A/N: Author's notes have been removed due to ff.net's notice about chat dialogue being used in this.. x.x oy.. gomen-nasai!

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Watashi no Tenshi Sukuinushi
(My Angel Savior)
Chapter 4: Confusion and Loneliness
By: Nadako-Mika

(( Bakura's P.O.V ))

I only closed my eyes for a second when I found myself in the corridor that separated my hikari's soulroom from mine. I saw Ryou walk into my soulroom. I was furious, how dare he intrude upon my space! I was quite sure I had locked that door. I wanted to yell at him, but I found that my voice wouldn't come out. I opened my mouth to shout again, but still no sound. I had stopped to wonder why I couldn't speak, until I heard Ryou call my name out.

"B-Bakura-sama?...Bakura-sama? Are you here?"

Then I heard my voice. But I hadn't spoken a word, so someone or something else had spoken. My voice was still caught in my throat.

"What are you doing here?!" I...eh...IT sounded furious.

Ryou must have thought it was me because he ran. He tried to run out my soul room door, but it slammed shut before he could reach it. I ran towards the door and tried to open it, but I couldn't. How can I not get into my own soulroom? Then, the strangest thing happened. Some portal or another opened up. I could see right through the concrete door! The scene before my eyes shocked me. There I was... or another me, advancing on my hikari.

"Why?...Ryou, Should I let you go? Haven't I told you before, if you ever disturbed my soul room, that I would have to punish you?" I -he- said.

"B-Bakura-sama-"

"Don't 'Bakura-sama' me!" The other me lashed out at Ryou with a knife. My eyes narrowed in furry. I was the only one who could hurt Ryou...but...isn't that me hurting him anyways?

I watched the scene once again. Ryou had tears flowing down his face. The other me was bringing the bloody knife closer to my hikari's mid-section. He was going to hurt Ryou.

"STOP! WAIT! You can't hurt him! I'm the only one who can do that!" I yelled out, "Someone stop me! I mean...Him."

I was confused. Why didn't they hear me? The other me was still advancing on my hikari and smirking evilly. I tried to push my hand through the so called 'portal'. No one hurts my hikari without my permission! I found that the portal was still solid. It had the same texture as my soulroom door. I couldn't get through, the thing only acted as a window. Out of frustration I started pounding on the door and shouting threats at the imposter. Suddenly, Ryou tenses up and falls limp onto the ground. The bastard had stuck the knife into his abdomen, and now was walking away. Ooh...wait till I get my hands on that son of a...

The picture faded away and I was soon staring at the patterns on my door. The door quietly cracked open, and I quickly pried it open wider. Blood was pooling around Ryou's still form. My stomach flipped as the smell of copper filled the air. I placed my hand on his blood drenched back. He was getting cold... I felt him tense up as soon as I touched him.

"It's alright Ryou...I'm here now,"

"Tenshi?" he asked in a small voice. Angel? What angel? He's probably hallucinating from the blood loss.

"I'm sorry Ryou. I'm sorry I couldn't have gotten here sooner," I turned him over and saw that the dagger had dug deeper into his flesh[1], only the dark bloody handle was shown. I felt his body go limp as he sighed contently.

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That was a strange dream... Where did it come from? It had felt so real. I had felt Ryou's warm blood in the dream, and I could still feel a slight tingle in the center of my palm. Why had I seen MYSELF hurting Ryou like that? I would never do that to him, would I? I shook my head harshly. Am I feeling regret towards him? Couldn't be. It's not my fault that Ryou's in a mental institution. He's the one that started hallucinating! Angel-savior, Psh.

I got dressed and headed downstairs, half expecting to see my hikari up and cooking breakfast. But I was greeted with emptiness. No Hikari, no food, no nothing. Just me and the empty house. I opened the fridge door, only to realize that I didn't know how to cook. I hadn't realized that Ryou was one who made all the meals. I sighed and walked back into my room. Maybe I'll go out to eat. I had money after all. I'm the one with the job. I didn't go to school like Yami and Marik, I had to work to support both Ryou and I.

Just before I opened the door to leave, the doorbell rang. Slightly surprised by the sudden sound I turn the knob. The pharaoh and his hikari were standing there. "What do you want?" my voice was cold and hard.

The little one only smiled cheerfully. How can he be so happy all the time? "Is Ryou ill?"

"Why do you ask?" I snapped.

Yuugi's smile never faded. "Well," he answered, "He wasn't at school for two days now, and he never misses school. We're worried that he caught something bad. He usually comes to school no matter how sick he is."

Ah yes. Ryou always did love school. I don't know how he could though. From what I hear, school is like a prison. Teachers lecturing about unimportant history and what not. Having to sit for hours finishing your work. And I hear their food is AWFUL. But Ryou still loved school. He tried to never miss a day. One time, he had gotten a bad flu and had gone to school, though his father objected, only to be sent home by his teacher. When he had gotten home, his fever worsened. He ended up staying in bed for half a week. Ryou was absolutely furious!

"Well, he was already headed for school in that direction," I pointed out.

Yuugi looked down the street and merely blinked. The Pharaoh on the other hand, gave me a suspicious look. "We came down that way and never saw him."

"Are you sure?" I tried to sound calm, if they found out where Ryou really was, what would they do to me?

"Yes."

"Well he did!" I yelled stubbornly. I turned to slam the door when Yami called out.

"Bakura. You're hiding something."

"What?"

"You're hiding something from us."

"Am not. Why would I do such a thing?" I asked.

"So you wouldn't get into any trouble," Yami stated simply.

Gah! Curse that Pharaoh. He just always has to ruin everything! I huffed, "Alright, what do you want to know?" No use hiding it now...

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Pain shot through my body as I woke up. What had happened? I'm sure that wasn't a dream. I had gone into my soul room to rest...then I went to Bakura's room. That's where it all started, the beatings, the taunting. Why does he want to hurt me so much? I've never done anything to him. One thing that confused me was why I couldn't get out. I was in my own mind afte all. Something kept me from awaking in the physical world.

Bakura-sama...so he's my demon. I should have known, he's the one that's been taunting me in my dreams, his spirit following me where ever I go. No wonder he couldn't sense the demon's presence. It was HIM.

A wave of pain struck me as I tried to sit up. Why did it hurt so much? It hadn't hurt this bad in my mind. I placed my hand to my stomach and felt something sticky. I removed my hand to find it covered in half dried blood. Blood? Why would there be blood? I know I bled mentally, but it shouldn't show up in the physical world... Maybe it was the Ring. The dangling ornaments were quite sharp and could easily have punctured my skin. But the tips weren't covered in blood. There WAS blood on the Sennen Ring, but you could tell it wasn't the one that caused the damage.

I sat stood up with some difficulty, and found the bed sheets drenched with my blood. Panic washed over me. What would the people here think if they saw this much blood? Would they move me into a padded cell, thinking I've become suicidal? I'd love to wash the blood out, but since the sheets are completely white...they'd still notice. And what if they come in to check up on me and see that my stomach was pratically ripped open? What am I going to tell them? Oh yes, when I went back into my room in my head I found my yami and he started stabbing me. They'd think I was insane! ...not that they don't think so anyhow...

'Ryou? What's wrong?' A voice called out in my head.

'B-Bakura-sama! W-What do you m-mean?'

'I can feel your distress! What's wrong, are you alright?' What? He was worried?

'I-I'm fine, Bakura-sama.'

'Don't hide it from me Hikari...' his voice was stern.

'Bakura-sama...please, can you just leave me alone? I..I'm in enough trouble as it is!'

'Ryou...'

Anger boiled in my blood. I really didn't want to talk about it! He should know, since he's the one who did this to me! Why couldn't he just leave me alone?

'Please! Just leave me be! It's bad enough you hurt in your soul room. But it's bad enough that it shows up in my physical form too!'

'Ryou what are you tal-' I cut him off by closing the link. I REALLY didn't need his lies right now. Of course he knew! He's the one that hurt me, he should know what happened!

The heavy doors that locked me in opened up. I quickly covered the blood stained sheets with a blanket and turned around. I heard the nurse place the food tray on the table and head out the door. The strange thing was...she didn't bother to close the door. I was about to turn around when I heard more footsteps.

"Bakura, Ryou?" the person asked. I stayed silent. "You have two visitors."

Visitors? What? Who knew of me being here? I'm sure Bakura-sama would never tell anyone...aside from Malik and Marik. I heard the employee talk to my visitors before closing the door behind. Did I want to turn around and show them what Bakura had done?

"Ryou?" a small voice called out.

"Yuugi?" I swirled around. Out of all the people, Bakura told THEM? I saw Yami's eyes widen as his eyes were fixed on my wound. I quickly crossed my arms to block it.

"Ryou..What was that?" Yami asked.

"It's uh...It's nothing. Really,"

"Ryou, Let me see," Yuugi said as he removed my arms. "Ryou... What happened?"

How was I going to explain? I didn't want to tell them that my own yami did this to me. "I...uh..."

Yuugi snatched my Senned Ring. He looked over it, "You didn't sleep with this on did you?"

"Eh...Yes. Quite stupid of me really," I answered quickly. It was a good enough excuse. "So...Why did you come here?"

"Bakura told us that you were sent here," Yuugi said, "We came to check up on you. To see if everything is alright."

"Oh. I'm fine really. Just a bit lonely at times,"

"Well that's good...except the lonely part.."

Yami walked up towards me and placed something in my hands. "Call us if you need anything, or if you get too lonely,"

I looked down and saw that Yami had given me a small cellphone. "How did you get this past security?"

"I told them that I was expecting a call from Kaiba. At first they wouldn't let me in with it, but then I said that Kaiba would be furious if I didn't reply. And since Kaiba's all high and mighty in the buisness world...they let me in." he explained, "Just don't get caught with it."

I nodded and stuck it under the table. I had found a little ledge under it earlier.

Yuugi turned back to me, "Ryou, you should really tell the doctor about that wound," he said worriedly, "It could become infected."

"I-I guess..."

"Yuugi, we have to go. Lunch break is almost over."

"Alright. We'll tell the doctor to check up on your cut later on," Yuugi said as Yami led him out the door.

Now I was left alone again. I was always alone. This time, I didn't even have Bakura-sama with me. I crawled into a corner and stared at the walls. I didn't feel like eating lunch today...

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The door to the room opened up for the second time today. That man, Dr. Kihatensu, walked in. He walked towards the corner of the room, where I sat.

"Ryou? Your friends told me that you had a bad injury, caused by that pendant you have," I nodded, "Do you mind if I check on it? I may be able to help."

I shook my head harshly. I still don't trust him. I don't trust anybody right now. And what if he finds that it wasn't the Senned Ring that caused the wound? He's a doctor! Surely he would notice. I backed up slightly.

The doctor frowned, "You don't trust me do you?" I shook my head slowly, "Well at least let me see that ring pendant of yours."

I hesitantly pulled the blood covered Sennen Ring off and handed it to the doctor. He observed the object before quickly putting it in his coat pocket. My eyes widened. What does he think he's doing? That's mine!

"I'm sorry Ryou, but I have to confiscate this item. It may do you more harm in the future," he said quickly and walked out of the room.

I sat there on the floor, not breathing. They just took away my Ring! Now I have no one! At least with the Ring I could talk to Bakura-sama. But...now there's nothing. I brought my knees under my chin. I'm alone now. I felt safer when I had the Ring on, knowing that I could call on Bakura-sama whenever I was in trouble. Tears threatened to spill from my eyes. I felt so vulnerable now...

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A/N: Author's notes have been removed due to ff.net's notice about chat dialogue being used in this.. x.x oy.. gomen-nasai!