Don't Make Me Wait
With your body so close to mine, is there anything I need to know? A true love is so hard to find, so why won't you be my Romeo? I will give in, surrender, surrender. Come on baby it will be alright.
Don't Make Me Wait, Bomb The Bass.
It had been a long hard year, one with a lot of changes. Most of them had been extreme changes others were trivial. Deaths, Pregnancies, New romances, Revelations, Deadly strangers, how much could one Commander cope with?
Squall sighed as he sat at his desk with his eyes closed. He seemed to have lost all those close to him. Rinoa had been killed, both Zell and Selphie were caught up in their love lives, Irvine had driven himself insane, Seifer was concerned with other things namely a librarian called Dana Brand who was pregnant by a deceased Nida, he himself had flirted with suicide, had to fight some strange figure from the future, cope with Laguna asserting his paternal rights, yet there was one person who had always been there for him even after he had hurt her.
Squall sighed again. Quistis. He had never realised until exactly what he had in her. She had been his Instructor, took him through his Fire Cavern test, saved his life on his SeeD exam, been a comrade in arms, watched in pain as he had fell for Rinoa before her eyes after he had blown her off. Then when Rinoa had been murdered he had used her in his grief but she had forgiven him even this, she had been with him when he had confronted Laguna and now she was the only one who had time for him in his loneliness.
He worried that he took up too much of her time, that he was making her hang on his every whim. But then he also worried about not having her company, couldn't bear to be in that bleak loneliness ago, not now he had been in the light.
The sound of the door creaking made him smile briefly, she was always trying to sneak into his office to catch him by surprise. He wondered what excuse she'd have today. He opened his eyes and there she was, dressed in her pink and peach outfit that clung to her body and exposed her navel, her blonde hair was tied up in a bun yet whisps hung down over her face, her blue eyes were hidden behind the glass of her spectacles and a smile crept across her lips.
'Quistis?' Squall said softly.
'Was I interrupting anything?' she replied.
'Not really just thinking about this past year.' Squall admitted.
'Oh...' Quistis murmured approaching the desk.
'So what can I do for you today?' Squall asked playing his usual routine.
'More like what I could do for you.' Quistis purred and pushed him back in his chair and then sitting in his lap.
Squall gasped in surprise. 'Quistis...' he murmured.
'Shhh.' Quistis said softly and kissed him.
Squall's eyes opened, his cheek was stuck to a piece of paper, which followed him as he shot upright in shock. His heart was pounding and his breath was heavy as he pulled the offending sheet from his skin and looked around wildly at his empty office. He blinked, puzzled and rubbed his face realising that everything with Quistis had been a dream. He coughed embarrassedly hoping no one had come in and caught him asleep.
It seemed that whatever he felt for Quistis was getting deeper. This concerned him because he knew she would readily become his lover but he didn't want to give in until he was absolutely sure. He was torn by these conflicting feelings and the one person he could talk to about it was the one who was the source of it.
There was no way he was going to go to Laguna with this, not after that fiasco with Caraways attempted assassination, he had shown too much compassion there and no doubt Laguna thought he was warming to him. He didn't want to go to Zell or Selphie and bother them, and he certainly couldn't go to Seifer since he'd just tell him to do it but if he hurt Quistis he'd be in trouble. True he could go to Cid or Edea but they'd probably just be pleased that two of their children had fallen in love.
He leant back in his chair and sighed deeply. He guessed he'd just have to play it cool until he knew exactly what he was feeling.
A knock at the door made him sit up and straighten himself out in an attempt to look official. He coughed and then said 'Enter.'
The door opened and Quistis' face appeared around the door.
Squall quickly pinched himself hard on the leg just in case but found that he was in fact awake this time.
'What's the matter?' he asked her as she approached the desk.
'Nothing, just wondered if you realised how late it was.' She said grinning.
Squall glanced at his clock and saw it was just after eight pm.
'Ah... time just flies when you're having fun.' He said wryly.
'I hope not, you haven't forgot have you?' Quistis asked raising her eyebrow.
'Oh no... I know I said I'd go but I think I'll pass.' He said rapidly.
'Awww come on it'd be fun.' Quistis grinned.
'Forget it, you know Selphie will try and force me to sing!' Squall retorted.
'It's a karaoke Squall what do you expect?' Quistis replied sitting on the edge of his desk.
'I expect to get away with watching other people sing and dance while I hide in the corner drinking.' He answered with disarming honesty.
'Well we can do that.' Quistis smiled and grabbed his arm pulling him up. 'So come on!' she added.
Squall relented and allowed her to drag him to the Quad where Selphie had been busy setting up speakers, television screens and lights for this night. Luckily for him there was a table in a dark corner, which was close to an impromptu bar set up for this night only. He listened with half an ear as Selphie made her introductions and announcements to general applause and then the first victim arrived on stage singing a slow ballad.
He froze in pain as he recognised the song, it had been his and Rinoa's song. The song her mother had written for his own father. He should've expected to hear it, the song had been a hit when it was released and now was a classic. He downed his drink quickly as if the alcohol would drown out the sounds. This drew a concerned look from Quistis and she placed a hand on his and leant close to his ear.
'Do you want to go?' she asked her blue eyes changing colour under the lights, which failed to hide the mixture of emotions hiding there.
Squall just nodded and stood, slowly and carefully weaving his way out the room with Quistis behind him. Luckily everyone was too enthralled by the performance to notice them.
'I'm sorry.' Squall said softly turning to her as the door closed behind them.
'It's okay, I should've realised how much that song would affect you.' Quistis replied gently squeezing his shoulder.
'I don't deserve you.' Squall whispered.
Quistis' jaw dropped in surprise and then twitched into a nervous smile. 'What do you mean?' she asked him.
'All the pain and trouble I cause you and yet still you're beside me, hoping, waiting.' He replied.
'Squall...' she said softly.
'It's true though. I worry that I'll drag you on forever, prevent you from seeking someone else whilst I attempt to sort myself out.' He told her.
'I'm here because I want to be, I'm a part of your life that's what I've wanted most.' Quistis replied her eyes looking into his turbulent ones.
'You're the largest part of my life.' Squall admitted, whispering.
Quistis smiled briefly and blushed slightly.
'Come on, let's go somewhere quiet.' She told him taking his hand.
She led him back to her room and a welcome memory flashed in his mind. The warmth of her body as she held him, her soft breaths on his chest becoming slower as she had drifted to sleep and the peaceful look on her face as he had lay her down on her bed. If only he could be sure it would always be that way.
Quistis closed the door behind him and motioned for him to sit in her well- worn chair.
'What is it that scares you most about us Squall?' she asked finally.
'Wha?' Squall replied surprised.
'You say you worry that you'll drag me along... are you trying to say that you feel something more than friendship for me now?' she asked softly, kneeling down in front of him so she was looking up into his eyes.
'I guess, but I'm not totally sure it's love. Just that I'm always thinking of you, dreaming of you...' he admitted softly looking down at his hands as they gripped the arms of the chair.
'Sounds close to me.' Quistis replied softly, smiling as she rose on her knees.
'And if I'm wrong? I couldn't do that to you again...' he murmured, becoming aware of her as she drew near, whisps of her blonde hair gently stroking against his cheeks as drew closer.
'Shhh... we'll see what happens... if you try to analyse or deny your feelings too much then you'll never know.' She whispered softly her lips brushing his and then pressed against them as she kissed him deeply, her hand sliding up his cheek and her fingers running through his hair as she kissed him harder.
Squall was defenceless but then he knew he didn't want to fight this any more than she'd want him to. He moved into the kiss his hand releasing the arm of the chair and sliding up her back rumpling the fabric of her top and exposing her pale flawless skin.
This time he knew what this was, this wouldn't a repeat of the grief and rage fuelled romp they had before... this was passion and tenderness, the source of which was his deep feelings for her that she was allowing to come to the surface as she caressed and kissed him gently.
The chair creaked beneath them as they continued, Squall finally giving in to his desires, giving himself over to her completely, not just his body but also his soul.
A small part of him could feel something else in all this, the fact that this beginning romance between him and Quistis would lead to something major but he couldn't sense what this was exactly. Instead he let that thought drift away and freed his mind to be consumed by thoughts of the blonde angel before him as passion deepened and they became one.
Author's Note: Well I know I've said this before but this is the end of this fic... although not the end of the story. I've got an extended epilogue for this fic that I'll post as a separate fic as it is much longer than any of the chapters so far. So for those who are interested please keep an eye out for the fic, it's called Welcome Home and might answer a few questions as well as create a few more. Hopefully I'll post it ASAP but then again it does need finishing...
With your body so close to mine, is there anything I need to know? A true love is so hard to find, so why won't you be my Romeo? I will give in, surrender, surrender. Come on baby it will be alright.
Don't Make Me Wait, Bomb The Bass.
It had been a long hard year, one with a lot of changes. Most of them had been extreme changes others were trivial. Deaths, Pregnancies, New romances, Revelations, Deadly strangers, how much could one Commander cope with?
Squall sighed as he sat at his desk with his eyes closed. He seemed to have lost all those close to him. Rinoa had been killed, both Zell and Selphie were caught up in their love lives, Irvine had driven himself insane, Seifer was concerned with other things namely a librarian called Dana Brand who was pregnant by a deceased Nida, he himself had flirted with suicide, had to fight some strange figure from the future, cope with Laguna asserting his paternal rights, yet there was one person who had always been there for him even after he had hurt her.
Squall sighed again. Quistis. He had never realised until exactly what he had in her. She had been his Instructor, took him through his Fire Cavern test, saved his life on his SeeD exam, been a comrade in arms, watched in pain as he had fell for Rinoa before her eyes after he had blown her off. Then when Rinoa had been murdered he had used her in his grief but she had forgiven him even this, she had been with him when he had confronted Laguna and now she was the only one who had time for him in his loneliness.
He worried that he took up too much of her time, that he was making her hang on his every whim. But then he also worried about not having her company, couldn't bear to be in that bleak loneliness ago, not now he had been in the light.
The sound of the door creaking made him smile briefly, she was always trying to sneak into his office to catch him by surprise. He wondered what excuse she'd have today. He opened his eyes and there she was, dressed in her pink and peach outfit that clung to her body and exposed her navel, her blonde hair was tied up in a bun yet whisps hung down over her face, her blue eyes were hidden behind the glass of her spectacles and a smile crept across her lips.
'Quistis?' Squall said softly.
'Was I interrupting anything?' she replied.
'Not really just thinking about this past year.' Squall admitted.
'Oh...' Quistis murmured approaching the desk.
'So what can I do for you today?' Squall asked playing his usual routine.
'More like what I could do for you.' Quistis purred and pushed him back in his chair and then sitting in his lap.
Squall gasped in surprise. 'Quistis...' he murmured.
'Shhh.' Quistis said softly and kissed him.
Squall's eyes opened, his cheek was stuck to a piece of paper, which followed him as he shot upright in shock. His heart was pounding and his breath was heavy as he pulled the offending sheet from his skin and looked around wildly at his empty office. He blinked, puzzled and rubbed his face realising that everything with Quistis had been a dream. He coughed embarrassedly hoping no one had come in and caught him asleep.
It seemed that whatever he felt for Quistis was getting deeper. This concerned him because he knew she would readily become his lover but he didn't want to give in until he was absolutely sure. He was torn by these conflicting feelings and the one person he could talk to about it was the one who was the source of it.
There was no way he was going to go to Laguna with this, not after that fiasco with Caraways attempted assassination, he had shown too much compassion there and no doubt Laguna thought he was warming to him. He didn't want to go to Zell or Selphie and bother them, and he certainly couldn't go to Seifer since he'd just tell him to do it but if he hurt Quistis he'd be in trouble. True he could go to Cid or Edea but they'd probably just be pleased that two of their children had fallen in love.
He leant back in his chair and sighed deeply. He guessed he'd just have to play it cool until he knew exactly what he was feeling.
A knock at the door made him sit up and straighten himself out in an attempt to look official. He coughed and then said 'Enter.'
The door opened and Quistis' face appeared around the door.
Squall quickly pinched himself hard on the leg just in case but found that he was in fact awake this time.
'What's the matter?' he asked her as she approached the desk.
'Nothing, just wondered if you realised how late it was.' She said grinning.
Squall glanced at his clock and saw it was just after eight pm.
'Ah... time just flies when you're having fun.' He said wryly.
'I hope not, you haven't forgot have you?' Quistis asked raising her eyebrow.
'Oh no... I know I said I'd go but I think I'll pass.' He said rapidly.
'Awww come on it'd be fun.' Quistis grinned.
'Forget it, you know Selphie will try and force me to sing!' Squall retorted.
'It's a karaoke Squall what do you expect?' Quistis replied sitting on the edge of his desk.
'I expect to get away with watching other people sing and dance while I hide in the corner drinking.' He answered with disarming honesty.
'Well we can do that.' Quistis smiled and grabbed his arm pulling him up. 'So come on!' she added.
Squall relented and allowed her to drag him to the Quad where Selphie had been busy setting up speakers, television screens and lights for this night. Luckily for him there was a table in a dark corner, which was close to an impromptu bar set up for this night only. He listened with half an ear as Selphie made her introductions and announcements to general applause and then the first victim arrived on stage singing a slow ballad.
He froze in pain as he recognised the song, it had been his and Rinoa's song. The song her mother had written for his own father. He should've expected to hear it, the song had been a hit when it was released and now was a classic. He downed his drink quickly as if the alcohol would drown out the sounds. This drew a concerned look from Quistis and she placed a hand on his and leant close to his ear.
'Do you want to go?' she asked her blue eyes changing colour under the lights, which failed to hide the mixture of emotions hiding there.
Squall just nodded and stood, slowly and carefully weaving his way out the room with Quistis behind him. Luckily everyone was too enthralled by the performance to notice them.
'I'm sorry.' Squall said softly turning to her as the door closed behind them.
'It's okay, I should've realised how much that song would affect you.' Quistis replied gently squeezing his shoulder.
'I don't deserve you.' Squall whispered.
Quistis' jaw dropped in surprise and then twitched into a nervous smile. 'What do you mean?' she asked him.
'All the pain and trouble I cause you and yet still you're beside me, hoping, waiting.' He replied.
'Squall...' she said softly.
'It's true though. I worry that I'll drag you on forever, prevent you from seeking someone else whilst I attempt to sort myself out.' He told her.
'I'm here because I want to be, I'm a part of your life that's what I've wanted most.' Quistis replied her eyes looking into his turbulent ones.
'You're the largest part of my life.' Squall admitted, whispering.
Quistis smiled briefly and blushed slightly.
'Come on, let's go somewhere quiet.' She told him taking his hand.
She led him back to her room and a welcome memory flashed in his mind. The warmth of her body as she held him, her soft breaths on his chest becoming slower as she had drifted to sleep and the peaceful look on her face as he had lay her down on her bed. If only he could be sure it would always be that way.
Quistis closed the door behind him and motioned for him to sit in her well- worn chair.
'What is it that scares you most about us Squall?' she asked finally.
'Wha?' Squall replied surprised.
'You say you worry that you'll drag me along... are you trying to say that you feel something more than friendship for me now?' she asked softly, kneeling down in front of him so she was looking up into his eyes.
'I guess, but I'm not totally sure it's love. Just that I'm always thinking of you, dreaming of you...' he admitted softly looking down at his hands as they gripped the arms of the chair.
'Sounds close to me.' Quistis replied softly, smiling as she rose on her knees.
'And if I'm wrong? I couldn't do that to you again...' he murmured, becoming aware of her as she drew near, whisps of her blonde hair gently stroking against his cheeks as drew closer.
'Shhh... we'll see what happens... if you try to analyse or deny your feelings too much then you'll never know.' She whispered softly her lips brushing his and then pressed against them as she kissed him deeply, her hand sliding up his cheek and her fingers running through his hair as she kissed him harder.
Squall was defenceless but then he knew he didn't want to fight this any more than she'd want him to. He moved into the kiss his hand releasing the arm of the chair and sliding up her back rumpling the fabric of her top and exposing her pale flawless skin.
This time he knew what this was, this wouldn't a repeat of the grief and rage fuelled romp they had before... this was passion and tenderness, the source of which was his deep feelings for her that she was allowing to come to the surface as she caressed and kissed him gently.
The chair creaked beneath them as they continued, Squall finally giving in to his desires, giving himself over to her completely, not just his body but also his soul.
A small part of him could feel something else in all this, the fact that this beginning romance between him and Quistis would lead to something major but he couldn't sense what this was exactly. Instead he let that thought drift away and freed his mind to be consumed by thoughts of the blonde angel before him as passion deepened and they became one.
Author's Note: Well I know I've said this before but this is the end of this fic... although not the end of the story. I've got an extended epilogue for this fic that I'll post as a separate fic as it is much longer than any of the chapters so far. So for those who are interested please keep an eye out for the fic, it's called Welcome Home and might answer a few questions as well as create a few more. Hopefully I'll post it ASAP but then again it does need finishing...