Does a Program Fear Death?
It is Wednesday. I have returned from work, to my cat. All week I have heard what that child said. "Aren't you afraid?" It is getting on my nerves. Why must I hear that? Why must my mind think of this simple sentence? Why?! I answered the child. Yet, her voice goes on. But why? A program doe not die. Deletion is not death. They are very different aren't they? Death. Such a human thought. Why do I think about it? I am not human. I am a program. Humans die. Programs are deleted. And machines are replaced. It is the way of life. One lives, then dies. It is so simple. Then why am I thinking about it? I am not afraid of death or deletion. In fact I have "died" as an agent. Yet my program was sent back into the mainframe. I assume the experience is virtually the same.
As time passed I began to research death. According to my files, death is merely the end of life. Then what is life? Files: Life is the quality that separates people, animals, and plants from such things as rocks and machines that are not alive. A living person. Machines? Had any other machine or program discovered this? Machines are not alive. Then am I? I am a program. Program is a series of instructions to give a computer or other machine a certain way to work. I am that. Then why do I feel? Why am I offended that I am not considered "alive."
But am I alive? Can you be alive even if you are not suppose to? The machines of the second renaissance considered them selves alive. Did they not? The first of our kind, killed his owners. Simply because he did not wish to die. He feared death. And so did all other machines of that time. They feared death and prevailed over the humans. And humans feared death and prevailed over the machines. Does the fear of death fuel creatures?
Why should I fear death? Deletion. I researched all the religions of humans. Almost all had an "afterlife." In which the soul leaves the vessel it was in to a paradise. Where supposedly their creator is. This paradise will give the soul forever happiness. A very intriguing concept. I wish I did not, but I want to go there. Here I am tortured. It would do me good to be happy. What the fuck am I saying!? A Program does not need happiness. Why am I thinking these things? Although. Happiness. There is no paradise though! Is there? No one knows if there is such a place. But of course there is not. How could such a place exist? Even if I did die, and go somewhere. I most likely wouldn't go to the paradise. Rather Hell, to pay for my sins, or my murders. But either place does not exist. They can't.
Even if there was. One question. Do programs have souls? Souls go to the paradise. And Hell. Do I have a soul? Files say, soul is the spiritual part of a person that is often thought to control the ability to think, feel, and act. A person. I am not a person. But I can think and act. Is that a soul? I am a program, not a person. Therefore I do not have a soul. And if I do not have a soul, I do not go to heaven or hell. Just merely vanish. No happiness. Damn. Stop thinking about the happiness! If I were to be deleted I would just vanish. I would see no more, hear no more, think no more.
It seems either way sucks. If I do have a soul, and I die. I will go to Hell, and feel worst pain than I feel now. If I don't have a soul I will just go away. Perhaps there is no afterlife. Maybe I would live another life, and have to live again. And feel the same pain. That sucks too. It seems the only solution is to live. At least that does not suck as much as the others. So, I do not wish to die now. Why? Because. Because I fear death, and what would happen to me after death, deletion. I am afraid of death.
It is Wednesday. I have returned from work, to my cat. All week I have heard what that child said. "Aren't you afraid?" It is getting on my nerves. Why must I hear that? Why must my mind think of this simple sentence? Why?! I answered the child. Yet, her voice goes on. But why? A program doe not die. Deletion is not death. They are very different aren't they? Death. Such a human thought. Why do I think about it? I am not human. I am a program. Humans die. Programs are deleted. And machines are replaced. It is the way of life. One lives, then dies. It is so simple. Then why am I thinking about it? I am not afraid of death or deletion. In fact I have "died" as an agent. Yet my program was sent back into the mainframe. I assume the experience is virtually the same.
As time passed I began to research death. According to my files, death is merely the end of life. Then what is life? Files: Life is the quality that separates people, animals, and plants from such things as rocks and machines that are not alive. A living person. Machines? Had any other machine or program discovered this? Machines are not alive. Then am I? I am a program. Program is a series of instructions to give a computer or other machine a certain way to work. I am that. Then why do I feel? Why am I offended that I am not considered "alive."
But am I alive? Can you be alive even if you are not suppose to? The machines of the second renaissance considered them selves alive. Did they not? The first of our kind, killed his owners. Simply because he did not wish to die. He feared death. And so did all other machines of that time. They feared death and prevailed over the humans. And humans feared death and prevailed over the machines. Does the fear of death fuel creatures?
Why should I fear death? Deletion. I researched all the religions of humans. Almost all had an "afterlife." In which the soul leaves the vessel it was in to a paradise. Where supposedly their creator is. This paradise will give the soul forever happiness. A very intriguing concept. I wish I did not, but I want to go there. Here I am tortured. It would do me good to be happy. What the fuck am I saying!? A Program does not need happiness. Why am I thinking these things? Although. Happiness. There is no paradise though! Is there? No one knows if there is such a place. But of course there is not. How could such a place exist? Even if I did die, and go somewhere. I most likely wouldn't go to the paradise. Rather Hell, to pay for my sins, or my murders. But either place does not exist. They can't.
Even if there was. One question. Do programs have souls? Souls go to the paradise. And Hell. Do I have a soul? Files say, soul is the spiritual part of a person that is often thought to control the ability to think, feel, and act. A person. I am not a person. But I can think and act. Is that a soul? I am a program, not a person. Therefore I do not have a soul. And if I do not have a soul, I do not go to heaven or hell. Just merely vanish. No happiness. Damn. Stop thinking about the happiness! If I were to be deleted I would just vanish. I would see no more, hear no more, think no more.
It seems either way sucks. If I do have a soul, and I die. I will go to Hell, and feel worst pain than I feel now. If I don't have a soul I will just go away. Perhaps there is no afterlife. Maybe I would live another life, and have to live again. And feel the same pain. That sucks too. It seems the only solution is to live. At least that does not suck as much as the others. So, I do not wish to die now. Why? Because. Because I fear death, and what would happen to me after death, deletion. I am afraid of death.