Alive
I feel so alive, for the very first time. I can't deny you, I feel so alive.
P.O.D, Alive
Squall strolled down the corridor mumbling to himself trying to figure out what to say as he approached Quistis' room. He was dressed casually in black jeans and white T-shirt, his forearms wrapped up in bandages to conceal his scars.
Standing outside her door Squall breathed deeply a few times before knocking.
'Coming!' came a muffled reply as the handle turned and the door opened inwards, framing Quistis in sunlight.
'Squall?' she asked surprised.
'Can I come in?' Squall asked softly.
'Sure.' Quistis replied stepping back and opening the door further so he could enter her room.
Quistis' room was light and airy, her bed clothes shades of peach and cream. He wasn't surprised to find it neat and ordered and stood in the centre of the room and waited for Quistis to shut the door and face him.
'So.' Quistis said as she walked past him and sat on her bed looking up expectantly.
'You know why I'm here right?' Squall said softly, nervously drumming his fingers against his thigh.
'I guess.' Quistis replied but not sure why, was he here to apologise or here to sleep with her again? Deep down a part of her hoped it was the latter.
'I'm sorry for what I did to you Quistis. You've always looked out for me. Always wanted to be a part of my life and I abused that. There's nothing I can do or say to make it up to you.' Squall said slowly and sincerely his grey eyes never leaving her green ones.
'Squall I am a part of your life.' Quistis murmured.
'But not the part you want and when I slept with you I falsely led you to believe that you could finally have that part.' Squall replied.
'You were mourning Rinoa..' Quistis said softly.
'That was no excuse so please don't use it to excuse me Quistis. I should've remembered she's still here with me and there are others that are here that care for me.' Squall said raising his voice softly.
'So you want me to hate you?' Quistis asked standing up.
'No, but I didn't want you to be hurt. I wish I could take it back.' Squall told her.
'I don't' Quistis said softly.
'Why?' Squall asked in surprise.
'Because I got to be with you Squall even if it was for a moment I got to see the real you.' She replied moving closer to him.
'But doesn't it hurt you that it won't happen again?' Squall asked nervously noticing how close she was getting.
'I can cope.' Quistis told him. 'Besides it might happen again.' She thought to herself.
'So we're okay now? We're still friends right because I don't want to lose that.' Squall replied.
'Of course.' Quistis smiled and leant forward kissing his forehead.
Squall recoiled in shock.
'Relax it's just a friendly kiss.' Quistis said smiling.
'Okay.' Squall said as his heart wound down from a purr to a slow natural rhythm.
'What happened to your arms Squall?' Quistis asked noticing the bandages for the first time and entering Instructor mode.
'My own stupidity.' Squall replied looking away from her.
'You cut yourself?' Quistis gasped realising what he meant.
'Yes but I've stopped now so please lets not get into it.' Squall admitted.
'Why the hell did you do it?' Quistis asked angrily, hurt that he'd hurt himself.
'Only way I could cope at the time.' He mumbled.
'Let me see!' Quistis asked grabbing his wrists. 'Do you really have to see?' Squall asked softly not pulling his arms from her.
'Yes.' Quistis said softly, tears welling in her eyes.
'Why?' he murmured gazing directly into her pain filled eyes.
'Because I have to.' Quistis told him.
Squall slipped his arms from her hands and wrapped them around her waist drawing her into an embrace.
'It's nothing that won't heal with time. Please don't torment yourself over it.' Squall whispered into her ear as she sobbed into his shoulder.
'I can't help it.' She said softly.
'Then be happy it doesn't happen anymore. That I'm here with you and I'm myself again.' He told her.
'Okay. Squall?' she said.
'Yeah?' he asked.
'Can we stay like this for a while?' she asked him softly sniffing as she wrapped her arms around him and noticed he didn't flinch at her touch.
'I guess so.' He said smiling.
'Thanks.' She sighed softly and held onto him closing her eyes.
I feel so alive, for the very first time. I can't deny you, I feel so alive.
P.O.D, Alive
Squall strolled down the corridor mumbling to himself trying to figure out what to say as he approached Quistis' room. He was dressed casually in black jeans and white T-shirt, his forearms wrapped up in bandages to conceal his scars.
Standing outside her door Squall breathed deeply a few times before knocking.
'Coming!' came a muffled reply as the handle turned and the door opened inwards, framing Quistis in sunlight.
'Squall?' she asked surprised.
'Can I come in?' Squall asked softly.
'Sure.' Quistis replied stepping back and opening the door further so he could enter her room.
Quistis' room was light and airy, her bed clothes shades of peach and cream. He wasn't surprised to find it neat and ordered and stood in the centre of the room and waited for Quistis to shut the door and face him.
'So.' Quistis said as she walked past him and sat on her bed looking up expectantly.
'You know why I'm here right?' Squall said softly, nervously drumming his fingers against his thigh.
'I guess.' Quistis replied but not sure why, was he here to apologise or here to sleep with her again? Deep down a part of her hoped it was the latter.
'I'm sorry for what I did to you Quistis. You've always looked out for me. Always wanted to be a part of my life and I abused that. There's nothing I can do or say to make it up to you.' Squall said slowly and sincerely his grey eyes never leaving her green ones.
'Squall I am a part of your life.' Quistis murmured.
'But not the part you want and when I slept with you I falsely led you to believe that you could finally have that part.' Squall replied.
'You were mourning Rinoa..' Quistis said softly.
'That was no excuse so please don't use it to excuse me Quistis. I should've remembered she's still here with me and there are others that are here that care for me.' Squall said raising his voice softly.
'So you want me to hate you?' Quistis asked standing up.
'No, but I didn't want you to be hurt. I wish I could take it back.' Squall told her.
'I don't' Quistis said softly.
'Why?' Squall asked in surprise.
'Because I got to be with you Squall even if it was for a moment I got to see the real you.' She replied moving closer to him.
'But doesn't it hurt you that it won't happen again?' Squall asked nervously noticing how close she was getting.
'I can cope.' Quistis told him. 'Besides it might happen again.' She thought to herself.
'So we're okay now? We're still friends right because I don't want to lose that.' Squall replied.
'Of course.' Quistis smiled and leant forward kissing his forehead.
Squall recoiled in shock.
'Relax it's just a friendly kiss.' Quistis said smiling.
'Okay.' Squall said as his heart wound down from a purr to a slow natural rhythm.
'What happened to your arms Squall?' Quistis asked noticing the bandages for the first time and entering Instructor mode.
'My own stupidity.' Squall replied looking away from her.
'You cut yourself?' Quistis gasped realising what he meant.
'Yes but I've stopped now so please lets not get into it.' Squall admitted.
'Why the hell did you do it?' Quistis asked angrily, hurt that he'd hurt himself.
'Only way I could cope at the time.' He mumbled.
'Let me see!' Quistis asked grabbing his wrists. 'Do you really have to see?' Squall asked softly not pulling his arms from her.
'Yes.' Quistis said softly, tears welling in her eyes.
'Why?' he murmured gazing directly into her pain filled eyes.
'Because I have to.' Quistis told him.
Squall slipped his arms from her hands and wrapped them around her waist drawing her into an embrace.
'It's nothing that won't heal with time. Please don't torment yourself over it.' Squall whispered into her ear as she sobbed into his shoulder.
'I can't help it.' She said softly.
'Then be happy it doesn't happen anymore. That I'm here with you and I'm myself again.' He told her.
'Okay. Squall?' she said.
'Yeah?' he asked.
'Can we stay like this for a while?' she asked him softly sniffing as she wrapped her arms around him and noticed he didn't flinch at her touch.
'I guess so.' He said smiling.
'Thanks.' She sighed softly and held onto him closing her eyes.