she's down there?"
"Now's as good a time as any for you to face her, and if she starts anything I'll be there to back you up, alright?"
Remus just sighed.
"Come on!" Sirius jumped up and then grabbed Remus's hands, pulling him to his feet. Remus couldn't help but laugh lightly and followed Sirius out of the dorm. When they reached the common room they found that James and Peter had already left.
"James and Peter already left?" Remus asked.
Sirius nodded, "Yah, I figured they would. I told them we'd meet up with them later."
Together they made there way to the Great Hall where most of the students were already halfway through their meals. They found two empty seats across from James and Peter and joined them.
James and Peter said their hello's and then eyed Remus suspiciously. Remus in turn eyed Sirius suspiciously. Sirius just shook his head reassuringly at Remus who then turned his attention to his food, purposely avoiding the mere sight of the Ravenclaw table. He did not want to so much as make eye contact with Brie.
"So Remus," James began casually. "Is everything going alright? You seemed rather...er...upset earlier."
Again Remus looked at Sirius suspiciously and Sirius mouthed, "Don't worry," back at him.
"Um, well, Brie and I..." Remus stopped and looked to Sirius yet again, this time for help.
Sirius nodded and Remus looked down at his plate of food. "They called it quits."
"Why'd you do that Moony? I thought you really liked her!" Peter said stupidly.
Remus looked up at him sadly and Sirius kicked him from under the table.
"I didn't want to break up...she—she thought I was cheating on her."
"Because of...?" James asked knowingly.
Remus just nodded and slouched a little bit.
Sirius rubbed his shoulder gently and they all returned to their food in an awkward silence. No one really knew what to say.
Peter broke the awkward silence by saying, "Are you guys almost done? James and I need to get a project done."
This time both Sirius and James glared at him and Remus just stared at his still full plate of food.
"What?" he mouthed at them.
Sirius just shook his head and said, "You two go ahead. I'll wait here with Rem."
"You don't have to--"
"I know I want more desert," he said with a wink. "See you guys later," he said to James and Peter. They both stood, James giving Peter an annoyed shove as they made there way out of the Great Hall. Peter had no idea why he received that shove.
"You didn't--?"
"Of course not. I just told them if they ever see you like that again to go after you."
Remus nodded and then focused his attention on getting the food down. It seemed like it had no taste at all and was extremely hard to swallow.
He didn't look up until nearly ten minutes later when he noticed someone sitting across from him. His heart caught in his throat when he saw who it was. Brianna Jones sat across from him, her Ravenclaw posse surrounding her from behind. He swallowed hard but tried to look brave.
"Hi Brie," he practically whispered.
"Hi Rem," she mocked in the same soft voice. Her posse cackled and cheered for her.
Remus glanced quickly at Sirius, as if to make sure he was still there. He was and was currently glaring daggers at Remus's ex-girlfriend.
"How's my favorite player doing today?" she asked sarcastically, her eyes dark with anger and jealousy.
"I'm not a player...I told you. There's no one else," Remus pleaded softly.
"Sure...It seems like your friend here has finally rubbed off on you." She glanced rudely at Sirius as she spoke those words.
"Leave Sirius out of this," Remus mumbled.
"Why don't you get the fuck out of here Brie," Sirius nearly yelled. "You've done enough damage to the poor kid to last a lifetime. Now leave!"
"I've done enough damage to him?! He's the one who cheated on me, Si-ri- us." She drew out his name for emphasis.
"He didn't fucking cheat on you! I know this for a fact. Maybe you need to learn to trust your boyfriends more in the future. But as for now leave Remus the fuck alone!"
With one final death glare Brie rose from the table and walked out of the Great Hall. Remus watched her and her friends leave and then rose himself and fled the hall. Sirius slowly got up sighing and followed Remus out of the cafeteria, leaving his untouched chocolate cake behind.
He figured he'd have to search for Remus for quite a while, but he was wrong. Down the corridor that leads to the Great Hall he saw Remus sitting against the wall with his head pressed into his knees.
"You picked a Grade-A bitch to fall for, didn't you Remus."
"If only I had know before, eh?" Remus said with the slightest hint of humor in his voice.
"I'm actually glad she's being like this."
Remus looked up sharply, hurt evident in his eyes.
"I don't mean it like that Moony...I mean because now it'll be easier to get over her...right?"
"I guess. But, I still love her."
"Of course you do...you just broke up. But you'll get over it, I'm positive."
Remus just sighed.
"Do you want to go for a walk Rem?"
After considering the idea for a moment Remus shook his head, "I've got a ton of homework...I'll already be up till at least two finishing it up. Thanks anyway."
"Well, I suppose we should go upstairs then."
"Yah," Remus replied reluctantly. Sirius stood in front of him and then pulled him to his feet. They walked to the common room together in silence and then went there separate ways.
Sirius joined Peter and James by the fireplace where they were practicing the summoning charm.
When they saw him they stopped what they were doing and sat down to talk.
"Sirius, I don't know what happened earlier, but I can tell it's really serious...I really hate your name," James said, laughing quietly.
Sirius smirked at him.
"Anyway, you're right we shouldn't have just left Remus like that. We were being bad friends."
"It's alright...we just need to keep an eye on him. Brie has quickly transformed into the largest bitch in the school and she's out to make Remus hurt. So far she's succeeding pretty well."
"Poor Rem," James mumbled.
Sirius and Peter nodded in agreement.
"So what are you guys up to tonight?"
"Right now we're practicing summoning charms," James replied. "Accio!" he called and a pillow came flying at him. "I'm trying to teach Pete...earlier he summoned the whole couch...it wasn't pretty."
Sirius laughed while Peter blushed. "You just need to aim better Pete, that's your problem in all magic, you always hit the wrong target."
"I can't help it," Peter said miserably.
"You'll learn," Sirius said encouragingly. He made himself comfortable on the couch and watched in amusement as his two friends summoned things from all over the room, including people books, hats, and glasses. The entire common room was in hysterics after ten minutes of the spell practicing.
Sirius, however, only watched for a few moments before getting lost in thought. He was truly worried about Remus. Out of all the people in the school, Sirius had thought Remus the most unlikely to every try to end his life. Remus was too strong for that. Yet, one girl was all it took to send him over the edge. What if one more terrible thing happened in Remus's life? What would happen then? Sirius was beginning to question whether or not he'd always be able to help his friend deal. If things got worse he wouldn't know what to do. Then again things couldn't really get any worse, could they?
Sirius was shaken from his reverie when James decided it would be fun to summon his shirt. The shirt ripped in two as it pulled away from his chest and flew into his friend's hand.
Everyone was laughing hysterically and the girls were all blushing at the sight of Sirius's muscular torso.
"Damn it James!" Sirius yelled and everyone instantly stopped laughing. It was a surprise for everyone to see him so uptight. He jumped up from his seat grabbed the remains of his shirt and ran up to the boys dorm, slamming the door when he got there.
"Gahhhhhh!!!" he yelled and flopped down on his bed.
"Woah..." was heard quietly from across the room.
Sirius's head shot up and he looked at Remus perched on the next bed over with a large book in his lap.
"Oh, sorry Rem, forgot you were up here."
"It's alright...but are you okay?"
"Fucking James," Sirius fumed. "He doesn't know when to leave me the fuck alone!"
"Does this have to do with the fact that you're not wearing a shirt?"
Sirius held up the two pieces of his shirt sadly. "It's my favorite one too." He pouted like a small child and Remus couldn't help but laugh. He put his book aside and walked over to his friend's bed and took the shirt. He muttered a spell and the shirt stitched itself back together. Remus then threw the shirt back at Sirius.
With a small smile Sirius thanked Remus and pulled the shirt over his head.
"Is everything okay Sirius?"
"Yah, I'm just not in the mood to deal with James's shit right now."
"Because of me?"
"Oh...not really Rem, it's not your fault. I just want to relax tonight without my shirt flying off my body."
"Gotcha."
"What are you up to?"
"Oh, I was just reading ahead in Defense Against the Dark Arts. Not really necessary for me to study the life cycle of a werewolf is it?"
"I guess not," Sirius said with a light laugh. "But I thought you had so much homework you'd be up till 2, and you're reading ahead?"
Remus just shrugged.
Sirius grinned at him and lay back down on his bed, staring at the ceiling. Remus picked his book back up and stared at if for a while.
Suddenly he looked at Sirius and said, "You know what?"
Sirius looked over, "What?"
"If Brie asked me to take her back right now...I wouldn't."
"I'm glad...she's not good for you. I don't think she ever really was?"
Remus rolled onto his stomach, facing Sirius's bed, "She was...in the same way a huge steak is good for me. Taste's pretty damn good and makes my mouth water, but in the long run it clogs my arteries."
Sirius laughed. "I'd rather have a steak than Brie, it doesn't bite back quite as hard."
With a nod Remus laughed lightly and then sighed deeply. "I feel so stupid...why'd I waste my time? A year and a half and look where it got me. You're right a steak is more appealing than the girl I almost killed myself over!"
"You almost killed yourself?!"
Remus looked up sharply and saw James standing in the doorway. He looked down at his lap. He felt his bed sag slightly and looked left to see Sirius beside him. He rubbed his back gently.
"What happened this afternoon?" James asked in the most serious tone any of them had ever heard.
Remus didn't say a word, just stared at James nervously.
"As you know Brie broke up with him and he had a hard time dealing with it," Sirius answered for his silent friend.
"Since when is a hard time almost killing yourself?!"
"James," Remus began. "I..."
"You what Remus?" James asked angrily.
"James chill out," Sirius said calmly.
"Chill out? One of my best friends is suicidal and no one felt the need to tell me? Think you could chill out?"
"James you aren't helping anything!"
"Well it seems like I can't help no matter what because people feel the need to hide everything from me!"
"You're seriously overreacting James."
"I don't think I am, Sirius. I can only imagine how you'd react if you were in my position."
"Remus doesn't need you making a big deal out of this. He needs your support."
"Yeah well maybe he should have asked for it!" James yelled and then stormed out of the dorm.
Remus, who hadn't said a word throughout the blow out muttered, "Fuck!" He rolled over onto his stomach and buried his head under the pillow. Sirius sighed and rubbed his back gently. It had been a long day and there were still four hours left of it.
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So what do you think? Still haven't decided on the slash or not thing. It seems pretty balanced so far, so if you care either way, let me know! Please, please, please review!!! I have the next chapter almost done, but I will hold off until I get a reasonable amount of reviews, so PLEASE let me know what you think!
Thanks for all who reviewed! I was hoping to get a few more than I got, but I'm going to keep writing anyway...because it's fun lol!
Plaris: Thanks for the welcome back to writing :) It has been a while since I've written anything, and I suppose I missed it. Thanks for the compliments and here is the continuation.
Jemma Blackwell: I'm glad you like sensitive Sirius. Personally I like having all the characters really sensitive even though it's really unnatural. But it's good and fluffy in the end, right? I'm glad you don't care which side I take, slash or not. I'm afraid that no matter which side I pick half the people reading will stop. Good to know I have one who will be happy either way :)
Eizoku: I know what you mean about them just being right together, it's almost like JKR wrote them to be, both canines, moon and star, etc. Although I doubt she'd ever actually write anything of the sort, that probably wouldn't go over well. Thanks for the review!
Rainbow Dust: I know it sounds like it's heading towards slash, but it may not. The way I write it always seems like it's heading that way. If you read my first story you'll see that. I read over it now and then and think this is slash without anything physical. It's just the way my mind works, lol. Anyway, thanks for reviewing :)
Nolwe the Lady Dragon: Don't worry nothing will happen immediately, if it even happens at all, so worry not! Thanks for reviewing!
SexyBlack: Continuing for you :) As for the slash thing I'm thinking the same as you, I want to have a sweet story without slash, but sometimes when I write stuff that's really sweet, I think to myself "Straight guys wouldn't do that." Read my profile to understand my thoughts on slash. But don't worry my mind is not made up on the slash factor yet...I think I'd suck at writing real slash, so, ummm...we'll see. I remember you as an older reviewer and I don't want to disappoint!
Queen Vampyre Akasha: I'm glad you liked it so much! You'll see what Remus comes to think of Sirius, and I hope you'll like it. I think you will...at the end. And that doesn't necessarily mean there will be slash, I'm still up in the air about that. Thanks for reviewing!!!
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A Piece of Steak
After watching Remus sleep for quite a while, Sirius made his way down the stairs angrily. He stopped at the base of the stairs waiting to catch James and Peter's eyes. It didn't take long.
"How was it Sirius?"
With a glare Sirius made his way over to them and sat down with a huff. "You guys are asses."
Peter was taken a back and James punched him lightly. "What's that supposed to mean?"
"How can you just ignore your friend when he's in pain like that?"
"Is Remus okay?" James asked.
"He'll be alright, but I don't know what would have happened if I hadn't gone after him."
"What do you mean?" Peter asked nervously.
"Never mind that," Sirius said with a sigh, wanting so badly to reveal exactly what happened but he wouldn't break his promise to Remus. "Just...if you ever see him like that again, go after him. Remus always feels alone, we need to be there for him whenever we can."
"But Remus can be...scary," Peter mumbled.
"What's he going to do to you Pete?!" Sirius exclaimed.
"I—"
James interrupted, "What happened up there Padfoot, why are you being like this?"
"Maybe if you hadn't abandoned your friend you'd know...I'm not going to tell you."
"We didn't abandon him..." James defended meekly.
"Oh if you only knew," Sirius thought but remained silent.
Sirius was really furious with his two friends. If he hadn't been there Remus would be dead and wrinkled in the bathtub upstairs.
"Why are you so mad?" Peter asked.
"Don't worry about it! Just promise me that you guy's will keep an eye on him! Now I'm going to go back upstairs. We'll meet you at dinner." With that Sirius fled the common room and returned to the dorm.
When he arrived he saw Remus sitting up in bed with his knees drawn to his chest. He was staring longingly out the window.
"How you doing Rem?" Sirius asked softly, breaking Remus from his reverie.
Remus just shrugged. Sirius sat beside him on the bed and put an arm across his friends shoulder. Remus leant into it and they both sat in completely comfortable silence for nearly ten minutes.
With a soft sigh Remus broke the silence asking, "Do you think less of me now Sirius?" He looked worriedly at his friend.
Sirius tightened his arm around Remus's shoulder and leaned his forehead into Remus's hair. "I could never think less of you Rem. Never in a million years. You're one of the bravest people I know...you just need to learn when to ask for help."
"I'm sorry," he whispered sorrowfully. Sirius rubbed his arm for a moment and then said, "Lets go down to dinner now...some food will do you good."
"I don't think I should Sirius...what if she's down there?"
"Now's as good a time as any for you to face her, and if she starts anything I'll be there to back you up, alright?"
Remus just sighed.
"Come on!" Sirius jumped up and then grabbed Remus's hands, pulling him to his feet. Remus couldn't help but laugh lightly and followed Sirius out of the dorm. When they reached the common room they found that James and Peter had already left.
"James and Peter already left?" Remus asked.
Sirius nodded, "Yah, I figured they would. I told them we'd meet up with them later."
Together they made there way to the Great Hall where most of the students were already halfway through their meals. They found two empty seats across from James and Peter and joined them.
James and Peter said their hello's and then eyed Remus suspiciously. Remus in turn eyed Sirius suspiciously. Sirius just shook his head reassuringly at Remus who then turned his attention to his food, purposely avoiding the mere sight of the Ravenclaw table. He did not want to so much as make eye contact with Brie.
"So Remus," James began casually. "Is everything going alright? You seemed rather...er...upset earlier."
Again Remus looked at Sirius suspiciously and Sirius mouthed, "Don't worry," back at him.
"Um, well, Brie and I..." Remus stopped and looked to Sirius yet again, this time for help.
Sirius nodded and Remus looked down at his plate of food. "They called it quits."
"Why'd you do that Moony? I thought you really liked her!" Peter said stupidly.
Remus looked up at him sadly and Sirius kicked him from under the table.
"I didn't want to break up...she—she thought I was cheating on her."
"Because of...?" James asked knowingly.
Remus just nodded and slouched a little bit.
Sirius rubbed his shoulder gently and they all returned to their food in an awkward silence. No one really knew what to say.
Peter broke the awkward silence by saying, "Are you guys almost done? James and I need to get a project done."
This time both Sirius and James glared at him and Remus just stared at his still full plate of food.
"What?" he mouthed at them.
Sirius just shook his head and said, "You two go ahead. I'll wait here with Rem."
"You don't have to--"
"I know I want more desert," he said with a wink. "See you guys later," he said to James and Peter. They both stood, James giving Peter an annoyed shove as they made there way out of the Great Hall. Peter had no idea why he received that shove.
"You didn't--?"
"Of course not. I just told them if they ever see you like that again to go after you."
Remus nodded and then focused his attention on getting the food down. It seemed like it had no taste at all and was extremely hard to swallow.
He didn't look up until nearly ten minutes later when he noticed someone sitting across from him. His heart caught in his throat when he saw who it was. Brianna Jones sat across from him, her Ravenclaw posse surrounding her from behind. He swallowed hard but tried to look brave.
"Hi Brie," he practically whispered.
"Hi Rem," she mocked in the same soft voice. Her posse cackled and cheered for her.
Remus glanced quickly at Sirius, as if to make sure he was still there. He was and was currently glaring daggers at Remus's ex-girlfriend.
"How's my favorite player doing today?" she asked sarcastically, her eyes dark with anger and jealousy.
"I'm not a player...I told you. There's no one else," Remus pleaded softly.
"Sure...It seems like your friend here has finally rubbed off on you." She glanced rudely at Sirius as she spoke those words.
"Leave Sirius out of this," Remus mumbled.
"Why don't you get the fuck out of here Brie," Sirius nearly yelled. "You've done enough damage to the poor kid to last a lifetime. Now leave!"
"I've done enough damage to him?! He's the one who cheated on me, Si-ri- us." She drew out his name for emphasis.
"He didn't fucking cheat on you! I know this for a fact. Maybe you need to learn to trust your boyfriends more in the future. But as for now leave Remus the fuck alone!"
With one final death glare Brie rose from the table and walked out of the Great Hall. Remus watched her and her friends leave and then rose himself and fled the hall. Sirius slowly got up sighing and followed Remus out of the cafeteria, leaving his untouched chocolate cake behind.
He figured he'd have to search for Remus for quite a while, but he was wrong. Down the corridor that leads to the Great Hall he saw Remus sitting against the wall with his head pressed into his knees.
"You picked a Grade-A bitch to fall for, didn't you Remus."
"If only I had know before, eh?" Remus said with the slightest hint of humor in his voice.
"I'm actually glad she's being like this."
Remus looked up sharply, hurt evident in his eyes.
"I don't mean it like that Moony...I mean because now it'll be easier to get over her...right?"
"I guess. But, I still love her."
"Of course you do...you just broke up. But you'll get over it, I'm positive."
Remus just sighed.
"Do you want to go for a walk Rem?"
After considering the idea for a moment Remus shook his head, "I've got a ton of homework...I'll already be up till at least two finishing it up. Thanks anyway."
"Well, I suppose we should go upstairs then."
"Yah," Remus replied reluctantly. Sirius stood in front of him and then pulled him to his feet. They walked to the common room together in silence and then went there separate ways.
Sirius joined Peter and James by the fireplace where they were practicing the summoning charm.
When they saw him they stopped what they were doing and sat down to talk.
"Sirius, I don't know what happened earlier, but I can tell it's really serious...I really hate your name," James said, laughing quietly.
Sirius smirked at him.
"Anyway, you're right we shouldn't have just left Remus like that. We were being bad friends."
"It's alright...we just need to keep an eye on him. Brie has quickly transformed into the largest bitch in the school and she's out to make Remus hurt. So far she's succeeding pretty well."
"Poor Rem," James mumbled.
Sirius and Peter nodded in agreement.
"So what are you guys up to tonight?"
"Right now we're practicing summoning charms," James replied. "Accio!" he called and a pillow came flying at him. "I'm trying to teach Pete...earlier he summoned the whole couch...it wasn't pretty."
Sirius laughed while Peter blushed. "You just need to aim better Pete, that's your problem in all magic, you always hit the wrong target."
"I can't help it," Peter said miserably.
"You'll learn," Sirius said encouragingly. He made himself comfortable on the couch and watched in amusement as his two friends summoned things from all over the room, including people books, hats, and glasses. The entire common room was in hysterics after ten minutes of the spell practicing.
Sirius, however, only watched for a few moments before getting lost in thought. He was truly worried about Remus. Out of all the people in the school, Sirius had thought Remus the most unlikely to every try to end his life. Remus was too strong for that. Yet, one girl was all it took to send him over the edge. What if one more terrible thing happened in Remus's life? What would happen then? Sirius was beginning to question whether or not he'd always be able to help his friend deal. If things got worse he wouldn't know what to do. Then again things couldn't really get any worse, could they?
Sirius was shaken from his reverie when James decided it would be fun to summon his shirt. The shirt ripped in two as it pulled away from his chest and flew into his friend's hand.
Everyone was laughing hysterically and the girls were all blushing at the sight of Sirius's muscular torso.
"Damn it James!" Sirius yelled and everyone instantly stopped laughing. It was a surprise for everyone to see him so uptight. He jumped up from his seat grabbed the remains of his shirt and ran up to the boys dorm, slamming the door when he got there.
"Gahhhhhh!!!" he yelled and flopped down on his bed.
"Woah..." was heard quietly from across the room.
Sirius's head shot up and he looked at Remus perched on the next bed over with a large book in his lap.
"Oh, sorry Rem, forgot you were up here."
"It's alright...but are you okay?"
"Fucking James," Sirius fumed. "He doesn't know when to leave me the fuck alone!"
"Does this have to do with the fact that you're not wearing a shirt?"
Sirius held up the two pieces of his shirt sadly. "It's my favorite one too." He pouted like a small child and Remus couldn't help but laugh. He put his book aside and walked over to his friend's bed and took the shirt. He muttered a spell and the shirt stitched itself back together. Remus then threw the shirt back at Sirius.
With a small smile Sirius thanked Remus and pulled the shirt over his head.
"Is everything okay Sirius?"
"Yah, I'm just not in the mood to deal with James's shit right now."
"Because of me?"
"Oh...not really Rem, it's not your fault. I just want to relax tonight without my shirt flying off my body."
"Gotcha."
"What are you up to?"
"Oh, I was just reading ahead in Defense Against the Dark Arts. Not really necessary for me to study the life cycle of a werewolf is it?"
"I guess not," Sirius said with a light laugh. "But I thought you had so much homework you'd be up till 2, and you're reading ahead?"
Remus just shrugged.
Sirius grinned at him and lay back down on his bed, staring at the ceiling. Remus picked his book back up and stared at if for a while.
Suddenly he looked at Sirius and said, "You know what?"
Sirius looked over, "What?"
"If Brie asked me to take her back right now...I wouldn't."
"I'm glad...she's not good for you. I don't think she ever really was?"
Remus rolled onto his stomach, facing Sirius's bed, "She was...in the same way a huge steak is good for me. Taste's pretty damn good and makes my mouth water, but in the long run it clogs my arteries."
Sirius laughed. "I'd rather have a steak than Brie, it doesn't bite back quite as hard."
With a nod Remus laughed lightly and then sighed deeply. "I feel so stupid...why'd I waste my time? A year and a half and look where it got me. You're right a steak is more appealing than the girl I almost killed myself over!"
"You almost killed yourself?!"
Remus looked up sharply and saw James standing in the doorway. He looked down at his lap. He felt his bed sag slightly and looked left to see Sirius beside him. He rubbed his back gently.
"What happened this afternoon?" James asked in the most serious tone any of them had ever heard.
Remus didn't say a word, just stared at James nervously.
"As you know Brie broke up with him and he had a hard time dealing with it," Sirius answered for his silent friend.
"Since when is a hard time almost killing yourself?!"
"James," Remus began. "I..."
"You what Remus?" James asked angrily.
"James chill out," Sirius said calmly.
"Chill out? One of my best friends is suicidal and no one felt the need to tell me? Think you could chill out?"
"James you aren't helping anything!"
"Well it seems like I can't help no matter what because people feel the need to hide everything from me!"
"You're seriously overreacting James."
"I don't think I am, Sirius. I can only imagine how you'd react if you were in my position."
"Remus doesn't need you making a big deal out of this. He needs your support."
"Yeah well maybe he should have asked for it!" James yelled and then stormed out of the dorm.
Remus, who hadn't said a word throughout the blow out muttered, "Fuck!" He rolled over onto his stomach and buried his head under the pillow. Sirius sighed and rubbed his back gently. It had been a long day and there were still four hours left of it.
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So what do you think? Still haven't decided on the slash or not thing. It seems pretty balanced so far, so if you care either way, let me know! Please, please, please review!!! I have the next chapter almost done, but I will hold off until I get a reasonable amount of reviews, so PLEASE let me know what you think!