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Stars
By: Ceres
E-mail: miyacka@yahoo.com
Chapter Three: My Home
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I sat beside the window, blankly. Nothing seems to enter my mind. No matter how much I tried forgetting about it, I still can see Sakura giving up herself to some man.

And that man isn't me.

I am a man. My temper, pride---my emotions in whole were unstoppable. But however, I could also swallow my pride at certain reasons.

If I were with Sakura all this time...
If I came earlier...
If I fought for our love since the day were to separate...

Many more ifs entered my mind. I have to say it is my fault in many certain ways. Because I am the one who left her.

But then...

She promised to be mine...
She gave the vow unto the stars...
She told me that she would wait...

Must she wait forever?

I didn't realize that my eyes were brimming with tears. Men do not cry...right?

"Knock! Knock! Knock!" powerful knocks were heard from my room's door. It must be Meilin.

"You may enter," I said trying to sound strong and happy (though I believe, it didn't work), brushing my tears away.

I heard the doorknob twisted. "Syaoran, I suppose, I could..."

"You could enter," I repeated. "And I don't want to repeat that again."

I heard not a word from her. After hearing the door close, Meilin carefully approached me.

"Syaoran," she stopped beside my chair.

I remained silent.

"Syaoran, many things," she said. "So many things had changed."

"Yeah," I said. "So many did change."

"What do you plan to do tomorrow?" she asked.

"I want to go home," I answered without thinking.

"But where is your home?" she asked.

"I---" I paused. "In Hong Kong of course!"

"No," Meilin shook her head. "No, that isn't home at all at least for you, Syaoran."

"What do mean, Meilin?" Her questions really make me crazy sometimes.

'Where did you feel the warmth, Syaoran?" she asked. "Where did you feel that you are not alone because you felt that whatever happens, you will be safe?"

"Mei-"

She continued talking. "If you answer my question, then you found home," she smiled at me. "And I want you to return to your home, alright-y? Good night, cousin. Pleasant dreams!"

She walked away and after hearing the door slowly close, again I feel alone. I stare again at the infinite night sky. And its beauty awed me. Thousands and thousands of stars sparkle. I stood up and looked at them closer and magically they form the figure of my beloved.

My beloved, Sakura...

She was smiling at me. Her eyes were still gentle. Her arms were wide open.

"Syaoran!" she then shouted my name. "Come back soon...I am waiting!"

"S-Sakura!" my eyes grew wide. "SAKURA!"

I have the answer to Meilin's questions. Sakura is my home.

And I won't let anyone get my home away from me.

"I am waiting..."

"Syaoran,"

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I close the door quietly and I smiled. I hope that I enlightened my cousin Syaoran.

"You are still a little boy," I said quietly as I heard him yell the name of Sakura. "And you will never going to grow up."

It has been years since I let you go. I believe that that is the best way to make you happy. Your happiness counts. Always.

But wait, what about my own happiness, Syaoran?

Even though I had a series of boyfriends in the past, my heart still belongs to you.

I thought that this would be over after a while. I thought all I feel for you is a childhood fling. But I was wrong.

I still love you Syaoran.

Aren't you happy, I finally let you go?

But could you please let go of my heart now?

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Author's Notes:
A very short chapter. However, I made it very meaningful or had I ^.^?
It's been a while readers. I was very busy in school. But a big thank you to God for the sembreak!
Please read and review! Flames are very welcome too ^_^.