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I SURRENDER
Just another day at the office
Only it wasn't. Dawn sighed as she neatly stapled together the last of the papers together and dropped them into a cardboard file. Everything had changed since she was last at Smackdown. Paul Heyman wasn't the General Manager anymore and she wasn't his Personal Assistant so today she was tidying everything up for the new GM Kurt Angle. She didn't know what her job would be now; she had been drafted to stay at Smackdown. It had hurt her. She had an urge to be on Raw where most of the Women's Division were and the Women's Championship Belt. Where her close ECW friends were. True there were people here she would call her friends but her real ones, the one she'd been through hell and back with were on Raw. But she knew she couldn't leave Smackdown. The uncertainty of what her role would be was killing her but she was keeping it all tightly inside of her. She was a professional and was not going to be seen crying over the uncertainty. She could handle this.
Suddenly a strong pair of arms wrapped around her waist and lifted her clean off the ground. She shrieked in part delight and part terror because she knew exactly who it was.
"Put me down John" she demanded with a giggle, her mood lightening
"Whatever you say m'am" he replied
As he gently brought her back down to Earth, she turned to face him, taking in his bright basketball jersey and shining chains. It was always the same and yet he still gave her butterflies. He was her anchor here, the reason she didn't trade to Raw though sometimes, her resistance to it was weak. John kept her focused and fairly sane, she needed him therefore she was staying here at Smackdown. She craned up on her tiptoes and kissed him softly on the lips.
"Thank you"
"For what? Putting you down?"
"Just....thank you"
He looked at her curiously as she began to sort through the mess on the desk behind her. She was dressed in a simple dove grey dress, short skirted and low cut of course with her auburn curls tumbling around her shoulders. Yet there was something different about her demeanour, something that wasn't quite right.
"Dawn, are you ok?" he asked, sitting on a corner of the desk so that he could see her face
"Yeah....well I guess I am" was her distracted reply as she clipped more files together "you know excited about everything, the draft, new GM and all"
There was a high-pitched tone to her voice, a slight hysteria that worried him.
"You guess?"
"Things are just a little hectic around here that's all"
She wasn't really listening. John reached forward and firmly pulled the papers from her hands
"Hey! I have to....."
"Dawn" he cut in immediately "answer me, are you ok?"
She sighed and sat down suddenly on the desk chair are though all the air had been sucked out of her. Suddenly everything rushed up on her.
"No I guess I'm not" she murmured, running a hand through her hair "things are just so.....rushed and crazy around here at the moment, everything's so uncertain"
"You should be used to that at ECW" joked John
"You don't understand John, sure ECW was uncertain but we knew that Paul had a clear vision; that we were all heading for the same thing"
"And now?"
"Everything's a mess" she conceded miserably "Paul's gone and I really liked working for him, and I'm stuck on Smackdown with people I do care about but there's hardly anyone here from ECW and all the women wrestlers who are taken seriously on Raw and....and"
"Woah woah" John was at her side, pulling her into a warm embrace "cool it sweetheart, now come on, you know you can talk to me about this, let it all out"
Something broke. Her body was wracked with sobs against him as she let all of her frustration out in tears. She could feel it soaking through John's jersey. When she made an effort to pull away to tell him, he just held her tighter. In the end she gave up and surrendered to his arms. They didn't know how long they stayed like that.
"There's nothing wrong with feeling sad and abandoned" said John quietly Dawn pulled away gently, her huge gentle eyes looking up at him curiously "I feel that way as well sometimes, when you know, no one's around and some of the guys are dissing me because of my rhymes and you're not around" he bowed his head a little "and I miss Benoit"
"You guys were close weren't you?"
"Yeah, as tight as two brothers can be" sighed John "now he's at Raw playing with the big boys and I was lottery picked to be here at Smackdown"
"But it's kind of an honour"
"How'd you figure?" John asked curiously
Dawn pulled away fully, drying her tears on the back of hand quickly as she looked at her boyfriend
"Well Brock's gone and Benoit's gone to Raw, really you and Eddie are the main-eventers here now, well I think Booker's coming here too but I mean you guys used to be mid-carders and...and....now you have the chance to really make something of it, you know?"
John smiled at her, wrapping an arm around her as her eyes glittered
"You miss Lance don't you?"
She nodded, gathering herself before daring to speak
"He's my best friend and he's on Raw" she said quietly
"Do you love him?"
There was a brittle quality to John's words, a tightness that told of how important this answer would be to him
"Of course I do, as a friend" Dawn said gently, smiling now through her tears "he and I, we had something special which didn't have a label, he is just my best friend and you are my boyfriend, besides, Lance is in love with a girl on Raw who unfortunately has moved to Smackdown"
"Miss Jackie? Wow I didn't know he was into plastic!"
"John! She might be nice, Lance has excellent taste"
"So I see"
Dawn smiled and kissed him again.
"We have each other John" she said decidedly "that's the only certainty I can see at the moment, we should be happy with that and work forwards"
"Guess you're right, care to join me watching the monitors backstage? You can deal with all this junk later and then we'll find out from GM Angle what he has planned for you"
"Sounds good to me"
So he took her hand and led her out of the door, her tears dry again.
I SURRENDER
Just another day at the office
Only it wasn't. Dawn sighed as she neatly stapled together the last of the papers together and dropped them into a cardboard file. Everything had changed since she was last at Smackdown. Paul Heyman wasn't the General Manager anymore and she wasn't his Personal Assistant so today she was tidying everything up for the new GM Kurt Angle. She didn't know what her job would be now; she had been drafted to stay at Smackdown. It had hurt her. She had an urge to be on Raw where most of the Women's Division were and the Women's Championship Belt. Where her close ECW friends were. True there were people here she would call her friends but her real ones, the one she'd been through hell and back with were on Raw. But she knew she couldn't leave Smackdown. The uncertainty of what her role would be was killing her but she was keeping it all tightly inside of her. She was a professional and was not going to be seen crying over the uncertainty. She could handle this.
Suddenly a strong pair of arms wrapped around her waist and lifted her clean off the ground. She shrieked in part delight and part terror because she knew exactly who it was.
"Put me down John" she demanded with a giggle, her mood lightening
"Whatever you say m'am" he replied
As he gently brought her back down to Earth, she turned to face him, taking in his bright basketball jersey and shining chains. It was always the same and yet he still gave her butterflies. He was her anchor here, the reason she didn't trade to Raw though sometimes, her resistance to it was weak. John kept her focused and fairly sane, she needed him therefore she was staying here at Smackdown. She craned up on her tiptoes and kissed him softly on the lips.
"Thank you"
"For what? Putting you down?"
"Just....thank you"
He looked at her curiously as she began to sort through the mess on the desk behind her. She was dressed in a simple dove grey dress, short skirted and low cut of course with her auburn curls tumbling around her shoulders. Yet there was something different about her demeanour, something that wasn't quite right.
"Dawn, are you ok?" he asked, sitting on a corner of the desk so that he could see her face
"Yeah....well I guess I am" was her distracted reply as she clipped more files together "you know excited about everything, the draft, new GM and all"
There was a high-pitched tone to her voice, a slight hysteria that worried him.
"You guess?"
"Things are just a little hectic around here that's all"
She wasn't really listening. John reached forward and firmly pulled the papers from her hands
"Hey! I have to....."
"Dawn" he cut in immediately "answer me, are you ok?"
She sighed and sat down suddenly on the desk chair are though all the air had been sucked out of her. Suddenly everything rushed up on her.
"No I guess I'm not" she murmured, running a hand through her hair "things are just so.....rushed and crazy around here at the moment, everything's so uncertain"
"You should be used to that at ECW" joked John
"You don't understand John, sure ECW was uncertain but we knew that Paul had a clear vision; that we were all heading for the same thing"
"And now?"
"Everything's a mess" she conceded miserably "Paul's gone and I really liked working for him, and I'm stuck on Smackdown with people I do care about but there's hardly anyone here from ECW and all the women wrestlers who are taken seriously on Raw and....and"
"Woah woah" John was at her side, pulling her into a warm embrace "cool it sweetheart, now come on, you know you can talk to me about this, let it all out"
Something broke. Her body was wracked with sobs against him as she let all of her frustration out in tears. She could feel it soaking through John's jersey. When she made an effort to pull away to tell him, he just held her tighter. In the end she gave up and surrendered to his arms. They didn't know how long they stayed like that.
"There's nothing wrong with feeling sad and abandoned" said John quietly Dawn pulled away gently, her huge gentle eyes looking up at him curiously "I feel that way as well sometimes, when you know, no one's around and some of the guys are dissing me because of my rhymes and you're not around" he bowed his head a little "and I miss Benoit"
"You guys were close weren't you?"
"Yeah, as tight as two brothers can be" sighed John "now he's at Raw playing with the big boys and I was lottery picked to be here at Smackdown"
"But it's kind of an honour"
"How'd you figure?" John asked curiously
Dawn pulled away fully, drying her tears on the back of hand quickly as she looked at her boyfriend
"Well Brock's gone and Benoit's gone to Raw, really you and Eddie are the main-eventers here now, well I think Booker's coming here too but I mean you guys used to be mid-carders and...and....now you have the chance to really make something of it, you know?"
John smiled at her, wrapping an arm around her as her eyes glittered
"You miss Lance don't you?"
She nodded, gathering herself before daring to speak
"He's my best friend and he's on Raw" she said quietly
"Do you love him?"
There was a brittle quality to John's words, a tightness that told of how important this answer would be to him
"Of course I do, as a friend" Dawn said gently, smiling now through her tears "he and I, we had something special which didn't have a label, he is just my best friend and you are my boyfriend, besides, Lance is in love with a girl on Raw who unfortunately has moved to Smackdown"
"Miss Jackie? Wow I didn't know he was into plastic!"
"John! She might be nice, Lance has excellent taste"
"So I see"
Dawn smiled and kissed him again.
"We have each other John" she said decidedly "that's the only certainty I can see at the moment, we should be happy with that and work forwards"
"Guess you're right, care to join me watching the monitors backstage? You can deal with all this junk later and then we'll find out from GM Angle what he has planned for you"
"Sounds good to me"
So he took her hand and led her out of the door, her tears dry again.