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Chapter 8: Needing You
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Rin let the door slam behind her and dropped Sesshomaru's arm. Her eyes burned, and she crossed her arms over her chest, looking straight ahead. The silence was roaring and deafening Sesshomaru's mortal ears. Why it is he hadn't regained his strengths yet was more then even he could understand. He noted however, with satisfaction, that almost all of his hair had returned to it's normal color. Silver.
"Rin, where do you intend to lead me?" Sesshomaru asked. He didn't like being in the dark. She shot him an icy glare over her shoulder and continued onward. They walked on past the high school, where the parking lot was full of cars for the basketball game. Kisho had invited her to come watch with him, but she had work.
Anyway, she kept on walking until they reached the elementary school playground. Sesshomaru looked around and was flooded with images from Rosuto's past: sliding down the slide, swinging on the swings, getting dirty into the dirt. Sesshomaru cringed. What fun do humans find in playing with sand and mud? Where is the amusement in something like that?
To Sesshomaru's surprise, Rin abandoned him to the earth and climbed onto one of the wooden structures. It gave her quite some height and she looked down at him in her best "I'm the Queen of the World" Look. It made Sesshomaru proud.
"What is it Rin? Have you decided to speak?"
In truth, she was about to do so, but the knowing-ness in his voice caused her to rethink that.
"Rin, you are no longer a mute, so why do you see fit to give me the 'cold shoulder'? I don't understand. I'd think you'd be happy to see me. Me. Not some human impostor."
Rin turned on him. "Impostor? You call him an impostor? I doubt he asked to be in the same body as you - to have his life ripped away for reasons he can't understand. Hell! I can't understand." Rin stood up and began pacing along the wooden planks. Sesshomaru watched in amazement and wondered how this clumsy girl could possess such balance.
Scratch that.
After a minute or so, Rin lost that amazing balance. Obviously, she had yet to outgrow her clumsiness. Luckily for her, Sesshomaru was right there to catch her. Rin's face caught on fire as she was held there in the air.
"Put me down!" She yelled, kicking her feet like a child. A child is exactly what Sesshomaru thought she looked like at the moment. She hadn't grown all that much in the years. Perhaps an inch or so, two at the most. He could probably still inclose her hand in his own with room to spare. The thought of this was tempting, but it incinerated once he remembered the girl's fiery temper. Rin had thrown her share of fits in the past, and Sesshomaru wasn't exactly sure how much damage this body could withstand.
"Sesshomaru." Rin growled. He was taken slightly aback when she didn't add the traditional '-sama' to his name.
Setting her down lightly, he admitted quietly, "You've grown."
"Yeah, well. You wouldn't have known that would you?"
Despite how much that remark hurt him, there was no chance he would reveal it to anyway. Besides... Rin was showing enough pain for the both of them. She was losing her composure - fast. In a most uncharacteristic way, Sesshomaru stepped as close to the girl as he dared. She jumped back a step, shook her head, and began to leave.
"Rin, wait." He called, grabbing her wrist. She didn't move and they stood like that, arms length apart.
"It hurt."
"I wish it didn't."
"I cried."
"I wish I could have stopped it."
"You left me."
"I had no choice."
"I offered my help and you turned me away." Rin's voice wobbled dangerously and Sesshomaru was hit with something close to guilt.
"I'm sorry."
"I needed you then!"
"I need you now," Sesshomaru told her calmly. Rin turned on him, her eyes already brimming with tears.
"So now when you need me, I'm suddenly important?" She accused, "You've obviously been possessing Ro-"
Sesshomaru covered her mouth and gave her a cold glare. "Do not say that name."
Rin's eyes were wide as she continued, but as commanded, she didn't say his name. "You've obviously been possessing him for some time now, and never once have you thought about finding me?! What about when I needed you? Didn't I matter then?"
"Rin..."
"Do you know how bad it hurt? I wanted to die... I watched you die and there was nothing I could do! I watched you die and I wished I had died too!"
Sesshomaru closed his eyes as Rin yelled. He wasn't supposed to be feeling this way... He, Demon Lord of the Western Lands, was feeling... Bad. Worst then bad.
'It must be that human's fault' he thought. He cut off the protests of the frightened mortal, concentrating his focus on the one in front of him. Rosuto's cries fell on deaf ears.
"Let me go!" Rin yelled, attempting to free her hand from Sesshomaru's grip. He didn't loosen his hold, but instead pulled her closer, almost into a hug.
"I hate you..." She shuddered, still trying to break free. "I hate you..."
Rin's whole body shook with emotion and Sesshomaru closed the distance between them. Shaking her head vehemently, Rin tried to push him away. Nevertheless, Sesshomaru held onto her, flinching as Rin started to beat at his chest. She had gotten stronger, that's for sure. Normally Sesshomaru wouldn't even notice, but this body was weak, exhausted from Sesshomaru's release. He could feel every punch.
Eventually, Rin realized that Sesshomaru's grip was just as strong as before, part human or otherwise. She gave up trying to get away and let her arms drop, placing them on Sesshomaru's waist. Then Rin did something that horrified Sesshomaru to no end. She started to cry.
Wincing, Sesshomaru held her face in his hands, wiping the tears away with his thumbs. Rin looked up at him in surprise and a blush spread over her face as she realized how close she was to him. If she just leaned her head forward a bit...
"You're beautiful these days. Did you know that?" Sesshomaru inquired in a soft voice that Rin had only heard a handful of times. Even then, it had only been used toward the end of their relationship and only when no one else was around to hear it.
This statement only made Rin cry harder and she threw herself closer. Sesshomaru took an involuntary step back in surprise, but after the shock wore off, hugged her tighter. Careful to be discreet, Sesshomaru ran his claw-free hand through Rin's hair and took a deep breath, allowing Rin's scent of lilacs to overcome his sense. Rin always smelt like lilacs.
Being so enticed with the lack of space between himself and Rin, Sesshomaru paid no mind to the rustling of bushes behind him. He didn't even glance when the sound of footsteps pounding on the pavement began to fade away.
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Heehee! *has fun playing with the Character Select thingy*
Convo between Kelli and I:
K:"You haven't updated anything in a while."
M:"I have too! Lost to be Found."
K:"Which wasn't your best chapter!"
M:"...You just didn't like it because there was no fluff!"
Yeah, so there's your fluff everyone x.x no kisses yet, but I think it was cute enough . Next chapter may take a while to come out v.v; I've got to think up a way for Sessy to have died. *ponder*........*sweatdrop* Bare with me here.
I'm not sure how long this is going to be. *rubs head* Hopefully no longer then 25 chapters. Even then, I think that would be dragging it out. x.x but who knows. Nothing I plan ever ends up happening the way I plan anyway. O.o if that made any sense whatsoever.
"What would I do without you?"
"You'd die!"
x.x thank you Margo-chan. If you didn't know already, she's my beta. XD and she thought of the title... 'Cause I couldn't v.v;
*just downloaded the Jap. Version of 1000 words FMV ;-; it's so different from the English... *scared*