Disclaimer: neither the song nor HP is mine *sobs* these things always make
me sad!!!!
A/N: well this is my third song fic... it's something pretty different from
what I normally write... yea there are some pretty cute and sweet scenes but
the whole mindset of the story is pretty messed up.... The song is by Blink
182 called "All of This"; it's a really good song and one of my favorites
off their newest CD.... Ok enough babbling, go on and read, review, and knock
yourself out!!!
All of This
Here I am again, on the cold, yet familiar road to that cottage of hers
that she kept next to the lake. Once again I go just to lose myself and my
pain and be able to pretend. It's the only escape that I know of.
~*~ With all of this I know now
Everything inside of my head
It all just goes to show how
Nothing I know changes me at all ~*~
For all those who have been dumped you know how I'm feeling. Yet this
isn't just any normal heartbreak, where you hurt for a while and then you
forget all about it and move on. This pain won't subside and it's killing
me slowly. My only respite I can experience is whenever I'm with Holly. Not
because I love her or anything. She's married for Merlin's sake. Simply
because with her I can pretend that she's... well, someone else. Someone who
changed me for the better.
~*~ Again I wait for this to change instead
To tear the world in two
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you ~*~
When I'm sleeping with Holly I can feel that special way I did when
Hermione and I first slept together. And I know that Holly is using me as
well. Her and her husband have been having problems and she's using me for
revenge I guess. We both know perfectly well about the consequences and all
that bull crap. But I don't care. As long as I can experience that feeling,
I don't care what the consequences are.
~*~ Use me Holly come on and use me
We know where we go
Use me Holly come on and use me
We go where we know ~*~
It's actually very easy to pretend. She is also a Muggle and my love was
Muggleborn. When we fuck she screams out some fool's name, while I scream
out Hermione's name. It's like we both just pretend because we're both
hurting. We were both hurting when we met at that bar. We both agreed on
shagging while pretending, or, as we call it, dreaming in reality. After
the first time, it became addicting, kind of like a painkiller.
~*~ With all of this I feel now
Everything inside of my heart
It all just seems to be how
Nothing I feel pulls at me at all
Again I wait for this to pull apart
To break my time in two
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you ~*~
I don't even know what went wrong between Hermione and I. I treated her
with tender loving care. I guess you could say I treated her like a queen.
I would buy her things for no special occasion; I would send flowers at
least four times a week to her work office. And yet she said it wasn't
working out because she needed her "space". I know that's just a lame
excuse because as soon as she moved out of my house, she moved in with Ron.
God, how I hate that she left me for that poor bastard!
~*~ Use me Holly come on and use me
We know where we go
Use me Holly come on and use me
We go where we know ~*~
I hate the fact that he gets to hold her and touch her and kiss her every
day. I really do miss that. I remember I used to wait all day for her to
get home and when she did I would sweep her up in arms and kiss her while I
whispered sweet nothings into her ear and neck. Over time, she would start
pushing me away, saying, "Not today Draco, I'm too tired." That's when I
first realized something was wrong, so I tried making things better by
buying her more flowers and chocolate, you know, just trying to show her
how much I truly cared and loved her.
~*~ She's all I need
She's all I dream
She's all I'm always wanting
She's all I need
She's all I dream
She's all I'm always wanting you ~*~
But either she didn't see it, didn't want to see it, or saw it and hated
it, because before I knew she was breaking up with me. ME! The Draco
Malfoy! The guy that most girls would do anything for. I, needless to say,
was devastated. I didn't eat for days. When I finally came out of my room I
went straight to a bar and that's where I found Holly, my only escape from
the torment.
~*~ Oh again I wait for this to fill the holes
To shake the sky in two
Another night with her
I'm always wanting you
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you~*~
I turned the bend in the road, and pulled up at the driveway to the
cottage. A small candlelight came from an upstairs window, that I knew to
be hers. I took out my key and made my way inside and up the stairs. I
opened the door to the master bedroom and slowly made my way inside. There
she was lying on the large bed with nothing but her underwear and a tank
top on. She looked at me.
"Hello," she smiled sensuously. "I've been waiting."
I smiled back and began making my way towards the bed. I couldn't help but
grin inwardly as that special feeling I've always loved began to overwhelm
me.
A/N: THE END!!! Yea that's it people... hope you enjoyed and if you did I
wouldn't mind a lil review.... *wink wink*
me sad!!!!
A/N: well this is my third song fic... it's something pretty different from
what I normally write... yea there are some pretty cute and sweet scenes but
the whole mindset of the story is pretty messed up.... The song is by Blink
182 called "All of This"; it's a really good song and one of my favorites
off their newest CD.... Ok enough babbling, go on and read, review, and knock
yourself out!!!
All of This
Here I am again, on the cold, yet familiar road to that cottage of hers
that she kept next to the lake. Once again I go just to lose myself and my
pain and be able to pretend. It's the only escape that I know of.
~*~ With all of this I know now
Everything inside of my head
It all just goes to show how
Nothing I know changes me at all ~*~
For all those who have been dumped you know how I'm feeling. Yet this
isn't just any normal heartbreak, where you hurt for a while and then you
forget all about it and move on. This pain won't subside and it's killing
me slowly. My only respite I can experience is whenever I'm with Holly. Not
because I love her or anything. She's married for Merlin's sake. Simply
because with her I can pretend that she's... well, someone else. Someone who
changed me for the better.
~*~ Again I wait for this to change instead
To tear the world in two
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you ~*~
When I'm sleeping with Holly I can feel that special way I did when
Hermione and I first slept together. And I know that Holly is using me as
well. Her and her husband have been having problems and she's using me for
revenge I guess. We both know perfectly well about the consequences and all
that bull crap. But I don't care. As long as I can experience that feeling,
I don't care what the consequences are.
~*~ Use me Holly come on and use me
We know where we go
Use me Holly come on and use me
We go where we know ~*~
It's actually very easy to pretend. She is also a Muggle and my love was
Muggleborn. When we fuck she screams out some fool's name, while I scream
out Hermione's name. It's like we both just pretend because we're both
hurting. We were both hurting when we met at that bar. We both agreed on
shagging while pretending, or, as we call it, dreaming in reality. After
the first time, it became addicting, kind of like a painkiller.
~*~ With all of this I feel now
Everything inside of my heart
It all just seems to be how
Nothing I feel pulls at me at all
Again I wait for this to pull apart
To break my time in two
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you ~*~
I don't even know what went wrong between Hermione and I. I treated her
with tender loving care. I guess you could say I treated her like a queen.
I would buy her things for no special occasion; I would send flowers at
least four times a week to her work office. And yet she said it wasn't
working out because she needed her "space". I know that's just a lame
excuse because as soon as she moved out of my house, she moved in with Ron.
God, how I hate that she left me for that poor bastard!
~*~ Use me Holly come on and use me
We know where we go
Use me Holly come on and use me
We go where we know ~*~
I hate the fact that he gets to hold her and touch her and kiss her every
day. I really do miss that. I remember I used to wait all day for her to
get home and when she did I would sweep her up in arms and kiss her while I
whispered sweet nothings into her ear and neck. Over time, she would start
pushing me away, saying, "Not today Draco, I'm too tired." That's when I
first realized something was wrong, so I tried making things better by
buying her more flowers and chocolate, you know, just trying to show her
how much I truly cared and loved her.
~*~ She's all I need
She's all I dream
She's all I'm always wanting
She's all I need
She's all I dream
She's all I'm always wanting you ~*~
But either she didn't see it, didn't want to see it, or saw it and hated
it, because before I knew she was breaking up with me. ME! The Draco
Malfoy! The guy that most girls would do anything for. I, needless to say,
was devastated. I didn't eat for days. When I finally came out of my room I
went straight to a bar and that's where I found Holly, my only escape from
the torment.
~*~ Oh again I wait for this to fill the holes
To shake the sky in two
Another night with her
I'm always wanting you
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you~*~
I turned the bend in the road, and pulled up at the driveway to the
cottage. A small candlelight came from an upstairs window, that I knew to
be hers. I took out my key and made my way inside and up the stairs. I
opened the door to the master bedroom and slowly made my way inside. There
she was lying on the large bed with nothing but her underwear and a tank
top on. She looked at me.
"Hello," she smiled sensuously. "I've been waiting."
I smiled back and began making my way towards the bed. I couldn't help but
grin inwardly as that special feeling I've always loved began to overwhelm
me.
A/N: THE END!!! Yea that's it people... hope you enjoyed and if you did I
wouldn't mind a lil review.... *wink wink*