Rating: G
Category: Angst
Spoiler: None
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Not Her Fault
Nope, it has never been about hating her. That's too strong a word. Even for
me.
And it's not like she acts a certain way just to
purposely annoy me.
I think that's just the way she is.
But there are times when I feel my resentment get the better of me whenever I'm
around her.
And I hate that.
Like
I've never really put that much thought about the way I look
Not until I felt myself "disappear" whenever
she's around.
And
I've never really lost sleep when I don't get people to respond the way I want
them to
Not until I've seen how effortlessly she can make people warm up to her.
Or
I've never really minded the wary look on people's faces when they approach me
Not until I've noticed how she manages to brighten up
the room by merely walking into it.
And
I've never really cared that she and Grissom have known each other for like
forever
Not until I've seen the light in his eyes for her that I've never seen when
he's with me.
So it's not her fault.
Yes, I see that....
Really.
But why doesn't this feeling ever go away?