The Time Between
A Lupin/ Tonks Fanfiction
As always, theses characters, plots, settings, and most everything else belongs to J.K. Rowlings.
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Chapter V: At it again
It had been a long time since Tonks had felt the weight of a man pressed against her body. The warmth, the heat, his scent, it was all very intoxicating. Their lips pressed hard against the other's, tongues licking, his kisses skimming her nose, cheeks and finally, sucking at her neck. With this new erogenous zone, Tonks moaned, deliriously floating in a cloud of sexual desire.
As soon as she released this guttural moan, she felt Remus's body lift slightly from hers, a cool draft wafting between them. Her heavy eyelids opening, "Don't stop." She whispered, voice dripping with need.
His brow knotted; face tight with confusion, "We can't." He answered, pulling himself upright, Tonks still splayed out in front of him like a retiring Venus and he, kneeling between her legs.
"Is something wrong?" She reached out, laying a hand on his thigh and he shuttered.
"You don't understand," his pale hazel eyes penetrating her soul, "This isn't right."
"What?" Her mind and her heart raced.
It was as if her lover had disappeared and the pleasant, but distant Professor Lupin was sitting next to her again. "I am fifteen years old than you, Nymphadora. I'm unemployed, I have very little money, and I'm shunned by nearly everyone in the wizarding world." His voice grew irritated, "For goodness sakes, I have lycanthropy! And that's never going to change. I enjoy our friendship and I don't want to ruin because we have a quick bang."
Tonks was in shock and quickly flung herself upright on the sofa, approximately two inches away from Lupin's nose. "Number one, Remus, I'm not the kind of girl that has a 'quick bang'. I haven't had sex in over a year and that was with a guy that I'd dated for seven months. And as much as you want to get in my knickers, you aren't going to today and certainly not until we're in a committed, stable relationship!"
Lupin couldn't look her in the eye, he felt so horrible for insinuating that she was 'that kind of girl'. She was beautiful and witty, how was he supposed to know any better?
"Secondly, Professor," Tonks said very snidely, "I don't give a wit about you being unemployed or poor. I've thought you were brilliant since the day I met you. And have I ever said one word about your patched robes or your ratty shoes? No! Because I don't care. And finally," Tonks asserted, harshly taking hold of his shoulders and giving him a little shake, "I know you are a werewolf! I've been at Grimmald Place the nights when you transformed with Snuffles."
Now tears welled in her eyes and she inwardly cursed herself for getting emotion for the second time in one day, "I slept in the room next door, Remus. I heard you howl at the moon and the next morning, I heard Sirius talking to you; holding you up while you puked your guts out over that damned wolfsbane!"
Lupin couldn't look her in the eye. He was so ashamed; ashamed of his poverty, his age, his illness, but most of all, ashamed that he doubted Tonks' passion.
"Damn it, Remus, don't you see! I've been falling in love with you for the last eight months!"
His eyes met hers with surprise.
"I'm a stupid git for not realizing it earlier and yeah, I admit it, I was denying it to myself and this is a horrible time to spring something on you like this, and I shouldn't have forced-"
"No, no," he shook his head and sighed, "Please stop. This has nothing to do with you; it has to do with me."
Tonks wiped her eyes and looked at him, voice passionate, "I don't care about any of it. I'm not going to let you walk out of here! I'm not going to let you walk out on me!"
"Oh gods," this time it was Remus that flung himself around Tonks, "I'm sorry, Nymphadora. I'm sorry!" He pleaded, loving stroking her head as she leaned against his shoulder. "Shh, shh," he quieted her little sobs, "Shhh... I'm not going any where. I'm right here and I'm staying right here."
"Everything is just so fucked up right now- Sirius, Voldemort, Harry; they're all just so fucked up!"
Remus rocked her back and forth. "I know. I'm sorry that I freaked out on you; I'm so sorry. It's just very difficult for me to believe that a beautiful, wonderful woman such as you could actually be falling for me. I promise, I'm not going anywhere."
Tonks released another little sob. "If you'd stop being so self pitying you probably realize that there are a lot of girls out there that think you're a fine little parcel, but your head's so far up your arse most of the time or in one of your dusty old books that you don't ever realize it when they're flirting with you."
Remus laughed, and held Tonks upward, looking deep into her watery eyes, "You have such a way with words, Nymphadora. I think that's why I love you most."
Tonks laughed and sob simultaneously, "I hate you Remus. You're so wretched for making me like you!"
Remus laughed again slightly, "I think you're quite wretched yourself sometimes for making me want more than I deserve."
"Perhaps it's time you started thinking that you deserve more from others."
"Maybe it is," he answered thoughtfully.
There was an awkward silence between them before Remus finally spoke, "So I suppose you're not much in the mood for more kissing right now?"
Tonks rolled her swollen eyes, "Men! Do you ever think about anything else beside sex?"
"Umm...Where you're concerned, not really," Remus mused.
Tonks jaw nearly hit the floor, "Remus!"
Lupin picked a heavy spell book off the coffee table and began flipping through it, his cheeks a bit rosy, "Well, you asked."
Tonks was feeling better now and a bit puckish after the emotional rollercoaster ride Lupin had just put here through, "Have you ever fantasized about me?"
Remus still didn't make eye contact, but his lips curled up a little, "Yes, but I'm not sure that's any of your business."
"I'd have to disagree with you Remus." Tonks said, crossing her arms, "If I'm a part of your fantasies, I think I should know about them- in detail. Sooo??? What were we doing?"
Remus closed the book in his lap, obviously Tonks was enjoying watching him squirm. Thus, there was only one solution, reverse psychology, "Making love."
Just hearing him say the words sent tidal waves through her neurological system. She guessed his game, and it only provoked her, "What position?"
Heavy breathing, "Well, um..." Remus stroked his chin, "I suppose my favorite one would be--- oh, I can't do this!" His face burnt red.
"After the crap you just put me through, you owe me! Now fess up!" Tonks prodded, smile broad.
Remus sighed, "Alright, my favorite, although there have been many, would be you on top."
Tonks giggled, "Really? That's not so bizarre."
Remus raised an eyebrow, "What did you think I was going to say?"
"I don't know, doggy style or perhaps you being tied up. You strike me as someone that would like a little domination."
Lupin's eyes nearly popped out of his head, "Have you done those things?" His erection was growing rock hard beneath the large volume of 'Prof. Popagranite's Poisonous Potions' text book.
Her smile was larger than a Cheshire cat's, "Well yeah, I mean, nothing too wild, but that's pretty normal. I'll try about anything once."
Remus shook his head in disbelief, "I hope I don't disappoint you, I've not had the opportunity to be that adventurous."
"Oh, Remus, couples aren't good lovers because they use fancy positions and all that rubbish like muggle magazines spout out. It's good because both people communicate their needs; what they like and what they don't like. And I'm sure when that time comes for us," Tonks rubbed his arm, her voice calm, "we'll know each other well enough not to be afraid or embarrassed to talk about those things."
Lupin nodded silently and then quietly added, "This feels so right, talking about sex with you." Then taking her hand, hazel eyes sparkling; tired face filled with happy expectation, "when we're ready, I think it will be one of the happiest moments in my life."
"Thank you," Tonks replied, touched at his words.
Remus smiled, "It was you that said I should start setting higher expectations for myself."
The petit auror reflected his smile in her own, "So, I did, Remus. So, I did."
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One more chapter coming. Please stay tuned! ~Lyra
A Lupin/ Tonks Fanfiction
As always, theses characters, plots, settings, and most everything else belongs to J.K. Rowlings.
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Chapter V: At it again
It had been a long time since Tonks had felt the weight of a man pressed against her body. The warmth, the heat, his scent, it was all very intoxicating. Their lips pressed hard against the other's, tongues licking, his kisses skimming her nose, cheeks and finally, sucking at her neck. With this new erogenous zone, Tonks moaned, deliriously floating in a cloud of sexual desire.
As soon as she released this guttural moan, she felt Remus's body lift slightly from hers, a cool draft wafting between them. Her heavy eyelids opening, "Don't stop." She whispered, voice dripping with need.
His brow knotted; face tight with confusion, "We can't." He answered, pulling himself upright, Tonks still splayed out in front of him like a retiring Venus and he, kneeling between her legs.
"Is something wrong?" She reached out, laying a hand on his thigh and he shuttered.
"You don't understand," his pale hazel eyes penetrating her soul, "This isn't right."
"What?" Her mind and her heart raced.
It was as if her lover had disappeared and the pleasant, but distant Professor Lupin was sitting next to her again. "I am fifteen years old than you, Nymphadora. I'm unemployed, I have very little money, and I'm shunned by nearly everyone in the wizarding world." His voice grew irritated, "For goodness sakes, I have lycanthropy! And that's never going to change. I enjoy our friendship and I don't want to ruin because we have a quick bang."
Tonks was in shock and quickly flung herself upright on the sofa, approximately two inches away from Lupin's nose. "Number one, Remus, I'm not the kind of girl that has a 'quick bang'. I haven't had sex in over a year and that was with a guy that I'd dated for seven months. And as much as you want to get in my knickers, you aren't going to today and certainly not until we're in a committed, stable relationship!"
Lupin couldn't look her in the eye, he felt so horrible for insinuating that she was 'that kind of girl'. She was beautiful and witty, how was he supposed to know any better?
"Secondly, Professor," Tonks said very snidely, "I don't give a wit about you being unemployed or poor. I've thought you were brilliant since the day I met you. And have I ever said one word about your patched robes or your ratty shoes? No! Because I don't care. And finally," Tonks asserted, harshly taking hold of his shoulders and giving him a little shake, "I know you are a werewolf! I've been at Grimmald Place the nights when you transformed with Snuffles."
Now tears welled in her eyes and she inwardly cursed herself for getting emotion for the second time in one day, "I slept in the room next door, Remus. I heard you howl at the moon and the next morning, I heard Sirius talking to you; holding you up while you puked your guts out over that damned wolfsbane!"
Lupin couldn't look her in the eye. He was so ashamed; ashamed of his poverty, his age, his illness, but most of all, ashamed that he doubted Tonks' passion.
"Damn it, Remus, don't you see! I've been falling in love with you for the last eight months!"
His eyes met hers with surprise.
"I'm a stupid git for not realizing it earlier and yeah, I admit it, I was denying it to myself and this is a horrible time to spring something on you like this, and I shouldn't have forced-"
"No, no," he shook his head and sighed, "Please stop. This has nothing to do with you; it has to do with me."
Tonks wiped her eyes and looked at him, voice passionate, "I don't care about any of it. I'm not going to let you walk out of here! I'm not going to let you walk out on me!"
"Oh gods," this time it was Remus that flung himself around Tonks, "I'm sorry, Nymphadora. I'm sorry!" He pleaded, loving stroking her head as she leaned against his shoulder. "Shh, shh," he quieted her little sobs, "Shhh... I'm not going any where. I'm right here and I'm staying right here."
"Everything is just so fucked up right now- Sirius, Voldemort, Harry; they're all just so fucked up!"
Remus rocked her back and forth. "I know. I'm sorry that I freaked out on you; I'm so sorry. It's just very difficult for me to believe that a beautiful, wonderful woman such as you could actually be falling for me. I promise, I'm not going anywhere."
Tonks released another little sob. "If you'd stop being so self pitying you probably realize that there are a lot of girls out there that think you're a fine little parcel, but your head's so far up your arse most of the time or in one of your dusty old books that you don't ever realize it when they're flirting with you."
Remus laughed, and held Tonks upward, looking deep into her watery eyes, "You have such a way with words, Nymphadora. I think that's why I love you most."
Tonks laughed and sob simultaneously, "I hate you Remus. You're so wretched for making me like you!"
Remus laughed again slightly, "I think you're quite wretched yourself sometimes for making me want more than I deserve."
"Perhaps it's time you started thinking that you deserve more from others."
"Maybe it is," he answered thoughtfully.
There was an awkward silence between them before Remus finally spoke, "So I suppose you're not much in the mood for more kissing right now?"
Tonks rolled her swollen eyes, "Men! Do you ever think about anything else beside sex?"
"Umm...Where you're concerned, not really," Remus mused.
Tonks jaw nearly hit the floor, "Remus!"
Lupin picked a heavy spell book off the coffee table and began flipping through it, his cheeks a bit rosy, "Well, you asked."
Tonks was feeling better now and a bit puckish after the emotional rollercoaster ride Lupin had just put here through, "Have you ever fantasized about me?"
Remus still didn't make eye contact, but his lips curled up a little, "Yes, but I'm not sure that's any of your business."
"I'd have to disagree with you Remus." Tonks said, crossing her arms, "If I'm a part of your fantasies, I think I should know about them- in detail. Sooo??? What were we doing?"
Remus closed the book in his lap, obviously Tonks was enjoying watching him squirm. Thus, there was only one solution, reverse psychology, "Making love."
Just hearing him say the words sent tidal waves through her neurological system. She guessed his game, and it only provoked her, "What position?"
Heavy breathing, "Well, um..." Remus stroked his chin, "I suppose my favorite one would be--- oh, I can't do this!" His face burnt red.
"After the crap you just put me through, you owe me! Now fess up!" Tonks prodded, smile broad.
Remus sighed, "Alright, my favorite, although there have been many, would be you on top."
Tonks giggled, "Really? That's not so bizarre."
Remus raised an eyebrow, "What did you think I was going to say?"
"I don't know, doggy style or perhaps you being tied up. You strike me as someone that would like a little domination."
Lupin's eyes nearly popped out of his head, "Have you done those things?" His erection was growing rock hard beneath the large volume of 'Prof. Popagranite's Poisonous Potions' text book.
Her smile was larger than a Cheshire cat's, "Well yeah, I mean, nothing too wild, but that's pretty normal. I'll try about anything once."
Remus shook his head in disbelief, "I hope I don't disappoint you, I've not had the opportunity to be that adventurous."
"Oh, Remus, couples aren't good lovers because they use fancy positions and all that rubbish like muggle magazines spout out. It's good because both people communicate their needs; what they like and what they don't like. And I'm sure when that time comes for us," Tonks rubbed his arm, her voice calm, "we'll know each other well enough not to be afraid or embarrassed to talk about those things."
Lupin nodded silently and then quietly added, "This feels so right, talking about sex with you." Then taking her hand, hazel eyes sparkling; tired face filled with happy expectation, "when we're ready, I think it will be one of the happiest moments in my life."
"Thank you," Tonks replied, touched at his words.
Remus smiled, "It was you that said I should start setting higher expectations for myself."
The petit auror reflected his smile in her own, "So, I did, Remus. So, I did."
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One more chapter coming. Please stay tuned! ~Lyra