STOP CRYING YOUR HEART OUT
"She represented everything I wanted... but yet... I couldn't take her." That was all in Brennan's thoughts. It had been just 2 days after he returned to Sanctuary. Everyone there supporting him and telling him how important he was for the team and them. Emma herself had offered hundreds of times to talk to him about his feelings, but he rejected her each time. He didn't feel like opening up. All he thought was WHY? Why he left Miranda? Suddenly knocking brought him back to reality. It was Jesse.
"Hey Brennan, we're going out for dinner.. get ready.." Jesse informed as he was gonna leave.
"Thanks but Im staying." He said as cold as ice. He hadn't left the room in days and wasn't feeling like starting either.
"But Brennan, we're all going, just get yourself dressed knock it off!" Jesse said mad. He was angry at his friend for what he had been doing to himself, and Shalimar. Yeah, Jesse could read the pair as an open book.
"Knock it off??? Has he just said that???" Brennan thought. "You know what Jess? Im not in the mood to talk to you right now, so if I were you I'll really leave... like NOW."
"Fine Brennan.." Jesse said pissed. In his way he found Emma all dressed up, Adam next to her, but not Shal.
"Shal is not coming." Emma read his mind.
"oh... and I take that's because..." Jesse stopped. He was pissed indeed, but he was going too far. "Let's just go..."
"Yeah..." Emma agreed as they headed to leave Sanctuary.
(* * *)
Shalimar was eating as she saw Brennan approaching. She peeked at him once, and then went back to her meal. Something told her she wasn't really hungry now. They haven't talked since all the Miranda stuff, and even she wanted to, she had seen him. And that was killing her. The very thought of him kissing Miranda was all she could imagine. Suddenly she realised Brennan was sitting next to her. They ate in silence, not daring to look at each other's eyes as Brennan broke the silence.
"Shal, can you pass me the salt?" He asked, again not meeting her eyes. Shalimar barely moved, she took the salt and left it nearer him. Brennan took it and looked at her. "Is something... wrong?" He dared to ask. He knew what was wrong.
"Something wrong? No, there's nothing wrong Brennan.." Shalimar said as she stood up and headed to the sparring room. Now Brennan could hear her punching the bag so hard that it almoast hurted him the way she was hurting herself. "That's enough." He said and stood up. He went exactly where Shalimar was sparring.
"Hey Shal..." He called for her. Shalimar ignored him as she went on kicking and punching the bag. Brennan approached to her and stopped her from going on. "SHAL!"
"What?" She asked as she hadn't noticed him.
"Shalimar we gotta talk." Brennan said as he softly took her hands im his.
"Sorry Bren, not in the mood.." She said freeing her hands and returning to the punching.
"Shal please... give me a chance to explain you.." He was cut off.
"Explain me? Suddenly you are all talky now... again, I dont wanna hear you right now..." Shalimar snapped at him.
"God she's mad..." Brennan thought as he couldn't help to look deeper in the feral's eyes.
"What are you looking at now? Didn't you hear a word?" She said even madder than before.
"Shal I really have to talk to you... it's important... please." Brennan said so honestly that Shal couldn't keep refusing. She looked at him and thought she was gonna start crying. Shalimar followed Brennan to his room and supported herself against the door. Brennan stood next to her.
"Well?" She asked as she crossed her arms.
"Shal, every since Miranda I have wanted to talk to you..." Brennan started.
"Oh did you? Then why didn't you?" She asked obviously.
"I wasn't sure... of... you know.. us.." He said again. Shalimar was seeing a whole new picture of Brennan, he was vulnerable and talking so openly as they did before Miranda. She had to smiled at that. Those times...
"You're smiling." Brennan indicated.
"No im not..." She answered quickly as she drew a serious face again.
"Shal I want you to know... Im sorry."
"What for? You didn't do anything wrong, did ya?" She said obviously enphatizing the fact that she didn't care what he did, but thing was: she actually cared, a lot.
"For leaving you guys... for being a total jerk.." He added. Shalimar approached to him and looked at his eyes.
"Well apologies accepted.. now... I should get going.." Shalimar was heading towards the door but Brennan stopped her.
"Shal, please... tell me why is that your mad at me? I don't think I will be able to take this anymore..." Brennan said again. Shalimar's heart broke.
"like he doesn't know why Im mad... sometimes he could be such a blind person..."
"Shalimar..." Brennan said to her. She turned and started to cry. "Shal please don't cry on me... tell me what's wrong.."
"Can't believe you don't know..." She said hurted. Brennan approached even more and hughed her. "Brennan don't do this..." She pleaded. Brennan didn't listen. He conforted her and then broke the hugh to look at her more intensively. He placed one hand on her chin and leaned to kiss her. The kiss was extremely pasionated, Brennan had his hands around her waist now as she had placed hers on his hair. Heat was rising as the pair went on kisssing, exploring each other's mouths when Shal suddenly broke appart.
"No.. no I don't want this! What could have happened if you stayed uh? You're just using me 'cause you are missing her!" She said hurted and left quickly.
"Shal!!!" Brennan shouted but she was gone too far by then. He decided she should have a little time to herself as he tried to figure out what just came into him. "It was her... She kept me here... she has always been keeping me here.." Brennan realised. He knew he had feeelings for the feral, he knew that from the first moment he saw her he knew she was something especial, but now it was different. He realised the truth. He realised what he had feared almoast his whole life. Love, need... yeah, he loved her, but worst of all, he needed her with him.
END OF CHAPTER ONE. Author notes: Mari this one is for you luv, I know is kinda short but you wait for chap 2... its gonna be only 2 chapters long, as is kinda a missing scenes fic... tell me if you liked it, and if you didn't too, tell me what should i have done better and stuff... and you all can review too I let ya... Paris BYK
"She represented everything I wanted... but yet... I couldn't take her." That was all in Brennan's thoughts. It had been just 2 days after he returned to Sanctuary. Everyone there supporting him and telling him how important he was for the team and them. Emma herself had offered hundreds of times to talk to him about his feelings, but he rejected her each time. He didn't feel like opening up. All he thought was WHY? Why he left Miranda? Suddenly knocking brought him back to reality. It was Jesse.
"Hey Brennan, we're going out for dinner.. get ready.." Jesse informed as he was gonna leave.
"Thanks but Im staying." He said as cold as ice. He hadn't left the room in days and wasn't feeling like starting either.
"But Brennan, we're all going, just get yourself dressed knock it off!" Jesse said mad. He was angry at his friend for what he had been doing to himself, and Shalimar. Yeah, Jesse could read the pair as an open book.
"Knock it off??? Has he just said that???" Brennan thought. "You know what Jess? Im not in the mood to talk to you right now, so if I were you I'll really leave... like NOW."
"Fine Brennan.." Jesse said pissed. In his way he found Emma all dressed up, Adam next to her, but not Shal.
"Shal is not coming." Emma read his mind.
"oh... and I take that's because..." Jesse stopped. He was pissed indeed, but he was going too far. "Let's just go..."
"Yeah..." Emma agreed as they headed to leave Sanctuary.
(* * *)
Shalimar was eating as she saw Brennan approaching. She peeked at him once, and then went back to her meal. Something told her she wasn't really hungry now. They haven't talked since all the Miranda stuff, and even she wanted to, she had seen him. And that was killing her. The very thought of him kissing Miranda was all she could imagine. Suddenly she realised Brennan was sitting next to her. They ate in silence, not daring to look at each other's eyes as Brennan broke the silence.
"Shal, can you pass me the salt?" He asked, again not meeting her eyes. Shalimar barely moved, she took the salt and left it nearer him. Brennan took it and looked at her. "Is something... wrong?" He dared to ask. He knew what was wrong.
"Something wrong? No, there's nothing wrong Brennan.." Shalimar said as she stood up and headed to the sparring room. Now Brennan could hear her punching the bag so hard that it almoast hurted him the way she was hurting herself. "That's enough." He said and stood up. He went exactly where Shalimar was sparring.
"Hey Shal..." He called for her. Shalimar ignored him as she went on kicking and punching the bag. Brennan approached to her and stopped her from going on. "SHAL!"
"What?" She asked as she hadn't noticed him.
"Shalimar we gotta talk." Brennan said as he softly took her hands im his.
"Sorry Bren, not in the mood.." She said freeing her hands and returning to the punching.
"Shal please... give me a chance to explain you.." He was cut off.
"Explain me? Suddenly you are all talky now... again, I dont wanna hear you right now..." Shalimar snapped at him.
"God she's mad..." Brennan thought as he couldn't help to look deeper in the feral's eyes.
"What are you looking at now? Didn't you hear a word?" She said even madder than before.
"Shal I really have to talk to you... it's important... please." Brennan said so honestly that Shal couldn't keep refusing. She looked at him and thought she was gonna start crying. Shalimar followed Brennan to his room and supported herself against the door. Brennan stood next to her.
"Well?" She asked as she crossed her arms.
"Shal, every since Miranda I have wanted to talk to you..." Brennan started.
"Oh did you? Then why didn't you?" She asked obviously.
"I wasn't sure... of... you know.. us.." He said again. Shalimar was seeing a whole new picture of Brennan, he was vulnerable and talking so openly as they did before Miranda. She had to smiled at that. Those times...
"You're smiling." Brennan indicated.
"No im not..." She answered quickly as she drew a serious face again.
"Shal I want you to know... Im sorry."
"What for? You didn't do anything wrong, did ya?" She said obviously enphatizing the fact that she didn't care what he did, but thing was: she actually cared, a lot.
"For leaving you guys... for being a total jerk.." He added. Shalimar approached to him and looked at his eyes.
"Well apologies accepted.. now... I should get going.." Shalimar was heading towards the door but Brennan stopped her.
"Shal, please... tell me why is that your mad at me? I don't think I will be able to take this anymore..." Brennan said again. Shalimar's heart broke.
"like he doesn't know why Im mad... sometimes he could be such a blind person..."
"Shalimar..." Brennan said to her. She turned and started to cry. "Shal please don't cry on me... tell me what's wrong.."
"Can't believe you don't know..." She said hurted. Brennan approached even more and hughed her. "Brennan don't do this..." She pleaded. Brennan didn't listen. He conforted her and then broke the hugh to look at her more intensively. He placed one hand on her chin and leaned to kiss her. The kiss was extremely pasionated, Brennan had his hands around her waist now as she had placed hers on his hair. Heat was rising as the pair went on kisssing, exploring each other's mouths when Shal suddenly broke appart.
"No.. no I don't want this! What could have happened if you stayed uh? You're just using me 'cause you are missing her!" She said hurted and left quickly.
"Shal!!!" Brennan shouted but she was gone too far by then. He decided she should have a little time to herself as he tried to figure out what just came into him. "It was her... She kept me here... she has always been keeping me here.." Brennan realised. He knew he had feeelings for the feral, he knew that from the first moment he saw her he knew she was something especial, but now it was different. He realised the truth. He realised what he had feared almoast his whole life. Love, need... yeah, he loved her, but worst of all, he needed her with him.
END OF CHAPTER ONE. Author notes: Mari this one is for you luv, I know is kinda short but you wait for chap 2... its gonna be only 2 chapters long, as is kinda a missing scenes fic... tell me if you liked it, and if you didn't too, tell me what should i have done better and stuff... and you all can review too I let ya... Paris BYK