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//...Stars...//
Chapter Five: The Morning to See
by: Kinomoto Touya
Author's Notes: Atashi no Shiawase! I dunno if this shall be the second to the last chapter or not but I am happy I (and of course, you, dear readers ^0^) made it this far. Secrets are already revealed, so what is next, you ask? Well, of course, that is your job to find out. Anyway, since I am writing this at Valentine's Day, I do hope, all of you were happy this day...tee hee, I am not 0_o...

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I realized who my beloved was
More and more I felt in love
Gradually, finally, you're the only one
Always call me, because I will believe in you

-Kinomoto Sakura, Hitotsu Dake (My Only One)

Chapter Five: The Morning to See

The smell of spring. Cherry Blossoms gently flew down on earth, concealing every little sorrow and burden the world have. But in my case, the site of Cherry Blossoms only give my heart pain. Pain wherein, nothing could ever heal. Though, it is really spring, I always feel that I am in eternal autumn and winter---I am both in the loneliness and the cold. And no one can go and protect me in her loving arms.

Yes, I am only a man. A man that can also be weak and alone.

This night, this very night, people would go outside their houses to watch the Cherry Blossoms bloom beautifully in the night. They are together with their families, friends and even lovers.

"Darling," a long-haired young woman cling fondly to her husband. "Darling, look how beautiful the Cherry Blossoms are in the night. Oh, how I wish..." her cheeks turned crimson. "That this moment, shall never end forever."

"It will not," the man smiled. "For as long as you are with me, you will be happy. It will always be spring in our hearts."

The two laughed whole-heartedly and stared at each other's twinkling eyes. And vowed their love again and again for each other. Under the sturdy Cherry Blossom tree, they shared a kiss---a magical one. Surely, no words could ever describe their feelings.

Seeing happy lovers both gave me joyfulness and agony. I am joyful, for they had found their only one---the person who will love them for who they are, who'll love the goodness and badness in him, the one who will share both joy and sorrow memories. Nevertheless, I feel in agony for I do not have the person I love the most beside me. I found her, but she is gone. Such a fool I am to let her escape my hands.

Sakura-chan...

I still hear you everywhere I go---the sound of your voice and your laughter. I cherish them dearly, that is why I learned how to be smile and how to find happiness.

And you know what, you are my happiness.

At these times, that I am thinking of you, I wonder if you ever think of me too. If you also think that I am harmed or safe, sad or happy.

Oh, Sakura, you just don't know how much I miss you. I wanted to see you again, but...

The question is: Do you want to see me?

"You are..." a voice then called behind me. "You are Li, Li Syaoran, am I right?"

I turned around, I know I heard that voice somewhere, and to my surprise it was...

"YOU," Before I knew it, I was running to his direction. I pulled his shirt's neckline. A normal person would scream but he was there, his eyes talks that he isn't afraid at all whatever will happen to him.

"What about me?" he spoke, unafraid. That tone even made me feel more annoyed. It makes me want to lift my fists and blow every anger flowing in my vein and the endless pain he had caused me to his face. The scene wherein he was kissing Sakura-chan keeps on entering my mind and driving me crazy!

I scowled. "You are that ' Daidoji Hikaru', right?" I asked angrily. "Just who the hell are you?"

"I am not Daidoji Hikaru," he answered, expressionlessly. "I do not even know who I really am."

"What damn thing you are saying?!" I roared, I can't help myself even if the whole Japan is looking at the both of us. "Do you think I'll pity you with all the things you are saying?! The nerve of you!"

"Say all the things you want," he expressionlessly spoke. "Do the things you want to do, despise me as if I come from hell. If that will help you unleash your anger and pain, then do it. But I, I won't do anything. I'll never fight a man as lonely and as miserable as I am."

"Do not compare me to yourself!" I roared even louder. "I am not you! I am not lonely nor miserable."

"No," he shook his head. "You lie. I could see your emptiness and longing drawn into your eyes," he held my right fist and placed it near his right cheek. "Even if you are angry. That is why, you can do all you want to me. And I want to say I am sorry..."

He added, "Sakura's heart still belongs to you. And I just realized just now that you truly love her."

Suddenly, I felt weakness hearing those words. Sakura still loves me. I just cannot believe it. I was about to let him go, when I then tightened my grasp on his shirt's neckline.

"YOU BETTER BE SURE THAT YOU ARE TELLING THE TRUTH!" I bellowed. "BECAUSE I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU IF EVER YOU ARE LYING TO ME!"

"Eh? Of course I am saying the truth." he turned his eyes away from me and saw him blush for the very first time. "I only dated her and kissed her because my beloved woman told me so...I never loved Sakura either, well perhaps, I loved her as a friend. She is indeed a very unique and wonderful person, I'll tell you now, go get her, You'll never know how much you'll miss."

I released him with a push so powerful, he landed painfully on the ground. I turned around him, and without hesitation ran. His words keep on repeating in my ear. But...

"I only dated her and kissed her because my beloved woman told me so."

I then stopped and thought, 'Who is the woman he does love?'

I have no one else but her as my guess...

Of course, the person in my mind isn't Sakura-chan.

Could she be?

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I wish for your happiness, Syaoran.

To tell you the truth, I was scared inside when he was holding me like that moments ago. I really thought that he will really end me.

"Are you alright?" the people were asking me worriedly. "Did that weird man strangle or hurt you?"

"No," I stood up and cleared myself. "He didn't hurt me. I am alright. Thank you."

When I was about to walk away from the crowd, I saw 'her' standing amidst them.

"Onii-chan," her eyes were trembling with fear.

"It's you," I said, bowing down. "Did you see everything that happened between me and him?"

"Yes," she nodded, beads of tears formed by her eyes but she was smiling angelically.

"Then you know..."

"I know..."

My impulses overpowered my thinking. Before I knew it, she was already in my arms. I then tightened my embrace to her even more. You just can't imagine how much I love her.

"Gomenasai," I uttered as tears flew down from my eyes to her head. "Gomenasai."

"It is alright," she said tenderly, it is alright."

I then suddenly pushed her back when I realized that the whole Tokyo was staring at as, clapping their hands wholeheartedly. They were happy, very happy to see us together.

"I wish the both of you shall be together!" a woman in red said.

"You two are so perfect for each other!" a group of school girls squealed.

"Seek the best for the both of you!" an elderly man advised.

"Do not let her cry," a little preschool boy said. "If you'll ever do that, I'll take her away from you when I grew up and become an man. She is such a pretty girl you know."

She clasp her chest, while I placed my hand on her shoulder.

This is my most profound moment.

The world is indeed beautiful, as the stars from up above watches everything love had made happy.

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"Guys," I said heavily breathing. Rika is baking a cake in the kitchen and cooking other sort of foods such as sushi and a Hong Kong specialty dumpling, Shao Mai, Naoko and Meilin arranging the 'party' tables and Chiharu is choosing a dress for me as well as applying some make-up on it. "I appreciate what you are doing. But I honestly think that it won't work. Syaoran-chan...he hates me."

Meilin frowned.

"What are you saying?" she blurted to my face. "This will work. And why are you like that--" she sniffed. "You just do not know how much he wanted to see you again. And I am sure that you are lonely too."

"I am," I said, bowing down. "But I...sinned against him. And I...am not as strong as you are."

"NOT STRONG AS I AM?" Meilin bellowed too loudly. "WITH ALL YOU'VE BEEN TOO SINCE THE FIRST DAY I SAW YOU, WITH ALL THE TRIALS GIVEN TO YOU AND SYAORAN? YOU ARE ACTUALLY---" she turned away from me. "Kinomoto, you are a lot stronger than me..."

"I am?" I asked.

"Of course you are," Meilin placed her hands on her waist. "Argh...how can I explain this? Where is Daidoji when you needed her? She is the only one who can make you understand."

"Understand what?"

"Oh nothing," she said sarcastically, rolling her eyes. "There is nothing to understand except you and Syaoran will finally meet again later. Talk, will you?"

"W-what will I say?"

"Tell the truth," Chiharu said. "You've already told us you side of story. We knew very well that you are sorry. i know, he will understand."

Those words of Chiharu comforted me a little. "But I am still not sure."

"You know, we know that you wanted to see him," Naoko told me. "Now this is your chance."

"But...but..."

"No buts," Meilin said, with an assuring smile. "Just ready yourself and smile."

I am so grateful to have friends like them, especially Meilin-chan. I know how much she likes Syaoran-chan but she is the one who organized this party in my house.

I do not really know how to feel towards myself, though. Seeing myself in the mirror, remembering what had happened makes me want to hate myself more and more.

Now you ask, "What do I still feel about Syaoran?" My answer is:

I still love him.

Not just with my heart but with all of me.

That is the truth.

Nevertheless, I want to know his side, his story. I want to know if he still likes me. I do not think that he does like me anymore.

But does he still loves me?

"What the hell is happening outside?" Meilin peaked at the window. I didn't realized that there is some weird noise outside.

Before I could even go peak the window too, Naoko cried, "An ambulance!"

"I think there is a car accident or something," Chiharu chipped in.

An ambulance? My heart then sank down the stomach. I cannot understand why but as if a part of me was totally devastated.

"Sakura, wait!"

I rushed to the door without even thinking. Running to the site where the accident or something happened. The girls including Rika followed me and we just can't believe what we just saw.

A young man about my age is there bathing in blood. He had lost his consciousness, barely even breathing. He broke his left ribs, wounded his whole body and broke his left arm, we heard the specialists say.

We walked closer to the site to see who the accident person was.

It was..

It was...

"SYAORAN!"

I wept so hard. I do not know what to do. The girls comforted me, but they didn't help me a bit. No one can ever comfort me. I also felt the suffering in me, wishing that I am the one hurt instead of him.

The star-filled night turned into a gloomy starless one. Even the beautiful crescent moon decided to hide behind the dark forlorn clouds.

This cannot be happening!

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Author's Notes: Wai! I finished it. I really enjoyed writing this chapter especially the mushy ones for today is Valentine's day, everyone is talking about la la love! I liked the outcome of the character of Hikaru/Rei. I mixed the character of Touya-chan and Eriol-kun to make him...hohoho!

Anyway, the whole chapter is yes influenced by Sakura's song to Syaoran, 'Hitotsu Dake' and Chobit's Chii's 'I hear you everywhere'. Cute and sentimental Japanese character song!

Also, there are so many parts of this story that I just planned when I was writing it like Tomoyo+Rei's relationship and Syaoran's accident. Actually, my original plan is to make this chapter very happy...Syaoran and Sakura will again meet unexpectedly. Hehehe...well, that is how stories work -_-.

Please...do review, I really needed it. Especially now, the epilogue is about to come ^_^!

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