Am I Evil?
My face is long forgot, My face not my own. Sweet and timely whore, Take me home. Am I Evil? Yes I am.
Diamond Head, Am I Evil?
Nida dived through the electronic door panting, his heart whirring in his chest. He leant back against the wall and stared at his hands.
'What's going on?' he wondered to himself. He wasn't sure of himself anymore, he had just physically retaliated against someone, something he had never done before in his life in a non-combat situation.
His hands shook as he remembered the dark intention he felt as he slammed the SeeDs head into the desk. The pleasure at the sound of his sharp intake of breath as his head first connected with the desk.
Nida's body shook with residual rage and the adrenalin backwash. His heart jolted as someone pressed the buzzer by his door.
The door slid open as the girl from the library walked in.
'Why? How?' Nida stammered as he recognised her.
She smiled at him 'I wanted to say thanks for earlier Nida.' She told him.
'You know my name?' Nida replied in shock.
'Sure. I see you around a lot Nida though you never really saw me.' She said softly. Nida just slumped into his chair unable to say a word.
The girl moved closer looking into his eyes. 'You are so concerned that no- one wants to know you that you wrap yourself in your own little world oblivious to those that do.' She told him.
'But look at me, I'm nothing!' he told her.
'You're a person. Someone who helps others.' She replied edging closer. Nida couldn't think, his mind was overwhelmed by this revelation and the darkness inside. In the confusion another part of Nida's mind stepped in.
'I don't even know your name.' He said softly.
'It's Dana. see you didn't know me and you still helped.' She replied.
'But I attacked that guy! Not to help you but because I snapped! I wasn't in control!' he admitted.
'Even so, he deserved it.' She told him.
'But who am I to judge that? You willingly came to see me when I have these evil intentions in my mind.' He said to her, aware of how close she was getting.
'You're not evil, you were angry. It's okay to feel that way sometimes.' She said softly running her hand over his cheek.
Nida's libido cut in and he placed his hand on hers and leant in to kiss her. Dana closed her eyes waiting expectantly. However Nida gained control and stopped before their lips met.
'I'm sorry. I can't do this yet.' He breathed.
Dana opened her eyes, hurt. 'Why?' she asked.
'I don't want to use you, my minds all confused. I can't be sure this is really right.' He told her his soft brown eyes looking into hers.
'You don't want me?' she asked.
'It's not that. just give me time please?' Nida replied.
'Okay' she said softly and left the room.
Nida switched off the light and lay in the dark trying to quell all those evil visions.
My face is long forgot, My face not my own. Sweet and timely whore, Take me home. Am I Evil? Yes I am.
Diamond Head, Am I Evil?
Nida dived through the electronic door panting, his heart whirring in his chest. He leant back against the wall and stared at his hands.
'What's going on?' he wondered to himself. He wasn't sure of himself anymore, he had just physically retaliated against someone, something he had never done before in his life in a non-combat situation.
His hands shook as he remembered the dark intention he felt as he slammed the SeeDs head into the desk. The pleasure at the sound of his sharp intake of breath as his head first connected with the desk.
Nida's body shook with residual rage and the adrenalin backwash. His heart jolted as someone pressed the buzzer by his door.
The door slid open as the girl from the library walked in.
'Why? How?' Nida stammered as he recognised her.
She smiled at him 'I wanted to say thanks for earlier Nida.' She told him.
'You know my name?' Nida replied in shock.
'Sure. I see you around a lot Nida though you never really saw me.' She said softly. Nida just slumped into his chair unable to say a word.
The girl moved closer looking into his eyes. 'You are so concerned that no- one wants to know you that you wrap yourself in your own little world oblivious to those that do.' She told him.
'But look at me, I'm nothing!' he told her.
'You're a person. Someone who helps others.' She replied edging closer. Nida couldn't think, his mind was overwhelmed by this revelation and the darkness inside. In the confusion another part of Nida's mind stepped in.
'I don't even know your name.' He said softly.
'It's Dana. see you didn't know me and you still helped.' She replied.
'But I attacked that guy! Not to help you but because I snapped! I wasn't in control!' he admitted.
'Even so, he deserved it.' She told him.
'But who am I to judge that? You willingly came to see me when I have these evil intentions in my mind.' He said to her, aware of how close she was getting.
'You're not evil, you were angry. It's okay to feel that way sometimes.' She said softly running her hand over his cheek.
Nida's libido cut in and he placed his hand on hers and leant in to kiss her. Dana closed her eyes waiting expectantly. However Nida gained control and stopped before their lips met.
'I'm sorry. I can't do this yet.' He breathed.
Dana opened her eyes, hurt. 'Why?' she asked.
'I don't want to use you, my minds all confused. I can't be sure this is really right.' He told her his soft brown eyes looking into hers.
'You don't want me?' she asked.
'It's not that. just give me time please?' Nida replied.
'Okay' she said softly and left the room.
Nida switched off the light and lay in the dark trying to quell all those evil visions.